#wanna be in. and then they'll complain about it endlessly

[knaveofmogadore]

Kfkdks

#messages from knave #im making breakfast and im gonna list my observations from three years of weird living situations #younger siblings of big age gaps will see most interactions as a form of soft combat until trained out of it #but when actual clmbat happens they're used to not having any sway so they don't actually know how to act in arguments #siblings with codependent relationships have their own internal langauge that they apply to others. not sure if they realize they do it #but they'll hold you to the same rules they've mentally created for each other without explaining them #siblings of ALL stripes will approach situations with a set idea of how communication works. and even if it's not a logical way to communica #they'll expect you to also communicate in that way. and if you can't or refuse they'll shut down and communication stalls completely because #they can't fathom doing it any other way except the way they and their siblings socialized each other to do it #siblings with adversarial relationships don't take outside advice and will take attempts to give advice as manipulative. not their fault #oldest siblings are the most conflict averse people on the planet. oldest sinlings say #'is anyone gonna balloon this situation out of proportion by avoiding it for as long as possible' and not wait for an answer #siblings who were regularly appointed as hall monitors will see any interaction with you as transactional #a hallmark of a dysfunctional sibljng relationship is someone who thinks telling you NO is worse than going through a situation they do not #wanna be in. and then they'll complain about it endlessly #and then they'll be like 'i don't want favours from my parents because they'll hold it over me' and never make the connection on their own #people cannot anticipate your needs with their minds. they are sometimes going to ask you to be a part of things you don't wanna #you're NEVER gonna be able to live in a world where people will stop asking you to be a part of things that's not feasible #had one say once 'people should just know not to ask me along for plans I can't get to people should know not to invite me' #and you know dude that's just now how stuff works. there's a difference between 'x cant drive so they can't help me move my dresser' and #'i know xs work schedule so i shouldnt infomr them of group plansnon the off chance they could make it so they don't feel left out' #people with hyper competitive siblings can't fathom that other people won't know how to do stuff. i don't just mean athletes but siblings #with that scarcity mindsetnin general like they can't handle people not having the same knowledge base they have. it's a survival thing #and NO having a life of suffering doesn't make you correct all the time has literally anyone else watched heathers #youngest siblings always have the most deranged dating stories and the oldest in a set of age gap siblings always has the WORST taste in men #< that's directed at my sister and no one else that's a personal diss not a real observation #only children have one thing. theyre SUPER weird about splitting the grocery bill #food is NOT communal to only children I've learned firsthand. Also they'll be perfectly fine sharing anything else BUT food usually #weed. loans. bathroom supplies. dishes. ect. but NOT food #meanwhile sibljngs are a little TOO comfortable chowing down on stuff they didn't buy. bad roommates are bad roommates

[jester089]

Chlorine

This is something rather new. To me and this tumblr. We'll see how it goes.

I just wanna try writing something for the backrooms as it's a really cool concept and I want take a shot at it.

It's been a boring day. You're casually walking down a road, occasional cars passing by. By normal standards it's a lovely day out , sunny, warm bordering on hot, slight breeze.

Despite that you feel, weird. Not bad weird, but definitely not good weird. You've been feeling really lonely today. Must be something you ate. You spot a park not far ahead, once again not a single person insight.

You decide to take a pit stop and sit down in one of the many benches there. You sit down the back of the bench giving way before you can react.

~~~~~

You hit the ground harder then expected from that short a fall then sit and rub your temples. It smells like chlorine now... The ground is cold, and porcelain? You open you eyes to see you're in a public pool!

You stand up legs slightly wobbly, you look up to a completely normal roof. No holes or anything... How did... Where is...

"Ok, ok. Don't freak out, think logically. I was just in a public park, on a sunny day. It was a quiet and boring. I went to sit in a bench then the back broke, I think. I felt like I was falling, and now I'm here...

Did I knock myself unconscious then get kidnapped? Why would I be in a pool then?! Fuck it I'll find out later."

You grab your phone, choose a direction, and start walking.

~~~~~

Been a while now, around an hour give or take a little. By now you've started recording all this on your phone cause it's weird, and talking to the recording makes you feel a little less crazy.

"Nothing but seemingly endless pools, water sources that never run out, endlessly deep pools, endlessly tall roofs. It doesn't make sense.

A place like this shouldn't be possible, and even if it is it would cost a fortune."

You peak into yet another small tiled hole in the wall that goes farther then the light does. This weird architecture and the silence accompanied by nothing but your footsteps and the water shifting around you are starting to drive you crazy.

~~~~~

After walking for a while longer you're forced onto a single path, in the water. It's around waist deep and looks clean enough. You've kept out of the water so far but, not much choice now.

You take off your shoes and socks, roll up your pants as far as they'll go, then hop in being careful to keep your shoes and phone in your hands and above the water.

You trudge through the water eventually walking into a giant room with tall ceilings and natural light beaming in! You climb out of the water and a breather before looking up at the windows. A way out.

Most are out of reach but one has some stairs leading to it. Weird sure but you aren't about to complain. You give yourself a little more time to breath, collect yourself, and dry off.

~~~~~

After taking some time to relax while having some music play out of your phone you check to see if your feet are dry. Once you're sure they are you put your socks and shoes back on then unroll your pants.

Standing up you start recording again. You flip the camera so it's facing you and talk to it.

"Well this a, weird experience. Glad it's over if I'm being honest. I was starting to worry that I wasn't ever gonna get out.

To my friends that are probably watching this in the future, we should come back as a group and explore this place more. It was a little scary, but this place is cool."

You do a little peace sign and a silly face then shut off the recording. Once you're phone is safely in your pocket you walk over to the staircase leading up to the window.

The staircase is long and covered in water but nothing you haven't dealt with yet. You carefully climb them staying away from the un-guard railed edge.

Peering outside your once again met by a view that shouldn't be possible. This building, this pool house, is floating?

You're in a a giant, floating not physically possible building! A building that is floating in an endless sky speckled with clouds!!!

And the sky looks fake! Nothing is moving or changing and it's weird looking. Kind of like a sky png from an old game. The sunlight isn't even coming from anything...

You take a surprised step back almost falling off the stairs. You stare out at the fake sky while your breathing gets progressively faster. You shakily sit down on the stairs and do your best to calm down.

After recovering from the initial shock you stand up and walk back over to the windowless window frame. You plant a hand on the wall and carefully lean over the edge slightly to look straight down just to find more empty png sky.

You shakily take a step back and sit back down on the tiled stairs, thinking about what the fuck is going on. And how, you probably aren't going to get out of this insane place.

"Where am-... How did-... This feels like a weird dream, mixed with the feeling of being here before... Maybe if I keep walking I'll find some food. Then I'll be able to survive till someone else comes along...

No, no. Don't be dumb. Be realistic. You're in a floating endless public pool that is in a equally endless sky that looks fake. Things haven't been following normal laws of the universe.

Their probably isn't anyone else in here with me. I don't even know if there's an exit. I just gotta... I just gotta stay calm. Maybe I'll get lucky."

You take a deep breath then check your phone. It's got around half it's battery left and you don't have a way to charge it, so you power it down.

You take just a little more time to collect yourself before standing up and getting ready to start moving again. You peak out the window one more time then walk away.

(I'm kinda proud of this one tbh. So I was probably going to continue this and turn it into a story. I have an idea of where to take it too. Would yall like that or nah?)

[kiss-this]

I've been listening to Rush! on repeat for the last two days (via youtube because Amazon chose this particular deliver to suck) and it all still feels new, so I may change my mind on a bunch of things. Anyway, so far, this is what I think.

This album actually better than what I thought, not because my expectations where low for some reason but simply because a) this is the first true test in front of an international audience for the band, and I bet they've been under a lot of pressure thanks to all those booooring "true rock fans" just waiting for them to make a mistake, plus all those booooring they've_gone_to_america_they've_lost_themselves_fans just waiting to be proven right (yeah, you wish). Not to mention all the professional music critics waiting to decide if they're trash or pass. Also, I don't think it's easy writing new music while travelling all around the world, but maybe it's just me having the ability to focus of a slug. The moment they have time to dedicate only to the creative process they'll do even better. This is to say their true masterpiece has yet to come. Good for us :)

About the new music now.

First of all I need to say I really appreciate the little Bowie, Beatles, Smith, Michael Jackson references scattered here and there, it was fun coming across them.

Also, they talk a lot about the downside of being famous. I noticed this came as a (possibly bad) surprise for some fans. Why? Måneskin write about their life and experiences since the beginning. In the last two years they literally had no other experience than becoming famous and learning to deal with it. So of course this is a huge part of what Damiano writes about right now, especially since he's been affected by fame not always in a good way.

With that said, it truly starts with a bang. Own My Mind looked like the kind of song I enjoy listening for three or four times and then become forgettable. I was so wrong! It's one of my favorite and I'm as far from being tired of it as I could be. Similar to Don't Wanna Sleep in this regard. Both of them are going to bring whole stadiums down during live gigs and I'm desperately looking forward to it.

Now beware, very unpopular opinion ahead. The song I like less so far is If Not For You. Don't beat me too hard ^^', please? It's just that I find it too sappy, a little boring and there's also that little backing vocals giving romantic Italian comedy of the 70's vibe which I find funny. Sort of anticlimatic, giving the purpose of the song.

Timezone, on the other hand, gives RHCP/Aerosmith vibes and I could listen to it endlessly and still wanting more.

The most surprising of surprises? Bla Bla Bla. I didn't like it at first but now... It's fun, it's silly and puts me in good mood. More importantly, it's punkish and I love it. Same goes for Kool Kids, but this one we knew already and I liked it since before.

Feel and Read your Diary bring the horny back (when did it even leave?) and I am not complaining. At all. Also, the bass?? The guitar?? They bring quality even in the songs meant to be undemanding.

On the italian trio now. I loved La Fine since it first came out and I still do but among those three is the one I like less. Mark Chapman and Il Dono della Vita are both candidate to become my favourite of the whole album. The first is dark, and I understand that for a short time Damiano had a stalker too, right? This makes it even more of a punch in the gut. Also, I don't want to start anything but to all the people who doubted it could be a song the glorifies a criminal... come. on. which band have you been a fan of for the last few years??

Il Dono della Vita has some awesome lyrics, I know I'll love it even more, the more I listen to it. It's a masterpiece and I also loved the little Icarus reference at the beginning. And if they play it live at Sanremo? With the orchestra?? Omg I may not survive. Yes, it's true, Damiano writes better in italian, he already explained why, and why he's writing more in english. It's his choice, he's a big boy, so I wont go there again.

#my many cents #Rush! #måneskin

[uppuzs]

this has probably been said millions of times but I will say it again.

it's so sad when content creators don't feel the same joy and motivation to create anymore, and it's even more sad when i see the people i follow admit that they feel like they want to quit and leave too. yes, this is a hobby and we should make the things we love without worrying about how many numbers it gets, but at the same time we go through the process of making our content so it can be looked at by other people! content creators are always told how we should feel about our content, but in reality we really do want the attention! we want for our edits/gifs/fanarts/colorings/fics, to be reblogged endlessly and shared, we love reading the comments in the tags, we love to see the numbers on our content and feel proud that we can make beautiful work that people enjoy! i barely started to learn how to make gifs recently, and the process to finding the right scenes, editing them, it's so time consuming. it makes me appreciate gif creators even more because of that process.

anyways, the point is content creators love seeing their works get reblogged. non content creators can call us whiney and dramatic and call out how much we complain, but they'll never understand. if we didn't want our work to be shared then we wouldn't have started to create to begin with! content creators there is NOTHING wrong with wanting those reblog numbers! don't let anybody tell you otherwise! non content creators smash that REBLOG button because that's the only way our content can get around on this hell site! you like our work? then SHARE IT!

more and more content creators end up leaving, and then people start questioning where they all go, and it's because people don't wanna share the content they so desperately want! so if you want majority of us to stick around then REBLOG!!!! we've said millions of times the like button give us nothing, so please just REBLOG!

#can i be anymore clear? #REBLOG REBLOG REBLOG #it's just as easy as hitting the like button #honestly takes a second #fellow content creators i hope you find comfort in my words #i love you guys #thank you for sharing your amazing works #please continue to share #please use my tracking tag too!!! #i will happily reblog your works!!!

[kierancampire]

For the first time the girls upset me so much i had to just shut myself away from them for a bit. They do kinda annoy me a bit in the kitchen, like, if i am in the kitchen they'll scream at me cause they want to go on the counter and endlessly jump/attempt to jump up there, and no matter how much i remove them or tell them no, they both do it endlessly the entire time I'm in the kitchen. And cause i was prepping some pork today which is intensive anyway and would mean i couldn't touch them, i already was thinking of shutting them out of the kitchen anyway

But while i was in the shower, they jumped onto the counter then climbed behind my sink to get to the window, and i dunno if while up there someone walked by and scared them, if a cactus hurt them and they freaked out, or if they began fighting, but eitherway, yeah, they knocked over 2 of my plants, completely destroyed one cactus, and spilt soil everywhere in my kitchen

Okay one thing i wanna say after something Jayne said, i might complain about things the girls do but it doesn't mean i want to get rid of them, and i know they are kittens, kittens do these things, it's what i signed up for. But I'm just venting frustrations, that's all, i can't stress that enough, i can handle them, i adore them both, i wanted this, i play with them all the time, it just me venting when they do frustrating things. But yes, i saw this and they both came into the kitchen with me, and i just had to pick them up and shut them out as i just couldn't be around them for a moment. I hate being angry at them, i hate shutting them away from me, i hate that they didn't mean it but I'm still mad, and i hate that it's made me mad. But i have spent over 3 weeks telling them not to get onto the counter, and this was partially why, so it's frustrating it happened

I honestly cannot wait until Coraline *hopefully* reaches the age where she listens a bit, as I've not spoken about it, but there has been at least 2-3 instances every single day where Coraline does something, i tell her no, she doesn't stop trying to do the thing, then we're just stuck in that loop until she gives up or moves onto something else. Like, words online don't get across how literally constant it is, and how it is literally every day, i love her but it's like she's constantly trying to hurt herself intentionally and me saying no makes her want to do it more. And I'm not saying she did this, as Ember coulda done it, but over 3 weeks of telling Coraline off and her literally never listening not only is grinding, but i hate that i just am constantly telling her off as it makes me feel like a dick, but as always, it's for her safety and that's what makes it so frustrating when she refuses to listen

Like, i have had Roxy who could be bad with food, but Coraline is on another level. If i told Roxy no once, she listened, but take yesterday for instance, i set Coraline down 4 times and even genuinely raised my voice at her in anger, she stopped for literally less than 30 seconds before going for my food again. And again, Roxy would just sit in one place and try to swipe it, but Coraline? She literally circles my plate, she jumps to jump over my arm and onto my plate, she climbs on me to try from a higher vantage. So like, not only am i constantly setting her on the floor repeatedly and telling her no repeatedly while eating, but my arm literally ends up hurting from holding it up for so long and moving it around so much as Coraline circles mey plate, climbs me, and tries jumping over me to reach my food. Nothing i do gets her to stop, we do this repeatedly yet she doesn't give up, and she is just so much worse with it than any animal i have had before. Again, just through words it is hard to get across just how bad it is, then there will be at least one other instance that day, usually 2, of Coraline trying to take her own life or destroy things, that you also have to do that same cycle with, every single time, every single day. I play with them all the time, they play with each other all the time, have loads of toys, stimulation, i just don't get why Coraline is this bad and Ember isn't

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