#value the people behind the blogs and treat your partners AND their muses with respect

[songzhong]

1, 2, 3, 11, 12, 17, 19 | ಠ_ಠ payback bishe (jk but i also genuinely wanna know)

SHIPPING MEME. 🔶🧡

1. are you open to on-the-fly shipping with your muse?

Literally all my shipping is done this way, I absolutely know no other way.

The reason why I got so many meme with @.narvvhal is because our characters IC vibed so hard it’s unreal. And they didn’t even ship ChiLi. And I was like 95% sure I would never find someone to do that particular ship that’d like *snap fingers* get me because I find that those type of very complex, adult characters and relationships (despite both Childe and Zhongli’s more childish, quirky traits, it is about a good balance between the two because mihoYo be good at making endearing characters who have layers like that) very particular to write. (Naans just really good I’m privileged to be remotely the first one to ship with them I’ll work hard to be worth the time)

I didn’t know Naans until they made their blog. Basically fell in love at first meme. I didn’t know @.nvrcmplt, one of my oldest friend and shipping partner, before my OC (@.sonderrow) fell in love, purely in interaction with no beforehand plotting, with theirs and we only started actually talking ooc as individuals (and not just “Hey who should start the starter ?” or “What type of plot do you want ?”) I didn’t know Jay @.noctuxcellus before that also happened with another OC of mine.

I’ve also shipped with muns I simply didn’t vibe with on a personal level as people for years, but were both adults and we vibed through writing, kept our talks at this and thoroughly enjoyed one another, as two healthy adults with the same hobby definitely can !

I absolutely mean when I say I am not a people person, or what I mean about being disconnected from others... enthusiasm in general, creating what I believe is a cringe image of a person who is so much more just socially awkward around people like me who doesn’t vibe with the same internet, which I’d like to avoid, and just enjoy writing together.

2. what sort of things does your muse look for in a partner?

first part here !

Talent and skills are something that greatly attract Zhongli. Talent is inherent, but skills are a result of hard work, experience and discipline. To Zhongli, there is nothing more admirable than someone who is devoted to their field. It is shown in how he treats hard workers, artists, fighters, and he always assume the best of a professional until proven the contrary.

No matter what he feels about someone’s personality traits, his admiration and attraction to devotion, passion and discipline will most likely take over. It is shown with characters who technically have very different values than him but do excel in their field with a passionate drive. He finds a certain kinship to them, a mutual respect from having himself spent millennia with the same duties, never wavering from them despite the hard choices.

3. what sort of things does your muse AVOID in a partner?

first part here !

Childishness and irrationality are two factors that Zhongli actively dislikes. They do go hand-in-hand with the previously stated dislike for ignorance and lack of self-awareness. However, there are still key differences.

Childishness come from throwing tantrums, wanting things that are impossible to have and complain about it, whine, and pushes your shallow wants on others without any warning nor consideration to both their character and current situation, all of this in a loud, noisy and overly hyperactive behavior which greatly irritates him.

Irrationality stems from doing things that make no sense, inherently. It is different from someone who poses actions that seems to make no sense, but have a meaning behind them, or someone who consciously knows that they are making the wrong choices, but are still acting so for different reasons. Pure irrationality and not wanting to work on the matter, think and self introspect is something that will very easily annoy him and make him avoid the individual.

11. how long does your muse have to know someone before they decide to ask them out?

first part here !

Despite time not being important, Zhongli still has a standard on how long he needs to know someone before deciding if he’d like to spend personal time with them. I’d say that a season or two (how very poetically put) would be needed for him to ascertain someone and then go out of their way to reach for them. This is, to me, my estimate of the time it took for the Traveler to go through the Liyue storyline, and then both of Zhongli’s personal quests, adventurers’ guild commissions and reputation assignments here and there, back and forth to Mondstatdt, all of that.

The Traveler is the best base for this since they are a close friend of Zhongli who happens to have known him for the shortest time.

Adding to all of this the technical time it would have taken for the Traveler, realistically to reach “Friendship 10″ with Zhongli, as Travelers I interact with to whom Zhongli sees as precious companions is due to them having travelled and interacted together for a pretty good amount of time. And I do consider a Traveler who has went through all of this as the bare minimum for Zhongli to reach out to spend time with them.

12. what is your muse’s love language?

previous part here ! 

Zhongli going out of his way to initiate romantic and sexual physical touches is, arguably, more significant than when a mortal would do in a relationship, as it is relatively alien to him. He does feel the warmth of physical touches or sexual arousal, but it doesn’t ring as needy as a mortal would when wanting to express affection. The resonance and existence of two souls towards one another is enough for him. However, as he decides to indulge more and more into more earnest, impulsive mortal behavior, he might just find physical affection with his partner more natural and fulfilling to do.

17. would your muse forgive their partner for cheating on them?

Yes. Zhongli is a very forgiving person. It is simply something he has learned with wisdom and patience. That as long as transactions are equal, a great many things, even those that seems unforgivable, can redeem themselves. It takes titanic force of character to forgive people... and Zhongli learned to be generous and forgive through the best friend he ever had, who even was able to forgive the ones who killed her.

19. is there someone your muse has a crush on, but who you don’t actually have a ship with?

Zhongli is not very one to do crushes. The closest I could imagine would be a reincarnated Guizhong and someone who’d play a humanoid form Azdaha (as in a body likely to Kun Jun or the thicc design I’ve seen that are based on the body Zhongli sculpted for him) ! He would definitely have something akin to a crush on them !

#wink wonk #<3 #.songzhong ( extra )

[falsewolf-a]

3, 5, 8, and 35

the be honest meme || accepting

3. What current rp trend do you hate? I've been around for quite a few trends, so that's a good question. I'm not actually sure what counts as 'current'. I suppose i'm not too fond of excess banners or graphics on posts, beyond icons of course. Or giant banners announcing that you're putting something under a read more. Seems a bit convoluted and counters the point of why things are under a read more, to me. Granted, I've used ask banners myself, but that was only when the ask box wasn't working properly, and truthfully i didn’t like it. Personal opinion on it is that it’s clunky, distracting, takes up unnecessary space, and contributes no narrative value beyond looking pretty to whatever you've written. Simple text will more than suffice for announcing things in a post.

5. Do you prefer interacting with male muses or female more? Why? I don't actually have a preference regarding interaction when it comes to male or female muses - I only judge whether i should interact with someone depending on how the character is written, and what scenarios the writer tends to portray. However, when it comes to OCs specifically, i do admittedly gravitate towards girls over boys. Not due to any fault of them being men - just bad experiences regarding the intent behind the OC's creation in other fandoms. From personal experience, female OCs don’t tend to approach my muses with less-than-pure intentions.... typically.

8. Name any three things about the rpc that bother you. Arknights RPC has not been around NEARLY long enough for me to figure out what irks me about it, specifically. We're all babies here, still figuring out how things work within our own fandom. But the rpc in general?

The amount of nsfw for the sake of writing nsfw. But that's just me, since it's a trigger of mine. If you like NSFW material, that's all well and good - i won't judge! But it is really, really crucial that i can blacklist any and all hints of it for my own mental health, and steamy-but-not-outright-sexual stuff often escapes my blacklist. Hence why i'm not around on Sundays, usually. I get really, really grouchy for a while, if it escapes my blacklist and I’m not expecting it - and no-one wants to deal with that.

The drama, dear god. The vast majority of us are adults. We really need to start acting like it. Witch hunts never bring anything good to the table. Please, communicate with each other properly and calmly, in a civil and controlled environment. And if that cannot be achieved, then hard block and don't interact.

NO IRL POLITICS IN RP. Absolutely not. Do not do that. Leave it off your dash, leave it off your blog. It is a landmine waiting to go off and will bring absolutely nothing of value to your threads. At best, it will bring strife and anxiety for your rp partners, and at worst it will instigate arguments and infighting over potential misunderstandings. It is fine to address grave or uncomfortable concepts and scenarios - as long as they are treated with the utmost gravity and respect that such topics deserve - but going out of your way to introduce IRL politics into your threads, your shenanigans, or your character is a sure-fire way to cause problems for yourself and everyone around you. Don't do it. There will be no victors, only anxiety and stress.

35. Do you read other people’s threads or do you only read your own? Yes, sometimes. If I have the energy. I can't guarantee that i'll read everything on my dash, or upkeep with every thread, but I do enjoy reading things i'm not involved in and seeing what's going on with everyone else’s muses. I often follow people for this reason, rather than for interaction's sake, since i'm interested in seeing other people’s portrayals and the scenarios they've created. Sometimes, it’s just plain fun to see other people having fun.

#magicaldreaming #⚔ ANSWERED #⚔ OOC #⚔ MEME

[pcnnydime]

I’m Leaving Tumblr.

  Dramatic? Probably, but it’s come to my attention (again, and again, and again) that a great number of people feel uncomfortable in my presence, so I’d rather the title sum up the post. You can read this and try to see things from my point of view, or you can move on with your lives. Either way, I hope this doesn’t cause much drama for anyone not involved, and I hope everyone regardless of involvement has a good day/night.

First, I apologize if this post seems robotic, but after countless anxiety attacks , multiple lost friends, and a few instances of self harm due to everything that’s been happening around me, I find myself lacking the emotional energy to put more ‘pep’ or ‘enthusiasm’ into this post. I’ve been on Tumblr since Red Thread was at its peak, however many years that may have been, and roleplaying, meeting people here, and developing characters that mean the world to me has helped me grow as a person. It brought me out of a near 2 year long depression that included an extremely abusive relationship, being left behind by all my close local friends, and a failed suicide attempt. Writing on tumblr introduced me to my best friend, many dear friends, and my current romantic partner. It’s seen me through a really tough job, two cross-country moves, and some of my worst and lowest points. But with the word ‘racist’ following me at every turn, I no longer feel welcome or supported by what was once my favorite hobby and best coping mechanism.

The reason being labelled a racist has effected me so deeply is because I come from a multi-racial home. I am half Puerto Rican, one quarter African American, and one quarter white. I have tan skin, very hispanic features, and very curly, thick hair with dark brown eyes. I don’t look white. I grew up in a rural area where I was one of very few people of color in BOTH of the schools I attended, and I’ve never lived in very diverse areas in all my 21 years. I don’t believe I was treated any differently because of it, I never had any race-specific issues in my childhood, and I’m very lucky because of that. Sure, I’ve had a few ‘playful nicknames’ but nothing that ever hurt me as much as being bullied about my height, weight, or chest size.

My Grandmother is white and my Grandfather is black - they got together in the 60′s and dealt with a great deal of prejudice and hardship due to being an interracial couple. They and my mother raised me to look past what people look like on the outside - weight, height, gender, age, race, religion - they believe, and I believe that it shouldn’t matter. People should be judged and valued or ignored based upon their personalities. In a near-perfect society, that’s how everyone would feel, but ours is far from perfect. People of color are faced with violence, hate, and even murder on a daily basis all over the world - not just in America - and by no means has it ever been my intent to diminish that, I simply am deterred by conflict because it hurts me to see. 

Now that I’ve described myself, the way I’ve been affected, and my views on race and in/equality, I will explain my experience as a “racist”. For months, I’ve been blocked, shunned, and ignored due to this. I spent MONTHS not knowing why people were blocking me, why all of a sudden people I had been writing with and even admired for their graphic and literary skill were suddenly ignoring me and treating me like I was less than a stranger.

Because no one told me.

Not until sometime around perhaps September or October, when someone was finally kind and considerate enough to step out of their comfort zone and inform me that I’d made a comment about Black Panther without thinking about my wording. On Twitter, I said something to the effect of ‘Black Panther has too much black power for me’, something along those lines. What I should have said was: Black Panther was a good movie, and I liked Killmonger as an antagonist until he began building a highly advanced army of thousands of near-superpowered warriors and devastating militaristic technology to declare war on what was clearly intended to be Caucasians as a race. At that point, I became uncomfortable because racial war of any kind isn’t something I would have paid money to see in a theatre, had I known it was going to be included. But I didn’t say that because twitter has a character limit, and I didn’t think anyone wanted to read an entire thread of my review of what was, all in all, an excellent movie.

Another individual recently followed suit and gave me a few more examples of why people believe I’m racist and discriminatory.

1. I’ve used the “n” word on multiple occasions.          This is not true. I am incredibly uncomfortable around the use of that word, in any form, even it’s reclaimed version. I don’t like it. I don’t know where or when I would have used it before, but even as someone who is African-American and has multiple African-American family members who say it ‘affectionately’ to refer to each other, I have not EVER said that word. Not as a joke, and certainly not as an insult.

2. I hold people who speak English as a secondary, third, or otherwise language to a higher standard than those who do not.

       No. If anything, it’s the opposite. I strongly admire and respect anyone who speaks more than one language, as someone who only speaks English and very broken Spanish. I formerly had an RP partner whose first language is Spanish, and is very proud of their heritage. My father, who I’m no longer in contact with due to estrangement and abandonment, primarily speaks Spanish and I had no quarrel with him because of that.      Some contradictory things you may have read can be found here and here. These are screenshots from the rules page on an old blog of mine that I would rather not explicitly name, for the sake of privacy for people who used to interact with me. In these screenshots, I say “[Does] Understand that English is not everyone’s first language. It’s okay if you have some errors with grammar or spelling, as long as you’re making the best effort that you can.” perhaps that can come off as me saying ‘you have to try really hard if you want to write with me’, but in fact, it just meant that I wanted some manner of effort to be present. I.E., if I write 2 paragraphs, at least write one in response, rather than a single sentence. Could I have worded that better? Absolutely. But since realizing that can be perceived incorrectly, I removed it from my rules page entirely to avoid offending anyone.

        In the other screenshot, I mention not tolerating anyone who is ‘cis or heterophobic’. This ties back into my ideal of not seeing people for who they are on the outside, but rather, who they are on the inside. I’ve had great friendships with people who were either cisgendered, heterosexual, or both, and it upsets me to see all the jokes about ‘down with cishets’ and the hate that the LGBT+ community sends their way. I understand that being a ‘cishet’ doesn’t put them in any ‘legitimate’ danger like being LGBT+ does, but it doesn’t feel good to be judged for being LGBT+, so it doesn’t seem right to judge ANYONE based on sexuality or gender without personal experience. If someone has been repeatedly hurt, offended, or otherwise wronged by individuals of those designation, I understand, but mob mentalities frighten me. 

I’ve apologized for these accusations, and explained my reasoning and my ‘side’ behind them, and there’s one last thing I’d like to address. My being perceived as acting like a victim. This, I can’t contest. Perhaps I have been overly dramatic over this hole thing. Roleplay is a hobby, at the end of the day, and while it may not be a great one, I do have a life outside of Tumblr and Twitter. What I don’t have, however, is friends. My only friends are miles and miles away, and they’re few and far between. The ones I did have began telling me I was a racist, to me, seemingly out of nowhere. I had no clue when these things began to spread because again, I wasn’t confronted. I’ve lost two people I consider to be good friends, and I’ve been doing my best to keep to myself ever since. I stopped reaching out, out of fear that people would find me obnoxious or abrasive, not knowing how far my reputation had spread. The absolute last thing I wanted was to hurt anyone, so when I vented to my friends I asked them not to make a big deal out of it. I didn’t want them with the label as well. I didn’t want to see them ostracized, or to be the reason they lost a hobby they enjoyed. When one of them went against my wishes and said something on their blog, it was deemed ‘public drama that didn’t belong on the dash’ and I was TERRIFIED that they would end up losing the chance to interact with others. Thankfully they didn’t, but that’s the example I have. No, something like that didn’t necessarily belong on the dash, but they were simply trying to look out for me while watching me have an anxiety attack and contemplate dropping all of my muses and completely deleting all social media. I’ve moved twitters multiple times due to trust issues this whole ordeal has caused for my own mental health. I’ve hidden behind locked accounts because the thought of people who are triggered by public drama having to see something of this scale was at the forefront of my mind. In short, if it seemed as though I was playing the part of a victim, it’s because I have, for months, been confused and hurt without understanding what was going on. When I tried to move past it and remedy my mistakes, I was pushed away and hurt even more by people I called friends.

To sum the entirety of this long post up, I’m upset. Far more upset than perhaps I’ve conveyed here, because I’m doing my best to remain logical and fair. I understand why anyone who has heard these things about me would block me and would want to avoid contact - I wouldn’t want to interact with a racist either. But I’m not a racist. I’m not judgemental. I’m open-minded to a fault, it seems, and my ideal of perfect equality is unrealistic in the world we live in full of murder and segregation. If anyone would like to talk to me in more detail about anything they’ve read here, they may do so at my open twitter which is solely for responding to inquiries about my reputation, my tumblr blog here, which will no longer be active, or my personal discord, which is mad dog!#6346 .

There are likely many issues I forgot to address, or simply don’t know about, but I’d like to thank anyone who read this far. Your attention means more to me than I can express.

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