a random starter that was promised forever ago for @bokketo | clint
Peggy walked along the hallways of SHIELD HQ looking for one agent in particular. Since she was given most of the command over the Avengers Initiative, she made it her personal mission to get to know each of her team members, well, personally. seeing how she practically raised one, trained with another, and was given the title of Cap’s best girl, she had a few more to get to know. Except well, one was from Asgard and the other was in hiding. So that only left the one and only: Clint Barton, code name Hawkeye. She knew what it said in his file. She knew what it said in all of the files but that didn’t stop her from actually connecting with her fellow Avengers. She knew as well as any of them there that files could only tell so much about a person.
She had been informed for his affinity to heights so she also kept her eyes peeled for anything out of the ordinary up in the rafters as she made her way through HQ. Finally spotting a pair of legs, up she went, scaling her way to the catwalk. “So are we avoiding people down below or just getting a bird’s eye view of who’s coming in and out of the building today?” She asked with a small smirk as she lowered herself down to sit next to him.
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“controversial opinion alastair carstairs has potentially had the hardest life out of any of the main characters in the shadowhunters universe so far” now you may be thinking to yourself “WHOA tumblr user thepictureofsdr back it up there, that is an incredibly bold, broad, and obnoxious take” HOWEVER i have a case to make.
(disclaimer this isn’t taking into account the villains or immortal characters while i personally understand cringe teenager psychology i cannot personally understand the psychology of people over 300 nor those with murderous urges, im not finished my degree. one more disclaimer in the notes)
there is one singular thing that i think sets alastair apart from any of his other mc shadowhunter colleagues: the fact that he has been alone his whole life.
you can pluck any mc from any cassie series and create a web of support for them, whether it be family or friends, whether the characters believe they have that support system or deserve it or not, that support is STILL THERE. at all points in TMI, clary, jace, alec, izzy, and simon were all there for each other. alec was pretending to believe jace was evil in coa? izzy was staunchly defending jace. clary had a falling out with the others? she had simon. this pattern continues into the books, with gideon and gabriel being forgiven by institute and allowed a place to heal, with jem and will each going through hell but having each other and then having tessa, with the blackthorn siblings having each other to fall back on (including emma), with kit finding a home in LA and then with the carstairs, with the merry thieves considering each other brothers, with cordelia spilling her heart out to lucie, hell even grace had jesse. obviously i haven’t named every character but you get the trend im going for. every character has had SOMEONE, a friend, a significant other, a parabatai, a sibling, the rare parent.
then we have alastair. he had a roughly normal childhood for a few years despite the moving around, having a healthy relationship with his baby sister. but then he turned 10, something changed and he lost everything. on top of having moved around a lot and not having a single stable friend, in a way, he lost his sister and parents. it’s impossible to have a carefree sibling relationship when you’re actively giving up your life and time to protect them. it is by no means cordelias fault that their relationship was lost, but its a sad truth. he loses that reliable open sibling relationship, he loses that relationship with his father, and his mother ceases to be a mother and becomes more a coworker in this panic to keep the family afloat. by taking on this adult role so early on in life he loses the innocence and unconditional reliability of those relationships, and he seemingly never turns to them for comfort ever again, with cordelia only finding out about part of his emotional ordeals in cog, and even then he doesn’t burden her with everything. with this breakdown of the parental units and relationship as well as being isolated, alastair also loses his only example of what a healthy romantic relationship should look like, he has no real idea how a partner should act, which we know will come into play later. let’s also not forget how the one family member that could’ve helped, jem, was actively pushed away by elias who raised his children to not trust silent brothers for his own personal selfish needs.
then he goes to school, desperate for friends and what does he get? a year of verbal and physical bullying, with rumours being spread about his family and bruises slowly covering him. he then has to spend years pretending he’s awful just to survive and by some miracle he gets out and makes 1 (one) singular friend who then publicly friend breaks up with him by threatening to throw him in a river at an engagement party attended by what i assume is the entire enclave (thank you matthew). THEN (yes this tragedy is still going) we get to one of the most unsettling relationships in the series, mostly because the bizarreness of it is just… never addressed? we get alastair and charles who were together in 1902 when they wouldve been about 18 and 23, meaning we got a man who would’ve graduated college by then going after someone who would have just graduated high school… on top of that it was an incredibly toxic relationship with charles making him feel as though he were worthless and a dirty secret and centered the entire relationship around him, his own schedule, his needs, his wants, never making time for anything on alastair’s terms. on top of the love sick teenager syndrome, alastair had never personally witnessed a healthy relationship so on top of that AND being desperate for the closeness and intimacy and support he’d gotten from no one before, he had no way of knowing he was being treated badly, he didn’t know any better until much later, after witnessing charles propose to not one but TWO GIRLS while still keeping alastair sidelined.
so to summarize, alastair has never had a lasting, appropriate, healthy, unconditional, relationship with 1. a parent 2. a sibling 3. a friend 4. a significant other 5. family. he has never been loved for the sake of being loved, hes never had someone care for him because he simply exists, everyone wants something from him and he’s never felt what its like to be truly cared for. for every trauma he has endured, for every night he went out as a child to find his drunken father passed out in a bar to drag him home, for every beating he suffered as a school boy, for every friendship that crumbled to nothing, for every time his only relationship used him and sent him to sleep unsure of his worth, he didn’t have a single person. there was no jem to assure him that no matter his faults he deserved love, no cecily to hand out forgiveness and remind him to not dwell on the past, to just move forward, no julian to turn to when he couldn’t hold up anymore, no izzy to tell him he deserves better or to point out the flaws in how he’s treated, no alec to let him rest and defend him, he has never experienced those healthy dynamics.
not only has he been dealt an awful set of cards, hes never had a single person to help him through life to the point where hes not only alone but the few relationships he does experience actively cause him more problems and pain. mind you this post doesn’t even really address the main traumas he endures this is just the breakdown of his relationships so just mentally add on his MAIN story to all of this… everything elias made him endure, all the bullshit the thieves throw in his face, every time hes given up his life for the sake of someone else… this is just the background to all of that.
in short i think alastair has had one of the hardest lives maybe even the hardest, not because i think hes suffered the worst traumas of all or i think he wins the sadness games, but because he has never had a single person to help him through what he’s experienced, to love him because he exists, never had a single person to care for him through it all and not only is he aware of this tragedy, he thinks he deserves it. he pushes people away, keeps his walls up, thinks he doesn’t deserve love from others, thinks he is too damaged and twisted to burden someone with his existence, and despite his genuinely kind soul, he still thinks he’s cruel and awful and deserving of nothing, but are we surprised? its not like he has anyone to tell him otherwise.
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I just finished reading Deborah Fisher's new bio of Henry V (based around important locations in his life). It's not really worth the read (basic life story, includes some debunked stuff like Hal studying at Oxford or being fostered by Salisbury) but the thing that annoyed me most is that she called the accounts of Hal defending Humphrey at Agincourt "awfully like propaganda".
Thought one: correct me if I'm wrong, but don't we have the crown with the missing Fleur de Lis (which supposedly happened while Hal was protecting Humphrey)? And we know Humphrey was injured during the battle. I guess the argument would be that these two things are significantly more valourised in accounts than they were in real life, but based on the information we know about the battle, along with what we know of their characters and the like, it's fairly reasonable to assume the accounts are based in truth. Maybe the accounts spruced it up a little, but our surviving evidence does support it (or something like it) happening.
Thought two: "Henry V seems to have deliberately behaved as the ideal king" has been twisted by a lot of people into "everything ever about Henry V is propaganda" and it is so tiring-- for starters, while on the surface they are similar, they have some pretty fundamental differences with very different results. The former primarily relies on him-- it's about how he seems to have treated himself, viewed himself, and how we essentially have to view him aware of this lens--while the latter relies on the idea that absolutely everyone was subject to Henry's whims in their chronicles. Especially when the people who believe this the most are of course dead set on the idea that Henry was a terrible bad man bullying everyone around him into saying nice things.
Thought three: I'm just generally frustrated with the idea that everything we know is propaganda (and therefore not to be trusted). It reminds me of a lot of sceptics in philosophy, who think the height of intellectualism is saying something isn't true and making everyone argue with them for eternity. No, we will never fully know what happened in the past. Yes, sometimes sources actively lie to us. But we actively examine sources and compare them to try and get as reasonable an understanding as we can. Claiming that it is all propaganda is both detrimental to the entire field and the people who work in it. A lot of it also unfortunately allows conspiracy theories to slip in. And the end result is people believing they can't trust a single thing any historian says because we're all making it up (but a random person on social media or an actual work of fiction is somehow more trustworthy).
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👀 (Steve)
send me ‘👀’ for something my muse has said about yours to someone else / when they’re not around. | accepting
(to Nat)
"I mean honestly, do you think he wears shirts seemingly far too small to mess with me? I may need to have a conversation with HR. See what I can do about the dress code."
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while i try to keep an open mind about the potential that NarraChara is just a really fucking worthwhile reading rather than Toby's original intent, it does bug me a little bit when i see people assessing/refuting it with "the narrator seems to know what other characters are thinking" and it's like yeah maybe they're guessing based on context clues or just making shit up. perhaps chara the kid who talks like a fantasy villain when we push them into Evil Demon Baby Mode was a precocious reader in life and they just like telling stories. the narrator may be saying "papyrus is thinking about your date later" or w/e because you literally just went through ACTs about going on the date and it's like, a reasonable thing to assume. and maybe they're totally wrong and he's thinking about cool skateboard videos he saw yesterday or something. like we already know the narrator is unreliable in other ways. why are we suddenly expecting to trust them on this too lol
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i saw that you gave a astute and great answer for the origin of your name, and i come to ask about any more interesting facts or info that is juggling in your mind
Perhaps I could tell you about Howard Gardner? Harry has been learning more about his stint as a gym teacher, so he's been on my mind lately.
He is a developmental psychologist who posited the theory of Multiple Intelligences. Contrary to other theories of intelligence which may only include a single general intelligence (G-factor), Gardner proposed eight distinct types of intelligence -- visual-spatial, logical-mathematical, verbal-linguistic, interpersonal, intrapersonal, naturalistic, musical and bodily-kinaesthetic.
His main ideas were that people are not born with all of the intelligence they will ever have (i.e. fluid intelligence as opposed to crystallized intelligence) and that our profile of these intelligences will vary depending on genetics and experiences (nature vs. nurture).
Common criticisms of his theory are that there is no empirical evidence that validate its existence, intelligence tests support the concept of a single G-factor, and that some types of intelligence could be more considered "special talents" rather than specific types of intelligence.
However, while Gardner has noted schools (and wider society) generally value verbal-linguistic and logical-mathematical intelligence above others, this theory has gained much popularity in the field of education. The theory has allowed educators to individualize their teaching; since each person differs from one another, there is no point in teaching and assessing them identically. By "pluralizing" their curriculum (teaching topics and skills in more than one way), all students are reached and they are enabled to consider the topic from multiple angles, deepening understanding (though, the theory is not at all synonymous with learning style).
I suppose it stuck in my mind because I was thinking of the kids.
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