#user apocalyptic-byler talks about her high school days

[apocalyptic-byler]

ME AND MY FRIEND WERE TALKING STRANGER THINGS TODAY AND OMGMSKAKAKDN HE BELIEVES THAT MIKE WHEELER LIKES BOYYYSSSSS RAHHHHHHHHH THATS THE FIRST PERSON IVE MET THAT BELIEVES MIKE ISNT STRAIGHT

#i was so happy #we even talked about the difference between mike and els break up and the rain fight #HE LITERALLY SAID THAT MIKE WAS PROJECTING IN THE RAIN SCENE HE FOUND THAT SUSPCIOIS IM ACTUALLY LOSING MY MIND #byler #<— target audience #user apocalyptic-byler talks about her high school days

[apocalyptic-byler]

you know it’s bad when i start watching the van scene at lunch 💀

#byler #user apocalyptic-byler talks about her high school days #sighs #bad day today #byler make it better fr

[apocalyptic-byler]

is….it….chill…..that….youre….in…..my…..head…..cause…..i……know……that…..it’s……delicate……

#im actually losing my mind???????? #too many thoughts have been thunk about him #……..send help #user apocalyptic-byler talks about her high school days #<— that tag is filled w just me ranting about him 😭😭😭

[apocalyptic-byler]

how come nobody told me just how different crush culture hits when you actually start crushing on someone

#conan gray #crush culture #did i listen to people watching and crush culturen on repeat for the last 30 mins of my creative writing class??? yes. yes i did. #was i on the verge of tears. i um. #user apocalyptic-byler talks about her high school days

[apocalyptic-byler]

in honor of today being the last day of 2023 i decided to promise to 2024 sky THAT THE MASTERMIND VIBES WILL BE STRONG I WILL NO LONGER BE YEARNING NO I WILL ACTUALLY DO SOMETHING OKOK GONNA MAKE BABY STEPS W HIM STARTING IN JANUARY YEAHHHHHHH 💪🏾💪🏾💪🏾💪🏾

#user apocalyptic-byler talks about her high school days #the pining levels are actually insane im so done with pining OKAY I GOT IT J GOT IT RAHHHHHH

[apocalyptic-byler]

and if i said i wanna feel all that love and emotion and be that attached to the person im holding then what

#someday ill be falling without caution (im already falling) #BUT FOR NOW IM ONLYYYYYYYYY PEOPLE WATCHING #high school couples are literally the deatb of me #ESPECIALLY THIS COUPLE THIS SIT IN FRONT OF ME IN MATH AND KISS OUTSIDE OF MY SCIENCE CLASS #they make me wanna cry #anyway #user apocalyptic-byler talks about her high school days #conan gray #people watching #people watching by conan gray

[apocalyptic-byler]

having a crush is just the worst

#i say this in the most whining sulking way possible #bro fr needs to get out of my head #my thoughts need to stop thinking #how do you stop having a crush #tips would be quite appreciated 🫡 #AND LIKE I DONT EVEN KNOW HIM BUT LIKE???? #sighs #not even gonna get into that again #user apocalyptic-byler talks about her high school days #I LITERALLY JUST LOOKED BACK AT MY TUMBLR POSTS ABIHT THE PREVIOUS TAG AND IVE BEEN HAVING THIS CRISIS FOR ALMOST A MONTH NOW #😭😭😭😭

[apocalyptic-byler]

you know that weird feeling that you get when someone you know basically calls one of your friends attractive but you dont think it’s jealously or anger but a secret third thing???? yeah what is that feeling 😭

#I AM HAVING A CRISIS #i have been thinking about this ever since i had that class and i just. #IDK WHY IM FEELING LIKE THIS BUT IDK WHAT IM FEELING???? #user apocalyptic-byler talks about her high school days #nah but like fr can you guys trll me what im freling or why im feeling like this 😭

[apocalyptic-byler]

fighting one of the hardest battles (holding back tears in school)

#user apocalyptic-byler talks about her high school days #im actually struggling so much today #i was already feeling bad but lunch made me feel worse for some reason and you would think being around my friends would help but it didnt #if anything they made me feel worseeeeeeeeeee #and i feel so heartbrokennnnnnnn about somethingggggggg……..someoneeeee #dying atm #lol #this post may mysteriously disapear from my blog #i swear i know how to spell but disapear genuinely does not look right #idk i soelled it right #uhhhh #dissapear #ummmmmm

[apocalyptic-byler]

#user apocalyptic-byler talks about her high school days #so #pretty #hes so pretttyyyy

[apocalyptic-byler]

hes so pretty. he actually needs to leave me alone

#sighs #wrote this literally 2 mins after he stood next to me and talked to my friend lmaooooo #he so #aaaaaaaaaa #bro got that weird and endearing white boy rizz #actually dying LMAOAKEJDNNGNG #user apocalyptic-byler talks about her high school days #i say leave me alone as if i dont wish we could talk more 💁🏽‍♀️

[apocalyptic-byler]

WHEN 😭 I 😭 WALK 😭 THE 😭 WHOLE 😭 SCHOOL 😭 TO 😭 AVOID 😭 HIM 😭 THEN 😭 I 😭 LOOK 😭 UP 😭 AND 😭 HE’S 😭 RIGHT 😭 THERE 😭

#I SWEAR I SEE HIM EVERYWHERE #(we literally share a school) #NO BUT FR WHEN I THINK IM AVOIDING JIM BUT NOT GOING IN THE LINRARY HES NOT RVEN IN THE LIBEARH AND IN THE HALLS ACYUALLY HELP ME #AND I WALK THE HALLS WHEN IM NOT IN THE LIBRARY AND I ALWAYS FRKAIAJFNDMFOSOKAOA #SCAKDKFWKDJFNFNMGMG #sighs #user apocalyptic-byler talks about her high school days

[apocalyptic-byler]

ok but like iiiifffff youve got a girlfriend im jealous of her but if youre single thats honestly worse cause youre so gorgeous it actually hurts

#user apocalyptic-byler talks about her high school days

[apocalyptic-byler]

no friends at lunch it’s only me and tumblr and pinterest against the whole school

#pinterest is for reddie btw #user apocalyptic-byler talks about her high school days #<— actually using that tag to talk about school and not just about him?!?!(!(!!(!( thats crazy

[apocalyptic-byler]

THINKING ABOUT ALL THE TIMES I COULDVE FLIRTED W HIM IF MY BRAIN DIDNT KEEP ON MALFUNCTIONING WHENEVER I FICKINGLOOKATHIMRAHHHHHHHHHHH

#user apocalyptic-byler talks about her high school days #WHEN HE SAT NEXT TO ME AT LUNCH THAT ONE DAY AND WAS TALKING ABOUT HIS HAIR INCOILDVE SAID IT LOOKED NICE OR SOMETHING INSTEAD ISAID ‘OH.’ #TEARS IN MY EYES #THERE ARE SO MANY TIMESNI COULDVE BUT DIDNT AND FUNNELNDMDMFMFMFKMTMTM #WDYM WHEN HE WAS WALKING NEXT TO ME I CLULDBE DONE SOMETHINGBYTBI DIDNT SVREAMING RAHHHHHH #and no i do not have the confidence to straight out and say hey youre cute :) NO NOT AFTER THAT GIRL BLURTED OUT HESHOT NO NOOOOOOOOOOOO #LOSING MY MIND

[apocalyptic-byler]

ok so im in a class with this girl right and we’re not really that close i mean we talk but it’s not like we’re super close friends right and so once class was over we were walking together through the hallways to get to our next classes (hers is upstairs while mine is downstairs) and so once we got to the steps she said “see you later!” and im like “yup bye” AND THEN THERE WAS A COUPLE SECONDS OF HESITATION AND THEN SHE LOOKED AT ME AND SAID “love you.” WITH THIS SMILE AND THIS LOOK AND I DIDNT KNOW WHAT TO SAY CAUSE I DIDNT KNOW HOW SHE MEANT IT SO I JUST SMILED AND KEPT WALKING AMMFKFKSKMSMDOMF THE WAY SHE SAID IT MADE IT SEEM LIKE IT WAS ROMANTIC LIKE HER VOICE WAS LOWER AND SOFTER AND I SWEAR IM NOT MAKING THIS UP IT WAS SO ??????? and i know i love you can be said in a platonic sense my best friend says it to me and i say it to her and it’s so natural but w her it felt different and weird SO YEAH 😭😭😭😭 it was quite odd to say the least

#ALSO REY IF YOU SEE THIS THIS IS THE SAME GIRL THAT CALLED MY CRUSH HOT AND IM JUST SO ??????? #but yeah #this may sound so bad but i literally do not know how else to explain it #IT FELT SO WEIRD????? #sighs #user apocalyptic-byler talks about her high school days