#tim tag🌤️🐸🌒

[heller-castiel]

inspired by @throughthegriefofdreams’s ask

#tim tag🌤️🐸🌒 #it’s all tim’s fault don’t blame me #dean winchester poetry #my poems #spn poems

[heller-castiel]

sam inherited the anger but dean grew into it like grief was a coat

I AM SMACKING MY PILLOWS. FUCK.

#daddy’s jacket is made of worn loss #and it sits heavy on your shoulders but you bear it well #loss looks pretty on you and you wear it well and you wear it often #tim tag🌤️🐸🌒

[heller-castiel]

OH MY FUCKIGN GOD EM

um. if anyone wants any context for all this.

#i’ll officially post it later #when it’s formatted and shit but. yeah #asks #tim tag🌤️🐸🌒

[heller-castiel]

sorry to destiel for a second but every time cas looks at dean when his head is turned. when he's raking the leaves. when dean turns away while cas is stuck in the ring of fire. when they clink glasses and dean turns away first to drink. the one thing i want. i am wishing. the hidden act.

OH GOD. OH THE DESTIEL OF IT ALL

#FUCKKKKK #asks #tim tag🌤️🐸🌒

[heller-castiel]

em, i think we both need someone to take us home

i made this about the woman in white immediately and i. i feel worse

#idk if you know what that is it’s from this show called supernatural that you probably haven’t seen #but like. home is 20 minutes away. i could go now. but home isn’t a place but a time and i don’t know how to get there anymore #i could go home but i can’t go to my childhood apartments again. i cant ask what the steam billowing from the water and power is again. #i cant look out the window and ask what the cross on the church means again. i cant want to school again or sit by the pool or any of it. #i cant do any of it #standing on the side of a road begging take me home #and when you step on the doorstep it’s not there. cause you can never go home. it’s not there #and the old ghosts you left behind won’t let you try #asks #tim tag🌤️🐸🌒

[heller-castiel]

want to go to bed so bad also (just took a shower) but i’ve got no fucking sheets on the bed. holding your hand on this hell planet

IT REALLT IS A TERRIBLE EXISTENCE ISNT IT

#and in the middle of a heat wave??? HORRID #asks #tim tag🌤️🐸🌒

[heller-castiel]

EM I GOT THE MOST LIFECHANGUNG COMMENT IN THE WORLD .so i might be writing more soon 😵‍💫 i’ve been in such a nasty rut of panic and pressure and just. deep despair. when it came to writing, but this persons comment was just…. god, it came up like a miracle. anyways. we should swallow the sun together…

TIM I LOVE YPU AND I SUPPORT YOU FORWVWR STYLES. YOU WANMA GO EAT THE SUN???

#asks #tim tag🌤️🐸🌒 #i’m in a writing rut after like. 7 things about work crush in total but!!!!! i will happily read everything you write ever

[heller-castiel]

I AM SO SORRY YOU HAD TO GO THROUGH THE GROSS NAIL POLISH HELL AS WELL. WORST THING FR. also i was like. incredibly stubborn and petty but sometimes i would just. decide things for myself?? i fully could have kept sucking my thumb for years if i hadn't made that promise, but i was so stubborn ABOUT the promise that i was like >:| i can;t. i'm DONE with that....

IT WAS SO BAD AND I WAS SO SAD ABOUT IT AND I WAS AT A POINT WHETE I WANTED TO STOP BUT. COULD NOT MAKW MYSELF AT ALL. VERY NOT FUN MEMORIES

#honestly the fact that i was bullied for that and my inability to say r’s is probably the main reason i was able to #and the fact that my teacher had taken to openly telling me to stop in front of the class and gotten increasing less subtle in telling me #tim tag🌤️🐸🌒

[heller-castiel]

you're the song baby mine by allison krauss OR. molly ban by allison krauss

i know neither of these songs and if i’m being honest. i’m scared

#i’m gonna look these up but i feel fear #tim tag🌤️🐸🌒 #🦌

[heller-castiel]

em i literally cannot stomach this poem. i can't think about the desire. i can't do this

tim i hope this is at least a fraction of how torturous the i will never be lovey line was for me. oh god

#THE COWARDLY UNASKING ACT #YOU GET IT #I AM HOPING FOR THE THINGS I COULD JUST ASK FOR. OR TAKE. OR GIVE. BUT I WONT. #tim tag🌤️🐸🌒 #asks

[heller-castiel]

i'm really anxious right now and just. thank youuuuu i love you 😭🫶 your tags <3 wahhh

CAN YOU PLEASE. WRITE ONE THING. ONE THING THAT DOESNT SPLIT ME OPEN.

#I AM HUGGING YOUUUUUUUUU #I SM HUGGING YOU AND IM HUGGING YOUR REFLECTION AND JTS GONNA BE OKAY #AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA #asks #tim tag🌤️🐸🌒

[heller-castiel]

WIAT IM GOING TO BED HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!! i forgot if it’s today or tomorrow but hiiii i love you <3 how marvelous we’ve spent a year going around the same sun <3

HI TIM ywah it’s today thank youuuuu!!!!!

#i love you did you know that????? #asks #tim tag🌤️🐸🌒

[heller-castiel]

i don't think you know how devastating (good) it was to read about dean and cas having normal couple issues and then having cas say he just wants to watch as dean falls asleep. the amount of love. the trust in that. ouaghwywugah fuck

fwbsfngeney I JUST WANT. THEMCTO BE HAPLY SO MUCH YOU DONY UNDERSTAND

#DUCK. #tim tag🌤️🐸🌒 #I JUDT. ok i wrote more for that fic should i post it/dm it to you??? lmk

[heller-castiel]

i think you just hold them, and if they ask you tell them the truth but if they don't ask then the only truth to say is thaat you love them. goodbye can be e a type of i love you but so is just holding them

wait fuck. what the fuck. tim what have you done

#WHERE IS MY BABY I NEED TO HOLD HIM #even though he’s a lil gross #FUCK #tim tag🌤️🐸🌒 #to be clear he has anywhere from maybe a month? to a couple of years #tw animal sickness

[heller-castiel]

i think i am going to die. badly (<- your poem) (<- your poem is killing me)

brb i’m unleashing the power of my daddy issues onto tumblr with my dean winchester syndrome

#tim my love <3 #tim tag🌤️🐸🌒

[heller-castiel]

i do not have the mental wherewithal or energy to be able to give you the full length comments i want to, but god. god in heaven and below. this fic. 😭 wailing

it’s literally your fault this thing was written i hope you enjoyed the brainworms bc. my god was this was a THING to write

#it was also supposed to be entirely humor but. i’m me so thst didn’t happen #tim tag🌤️🐸🌒