#tia.txt

[https-dandelion]

tried to avoid admitting to myself that i liked him so much that i said “idk if i really like him but i might have been in love with him in a past life”

girl.

#tia.txt #do mahine ke liye sochi #‘im not entirely sure i like him’ #and said this #then #at some point (yesterday) #i went OH #ab kya abhi main usse bata nahi sakti #itni slow kyun hoon yaar

[expectiations]

I just finished that one long quiz that had me going "I know you". My legs were shaking. I felt (feel) completely exhausted. I miss indulging in my artistic side. My hands are still shaking even now lmao

#uni life #tia.txt

[fae-renjun]

i'm sorry the rose i was unfamiliar with your game

but now that i have seen you live i am a certified blackrose

#the rose #tia.txt #when they walked in and started singing eclipse it was insane #fuck lolla india for cutting off their audio like bro #theres better ways to tell artists they're over time #at least let them say bye

[elysiumarchieve]

guys, i've come back to say that if you support elliot gindi you are the lowest of the low. i heard about it and read about it and i am more than disgusted.

if you still support him or like him, please don't interact with this account. at all.

this entire thing apparently came out two weeks ago already but i came here still to talk about it because i'm extremely disgusted and shocked. as someone who was groomed herself, this triggered me a lot too and i feel nothing but hatred for this man.

support and listen to the victims.

this is the least people could do to help them.

#tia.txt #genshin impact

[system-reset]

start a milk company and the slogan is "drink like a baby cow"

#tia.txt

[sugarcubeposts]

#introduction #introducing myself #tia.txt

[henrys-mom]

It has been the longest and shortest year of my life. I had this beautiful boy I had no idea what to do with, I had no idea what I wanted to do for work when I was to go back, or what I would take in school, I had one room between my son, my dog and me. I was lucky I didn’t have post-partum depression.

Over the last year I have been able to watch my son grow into this walking toddler, who loves watermelon and pizza and blueberries, loves water and fire trucks and balls. He can clap, high five and wave. His laugh is the absolute best sound in the whole world and his cuddles are better than anything else. I have borrowed money, my grandma moved into senior housing so I now had a place to myself. And when I tried to go back to work, my cousin watched my son so I could. Four shifts later, and the whole world shut down. I was back on mat leave and just feeling so dejected.

Then may came around and things started to change. My mom took over my dog, and his thriving. He couldn’t settle with Henry. He loves henry but once he became mobile, he couldn’t relax. I wasn’t able to give him the attention I used to be able to. And now he get consistent walks, my mom grooms him often, his nails are cut and he gets to relax. And I still get to see my dog. He’s so happy, and I’m so happy for him. I miss him, but it does simplify my life.

And because bozly was no longer living with me, I could apply for community housing for me and henry. In between waiting to hear if a unit would become available, I started applying for jobs at the hospital my mom works at. Housekeeping, food services, anything I could do. I applied to go to school online to get my Medical Office Assistant certification. I applied for a receptionist position in my moms department.

I knew I wasn’t going to get that job, but after a shadow day of doing it, I knew that’s the position I really wanted. So when it came back that I was accepted for the program to start in January, I was so excited. And I had interviewed so well that when a position opened up for their department, I was offered the job. It wasn’t reception, but it was the hospital and it would start my seniority and it would get my foot in door. It’s starting a relationship. And they said that when it comes time for my practicum, they will help me find a placement for it. Whether it’s the hospital or somewhere else, I have built a bit of a network for myself. And with the pay, I can actually pay my bills and start chipping away at my debt.

After a week of henry being with my cousin for childcare, I found another place in my city for him to be in, and he could start immediately. Which meant my commute went to an hour each way, to about five minutes if that. Overall it takes about 15 minutes in total to drop henry off, to get to work. And I don’t have to live at my cousins house for the week while I’m working so that was another breath of relief. It would have sucked to pay for my place that I wasn’t staying at.

Then I found out there was a unit available for henry and I in community housing. I went to go look at it, and while it’s small, it’s got a basement and I get to pick out my own washer and dryer. Means I’ll have to go to the laundry mat for a bit until I can buy the washer and dryer but!! Still. I get to have a nice washer and dryer!!! It also has a backyard so he can have a place to play outside, it’s all fenced in and there’s two parking spots in the back for me.

And very shortly after that, I got the call about the child care subsidy being approved for the max amount. Which was great timing since I haven’t gotten paid yet, and I wasn’t entirely sure how I would pay for the last week of August and September but now I don’t have to worry. I just can’t believe it.

Within a matter of three weeks my whole life changed, and things are looking good. The only thing I’m waiting on now is child support to pull through, and that was filed back in May so I’m hoping something pulls through very soon cause then I can put that money in an account for henry and just use that when he needs stuff.

Fuck I just cried so hard out of relief. I can’t believe any of this happened so quickly.

#dear henry #tia.txt

[tiamisu]

i think the worst part is that i can’t even talk to anyone about this

i’m a bad person

#tia.txt #personal #i hate myself #actually

[https-dandelion]

THEYRE PLAYING SHIK SHAK SHOCK OUTSIDE MY BUILDING AND IT WAS SO LOUD THAT MY AC WAS SHAKING ON BEAT. AND I LIVE LIKE 20 FLOORS ABOVE GROUND

#tia.txt

[expectiations]

waiting for the valentine's concert to start and my cousin, who's gonna play a guitar solo, ribbed me for being "chill". i grinned back at her all the while wanting to blurt out that i'm actually panicking inside.

#musings #tia.txt #valentine's concert #pond queue

[fae-renjun]

dream academy final rn i'm nervous and liveblogging

#tia.txt #dream academy #i tuned in late so i didnt see team A's performance #but dirty water is such a good song i need that on spotify

[elysiumarchieve]

hello everyone, it's tia.

i'm sorry for disappearing without a trace and keeping you guys waiting for an actual response.

life has been pretty hard these weeks, my health is still rather bad and so is my motivation. also, my mental health has been getting worse too, so i decided that i want to archive this account.

my first idea was deleting it entirely, but i felt like i owed you guys an apology. i let you down and i feel terrible for doing so, even though i took a sudden break due to my own health.

also another reason is that i dont feel comfortable on this account anymore. it has nothing to do with the people, i met some of the most loveliest people on here that i treasure and also enjoy talking to, but rather because i actually started to feel pressured to deliver even when i had no motivation, which actually caused me pain because i had no idea how to solve this problem.

i'm sorry. i'm thankful for the people who continued to support me even though i was gone.

if you still want to stay in contact with me, you can feel free to dm me for my twitter, but i will archive this account now.

thank you everyone for reading this

#tia.txt #kinda serious?? #my mental health has been hetting worse rapidly these past few days its pretty bad #n e ways #i love you guys

[system-reset]

there's a big spider in the kitchen 😖

#tia.txt #charlie (;ŏ﹏ŏ) #sunny!

[lecpikaremade]

read dungeon meshi, love kabru

#tia.txt #it's kabru loving hours ok

[medusozoan]

guess who finally made an about

#it only took me 4 years #i didnt rly know what to put on there so it might sound stupid?? aha #tia.txt

[henrys-mom]

I just booked a camping trip for me and one one year old for four days and I’m very excited and also incredibly nervous!!!!

Mostly excited!!!!

But also what am I getting myself into

No way to know until we’re there and camping. 😬😬

#baby s #tia.txt #dear henry