#throw up so i cant drink it

[tinderfishboy]

Its nice 2 be drunk

#alcohol tw #tw alcohol #its been almost a month i think since last time i drank cause the roomie w the fake keeps coming home w only red wine and red wine makes me #throw up so i cant drink it

[todayisafridaynight]

youre so right omg literally barely see anybody talking abt mine and Daigos special bottle of sake like that’s so ???? tragic????? it’s so sad and gut wrenching in a way i can’t explain like it’s probably still there in shellac collecting dust on the shelf……. they make me feel SICK

i cant stress how special Kirin's Dream is to me, like genuinely it's probably my favorite rggo story bar mine and daigo's goofy bar date gone wrong because it makes me so indescribably emo after reading it

#snap chats #every day i think about how daigo was adamant on not drinking from it because mine didnt want to drink without him #like daigo i cant speak for your romantic capabilities but that was the most romantic shit i ever read in my life #at the very least definitely something id read in a romance/tragedy or some shit no wonder kashiwagi yoinked that for his sob story #IN ANY CASE NO LIKE ...... the fact even the bartender thought mine and daigo's memories were special enough to keep going #im gonna be sick thinking of that bottle collecting dust for decades with no intention of ever opening it #this is why i love minedai though its a tragedy. theres no stopping it. daigos distraught and no one can help him #ACTUALLY goodbye i cant have anyone look at me #every time i think of daigo calling mine an idiot at the end of the story i do think of bakamitai im so sorry #i know the singer's calling themselves an idiot but nevertheless.... daigo bakamitai when so i can throw up #im allowed to think daigo blames himself or feels guilty about doubting if mine loved him (romantically or platonically) #i have to post this now before i just ramble for twelve years

[hella1975]

my mum picking me up this morning: you're not as hungover as i thought you'd be

me, just yacked in an alleyway: yeah haha

#it's 3pm now and i still cant believe that happened that was. an experience #basically my mate's 21st coincided with her sister's 30th so they both had this big joint Event last night #where they literally rented out a farm house and the field nearby and set up a whole campsite and barbeque and everything #it was really random but also really good esp bc ive been friends with this girl since we were super young #and our mums were friends so ive just got. lots of connections to her family and it was nice seeing them all again #but there was fully like 60 people at this thing and i DID drink more than i meant to but i wasn't paralytic which is good #and my hangover ISNT that bad in terms of how bad my hangovers can get #it's just that my mate's dad picked us both up at 9am this morning which was already going to be... rough #and then proceeded to do the bumpiest drive down the country lanes ive ever experienced #i was literally grinding my teeth like i am NOT about to throw up in this man's car please if there is a god do not let me throw up #and i didn't! my mum picked me up from this (thankfully very quiet) road that has this rickety old alley coming off it #and i had the very humbling moment of 'im actually going to be sick aren't i' and had to WAIT FOR AN OLD WOMAN #TO FUCKING MEANDER OUT OF THE ALLEY AND WALK FAR AWAY ENOUGH FOR ME TO AT LEAST HAVE A SHRED OF DIGNITY #and proceeded to throw up. in a public alleyway. at 9:30am on a sunday. so of course i needed to tell you guys about it #im now force feeding myself garlic bread. im going to manchester tomorrow. i have a flight at the crack of dawn on tuesday #what is even going on anymore #also fully did just do nos last night with some 30 year olds. i cannot express how fucking odd a thing that is for me to do #actually no i can express it bc youse know that im funny about drugs so for me to not even be that drunk #and get offered a fucking balloon of all things and be like 'yeah why not!' is.... odd #i know i inhaled wrong though bc it didn't do a thing which honestly im happy about <3 #hella goes home

[slutdge]

mmmmm. i wish someone would snipe me from the window right now.

#my dog got diagnosed with degenerative myelopathy #when i was a kid and my dad would yell at me and throw things she would immediately run to my room and hide under my bed #cause she felt safe there #i cant express how much this dog also hates my dad just like i do #i know thats so fucking STUPID oh my god i know but i just feel extra bonded to her for that reason #and my other childhood dog died 2 years ago #i dont think im gonna be able to own pets anymore. its too hard to say goodbye. #think im gonna just give up on this day entirely its not like i have any other errands to run today i can start drinking at 2:30 as a treat #ptsd

[storm-of-feathers]

sorry for the inactivity I've learned recently that i don't react well to surgery like at all

#i havent stopped throwing up in like a day and a half here i cant even keep water down #and i tried some soup and ive been drinking my normal nutrient drinks but. yk #it all comes back up #i stopped bleeding tho!! thats good!! #im on so many medications and i cant even keep them down :/

[im2tired4usernames]

Ugh I was excited for today until I found out I'd have to spend it with people that actively make me hate being alive hate the future and drain me off all energy physically mentally spiritually like a vampire I can't stand to be around her she is the definition of stupidity and even then that's generous as fuck this bitch has filled her brain with so much garbage I watch her brain cells die at alarming rates every single time she uses her vocal cords her giggles make me want to jam a sewing needle into my ear repeatedly so I can never have to hear it again its a friendly reminder that my parents decisions this time my dad's constantly makes me want to die

#i cant even shes just so dangerously stupid #she thinks energy drinks with natural caffeine are safe to give people who have been told by doctor doing take caffeine with thia meds #ahe thinks of a child is CHOCKING to lie them face down n rub their back #she has the evangelical woman voice worse then women I've met n that cult ahe giggles constantly and behaves like the stereotype lil german #boy just got a lollipop over.... everyone and everything whe acts likw an 11 year old I just got the first boyfriend and all they could talk #is how perfect their boyfriend is and they're so pretty good for that I pulled a boyfriend is and it's like a God thing that they met how #SOOOOOOOOOO in love while constantly nonstop touching ahe has to be touching him her hand on his thigh her atm linked with his her heaf on #his chest she has to be in her lap they make out all over the place IT'S DISGUSTING AND EMBARRASSING STOP SWAPPING SPIT #she started a i. hwr words 'love diary of their love journey' they hadn't been dateing 2 months her kids are spoiled fake Instagram bitches #with such shitty views on politics SHE'S A TRUMP FAN GIRL SHENLOVES TRUMP MY DAD BROUGHT IN A TRUMPIE #there's so much i cant even say because even admitting it on tumblr is too embarrassing i wanted.to.likw her i liked her the first day but #THE MORE I GET TO KNOW GET THE MORE N MORE N MISS RED FKAGS #she threw away all my siblings clothes school books toys uniforms for sports their in toys i bought them that week make up jewelry #in the disguise of helping clean house #while i was at the hospital the kids call me in tears i call her beg her to wait and nope.ahe didn't i found the bags by the curb i brought #my dad sided with hwr because 'she didn't mean any harm she didn't know sje was throwing them away' #my mom hasn't bsen dead a year he started dating right after ahe died #hes talking about marrying this woman this woman who has never had an honest educated thought once in her life #WHO ASLO SPEMDA MONEY LIKE A DRUNKEN SAILOR AHE CAME FROM A WITCH FAMILY HER LAST TWO HUSBANDA WERE TOUCH SHE HAS NO KNOWLEDGE OF THE COMMON #SHE SPENDS LIKE SHE STILL HAS MONEY WHEN SHE DOSE NOT AND IT'S LIKE YOU DID NOT JUST SPEND OVER 180 DOLLARS N PASTRIES GOD #SHES SO FUCKIN STUPID AND EVERY HOLIDAY SINCE MY MOM DIED WVERY FAMILY GWT TOGETHER BECAUSE WE DON'T TALK OR.DO ANYTHING WITH MOM'S SIDE #OF THE FAMILY ANYMORE SHE'S THERE EVERY WINGLE MOTHER FUCKIN WEEKEND SHES HERE I'M EXHAUSTED SHES PHYSICALLY AND MENTALLY DRAINING TO BE ARO #OUND SHES LIKE IF SOMEONE TOOK A GOLDEN RETRIEVER ON A DIET OF JUST FUCKIN COCAINE LITTLE GERMAN BOY WITH LOLLY AND CRUELLA DEVILLE AND FUSE #THEN TOOK A STRAW AND DRANK ALL THE SMARTS OUT OF THAT BEING #UUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUGGH MY DADS GOIN TO NARRY RHIA BITCH SHES GOIN TO TRY TO BE A MOTHER TO ME AND MY SIBLINGS AND THEY'RE GOIN TO #be so fucked up because her kids are not ok SHE FUCKED THEM OVER BAD SHE HAS FOUR KIDS ALL ADULTS THEY'RE JUST WOW #I HATE MY LIFE I HATE WHAY FUTURE MY FAMILY IS GOIN TO BE THE GOOD THINGS IS I WON'T HAVE TO STAY I CAN GO N MAKE A NEW ONE WITH MY WIFE #FOR ME BUT MY SIBLINGS ARE FUCKED AND ANYTIME I WANT TO VISIT MY FAMILY YANDERE GOLDEN RETRIEVER BITCH WILL BE THERE WORMING HWR WAY IN #SHES CONSTANTLY CALLING N TEXTING MY DAD NONSTOP OF SHE'S NOT NEXT TO HIM AND IF HE CAN'T RESPOND INSTANT SHE FREAKS OUT N BUGS ME

[infizero]

kills you kills you kills you kills you kills yo

#listening to the audio on the page again gawdddd i feel ill im gonna throw up #kris' frenzied discordant playing. you usually play the piano a bit more beautifully. they didnt have a piano at their house #they loved to play the piano and there was no piano in the house there was no keyboard in the house nothing #and now their hands' movements are not their own their fingers uselessly mash against the keys in the clumsy frustrated way #they cant even do the one thing they were good at anymore. you usually play the piano and bit more beautifully #and then noelle listening in from the other room. there were times when i wasnt even sure if we were friends. maybe they werent thinking #about me at all. we're friends. we're something else. we havent hung out in so long but i know how you like your eggs. what your favorite #color has been throughout the years. the first movie you cried to. i know you better than anyone. i dont know you at all #your voice isnt your own. what happened to your voice? what happened to the beautiful music you made? what happened to you? #why are you telling me to do these unspeakable things? why am i going along with it? (we're getting stronger) why do i let the blood drip #down my finger from the ring you slipped onto it? (we're something else) what happened to us? #we used to play tag in your backyard. there's blood on my hands because of you. i dont know whats happened to you and i cant stop it #maybe they weren't thinking about me at all #you usually play the piano a bit more beautifully #but when i closed my eyes it felt like a concert just for me #i need a drink #serena.txt

[unwellwoman]

shouldve googled what oolong tea tastes like. why am i drinking seaweed

#screaming crying i wasted my drink quota trying something out #jk im lying actually i bought extra drinks yet again #btw i cant eat most sushi because seaweed makes me throw up so yea

[bleeding-cyanide]

ugh. vent in tags cuz notes app is too far away just keep scrolling dw abt it

#had 1 good day yesterday was really hoping it would last but of fucking course not #of course its back to feeling like dying 24/7 of course its wanting to starve myself of course its shing #not wanting to be left alone #being desperate #doing anything i can to prevent the thoughts tm #god i just wanna die #i need to draw something for patreon #i literally cannot keep being like this i need to do shit i cant just lay in bed but i cant make myself do anything #its so fucking frustrating and i wear myself out trying to do the thing and by the time ive worked myself up for it im too fucking tired #screaming throwing shit i need to smash bottles #i need a drink.......

[thecherrygod]

not happy about the development that being able to drink tea now means i do want to make myself some tea.

also since im at it if anyone has tea recomendations, but specifically teas that go well with milk, please let me know and ill try them as long as they exist here

#my posts #if i make it and drink it ill reblog this with the counter bc i will keep that up lmao #but yeah i think im gonna make myself another one of these masala chai bags i got myself the other day #but no yeah if you have a recomendation of a milk tea kinda thing let me know #if it tastes BAD with milk.... #also let me know so i dont attempt it #but i cant have not milk tea or i will throw up it happens with coffee #and i cant drink broths if they dont have anything solid to chew on bc it happens with that too </3 #anyways!

[bigendershadowthehedghog]

I am going to be honest. I think the people that are like "oh if you're not drinking water completely unflavored straight from the tap you're not actually staying hydrated" are actually so fucking unhelpful in trying to get me to drink more because now I just feel guilty about putting a little flavouring in. which ends up in me not drinking anything at all. which actually just makes the situation worse

#i have to drink a full glass of water with the antibiotics i take and it actually makes me want to throw up #im okay with water in small amounts for taking meds and stuff but. i cant really drink alot of it #now whenever i try to grab a drink theres a voice in my head thats like oh but youre not drinking water and then i end up not getting #a drink at all #because i dont like water. thats just it i feel like im being overdramatic here #i should shut up forever #but oh well #plus putting bottles away for them to be cleaned so they dont get mouldy takes more energy than it should so now i have these moldy bottles #on my desk #waiting to be cleaned. and theyre not even getting put next to the sink and theyre not even being used for drinking

[hyvee]

In retrospect i rlly wasnt doing well fall semester but no one including myself could tell bc instead of being like self destructive i was sleeping from 6pm to 10am everyday

#at the moment i was like i cant be doing that bad. i only drink on weekends #(drinking so much i throw up every friday)

[todayisafridaynight]

To be fair RGGO Arakawa's son is confirmed either dead or unborn so it's A LITTLE less funny than him raising a normal son looking like that... still funny though I'm obsessed with him...

Speaking of Arakawa, I'm still going nuts about whatever's going on with him in IW. His voice line in the trailer in the trailer was so sweet but he uhhh Isn't Looking Too Sweet in the screenshots...

With Akane being in the game, I really wanna know whose perspective we're remembering him from too, since prior to that it seemed pretty certain it'd be either Jo or Ichiban. It's young Arakawa specifically, so it has to be between Jo and Akane as far as we know. I'm certain Jo has seen him go apeshit, but if Akane has and she fell for him anyway? Way of the Househusband-core... that'd say SO much about her... sooooo true though queen...

You’ll have to sue me because I Forgor the only thing i remembered was that his son Was Not Deranged. Which yeah i guess you cant be deranged if youre dead （＾∇＾）

I DIDNT EVEN HEAR HIS VOICE LINE THO WHAT if it was in the Official story trailer then oops.. lol.. i’ll take your word for it until im fucked enough to actually watch it LOL

Akane’s already a confirmed bamf if her not only booking it out of the hospital right after giving birth and escaping At The Time one of japan’s (or at least kamurocho’s don’t shoot me) most notorious clans to hawaii and then STILL having people after her. ACTUALLY had to get her out of the scene because she would’ve been too powerful otherwise

#snap chats #see i wasnt going to mention rggo arakawa’s son since i didnt remember exactly what happened to him. this is my crime and punishment #live and learn etc etc sonic the hedgehog reference #unrelated tag ramble time i just need to throw up somewhere or i will explode #anyway im aggressively trying to fight the urge to drink a bottoe of jack because my mom sucks and now i hate getting messages from my bro #cause its just shit my mom wants to tell me and everythings awful and i want to die 🥰 #wont tho. unfortunately. i have commissions to fulfill #and I GUESS gaidens coming out in just a little over a month and I GUESS 2x infinite wealth is coming Dick Ass Fast As Hell #so UNFORTUNATELY. i cant play irl frogger until then #i wish i could draw at least but NOOO stupid ass left his stupid ass charger at his stupid ass mom’s #NO I JUST REMMBERE AND TONIGHT WAS MY SOCIAL PSYCH CLASS SO O COURSE I WAS GURANTEED A BAD TIME #i promise everytime i leave that class im more bitter at how much positive family talk we have to do #it makes me sick like SOOOO glad to hear all of you have stanle family relationships.. mine only exist when im about to jump off a bridge #WHATEVER as i was sulking home i saw a butterfly pendant and even if i JUST bitched bout family #butterflies still make me think of my sis so.. auspicious things to come i hope…. #ok im done complainin LOL BYE #since i got home and beating the alcoholic urges ive just been laying in bed thinking of arakawa #i MUST draw him as soon as i can……. k im done fr this time i made a pot of tea and id like to drink it while its hot LOL

[armandism]

not me crying because my fathers an asshole lmfao like whats new weve all known that

#i got mcdonalds for me and my mom and then spilled the coke over the table and i was already in a bad mood and didnt react and just stood th #ere and didnt pick up the still spilling drink #and hes immediately like whyd u just stand there pick it up now theres more of a mess #and im like i know Thank you #and he keeps going at it. keeps telling me how fucning stupid i was i guess #i tell him that i dont need to hear ot #so he once again victimized himself and goes oh i cant say anything in this house anymore #and i have fucking had it up to here with this whiny little bitch behavior #i say that hes only ever saying negative shit and complaining and i dont need to fucning hear that all the time #AND THEN HE KEEPS WHINING #acts like hes the most positive man ever when all he FUCKING does is complain and cry and whine and spew his little conspiracy theories #SHUT UP YOU FUCK #i think he also said shit about getting a flat and then well have our peace #like go do that id prefer it #at least now hes got to the point of being enough pf a whiny bitch tht he threatens us with leaving himself #and not with throwing me out lmfao

[ei-mugi]

(stumbles out drenched in blood) aough

#i had so much planned to do yesterday but my period started #and i discovered that my blissful past few months of painless periods are over #im back to nightmare mode periods from hell #9/10 on those google images pain scales full agony throwing up #im fine today though #my severely painful periods r caused by stress but the thing is that i cant swallow pills very well. or anything else while on my period #i try to crush my paracetamol up and pour it into a glass of water but i only ever end up drinking like a quarter of it #so i just have 2 suffer thru

[girl-bateman]

Actually, I'm not my father's daughter anymore, I am the embodiment of this quote and I want to claw out my eyes and cry blood thanks

#got mockingly called 'ok mom😒' by my dad #just bc i said my freshly 18 year old sister shouldnt drink whiskey as a substitute for pain meds #for context my dad has been an alcoholic my entire life so i dont exactly want to hear his opinions on self medication #anyways and this night i woke up to the sound of him throwing up and like walking in the splash of it #and i never ever ever in my 22 years of living confront him abt his drinking or get upset #(i got angry once bc he spilled wine on my head/hair) #but this time i actually brought it up only to be (and i hate this word but..) gaslit #he did this entire little charade of like 'well did you see it? where is it?' and joking about it the entire time #and ofc there is no physical evidence so i cant even get my sister to like... side with me or believe me #and now im the problem for being upset and emotional #like im crazy for thinking someone who spent the entire day drinking #and emptying a flask of bourbon or whiskey or whatever #would throw up as a result #like ? im only suprised it didnt happen sooner #anyway this was a very unfortunate ending to our trip and it is not what grandma would have wanted :( #a part of me wishes i just would have pretended everything was fine