#this extends to fic too. some of my worst tropey fics that i churned out in 2 minutes became really popular while stuff i felt passionate

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WHAT'S THE POINT

#!!! if bad books (according to me) are as popular as good ones if not more. what's the point!!!!!!! #this extends to fic too. some of my worst tropey fics that i churned out in 2 minutes became really popular while stuff i felt passionate #about went ignored kdkfld (this is largely abt old fic btw not elisabeth stuff. i know you guys like your [redacted]) #whats the point of working hard to make something good if people are just as happy and fulfilled with bad stuff as long as it exists #🥲🥲🥲🥲🥲🥲🥲🥲🥲🥲🥲 #there is no point haha i mean personal fulfillment? i guess but its not that fulfilling to not have the chance to show ppl your work #sorry i promise i dont have a martyr complex 💀 and in the grand scheme of things its not like im some creative genius #the thing is. i work hard on stuff because i think not giving my best for personal projects done for personal fulfillment is wasting time #but then the disproportionate amount of effort vs online attention really stings. they dont often correlate #there is no point haha. i'm not good at being happy or content and i'm neurotic about the things that make me happier to do #rant #'have you considered taking antidepr*ssants' yes but my other mental illness says no to them. their tongues are battling for dominance