#this came to me like in a few hours ago

[rewordthis]

The struggles of art, are not for everyone.

It’s really not, indeed.

You have to like the process first and foremost.

If when putting the tip of the pencil down onto paper your main thoughts are how you’re bad, how you won’t have any progress, or hope you’ll be as good as those famous artists you follow on here or Twitter, then you’re really doing it wrong.

I’ve been drawing for forever and I still don’t seem to make anything better than before but having an old drawing around always puts things into perspective. I draw because it gives me peace of mind. If it just gives you anxiety then sure, it’s not for you.

And in the end, what I love the most about it is the sensation of my pencil-tip scratching that blank void that a sheet of paper is. Not the prospect of earning likes, a following, or money from it. I have tons of art that’ll never see the light of day for many reasons, that I’m so hang up on the fact that I made it. I was in my best condition when I made those pieces, in the right headspace, I was whole. The muses guided my hands these times, God smiled down on me.

What can I say? I’m a girl of simple things.

But the whole debate about whether AI is a medium for creation or easy theft, has soured my mood.

I do NOT consider AI art when its main ‘reference’ is straight up stealing and plagiarising someone’s sweat and tears. Before feeding it your favourite artist’s (or writer’s) work to mince and chew it up like it’s nothing in order to vomit a halfassed attempt at creation on your part remember this, the artists and writers the works of you used, are real people. They breathe, they eat, they cry. They pour TIME into their works. Time that you do NOT respect. They put feelings into their works. Feelings that you do NOT respect. For some of them, it’s also their main income. Income that you DEVALUE by stealing what is considered a unique trait of their trade!

You will NEVER learn anything nor get better at anything other than stealing that way. Because you haven’t known the value of hard work. The value of putting a chip of your soul into what you make. The value of living inside every work you’ve ever CREATED. You never lost sleep, food, or a piece of your sanity trying to make something from scratch. Trying to make it work. Trying to give birth to something unique.

What pitiful existences really, are those who can’t value someone else’s soul enough to respect it…

Anyway… this is getting heavy for me so I’m not going to rant over this anymore. I just want to say that I’m going to release some basic everyday steps for those who really want to learn drawing to follow on their own. Art takes time. Great writing takes time. It also takes for someone to be happy each time for what they were capable of creating.

That said, let me be clear that these mini exercises aren’t gonna clinch you a job at mappa, nor are they going to teach you proportions or whatever else those tutorials promise you, they’re specific to making you understand how 3D and observation works in order for you to be able to pick the elements you need every time you make a new piece. That’s all!

Progress isn’t jumping from 3yo art to fucking Rembrandt. It’ll suck ass before it even looks remotely decent!

Make sure to have that☝️printed and posted on your wall. That’s an order! *flexes whip*

Ok, I’m kidding, but seriously that’s your only motto from now on if you want to get better.

And now let’s prepare the ground for your exercises.

What you’ll need first is either a normal pencil or a 2mm one. No 0,5’s or whatever… in general NO mechanical pencils. Personally I’d recommend starting with a wooden pencil, though.

A good eraser that doesn’t smudge. It doesn’t matter what colour or brand as long as it erases the graphite well and without too much mess. Remember, NO SMUGES! *Forgot to say, a charcoal eraser will be a good friend, if it’s affordable. (Sorry for forgetting that.)

Now, hardness:

Find your typical hand writing pressure in the table below.

Generally the harder you press, the more difficult to erase. So bigger pressure (aka black marks, scratches etc) is 5.

5 4 3 2 1

2H H HB B 2B

How it works:

If you’re 3 you’ll need:

H: tracing

HB: outline

2B: shading

If you’re a 5 you’ll need:

2H: tracing

H or HB: outline

B: shading

If you’re 1 you’ll need:

HB: tracing

HB or B: outline

2B: shading

If you are 2 or 4 you’ll have to go through trial and error. Sorry. Just keep in mind that depending on where you lean; extremes or average (3), you follow the guidelines above.

For example, I am a hard 5 (if not 5,5 lol) so at some point I resorted working with just 2H and HB. I only ever use B when I need something to be black— which admittedly happens rarely. It’s only a few times you’ll need to depict actual black.

> You generally need a tracing pencil that won’t leave too dark visible marks behind when erased. People 5 and 4 will have to be a little careful though and not scratch the paper but that will come with practice.

> Your outline has to be enough to ‘stain’ the paper so you won’t lose your main sketch. It’s also correction time. Yey!

> Your shading shouldn’t smudge because you’re going to use layers. Yes. Even in traditional art you darken in layers, typically in as light moves as possible and in varying angles until you get the shade you want but that’s for later.

I personally don’t have any specific papers to propose to you (bitch you’re using basic photo-printing A4 papers wth lol). You’ll just need a hard surface, especially my 5 and 4 palls.

Ok, that’s it for today, folks.

Let me also slap a disclaimer here: I am NOT a professional art tutor. I just love art. 🤗

#hazy outlines: an impromptu Saturday art class #art #traditional art #see me trying to help people actually learn to draw properly… #this came to me like in a few hours ago #sorry for my mini rant #art rant #*edited

[thetriggeredhappy]

I HAVE NOW 100%’ed STARDEW VALLEY

THREE TIMES.

#shut up me #i did a completionist run like years ago right and it was time consuming but i did it #then came the ginger island update. and like 80 more hours or content and so much more completionist shit #i believe i had two jobs at the time but whatever who cares. grinded it out in a few weeks #then mr conape himself said IM NOT THROUGH WITH YOU and YOU KNOW WHAT SIR #FUCK YOURSELF #HOW MANY TIMES DO WE HAVE TO DO THIS OLD MAN #stardew valley #sdv #mr ape i have only one request. the ability late in the game to marry multiple spouses. that’s all i want. #i just want to be able to marry both harvey and shane. shane takes him to sports and harvey makes him eat vegetables #and i make hundreds of thousands of gold every season with my optimized sprinklers and junimo huts

[catastrxblues]

read more than 50 pages while i was outside today!!!!!!! where’s my trophy

#OUTSIDE as in like…. public places such as class and train station and train and bus stop #who am i #no one ask but this blog is my diary so here it is #so in the morning i continued a few pages of crooked kingdom before class. but then my friends came and the teacher came so i stopped #and we literally didn’t study anything AT ALL today it was such a waste #so after a few hours of talking with my friends because as i said literally no classes i decided to read again #i was going to read ck but i felt like i would just going to go around the sentences and not understanding anything if i did #thank goodness i also brought another book circe by madeline miller so i started that #and it’s really great!!!! i started that book at 2 am days ago but haven’t continued it again. and because i didn’t really remember much #from that i decided to start over and it’s good!!!!! #tell me why sometimes general fiction books are easier for me to digest than ya/mg #i think maybe it’s because with ya/mg (esp fantasy) has such a fast and complicated plot to keep the readers entertained #and this book imm reading is just a retelling of greek myths but? #anyways yeah i’m kinda hooked #actually thinking of finally putting song of achilles in my tbr #reading tag #nadirants

[nogodsnomorales]

dude every time I open this app wanting to post things but instead I’m bombarded by blocking bots on a daily basis and not even wanting to post my new content.. 💀 not even 5 minutes ago I left the app to come back and see 200 BOTS following me.. dont got. the patience for this

#why is tumblr like this #I never came across this problem years ago and it’s just miserable 💀 #srry not normal post!! just got so jaw dropped to see 210 bots following me when I’m used to blocking like 5 every few hours NOT 200 #edit: woke up to 700. What the hell

[ectonurites]

ik i've talked about this before but. sometimes i still just try to wrap my head around how my dad could possibly think a logical course of action—after his wife who was trying to divorce him and his 15 year old child called 911 because of his abusive behavior which led to him getting arrested—would be to get a friend to bail him out of jail and then walk BACK TO THAT VERY HOUSE HE WAS JUST FORCIBLY ESCORTED OUT OF. AT 3 IN THE MORNING.

#this was LITERALLY a decade ago and it STILL is just. haunting. like hUHHH????????????? #for anyone curious yes he was immediately arrested again. bc in the few hours he had been gone we got granted an emergency restraining orde #i miss the restraining orders... i liked the sense of security/consequence. he doesn't know where we live anymore so i feel Better than at #the last place (where he wasn't SUPPOSED to know where we lived but my high school had severely fucked up & put that info out there haha 🙃) #at least but there's still just... idk! after that time he Came To My Place Of Work To Bother Me right after the restraining order was take #away from us it just... has always made me so extra fucking jumpy because you never fucking know!!!!! #grandpa max is god? i go to church now

[rimouskis]

the weather here has been so gorgeous the last two days that it has nearly made up for the bitter cold we got the other week

#that being said I now work in a windowless office and miss the nicest hours of the day 😭 #my supervisor came in midday a few days ago and was like ''it's gorgeous out!'' and I was like DON'T TELL ME THAT LOL

[hella1975]

my sister is currently doing her nightly *douse myself in water for 5 mins despite it leaving PUDDLES EVERYWHERE BTW and then spend 20 mins applying imported skincare i spent all my money on* in SILENCE sans any form of music meanwhile she walked in on me having a party of one (1) at myself in the bathroom mirror to set it off of all things. it's a bit funny that we are related by blood

#she just looked at me with my hands still doing some dumb dance gesture and went 'what.... are you doing' SO UNIMPRESSED LIKE #mortifying but i had fun. was literally just jamming for a good 20 mins like acting out every song in the mirror #not even taking my make up off or anything like that no just pure vibing. and i think im in the right here #and then she spends a MINIMUM half hour EVERY NIGHT on skincare which is fine i WISH i had that dedication #but she does it IN SILENCE I DONT UNDERSTAND HOW WE'RE RELATED #my sister: even though im writing my thesis atm for my masters in chemistry im still excited for my dentistry degree i just got accepted on #me earlier today to my mum: LETS SEE IF I CAN FAIL MACROECONOMICS THREE YEARS RUNNING <3333 #it's a bit funny it's a BIT funny #we are just such different people in EVERY facet of our lives even the tiny things idk IT'S A BIT FUNNY #can u see how i got the shit kicked out of me from watching fleabag. can you see it #we did however sit on the sofa together just now and i was lying on it first #but she wanted to show me a dress so she came over and i didnt want to get up so i lifted my legs as a joke #expecting her to be like 'sod off and make room' but she literally just scooted under and had my legs on her lap and her arms on my legs #and yes it's v casual v mundane but we've never really... had that? like we are NOT physically affectionate at all #we're not affectionate FULL STOP let alone physically #idk it was nice. i was hyperaware of literally every single part of me bc it's still so new but. it was nice #i used to get really hung up on our differences but now i do genuinely find it funny more often than not #('used to' i mean last year. literally a few months ago. we move) #hella goes home

[camptw1nk]

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#not 2 be like. negative but i just kinda got hit hard by the way my relationship w my best friend has changed #dont get me wrong i understand that her girlfriend will be super important to her esp bc she lives across the world and is only physically #here for another 2 or so weeks #but my best friend just got back from a trip to another city to see an artist she loves and as she came in i got up to go see her and ask hl #how it was but she was in her room w her gf before i could and thats fine i get it and like she hasnt done anything wrong i can not #emphasize that enough like i hold no bitter feelings to her she is excited to talk to her gf understandably #it just hit me that like. oh yeah. i have no one else that i go to about literally anything but she does #and its less ab her so much as its. its just hitting me that i dont really have? friends? #i have one or two people but like. i only have One Person thats my go to fave person always tell them everything #and i just. I've realized that its not reciprocated the way it used to be #and that i think is just like a part of growing up #i dont have a partner i dont have someone my life is intrinsically linked to #like a best friend is great but its not. relationships are placed to a higher level you know like its jusy more important #and i just. ive nevr Had a partner really. unless u count a like 2 month thing when i was 12 which i dont count #not to be depresso but i am just not the kind of person that people want or desire #and thats been the case long before i came out as trans but its extra complicated now since i dont. Fully pass #idk not 2 sound sad i just wanna be loved #and i think theres only so many times i can hear the most important person in my life come home and talk excitedly ab things thru the walls #and then never actually get told anything myself. not just ab things shes excited for but just in general #we were meant to go to a house viewing together a few days ago and it was only half an hour before it was happening when no one else was #home that i messaged them to check in and they were like oh yeah we're not going we have this and this going on #which like. fine whatever but i dont drive and getting anywhere fast is hard so it just. was stressful #but it just seems like i am constantly out of the loop. everyone i live with is in a relationship w each other and i am just here #in every aspect of my life i am Just There and im tired of it #not to sound desperate or needy but i just would like to. be noticed? or feel prioritized? or even wanted #idk this is. i just needed to rant i think im emotional bc my hormones r a bit wack #im due for my testosterone shot in a few days but i dont have the money or time to go to the doctors lately so its being pushed back #a few weeks and its just. i think its messing w me a bit #i mean i feel this way literally all the time but just the like. the being upset and emotional and posting ab it i think is bc of that #idk i needed to get it out idk it this will stay up or not

[cream-and-five-sugars]

Whatever your opinion on dating sims is, I cannot stress enough to experience Doki Doki Literature Club at least once in your lifetime

#it's free. it takes 4 hours to complete. it will change your life #as long as you go in completely blind and NOT give up playing #like even if you want to - DON'T. please trust me #this is super random i know #but i just 100%-ed ddlc plus and omg #just.... the level of mindfuckery of this game #and the depth of its rabbit hole once you start digging into every tiny detail #i LOVE that i can get LOST in that shit #i remember stumbling upon this game a few years ago when it just came out and i was FLOORED #do take those warnings at the beginning seriously tho #personal #gaming

[roaringroa]

oh shit just noticed the only boy i’ve ever been into and who made me question for a long time about being lesbian or bi is liking a suspicious amount of wlw posts on twitter…

👀👀👀👀

…egg?

#not to speculate about his gender/sexuality but… #going through his likes and it’s a lot of sapphic anime fanart (the non overly sexualized ones) a few tweets from sapphic accounts etc #and like it doesn’t necessarily mean anything but i’ve always thought there was something queer about him #and i did ask once or twice if he was gay or bi but he said he thought about it but came to the conclusion that he was only into women #which tracks like he always seemed to genuinely be into girls #like i was his first kiss and it was real cute and he seemed to like it a lot and i did too #even though we never kissed again after that #again not to assign him a gender or whatever but IF he is trans it would explain a few things… #anyway he’s studying abroad so i haven’t seen him in a few years and only keep in contact via twitter so idk how he’s like irl rn #but really wish him the best either way! #also it’s funny that i noticed his likes now cause yesterday i was talking about sexuality with the girl i’m seeing #and i mentioned how he was one of the only things that kept me wondering about being bi until recently #my post #also as as addendum: by only boy i’ve ever been into i mean like after the age of 12 cause before that i had crushes that are prob comphet #OH MY GOD #i was looking through his tweets cause i was trying to see if he's been using any pronouns/gendered words to refer to himself lately #and he doesn't tweet much just likes stuff but a year ago he made a thread about going to a convention and in that thread he said: #'a guy got into the bathroom saw me thought he was in the women's bathroom let's goo' #and then complained about wearing heels for 12 hours for his cosplay #oh yeah #again not to assign a gender but it's looking like trans woman to me #will start adressing them as they/them in my head for now until i see them refer to themselves by gendered pronouns/words again #also their twitter name is their surname and not their given (dead?) name?? yeah... it's looking sus #don't wanna talk about this to anyone i know irl for fear of possibly outing them but dbsoafpdsnf #i wish i could let them know somehow that even though we haven't talked for a while i would support them 100% if they were to transition #it's not my place to do so so i won't but dsaoças sending them good vibes!!!

[coollyinterferes]

//kinda want to do the bingo thingie for speebs just for the funsies and the curiosity, but idek if there would be any interest in it x'd

#[itd be mostly for romantic stuff but itd also be open to platonic if possible(?] #[also pls let me know if you have a bingo for your muse and you'd like me to respond to it!] #[doesn't have to be romantic unless you want it to? but it can def be platonic and just for the fun of it uwu] #[meanwhile fdgfhghj sorry for disappearing last night. my internet died and only came back until like a few hours ago] #[work was hell today so i'll probs be slow with stuff] #[might also try to empty my drafts by rbing stuff i've saved there cause its already past the 3000 mark lol] #[hope everyone's having a wonderful day/night and a lovely weekend as well! <3] #;tbd #;ooc tag

[selfinflictedgunshotwound]

i think i've finally come to understand why i'm so bad at communicating with friends 👍 at one point or another i've thought i was in love with every single person i've ever been friends with (for the most part, at least) because i don't expect other people to like me. OBVIOUSLY this is not true but platonic feelings are not dissimilar to romantic ones (baseline they're the same: you want to love and be loved by someone) but i always end up realizing that i'm not in love with them, just that they matter to me very much and i wouldn't know what do to w/o their presence in my life. BUT this brings me to facet number 2 of my awful communication skills: i hate it when things Get Real. i find myself retreating any time it seems like Something Could Change in my day-to-day life due to them being around and "forcing" the change. i run away from talking to one of my only irl friends on almost a daily basis bc i dread the idea of having to do anything she might want me to do. i think, at the end of the day, my problem might just be that i don't want to change... ANYWAYS

#i actually think the funniest example of this comes from the irl guy friend i think i actually DO have romantic feelings for #i never used to have feelings for him but i always kind of nursed the idea of such a thing (as i said i think i could be in love with most #friends before i realize i'm not - but with him specifically i never had a moment where i realized i... wasn't?) also my previously #aforementioned irl friend kind of insinuated he might have feelings for me or we might end up with one another and now every time i think #abt him i think about THAT so. #anyways a few years ago he came by my house and picked me up and we got ice cream and talked for hours bc we have a lot in common #and he actually manages to keep in contact with me despite how hard it is (how hard i make it) to talk to me on a consistent basis lol #like we don't talk a LOT but he's also the one who convinced me to contact my former other irl best friend that i hadn't talked to in 6 yrs #anyways back to what i was talking abt from a few years ago... it was 4 yrs ago at this point but after the ice cream - i got a job #and we talked a lot - he took me and my irl bff out but she had a HUGE fight with her bf and he tracked her down and it was. a disaster #but after that they made up (lucikly she broke up with him not too long after lmao) but me and him were put in the middle of it #and anyways we went to the mall with the annoying couple LMAO but we broke off and it was just... really nice to be with him? #and then we went to walmart and rented a movie and went back to my irl's apartment and i tried to dye his hair in her bathroom LMAO #and it just felt really natural to be close to him and whatnot. we really get along and i really don't dislike him and i'm not NOT into him #but yeah anyways a few days later he messaged me and asked if he could pick me up from work but i told him no because at that point i was. #afraid. because i had a dream that i had kissed hik and he turned into rick sanchez and drowned LMFAOOO IT SOUNDS RETARDED BUT. #like i think the point of the dream was that if i showed him that i had some kind of feelings for him he would change or die or disappear? #i always assume the worst. but yeah the dream literally put me off so bad that i cut contact with him for almost 2 years #because i was afraid of him and i was afraid of my life changing #idk. maybe i should give it a try now. i'm still scared but you never know. #i at least wanna say 'thanks' for him convincing me to message my friend from 6 years ago so 🤷‍♀️ who knows

[disdaidal]

Okay, so, now my school might be arranging a 2-week on-the-job-learning trip to Portugal in November-December, for those interested in / lack of experience from foreign countries... but I don't know if I can even apply there now because there's a possibility that my schedule could be filled with other kind of stuff that we're supposed to be doing for this degree at the same time, so. 🙃 I'm kinda mad ngl.

#personal #like do i even want to bring this up to my training instructor/supervisor now that we just went through my schedule for the next period #today. a few hours ago in fact. planning all this stuff #so i'd have time to complete some parts that this training requires. qualification-wise i mean. while also having time for myself #because my first period has been kind of tough and it's sucked the juices out of me #because there's a lot of shit there described in the program and we're not even 100% sure what all of them mean. or if i can even #complete them all in the high school where i'm currently training. like jfc #but i've wanted to try this exchange student kind of thing since my teens. but i've never had money or then something else always #came up. but apparently this trip is funded by one international program so i wouldn't necessarily even have to pay for it #at least not a lot. and it's two freaking weeks and we'd be working there too but in a different environment / culture #so not exactly vacation but it's something different. and i'd get to travel and live in another country for a few days and i've kinda misse #so. i kind of really want to apply there #but i don't know... sighs... i don't know

[pixiegrl]

Hello all have confirmed I’m dating woman okay goodbye

#she specifically said that she told her friend that she’s dating a short girl #and I said so dating huh #and we agreed 5 dates is dating #which is different than relationship #which is fine bc between our religious parents mine are tentatively accepting #and hers do not agree or accept at all #and also she’s gone through a lot in the last 3 years #so I’m comfortable with we are dating #but we hung out for 5 hours #and we talked non stop #which is basically all our dates #it’s like random shit and deep personal shit and all the stuff #and she makes me laugh and smile and kisses me and asks if she can #and we hold hands and talk and she says she likes to listen to me ramble #so overall I’m having a fun time #also apparently my moms bff’s son came out to her a few months ago #so I told my mom she could call that friend and have a convo with her #about coping with your gay child and also doing it while Catholic #I think my mom needs it

[bookwyrminspiration]

my dad is suddenly repeatedly facing the fact that how he communicates simply. does not come through for the rest of us we r just not picking up what he is putting down. and he is so baffled and confused he's like guys I told you all this I'm being so clear about this. and we r like. you are so not, sorry </3

#quil's unholy underworld #I found out today. like a few hours ago. that a friend of his was arriving to stay the night today #I knew this was going to happen. had absolutely zero clue when #and when I said that he sat there SO confused and went "i've been saying this all week!' #to WHO because my guy it was not me #and my sister also didn't know so #and when we went to ca he had a trip right before and was like hey that would be a good time to send our knives to be sharpened #and my mom and I were like wow yeah that would be #neither of us did it #and he came back and was like guys I thought I asked you to send the knives? #and we were both like??? you didn't??? #we thought you were planning to do that you were talking about the good timing??? #my family is funky with communication #he's vague and is like yeah they'll pick up what I mean #and we (the other 3 of us) are like hey give me. every single detail in the universe or we won't know what you're saying #it's funny but a little ridiculous #dad. dad please. TELL us

[m0e-ru]

wooga booga

#kommento #// I say this as a smalltown kind of guy I haven't broken this much notes since the aksh post I made over two years ago #// what is going on with the syou community. you can profit so much from shipping communities #// I have literally got to invest in logistics companies but the best I can do is put two characters together #// I take off my uniform and close the gas station and try to be a normal purse owner for one day and you all flock in droves #// nononono this is exactly like the traffic caused when rise came back to inaba LMAO #// I thought souyoians would've hit me over the head by now but apparently there's a market for what im doing oh goodnesss this is so silly #// 'when are we going back to regular business operations' maybe when I relapse but for now I'm going to try and act hashtag Normal #// mimi voice can I come out now. I dint know if im going to wedge those boards out just yet go stay there until I deal with perfectionism #// gopdmorning! thank you for giving me art reqs after the two years I've been asking for them <- litteraly going to get busy again soon #// <- I still love you I'll just spend the next few hours before bed like usual I love you all <- hippie