#they’re idols yeah. they’re also humans with access to the internet and we know damn well they read everything we say to them

[forlix]

i don’t know what the fuck to think or feel. heart feeling so heavy

#think i was clinging to the idea that the boys didn’t know or care about him personally and i still don’t want to think that’s the case but #if we’re being realistic they know. they have to know #and everyone in the comments preaching about how bin doesn’t know anything about p*th outside of music has to be new levels of delusional #they’re idols yeah. they’re also humans with access to the internet and we know damn well they read everything we say to them #chris is on fucking skz tiktok like. wake up #it’s like 50% the fact that it was posted in the first place that’s getting to me and 50% the ignorance and babying in the comments #i just feel like fucking shit. my anxiety hasn’t felt this bad in so long #*musings #don’t even think i’m capable of being impartial or coherent rn i just needed to get this off my chest somewhere #like it’s one thing to collab with him on a professional basis and another to post a selfie like you’re friends #wish this song didn’t exist to be so real