#the end of the day its resolved.

[roryintheir90s]

Watcher/listener/entity Jim but he keeps sneaking out to make sure that in fact his admin (fWhip) is ok and isn't overworking himself.

fWhip IS actually overworking himself, making sure that everything in the server runs smoothly barely having sometimes time for rest between his building and administrating the code. So Jimmy has to force fWhip sometimes to rest, and he makes sure to look over the code himself as fwhip sleeps with his head placed on jimmy thighs.

#They can be so sweet #no one would in any server realized how much they love each other and the bullying and teasing is just that. teasing. fWhip is more then #capable to take care of his admin work and all that but that doesnt mean Jimmy cant help. especially when he HAS the means to. They might #bully each other but at the end of the day theyre lovers. like Jimmy said in the 30 days hardcore smp at some point. No one believes jimmy' #when he calles fWhip his lover. But they didnt have to bc at the end of the day theyre together and they care for eachother and appriciate #one another. There are ofc rough places. The both of them can be SOOOOO nasty to each other and they both sometimes act like donkeys. but a #the end of the day its resolved. #No one actually realizes how much the both of them needs eachother #anyway #fwhimmy #fish husbands #jimmy solidarity #fwhip #.txtpst #AU'S talk

[time-is-restored]

btw not to make everything about My Fucking Guy but i honestly think one of the things that seperates q!phil out from the other islanders is the approach he takes to dealing with the lack of agency + control all the islanders have over whatever the fuck the federation's doing.

it shows up most prominently whenever tubbo is excitedly telling him about the 'progress' he's made with cucurucho or various investigations (ie: trapping him into a corner with the 'do you have free will' questions), and phil always shoots it down w an immediate 'that doesn't mean anything. curucuho will say anything to mess with you. you can't take anything he says as true.'

and it's not that phil is... a paticularly pessimistic character? he's just EXTREMELY practical. like, he's yet to give up on anyone EVER finding ANY answers (he was the one who initially gave the federation that one week ultimatum w the cage for a cage stream), he just doesn't trust the idea that curucuho is ever going to voluntarily give them. they're uncontrollable + senseless - you might as well argue with the weather.

and like, if that's how he sees the one (1) and only point of contact the islanders HAD with the federation for months, it explains a lot abt his characters lifestyle! ofc he sits on the wall all day, talking to his kids, and keeping his head down. he believes that the federation wants nothing more than to drag the islanders into sick games + tasks just so they can fuck with their head (ie: curucuho revealing he was the one cellbit gathered all that information for). and while he can't totally PREVENT any of that from ever impacting him, he can make sure his kids are well fed, well protected, and as happy + comfortable as he can manage. this is objectively not a perfect situation, there is a guaranteed amount of suffering + fear that he can't mitigate, but he can at least account for it.

like, he REFUSES to engage. whenever curucho shows up, he treats them with total ambivalence. he's not going to get riled up by anything they do, he's not going to get super attached to the guy, he's just gonna laugh it off and irish goodbye it when things drag on. the ONLY time he's strayed from that general guiding principle has been since he's lost his eggs, and can no longer afford to let the federation's fuckery go: those are his fucking kids.

hence the completely unprecedented levels of outward rage and sadness and terror he shows throughout the birdcage streams - almost all directed directly to cucurucho. it's all a completely fair + proportional response to the horror the islanders are being subjected to, but it feels so different bc until now, q!phil has been so dedicated to not reacting, and not giving the federation any sign that they're actually getting to him.

#qsmp #q!phil #LIKE. does anyone else think this! i genuinely believe its like one of the major #traits of his character i feel like u can trace it through Everything. #the man lives with the constant knowledge that sometimes all it takes is a tempting ravine and a badly timed creeper to end a life #whether that life belongs to a stranger or someone you love more than anything else in the world #you COULD rage against that. you could scream and shout and tear your hair out and grieve for the futility of it all #but what does that change? the days march on. death waits either way #and that's not to say he's a laizesfair kind of guy. anyone who's seen him stress out abt chayanne's risk taking + freak out #whenever his kids don't have enough autofeed grist can see that he cares DEEPLY. which resolves into his very distinctive #defensive + protective playstyle. the goal is not to win the fight the goal is to *survive* the fight etc #but the only way that mindset doesn't spill out into unchecked paranoia + complete agoraphobia is with acceptance #'shit happens: the philza minecraft story' #i also think it even manifests in the nightmare sequence w his last words to chayanne? 'they didn't want us to live. we were never supposed #to survive' or whatever the exact wording was #he is FURIOUS and deeply hurt and sad abt the deaths he says so explicitly later #but at the time the first thing he reaches for is. exhausted acceptance. it wasn't their fault. it wasn't his fault. they did their best. #they could only do so much in the face of the federation's Overwhelming Hostility. y'know? #mine

[infizero]

last day of omori on the true route is kinda funny the way u go into it because sunny is in the middle of experiencing the most insane ego death and then he wakes up and is like mmm yay eggs and bakey thanks hero

#serena.txt #ITS JUST FUNNY TO ME LMAO #that the dreamworld segment then ends with the part with omori sitting on the throne and then sunny wakes up #and has yummy wonderful breakfast w kel and hero like nothings wrong LOL #omori #edit i forgot he wakes up in the middle of the night first. STILL FUNNY THO cause that shit is still not resolved the whole last day

[thenon-fictiondays]

See, that's where he's wrong. I think it's actually.... just as difficult to be the one who's being pulled as it is to be the one trying to pull. It's actually really, really tough to be the object of your friend's affection. It's hard enough being pursued by someone you don't care about, but to be wanted by someone you do care about? To be put in a position where you either have to force yourself to have feelings you don't or hurt someone you care about? To feel like you have no choice but to either betray your own feelings or your friend's? It sucks. It sucks and it can ruin friendships. I would actually prefer to be the person trying to convince someone to fall for me than the person who someone else is trying to convince to fall for them tbh

#I've always been a bit overprotective of Hirano #bc i know all too well how much it sucks to be in this position #I've spoken about this before and i will again but honestly I'm not sure how i want kghr to resolve!! #im not sure i do actually want them to end up in a classic romantic relationship #[hides behind brick wall] #i know in my head his feelings are going to change #but im protective of the feelings he has now that know he doesn't want to be with kagi yet #i don't want those feelings to just be ignored #but luckily harusono-sensei writes in such a way that takes into consideration the characters feelings #(does that sound arrogant to say? lol) #so i trust that however the story goes its going to feel good #one of these days I'll write this post out in a more cohesive way bc I've been thinking about this for like a year and a half now lmao #kagihira #kagihira liveblogging

[snazzi-strawberri-artz]

AUUUGHH IM FINALLY DONE WITH MY MAGICIA SOCIETY ANIMATIC THAT I STARTED EVER SINCE LAST YEAR!!😭😭

This is my first time FINISHING a proper animatic so im immensly proud of this and makes me wanna make more in the future perhaps!!

BUT YES THIS IS ABOUT EDWARD AND SOLOMON HAVING AN ARGUEMENT IN A MAGIC LIBRARY LETSGO

#magic society story #IM FINALLY DONE AAAAA #THIS ANIMATIC ALWAYS PLAGUES ON THE BACK OF MY MIND FR #Like thered be sudden bursts of motivation and i finish like 30 percent and then BOOM the project is left in the dust and THEN i get a sudde #burts of motivation and so on!!! #BUT I MIRACULOSULY FINISHED THE STUFF FROM 1:40 TO THE END IN TWO DAYS #AAAAAAA #ANYWAYS IM FREE FROM MY SHACKLES #but yeah you can kind of tell that its been done in varying times because of the style and skill difference HAHA #BUT OH WELL ITS DONE #OH ALSO i used csp and davinci resolve which is like an editing software #and im quite surprised how well it can make aninmatics #while yes there are limitations in using an editing software like not being able to make smoother movement and all #plus the extra work in making the art in csp and transferring ALL of the seperate parts in the software and having to move all the parts😭 #BUT i think thats the most fun thing for me! moving all the parts and seeing how they all work together in the end!! #But yeAH!!! HOPEFYULLY THE NEXT ANIMATIC I MAKE DOESNT LAST A YEAR AGAIN!!! >:DDD

[salsa-di-pomodoro]

Alright. Guess the submas tag is still full of angst 👍🏼

#i keep making the same mistake in a feeble attempt to invalidate what my mind throws at me #i get to be upset over a whole new thing instead 🎉🤸 #its either that or im far too sensible to anything that could have an even vaguely negative connotation #like man its gotten so bad that i literally cant handle angst if it doesn't have an immediate happy ending or the promise of one #and i see a piece of angst and end up thinking about it all day in an attempt to imagine a way that could end in it being resolved #and then try and convince myself that it is the only reasonable conclusion #like come on brain. i just want to think about them building a train lego set as a re-bonding activity post hisui #why you gotta give me all this angst :( #.wait is this an ocd moment #or is it something else. guys anyone have the same experience oh my god? #should i tell my therapist my thought process... #personal #am i putting this in the tag. i am putting this in the tag #submas #i just want the certainty that he gets home and both he and emmet have a good time after is that truly too much to ask gamefreak #i dont even care if theyre changed over the years or not i just want them to be happy with themselves and each other. vibing together

[srkgirlblogger]

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#the day was going so well until my mom decided to be mean to me for no reason in a piblic space where i was already feeling scared and over #stimulated. i wanted to try out the skateboards in decathlon but there were too many people and i got scared. and my mom suddenly said that #the skateboard that she was going to buy for me after/on my birthday. she had decided to buy now. since we were alr in theshop and i said no #way bec i hadnt decided which one i wanted yet and i was soo panicked. and then after some time when id calmed down a bit and was gonna try #to skate anyways she started questioning me abt when i planned on peacticing and where i was gonna do it and i obviously just started saying #things that i thought she would approve of. and then she told me i didnt have the time management skills or resolve to make it work. and she #just kept on passive aggressively bullying me until i just couldnt do it anymore and i told her i wanted go leave the store bc she was #spoiling the mood. and then she started bullying me louder and she told me to stop blaming her bc she was only asking me a question and she #didn't want to waste any more money on things that i wasnt gonna do even though ive wanted a skateboard for years now and have been actively #asking her for months. and i just lost my emergy and my appetite and i wanted to leave the mall and go home but insteaf she gook us to a #bagel place that ive been trying to get her to take us even though i felt like throwing up before we even left the mall and i told her i #didnt want to go there. and my brother even told her that she was ruining things for everyone. and he still ended up blaming me in the end. #but whatever. i kept getting flashbacks to insanely traumatic moments where shed yelled at or bullied me or cornered me or tried to #embarass me in public. and this is most likely my last year at home. and my last year of childhood. and its all going to be remembered in my #brain as underwhelming and depressing and mostly horrible. and im going to leave home and never cone back and my last year at home is going #to be just as shitty as every other year and ill just have to deal with that and try to build something good and new and kind when i leave #she shouldnt speak to her own children like this. she shouldnt be looking for reasons to make things miserable for me all the time like this #i should study. my head hurts. my entire body hurts so bad #delete later

[mothram]

#diana's music diary #good morning #i slept early #it was nice #very cozy #I only slept like 4 hours though cause I had to get up for a delivery... also I'm posting this a couple of hours after waking... #as is becoming usual for these... I've been kind of vibing to music pretty much... #anyway yesterday was good but so exhausting... played lethal company with friends like I'd said which was really fun!! was a little bit of #process getting my bearings in it since I'd seen maybe one second of gameplay before but after a day or two in game I picked it up I'd say! #I mostly just ran away when I saw something scary but I tried scanning a monster and it opened the door which made me scream once ahaha #after that I was a lil tired but we ended up having a session of the project moon ttrpg I'm in kind of out of nowhere #it was short but v fun to play Frei again he kind of completely shut down the distortion singlehandedly which was surprising considering he #has no combat capability.. incapacitated them and read its mind which helped us figure out what we needed to do to resolve the distortion #-peacefully! my partners character did the actual resolving cause Frei is terrified of going near anything as gross as that distortion was #(it was a giant gross greasy burger monster. who was just bob from bobs burgers. he ended up in a polycule with linda and teddy after.) #Frei also read my partners characters mind a bit and maybe upset him a little by mentioning his daughter (her character is divorced lol) #anyway yeah... I was tired after both of those so I kinda got in bed and passed out quickly while listening to music... #idk what I'll do today I'm a bit sore still and I'm v sick and tired rn so I'll probably just relax a bit... #let's make today nice and cozy and good... love u friends thank u for reading <3

[catboyclarity]

venting about ptsd stuff

like No traditional grounding technique really works on me (thats why i ask for OC questions really frequently they're one of the only things that Does work on me) and it's awful cuz 1. im like well if the grounding techniques don't work is really PTSD 2. i keep TRYING but they don't work and then its awful bc its STUPID that WORKS every book and tv show and whatever that gets praised for its depiction of PTSD HAS THAT WORK if it works for KATNISS EVERDEEN why can't it WORK FOR ME and it's horrible spiral. and idk it sucks.

i just feel so helpless in the face of it all and that it's like a personal failing. idk i got more emdr on friday i really hope i see improvement soon.

#there's definitely a convo i want to have someday about how ptsd is depicted in media primarily either as a plot device or as a like #prescriptive teachable moment about how you SHOULD handle it if you have PTSD and the PTSD symptoms always have to be like #resolved nicely #which on one level is fine and im sure thats helpful for ppl who aren't me but like. idk lotta times im just triggered/activated #the rest of the day til i sleep. a lot of times i spend days or weeks with my brain mostly Gone. and its not the end of the world #and my life is still worth living. #different convo though.

[epicdogymoment]

the “hijikata gets abducted and turned into a literal dog” scenarios i keep turning over in my mind....................................

#leologisms #gintama #konhiji dependency realness..................... #including gags such as 'wow being barked at by your vice commander and being Barked At by your vice commander isnt all that different at the #end of the day' and sougo puts a collar on him again and playing fetch with kondou and being out on patrol all day (he is getting walkies) #and. oh idk. sadaharu thinks hes weird. idk. *gintoki voice* 'wow so you guys finally decided to actually gets yourselves an actual mutt you #bakufu dogs. hey he kinda looks like' #oh. and. wow your vice commander (dog) getting turned into a literal dog is fun and games until you guys have to actually fight people and #your dog emerges dripping blood from its muzzle and #related: thinking about that one fic that was like 'hijikata probably ate random animals before he met kondou. peoples unfortunate pet cats' #no clue how this resolves by the way. would ideally be written from Not Hijikatas Perspective but also i need access to his inner monologue #oh. it would probably close with a 'he still plays fetch after being transformed back' gag or something #also this is all hypothetical. i doubt id ever write this

[devotedlystrangewizard]

what does it say about me as like. a person. that my first thought whenever im writing fanfic. is that i need to make these people have a terrible time

#no one in this goddamn room will be happy until i say so #which stops working when i um. also want them to have happy endings #by all accounts it would be beautiful to have them pining until one of them dies. leaving behind the other to regret never saying anything #but also that would upset me because i need thetis to have like. a happy moment. somewhere. #its not fun to make them miserable if theres no happiness to take from them. you know #like yes i could do requited unrequited & i could do one of them dying before a confession & i could kill of thetis's entire family #but whats the POINT. IF THEYRE NOT HAPPY. #having them die pining is depressing but having them die shortly after that mutual pining has been resolved. #to give them a glimmer of hope only to drag it away from them do you get me #someone who never had any hope wont have the same degree of despair as one who did #(every time i talk about despair i see junko in my mind) #also i just can't stand unresolved things so making them die pining hurts ME physically and thats not whats meant to happen #maybe one day ill actually upload enough thetis content to ao3 so that people will understand what im doing here

[qqchurch]

*tries to write a random smut idea but I had to spend 3k words setting things up before I get to the part where the crossdressing femboy detective gets it*

#and its now 4am so i guess i need to get to it in another day (tomorrow) #its sort of urban fantasy with a mix of horror to spice things up #and it also involves tentacles sooooo yeah #given the rough outline i have for it in my head i might hit 20k+ for this oneshot #cause i have to resolve the 'case' as well so it wont just be a Bad End for the MC #this is what happens when the brainfog from my flu lifts #i get into this sort of bullshit immediately

[disneyprincette]

OH?

#god i’m super tempted but i’ve been playing all day and i feel like i reached a decent stopping point- #but man i keep thinking ‘oh its probably just gonna end and be a little extra thing’ but it keeps going… #if this is going to lead to a more… resolved-feeling? resolution then i will lose my mind over it #either way though it’s pretty cool!! #aini spoilers/

[lorenlily]

mamma mia and mamma mia here we go again 💗

mamma mia

never seen it | need to see it | hate it | ugh | it was okay | LOVED IT | asdfghjkl

mamma mia here we go again

never seen it | need to see it | hate it | ugh | it was okay | LOVED IT | asdfghjkl

put a film in my ask

#ohmygod comfort movies fr #i could rewatch them all day long #and the second one made me cry so much when donna appeared at the end 😭 #why did it have to be me and the choreography for it!!!! #so are we all in agreement that its a bit obvious bill is biologically her father #but theyre all her fathers tho and i remember watching it for the first time and that being the resolve i was so happy #what becomes of curious minds*

[butcharyastark]

puccis death is such bullshit if any jojo villain has ever deserved redemption its him i will KILL on this hill

#[tearing my hair out] ITS A METAPHOR ITS PARALLELS ITS THE END OF THE CYCLE ITS RETURNING KINDNESS TO THE LEGACIES OF THOSE WHO BURNED YOU #ITS CHOOSING TO STOP THE CYCLE AND GROWIGN AND BEING REBORN AND HEALING TRAUMAS AND MAYBE THE WORLD WILL DIE MAYBE IT COMES TOO LATE #BUT MAYBE ITS IMPORTANT ANYWAY. MAYBE THE FORGIVENESS IS THE POINT. MAYBE THE FAITH AND LOVE TWISTED ALONG THE WAY INTO GRIEF AND RESOLVE #CAN TURN AROUND AGAIN. MAYBE WE CAN STILL HEAL HERE AT THE END. MAYBE WE CAN HOLD HANDS AS THE SUN SETS ON THE LAST DAY OF EARTH AND SAY #YOU DIDNT DESERVE IT. AND I DIDNT EITHER. AND ITS OVER. ITS ALL OVER. #[beating my fists on the ground like someone dying] FUCK!!!!!!!! #my post #jojo #araki is a coward and a fool fuck araki all my friends hate araki why didnt david productions hire ME

[toppamplemousse]

Everytime I need a little angst I read My beloved, neither do I and I cry a little bit😭😭

ahhhhh this is so so sweet 💕💕 always stressful to have such an angsty fic so i am so so so glad to hear this 🥹 THANK U <3

(and don't worry, there's a fic or two with plenty of angst on its way soon hehe)

link to my beloved

#putting this in the tags but like #its stressful bc people love happy endings and want the angst to be resolved which like obv yes #but. it is SO fun to write it where it isnt resolved :/ it doesnt work out and it sucks for everyone :/ #after this was published we were like. ok next couple HAVE to be happy endings #anyway thank u anon this has made my day to know people still go back and read it <3 #my beloved was the first fic so it holds a small place #ty ty ty #my beloved #mbndy #asks