#the absolute gut punch of a realization that you still Can suffer through the menial alone. but you dont Want to

[coulson-is-an-avenger]

no thoughts head empty just the hermann fic i wrote in my head while driving home last night

#like ok i was thinking abt tropes w disabled characters bc a lot of them are like what if they Had to rely on their able bodied counterpart #and like ok that Can be done well but also. also #what if they woke up and realized with a start that they Wanted to reach out and ask for assistance on smth #like for someone to get him water when it hurts too much to get up. to get his cane when it falls while he’s doing calculations #and like. that’s something you’ve always done alone. you’ve never even let yourself imagine someone helping you- even when you really neede #the absolute gut punch of a realization that you still Can suffer through the menial alone. but you dont Want to #you WANT to reach out. to ask for something. to put yourself in an exposed position that’s very literally physically vulnerable bc what- #you trust them? you want to let yourself ask? how utterly frightening and desirable that is all at once #idk i have such a sharp image in my head of it and im just sitting at my work computer like hngnngmgnmf #anyways i had to get this out or i was gonna explode HSGSJDJSJ #mossy speaks #personal #pacific rim #moss goes off in the tags #its abt the 3am glass of water and the song in our bedroom after the war