#the best day of my entire life . bfbdbdbhsshgghkr

[bewby]

everyday literally everydayyyy i think about how the way i experience the world will never be as good as i thought it would be. and when i think back to things being "nice" it's nostalgia tricking me 🤣🤣 like it will never actually be good and feel as amazing as i fantasize about it makes me so sad. nothing will ever be as exciting as these made up feelings i have attached to memories. or. media. the real world is literally hell and everyone tells you to just keep going . and i get it. but. why can't things actually feel like they do when i think back to them. in my mind. like all warm and fuzzy . ok whatever i'm gonna eat

#the only times i genuinely felt like i was in a fucking fairytale was when i met my ex kfjxjjj #like i always say this but when we first met it literally was only like 2 hours and we just walked around my city and that was still #the best day of my entire life . bfbdbdbhsshgghkr #in that time. the world Didn't exist to me And when i first saw him it was like a glitch happened mid air like it was. WOW #being in love really is the best thing ever but i wish i could feel that happy outside of romantic relationships too. god this is another #issue i have. like i never find that kind of happiness in friendships #and i mean it makes sense that romance makes you feel More. but. i want to be able to have proper friendships and feel happy in them too #AUGHHHGH maybe one day #i just need people who understand how i can get distanr and easily exhausted bdjdvsvshsv