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inkyquince · 8 months

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please inky, continue w your thought about ex-husbands and divorce.. pleaseee expand omfg your mind is so big i just wanna chomp on it 😞

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characters. Avery. Remy. Bailey. (Degrees of Lewdity)

yeah, so content warning, toxic behaviour, mention of sex after some wine so that's hinted to be dubcon as hell, angst, especially with mister Hay Bales. also bailey's section has a shit ton of coercion, and its implied reader is remarried.

okay, so camp "I signed, but I'm mad now" of divorced husband is very much Avery, Remy, Bailey vibes.

So, Avery didn't MEAN to sign the papers. He was just so fucking seething that he did it out of spite. Fucking throwing the papers at you and tells you to get the fuck out of his house. What I love about Avery, at any moment, he could be in either camp, ngl. Either he'd fight for his reputation, and would never even let you show him the papers, or you get him so riled up, he does it out of pure anger and wanting revenge.

Anyways, his rep does take a blow, but he doesn't care, mans is running off pure spite for the entirety of the divorce proceedings. The moment he realises he needs to pay alimony? Wishes that he could go over to you and throttle you.

But when that anger simmers down? When he's gotten his fill of booze, whore and spite?

Mans is fucking LONELY. He's still angry, but its just general anger at the situation. Look, if you were still an orphan, he'd just get a new sugar baby. Who give a shit. Yeah, it undoes the work he did on you and he doesn't look as forward to date nights as he did, but this is different. You were his spouse. His ex-spouse now, but his spouse. He bared his fucking soul to you. You two had a good fucking life. Just had a few issues he refused to look at. You two were the perfect couople in the town's eyes, how would they have reacted to you two going to counselling?

It's too late though. He swings widly between being a fucking monster of an ex, forcing you to go back to the house to "pick up some stuff" and telling the town that you cheated on him, that's why you two divorced, to sending you gifts on your anniversary and your birthday. Phones you at night, and his voice is so low and sweet, and murmuring that he misses you.

Worse than Avery? Remy.

Remy is the rich bitch town icon that Avery wishes he was. He has you sign a prenup, then you get to live his fucking wealthy ass life. He's a cold ass fucker, so when you want to work on the marriage, he snidely mentions if you don't like it, leave him. Then he's shocked-face when you do. Then to get back at you, he's the one who gets the divorce papers. To get back at him, you sign them. To get back at you, he signs them. To get back at him, you file them.

To get back at you, motherfucker makes sure you get nothing from him in the divorce.

After all the stupid ass shit he pulls, he's fucking annoyed now. You were his other half, the only person he'd ever kneel down for. So, he's a frigid little bitch of an ex husband. But he's also such a fucker.

Like, he's will be so aloof and cold with you, and then idly offer a glass of wine to share when you have to come over to sign for some stuff. Evening ends with him three fingers deep in you, stroking you the way you like it, sucking at your neck greedily.

The treatment he gives you, when its just the two of you, is like the shiny red apple he would hold up to your lips. This is what you could have. But his behaviour away from those times is the stick. This is what you get for leaving him. Trying to usher you back into the estate and spread your legs for him, and only him again.

Bailey? Bailey. Bailey gives the vibes that you two married very young. When there was a spark of hope, and with very few good things in his life, he made sure to put a ring on the one thing that did.

However, he changes over time, becoming the ruthless caretaker of the orphanage, a terrifying criminal, and a worse man. You weren't a soft spot, you were a vulnerable one. Bailey would have had to have some sort of gentleness to him if you were a soft spot. You were a weakness, an achilles heel had had to smother and keep hiddden.

And sadly, that is no way to live.

So seperation. Then divorce. Then he doesn't show up to the court appointment. He pays alimony. He doesn't blink at anything, just takes it in stride, sometimes sneering at you.

But he isn't explosive. He isn't cold. He's just Bailey.

You see him once a month, coming to deliver your half of the money each time. You doubt it's just to see you again, even when you move on with your life and he stays in the orphanage you two always used to hate, and plan to escape from. Maybe its because he enjoys the looks the bankers give you when you have to pull out a shit ton of ironed out bills, taken from his orphans' hands, and put directly into yours.

But, you're still his. Your life hasn't changed at all from when you two were together. The only difference is that he no longer spends two or three nights sleeping next to you anymore.

Because you can't say no to Bailey.

You could be wearing a wedding ring, you could be tired from staying up with your baby, you could be so far into a new, happier life, but it doesn't matter. He doesn't trust whores, paid or not, he hates clubbing, and even with the most tender of sore spots, all they need it a slow, gentle massage.

So you have to drop everything for him. He doesn't give a shit what you could be doing. Bailey has an ache that needs seeing to. Fuck it, he'd go to your house, or get a room, but wouldn't force you back to the orphanage, at least for a long time.

You let him into your body again and again, his rough thrusts no different than when you two still shared a wedding ring. He bites your shoulder, he presses your face into the pillows, and spanks your thighs with his belt.

You never dared to tell him that you won't be able to join him for this stress relievers he seems to rely on. God knows what he'd do. Not to you, you don't take a screw driver to your knee when your sore spot acts up, but everything around you? Your spouse, your job, your life?

So you let him in.

One day he does demand that you go to the orphanage again. You could fight it all you want, but you have to go. There, he fucks you in the attic, just like that time all those years ago, and you decided he was the one you wanted to give your virginity to.

It's the closest he gets to whispering that he wants you back.

#nsft #dol #quincewrites #avery the businessperson #remy the farmer #bailey the caretaker #degrees of lewdity #ask

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fanfoolishness · 4 years

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Steven Universe: Future thoughts

Spoilers for the first four episodes below the jump! All sorts of rambling ahead! Please message me or reblog to share your thoughts, I wanna talk about it all!

I’ll try to organize things by episode. I won’t be able to rewatch them until they go up on Apple TV so this is all off the cuff. AHOY!

1x01 Little Homeschool

Steven has White, Blue and Yellow essences in his bathroom cupboard. Maybe keep a bottle of your own spit just to be safe? You never know?

Aww Cherry Quartz is cute. Did she actually get named? I assume that’s who that is.

I had thought that shot in the trailer was going to be Pink Smoky Quartz. I was wrong, but then we DO get Pink Smoky Quartz next episode ahhhh!

We all know Steven drew that picture of himself and the Diamonds on the brochure.

I like to think that Steven keeps up with his drawing during quiet times, and while he isn’t technically great, most 16-year-old artists aren’t great per se. What’s important is that he keeps doing it and he’ll keep getting better!

Little Homeschool looks awesome and I want to go make some morps with Vidalia. Wait, were Lapis and Peridot there? I don’t remember. They should be!

I’m so glad Jasper isn’t the big bad!!! And I love that she’s just antisocial but not actively harming anyone (beetles and grass aside).

Still no explanation for the blanket, I love it

STEVEN GO OFF, YOU TELL HER NOT TO HURT THAT BEETLE

Whoa Steven, that rage is juuuuust below the surface these days, isn’t it? I get being annoyed at Jasper and I’m sure this isn’t the first time they’ve had this discussion but he really does just go off on her pretty damn quickly, and several times.

I am concerned that he referenced her corrupting herself. I DON’T WANT CORRUPTED STEVEN Y’ALL, this better not be foreshadowing!!!!!

Honestly Jasper just needs to get into wrestling, I’m shocked Amethyst and Steven haven’t pointed this out to her

I’m dying at her attacking all the Earthlings in her little radius

Awww Steven, at first he’s really intrigued by Diamond Mode and wants to learn how to use it better. So optimistic!

Except you totally killed about 10 conifers and only healed one, so way to hurt the forest dude

Am I the only one wondering how conflicted Dr. Maheswaren must feel, knowing Steven can heal all this crazy shit and that a) she’s toiling at doing it the old-fashioned way, b) he could really help her patients, and c) he isn’t?

Looking forward to seeing Steven and Jasper talk again, but I really hope it’s not because Steven’s been corrupted and is trying to get over it. Urrrgh no ;_;

I do want to see if she has tips for how to control anger. Or how to use it and learn from it. But I’m not sure she knows either.

Steven is a shark. Because if he’s not swimming, he’s sinking. And swimming to him is helping people. If he can’t do that, if he can’t do what he’s supposed to do in his mind, what is he doing? He’s gonna sink this season and it’s gonna be FUCKING SPECTACULAR.

1x02 Guidance

Amethyst is so proud of herself! It’s awesome!

Steven is clearly a little uncomfortable that he didn’t come up with the idea, isn’t he? He also has a hard time figuring out that there are ways to use what you’re made for instead of having to run from it. Of course, that isn’t true for everyone. Little Larimar did love screams and children more than ice. The best lesson is that people are different, some are comfortable working in a certain zone whereas others need to struggle past it to feel complete.

Amethyst was sitting in front of the Teens of Rage video game. I FEEL THIS WILL BE SIGNIFICANT Y’ALL.

I’m just so glad Mr. Smiley finally isn’t understaffed. He could take a day off and go visit Mr. Frowny!

Uncle Andy is back! Yay! And he’s getting involved with Beach City in general, I’m really happy to see him putting down some roots.

Smoky Quartz is back!

PINK SMOKY HOLY SHIT LOOK AT THEM GO

Love love love the pink/purple asides for the Steven and Amethyst debate while being Smoky Quartz

TIME SLOWING/SUPER SPEED POWERS??? I WAS NOT PREPARED

The roller coaster exploded IN THE OCEAN I can’t EVEN

So far both Steven and Amethyst are intrigued and impressed by Diamond Mode, and sure, it seems harmless now...

Steven is worried he’s losing his touch helping people. That makes me worried that that’s part of a bigger feeling, not just this particular snafu.

Amethyst being so direct is often the one who gets closest to Steven talking about his feelings. He started to go there, but then Little Larimar showed up again with their terrifying talk about screams....

1x03 Rose Buds

I’m really glad Greg and the Gems aren’t giving Steven shit about not wanting Rose to be looming over him in portrait form. Now if y’all will also TALK to Steven about how he feels about it... but at least they’re okay with him removing the portrait.

HOOOOOOLY SHIT Y’ALL

I’m so happy J-10 and Y-6 are back!

OMFG they are NOT over Greg and it’s amazing

GAH-REG HOW COULD YOU

I’m glad the Zoomans are in control of their own destiny and able to go where they wish!

no no no no no no no no no no we all know what’s coming here

Coming face to face with Rose Quartzes = instant KO for one Steven Universe

I almost had a panic attack with him as the Roses clustered around him and the music got tenser and tenser and the camera zoomed in on his face and that was fucking INTENSE PEOPLE

Greg seeing the Roses and just noping the fuck outta there, amazing, everyone in this family is so repressed

Poor Garnet and Pearl hiding in the bathroom

“Yeah, it’s weird”

Poor Rose Quartz-who-most-looks-like-our-Rose-Quartz, it’s clear she is much more emotionally in tune than the other two (due to her belly gem placement?)

STEVEN GOT NEW PAJAMAS

but let him sleep shirtless you cowards!

Also he just looked... so GROWNUP in that scene by the warp pad? His proportions were just no longer little kidlike? And he is still cutely beefy but not really little-kid chubby anymore and teen me would have had it BAD for him at this point, I’m just sayin’

Steven is S O O O O S T R E S S E D R I G H T N O W

he’s eating his fucking blanket in an attempt to not talk about his problems I CAN’T

also HAVE WE NOTICED that Steven will eventually end up telling strangers at least some of what’s bothering him, but never the people who actually love and care about him

this episode was so damn tense it is masterful

I’m glad they managed to talk things out a little

but clearly Steven is still, as always, just scratching the surface, this poor kid just needs to GO OFF.

did he go pink in this one from stress for a second? Or was that the next one?

1x04 Volleyball

You cannot tell me that that white coat is not a hand-me-down from Dr. Maheswaren, it is CANON IN MY MIND

also damn how many Gems are cracking themselves right and left that this needs to happen regularly?

seriously though Steven, you might just want to get a spittoon and start sending one to every hospital ever, you would undo A LOT of human suffering....

Steven honey I’m so sorry your mom did you so wrong and I’m so sorry you’re so scared of everything to do with her and NONE OF IT IS YOUR FAULT OKAY

but maybe also you need to learn how to face some of this stuff so it doesn’t scare you so badly

Poor Pink Pearl!

Volleyball? Seriously Steven? so insensitive how do you know Pink didn’t throw a volleyball at her head

Poor Pearl and Volleyball feeling so jealous about each other

Volleyball is 8000 years old?? damn how old was Pink?

oooooooh the Reef! so cool and mysterious! Look at all those Pearl possibilities!

So Pink damaged her Pearl, and she sent her to the Reef for repair. They fixed her gem, but when she reformed, the trauma was still so severe that she reformed with the crack. Oh man :(

Now again I don’t want Corrupted Steven but you could probably wrangle that into support for the theory.

I prefer to think that Steven will do something different than straight-up Corruption to himself, but we could see something like the crack form instead of Corruption.

Willing himself into a monster form only works if he thinks of himself completely as a monster. Right now he thinks Pink is the monster, and he thinks, finally, that he isn’t Pink. So either he’d have to really hurt somebody and then view himself as a monster, or, my preference, he would develop something like a scar or pink eyes or stay pink all the time or something until he’s figured out his issues.

I JUST DON’T WANT HIM TO HAVE HORNS, YOU GUYS.

Pearl WAS protecting Volleyball from Steven oh NOOOOO

STEVEN SONIC SCREAM

So we’ve got Diamond Mode Strength, Super Speed, and Sonic Scream, man oh man oh man

this finally makes sense because all the other Diamonds have such well-developed offensive powers

Pink must have been like “no those are dangerous I don’t want them, what else can I do” and developed her healing powers secretly

I always wondered why the Diamonds never recognized Rose Quartz’s healing tears or shield as belonging to Pink

And it must be that she never showed it to them

They maybe only knew about her offensive powers

MEGA PEARL IS SO BEAUTIFUL AND WISE AND HER RIBBON DANCING IS SO MAGNIFICENT AND I LOVE THEM JUST TAKE CARE OF EACH OTHER YOU TWO

I can’t believe we got a new fusion so quickly!!!!

Fuck that bitch Shell amirite

look, someone help Steven.

Please help Steven.

HELP. STEVEN.

No new trailer for next week???? COWARDS

omg someone please please scream about all this with me

#steven universe spoilers #steven universe future #steven universe future spoilers #suf spoilers #suf #steven universe: future #steven universe: future spoilers #spoilers #steven universe #su:f spoilers #su:f #haha i have tagged this to high heaven #it's a long-ass post!#please feel free to message me or reblog to share your own thoughts!!!!#fanfoolishness su meta

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groomgore-a · 7 years

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hhey i miss talking abt hcs and shit and this has a shittily drawn visiual but blease understand i have nothing but a mouse lads BUT ANYWAY headcanon talking. specifically under my main / tailor verse as i use that often despite interacting with characters outside the ou//tlst verse more

ANYWAY. eddie. eddie’s still a fucking prick as usual, yet of course at least less unstable in comparison to him in the asylum ( bc honestly the machine had done WAAAY too much damage to him ) yet he’s still the sappy, old, lovesick and eloquent, pretentious ass bastard that we all know. but! he has a tailor shop named g/luskin’s tailoring ( v fucking original i KNOW lads ) which was originally his mother’s shop or at least his entire family’’s. of course, despite his mother’s death, he has to carry on w/ the business.

as most of the on going threads that i have in this verse present, he appears as a very gentleman-type of guy. he’s eloquent and very polite to all his customers and loves his job dearly. yet, of course, this is eddie we’re talking about, so this bitch has something in store for y’all

he’s...a murderer. ok kidding that was already obvious i think. he was never suspected of it though despite him managing to find a way to hide the bodies and this and that. his kind guise also adds up to the effect here, so he’s an uncaught murderer that’s for sure. BUT ANOTHER THING IS, like canon eddie, he’s also desperate to find a bride/wife. so what does he do to those he’s fond of? he fucking kidnaps them.

he only has one victim at a time, of course. he wishes to stay loya to one. but since the guy has anger issues and sometimes isn’t able to control them when they push his buttons he resorts to murder. not immediately though, at first attempts of his victim ‘disobeying’ him he abuses them both physically and verbally ( throwing of slurs / hitting w/ a belt or smth / shoving their head in water,etc. ) so he can ‘train’ them to learn how to obey him. or like, wife training, same thing w/ his asylum verse but he won’t really do it if it isn’t too necessary. he can simply lecture them if it’s a small thing ( breaking smth by accident and anything close to that. BIG punishments include them running away and talking back to him )

another thing to note is, though, he handicaps his victims even if they’ve ‘’’sworn to never leave him’’’’ due to his paranoia that they WILL definitely leave him even w/o any given evidence. sometimes even at the SLIGHTEST movement or like, look of them wanting to lead will lead him to hurt the other thinking they really do want to leave, which he doesn’t want.

fklmsfs i’ll write more about this soon i’m so sleepy rn omfg that ruined that mood

#mun art //#non con //#i dont know what to tag this HELP #also YES thi sis inspired by the last thing i rbged #or at least form my queue ajkfmasfjf #❝ ❤ ﹡ . · ᴛʀᴀɢᴇᴅʏ ﹕ ᴛʜᴇ sᴏᴠᴇʀᴇɪɢɴᴛʏ ᴛʜᴀᴛ ʀᴇɪɢɴs ·ᴘᴏɴ ʏᴏᴜʀ ᴀɴᴀᴛᴏᴍʏ . ﹠ sᴄʀɪᴘᴛ ʙʏ sᴄʀɪᴘᴛ ﹐ ɪ sʜᴀʟᴛ ᴡʀɪᴛᴇ ﹗ // hc.#blease this could have been drawn better but im so sleepy n this is rushed #every1 : when will u write hcs seriously again #me : when im not fucking hyper #kidnapping //#ask to tag /#y'all tell me im so UNSURE #abuse ///

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the-rainbow-robot · 7 years

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Dragon Age Companions, Part 1

I recently read a post (originally from Weresquirrel, sorry I don't know how to tag), about the criticisms characters from the Bioware fandom face. So I guess I'm just feeling the need to lay out my feelings for the characters, after so long of playing (I'm only doing dragon age here, I loved all the Mass Effect characters so much I don't really need to explain it further) Vivienne: In my first playthrough of Inquisition, I LOVED Viv. Aside from her fabulous nature, I was glad to see a black woman in a position of power, who is both elegant and demanding of your respect. I still to this day respect her a great deal, but I now agree with Sera, she's a bitch. I respect her achievements, she has accomplished more in her life than I probably ever will, but her schemes and manipulations make her difficult for me to trust and make me question her motivations. When you first meet her, she uses your presence to publicly shame a rival, which at first I thought was awesome but now I think was quite rude. But she also showed that, under her Orlesian Noble veneer, she is a deeply caring person, as can be seen if you give her the snowy wyvern heart. I lover her as a character, she is interesting and has fantastic depth, but as a person I just don't know if I could trust her. Sera: My brother still hates her, and initially I thought she was annoying but I trusted bioware enough to give her a chance. And boy was I glad! She may be a bit naive as less well-educated than our other friends, but she is intuitive and clever. When I learned about her past, I wanted to build a pillow fort and share cookies with her in it to make her feel better, but I guess the roof will suffice. Her wit and humor helps make the Inquisition's leadership more approachable and human to the commoners and soldiers that make up the body of the organization. And while I wish she was more open-minded, she is right; a lot of the stuff that happened in Inquisition is fuckin wierd. The Iron Bull: Personally, my view of him is a bit colored. I love big burly, lumberjack like males and he was a cookie I couldn't wait to eat. I find his humor raunchy and his manners lacking (not as much as Cassandra, close the damned door people!), but he was genuinely sweet at times during the romance. I wish he wasn't such a womanizer, but if he said that barmaid was a man instead, I would have cheered him on so I guess double standards can go both ways. My first play of Trespasser he was Qun-loyal, and I had to stop the game for a bit to cry (Alicia Key's song, "No One" coming on exactly then did NOT HELP FUCK ME), so I vowed to save the Chargers in every future playthrough. Krem: I can't remember his full name but I felt so embarrassed when I found out they were trans. I thought, at first, "great, it's that dumb Eowyn cliché, she dressed like a man so she could fight" thing but no. Krem really was trans and I felt stupid for not even considering that. Otherwise, Krem is my fave I wish we could chat more!! Varric: I guess I should have mentioned the lying thing with Iron Bull too, but I don't think either of them is untrustworthy. They both admit that they lie a lot, but I honestly don't believe that they ever lie to you, at least not on anything big, or at least something you wouldn't understand (obvi, lying about Hawke was pretty big). Varric is practically the embodiment of what I want my video-game self to be; witty, charming, devilishly handsome, imaginitive, and quite capable and smart. He isn't as intellectual as others, but that doesn't mean shit to me here. I love him, from one fellow little brother to another. Cassandra: OMFG DID YOU SEE THOSE EMBOSSED HEARTS ON HER ARMOR SHE IS SO PRECIOUS!!!!! I honest to god hated Cassandra in DA2, for kidnapping Varric. But she is just so god damned awesome! She's strong, capable, determined, inquisitive, has an awesome scar, and holds little back. And with an accent like that, how could she NOT be a hopeless romantic? She's literally perfect, I just wiSH SHE DIDNT INTERUPT BULL AND ME though to be fair, she didn't start it, she just... was the most blunt about it. OF COURSE ITS MORE THAN JUST A FLING HAVE YOU LOOKED AT THE MAN?! Josephine: jesus christ I feel like a fangirl just thinking about her. She is so cute and silly and innocent, but then she just turns around and steels the pot at Wicked Grace and is the calmest person I've ever seen considering she JUSt learned an organization of assassins is gunning for her. She is perfect as a diplomat, and I would be proud to call her a friend. Solas: he makes me angry. At first, and I guess even still, I find him intriguing. The fade interests me a great deal, and Solas has so much cool info about it! And then I saw how racist he was. And hypocritical. And genocidal. Honestly, Solas, I thought you were better than this! I am very disappointed in you, bad boy! Blackwall: I wish he was gay, he is sooo adorbs! I think he is incredibly courageous, and while I try to follow a Retributive philosophy regarding justice, I think his guilt was enough punishment And he is genuinely a good man now. Dorian: totally fab. He is very sarcastic, which I love, but I do think Dorian legit has some kind of anger issue. He doesn't get angry often, but when he does he says very hurtful things that he later regrets, and sometimes I worry whether he might actually mean them. That is understandable, your dad trying to make you straight by using blood magic is fucked up. But he's a bit of a spoiled brat, and while he jokes about it I think he still doesn't quite get it. But his goals of wanting to bring change to the Imperium are noble, and I think I could call him a friend. Romancing him is on my to-do list. Cole: Since Cole is a spirit, things get a bit wierd about him. I definitely love his character, I always go the more human route because the spirit route is just too... idk, it just feels wrong. Lile he's actually less compassionate than before. But I think he has a good heart and thats what counts

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pmarcy · 7 years

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So there was this guy I met here in my hometown we both joined the navy but once we graduated I went to Norfolk and he went to San Antonio we followed to just being home friends staying in touch being supportive to each other we each had a relationship in the city we were in, around the same time mid December we ended the relationships we were in. me I just wasn't feeling it, his ended because this white trash cheated on him (you'll understand why I strongly dislike her in a bit). I wasn't as hurt on loosing this guy but when he was over with her (ima just use her initial A) he was so depressed and obviously me as a friend was there for him... so he ended up "falling" for me but I didn't really engage to accepting his "feelings" this around New Years we made it official still never told him I love you or anything till he did I'm not the stupid one to admit something first with out the other feeling the same way. Obviously every relationship is puppy love at first, but I would always notice his statuses and snap stories were always about him being depressed and no one being there for him. Immediately what would run through my head was like wtf am I here for if you don't communicate with me I try and reach out but you block me, he would say it was family issues but I respected his space and decided not to bother till I noticed countless times he would be like that. (Take in mind we are 2 different distant states) so as I go about my day one day I randomly check IG I decide to look on his (he doesn't know I have one and his was unprivate so I could see everything) he recently posted a selfie and I noticed A wrote a comment which said "daddy" and he liked it obviously I was blowing smoke out of my ears mad but not quite yet did I bring it up I decided to look on her account also not private went through her pictures noticed he liked every single one of her pictures the anger was legit growing more and more then I looked at her comments realizing on a picture around the time he told me his "feelings" for me he dropped some heart eyes on multiple pictures.... that's when I hit him up around 2100 saying wtf why is this girl dropping those comments and you're liking them like wtf you know to begin with WHY TF DO YOU STILL HAVE HER ON SOCIAL MEDIA he was quick to deny shit saying he likes everyone's comments (lol I rolled my eyes so hard when he told me that) I was like well if you hate her and talk so much shit about her to me I don't understand why you would like that shit especially that comment knowing you're "in a relationship" he just BS everything he said so that was the first time I noticed he still had contact with A and you know once again I'm not in the same city as him who knows if he still sees her. From that day he acted all short instead of being in my ass like how we used to be a normal relationship. One day his SC story he posted a ring I was like tf obviously with the caption what a waste following his depressed comments once more reassuring me he still had this white trash on his mind. I brought it up then he proceeded to tell me if he wasn't about me he wouldn't waste his time on me, my guard never went down. Once I left Norfolk I went to my hometown El Paso our relationship got even more short he graduated February 24th from HM A school I flew out to see him got a room spent over $100+ on a nice outfit to not look like shit infront of his family. Turns out I wasn't able to go to the graduation cause I wasn't on some stupid list he put his family but not me then we talked over the phone and agreed it was only a 30 min ceremony no big deal he would pick me up after to go to dinner I was perfectly fine with that it ended at 1500 I waited 2 hrs he said he was talking about family shit with his mom but I look on SC he already had dinner with them so till mad ditched me and didn't come knocking on my door till about 2200 after I had cried my ass to sleep after arguing through text about how he couldn't even let me know (his phone "died") he came knocking on my door asked why are you in the dark? Why are you crying? Why don't you wanna talk to me? Like this MF has the balls to ask me that... sits me down as I start tearing up again then tells me he wants to take it "day by day" like OMFG then why did you tell me I love you if you didn't mean it I was always there for your ass now you're pushing me away like wtf and turns out his mom was in the same hotel as me so idk how he could've not picked me up. So he babies me and promises to make it up tomorrow go to the riverwalk with him and his fam. But he didn't wake up till I was taking a shower opens the door and says he's gonna get his clothes at base get ready and be right back. Males take like 30 min tops to get ready and the base was like 5 min away. 2 hrs passed I take like 1 1/2 hrs to get ready I even waited an extra bit till once again I check SC and see he's out with his fam. And ditched me again:) so I tripped but not as much I let him know I was going out he said why? Like tf nigga not gonna be waiting around like yesterday so I was like just lmk when you're back at the hotel he said ok then it was 2000 and realized he wasn't coming I proceeded to bash him on social media he hit me up immediately saying his phone died (lies I kept seeing him post he was out) how I'm quick to assume shit like nah here for 3 days I'm leaving tomorrow and I couldn't get one fucking day with you other than when you slept with me but I guess that's all I was good for to him, so etc long ass discussion I never saw him that night one of my girls stationed there took me out and he was quick to talk shit once he saw I went out like nah you don't have the right to tell me anything after you ditched me twice. So I came back home argued a bit through the phone gave it 3 weeks noticed I was only begging for his attention at that point decided there was no point in going in when I'm doing my all when oh I forgot to put this out I posted a picture he untagged himself and also forgot to put this out he still had various pictures with A on his account another red light after so many I had previously asked to remove them he would just say they were old . Okay getting back to the sequence of events yesterday after a week of cutting his ass off he was back with this white trash bitch A and sent me a snap (this is the most shadiest shit ever) saying if you were wondering I did use you to get over her but now FYI I'm back with her..... like you guys do not know how much my heart shattered yesterday I balled my eyes out scram even broke walls and furniture on how not sad but frustrated mad I was right and ignored every red flag even though I knew but I was willing to hold it down for him since he always mentioned he was alone and had nothing ( I never talked about my life to him to not stress him I lost everyone that meant something to me but I figured he kinda made me feel good lol not really) but I wanted to be that someone who was there for him and he send me that shitty ass snap with him and A together like ... if I invested my time and feelings into you there's certain shit you don't do out of respect. Like WHY COULDN'T YOU LEAVE ME ALONE? WHY DID YOU HAVE TO LEAD ME ON LIKE THAT? You said you didn't want to waste your time but you wasted mine you used me to make yourself feel better till you got what you wanted. I REGRET EVERY FUCKING TIME I TRIED TO BE THERE FOR YOU.

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