#tbh i often regret leaving music highschool

[heatsu]

tfw you left your family to pursue your music career in the big city™ only to get roasted by professors on your entrance exam and not get into university because you don't have enough experience and knowledge for your age

now you have nowhere to go and life is shit

#delete later #honestly not sure on how music education system worked in Germany at rhag time #but from my experience #it is incredibly hard to perform classical music professionally if you didn't start your education at young age #if you don't start playing violins at 6/7 you probably wont be able to have them as your main instrument on university #or become a tutti musician #if you are not a Prodigy #but talent isn't the only thing #because if you don't know music theory you won't get far #and music theory on university level is 👹👹👹 #no i am not projecting my failed music career on rip/s #tbh i often regret leaving music highschool #but classical music industry was not made for really anxious girls lol #plus the whole change of environment and teachers and shit #and having to ro all that as extra work next to normal highschool 😁🔫 #two hours of violin snd one of piano a week #and 4 hours of music theory / history #and orchestra #and live note reading #classical music industry is something i hold closely to my heart #but i also don't because it left me lowkey traumatised #but nothing beats the pure awkwardness of having to perform in front of 5 elders who don't wsnt to be there and have this dissapointed look #while tje room is too hot anf you're sweating and can feel your legs shaking #and of children choirs and singing performances #making rip play violins would be fun because its smth i have 8 years of experience with #but i feel like piano would fit her more #obviously her main focus is singing but you must have at least one instrument #rip van winkle