#tbh btw id rather have my friends feel safe coming to me if they have a concern about my relationship

[inkskinned]

she says he won't let her get a dog, which is fine, because they're in an apartment, and that's the kind of thing people say about their partners. he won't let me get a dog. and you're at a dinner party and you tilt your head a little to the side just like that dog he won't let her get, because is this the thing that's going to upset you? you don't know every corner of their relationship, she could be joking, they could have had so many healthy conversations about the dog, right, and maybe she's not letting herself get the dog because of money and time and whatever. but, like, she did say let

and she wants to move away from his hometown and he wants to stay and then he tells you with a wink and a conspiratorial stage whisper don't worry i'll convince her and she laughs about it - so clearly this is something they laugh about. but you do just stand there and stare at him like what the fuck, man. you can't say what you want to say which is why do you get the final say on everything because they're both obviously aware of the other person's stance on this and have obviously had private conversations about it and what are you going to do about it except make a scene and then he'll be mad at you and call you one of those bitches behind your back and she'll cut you off, which is a loss that doesn't feel worth it just because he makes you a little skeeved out every 3rd comment

and they both agree he just isn't the type to get flowers which is fine because everyone shows love differently, and are you really gonna judge someone based on their sense of individual relationship responsibility? maybe he's constantly cleaning her car and writing her poems and making her furniture or something. maybe she doesn't even like flowers and this is perfect, actually. and no you couldn't date him, obviously, ew; but like, she tells you she's happy. you almost send her a tiktok that says don't be 25 and the cool girl that doesn't need anything, you'll hate not getting flowers at 30, but that's like, starting drama & you shouldn't start drama needlessly.

and you're a little older than her but not so much older you can pull the whole trust me on this one babe thing and besides that wouldn't have worked anyway (when does it ever) and besides you have trauma so you and your therapist both agree that you're always looking for a problem even when there isn't one. and you tell yourself that just because you see them for 15 minutes every month does not mean you can identify every single red flag based on a single shitty half-joking(?) comment

and besides, what are you going to do? she says i actually wanted another stand mixer but thankfully he stops me when i'm about to spend too much money and you're standing there like are you okay? is this normal? is this just something people say? and again - what are you going to do?

to your therapist you try to language it - it's not, like, any of my business. but sometimes, doesn't it feel like - you should do something. there's got to be something, right? you've tried dropping little hints but they sail right through and you've tried having a single serious conversation and she got upset because why does it matter to you, yes it's different but we're happy, it doesn't need to make sense to you and you're like. really unwilling to push a boundary about it anymore; because the truth is that you know logically it shouldn't matter to you, as long as both parties are happy.

and besides, you've been wrong before. it's just... like, every time you see them both, something else happens, some kind of shiver down your spine like do you even hear each other when you talk. it's their strange, bickering orbit. just the way he's on his phone through dinner or watching sports instead of helping in the kitchen or, fuck, another one of these little throwaway comments he makes about we'll see about that, babe. she laughs when he calls her passions stupid shit and meanwhile she gets him tickets to see the knicks and he tells you well at least she's smart about something and still! it's none of your business.

you say get the dog anyway and she laughs. like, this is is you being funny. and not you saying - no really. get the dog. get the dog and get out of here. pack up and start running.

#this btw is not including toxic friendships this is legit just something ive experienced MANY times now #writeblr #you ever have a friend in one of those relationships where ur like #u don't HATE their partner explicitly #but ur like. what the fuck y'all #like the weird part of being an adult is that you can't be like . CERTAIN their relationship is toxic #and also if u move too fast or push too hard u can hurt someone who is already in a scary situation so you just are like #frozen there. laughing awkwardly. saying ''haha..... yeah..... couldn't be me....'' #and like u can't tell - is this banter or does he actually think like. he's better than her. #all you can do is be there for your friend and hope they wake up to it #or ... that it really IS good #and it's just odd to you #tbh btw id rather have my friends feel safe coming to me if they have a concern about my relationship #like yes it's not ur business but it also IS bc im making u hang out with them and also ur my friend #it's a weird thing to experience as an adult bc it is such a blurry line and when u spend time #around couples that aren't like ACTUALLY ur friends but instead ''extended friend circle'' ur like #.... i don't know y'all well enough and he just called you a cow. and ur okay with that . and i don't know how to respond. #so ur like :) okay. um. go to couple's counselling i think #but also you are NOT supposed to pass judgement so it's like.... this weird limbo of feeling like you SHOULD say something #but knowing you CANNOT #idk that there's a way to resolve it!!!!!!!! it's probably a different approach person to person #edited my tags bc tumblr's new system fucked em up #PS EDIT: btw i should have said: #the pronouns in this can work in any and every direction. every gender and every sexuality and every #type of relationship tbh. even non-romantic relationships where ur like ''what do u mean ur bff calls u stupid''

[1tarot1with1k1o]

hi!! id like to participate in your moodboard game. for you, i did three moodboards with notes at the bottom. 

one on your fs, relationship w them and other things i could channel

your 2024

your futury city/country + home

future spouse moodboard notes: emphasis on making you laugh, might be slightly well off (if not then they are just more well off than you), lots of new experiences. the couple all your friends invite to hang out with (double dates!) lots of quality time dates. both might be busy when you first start dating, so quality time dates where you cook and eat together might be prominent. also might be from a colder country. im lowkey getting scandinavian countries but take that with a grain of salt. 

your 2024: lots of self care, hanging out with friends, catching up with friends. health is wealth, definitely working on achieving success and taking the time to reconnect with yourself. 

your future country/home: i sense countries like Romania, Greece, Italy but the quieter parts. your home might be cozy, simple things like having wooden flooring instead of marble. very calm and relaxing. home will definitely be a safe space for you. might often invite friends over and catch up. this feels very much like golden hour in the morning. 

for myself, i’d like to know

my future spouse’s appearance/ethnicity and job

my 2024 (tbh i just want to know if ill emigrate so you can disregard this and just put future career if not much comes up)

my future country/city

thank you and i hope you have a really lovely august! i hope the moodboards make you feel better especially after being scammed 😓😓

Hello!

The fs description sounds beautiful!! I love all the small (but significant) details that you mentioned. I am particularly fond of the quality time dates 🫶 I LOVE that for us <333

My 2024 year description sounds super nice. Those are all things that I need, and that I have already started to work on. I really like the fact that those will be the themes of next year 🧡

Again, I’m gonna say how interesting it is that you all seem to channel the area I’m from. I’m more of a city girl, but I’d absolutely love having a vacation home in a place like that!! You’re on point with the vibes you picked up about my space! As an introvert, my home is indeed very important to me.

Thank you for the moodboards and for the readings <333

I did mostly feel feminine energy for your fs. If you’re not attracted to women, then it can just be that your fs might have a lot of feminine energy. As for jobs, I felt like they might have their own crafts shop, or work someplace where they can sell their creations. They might create anything. I heard things like: ceramics, glass, clothing, personal care products, plants, diys, healing herbs, crystals, holistic jewelry. They might also do something that has to do with being environmentally friendly. Strong Aquarius vibes tbh. I don’t usually put astrological placements in my readings since I don’t feel knowledgeable enough to do that, but it really feels like your person has strong (or many) Aquarius placements haha. I also heard India, Native American, Maui, American, and Hawaiian, but take that as it resonates since it felt more like places or cultures they might be interested in, rather than necessarily being where they’re from. (Btw, the outfits I showed you don’t necessarily need to be identical to how your fs dresses. It might be about the patterns they like to use, or where they get their inspiration from, in terms of personal style).

During the next year channeling, I saw you focusing on friendships and learning. I saw you also spending time on the blog and putting effort into the content you put out. Lastly, I’m not sure if you would like to move to a big city, but I saw a lot of skyscraper pictures, to the point of having to put them in your moodboard. I also heard London, but if you’re not interested in moving there, then you might just move to a bigger city more or less near to where you currently are. You’ll also spend a lot of time meeting new people and cultivating positive connections.

Again, as future place, I saw mostly cities. Especially London or England in general, Germany, Northern Europe in general, India, Nepal. Slightly felt America too but I feel like you’ll just travel there at some point, and you most likely won’t move there, but take it as it resonates. If it’s not really in your plans to move to a big city, you might get a really good opportunity there at some point, and after considering the idea for a bit, you might then accept to go, even if just “temporarily”. Butterfly effect kind of situation.

Thank you for participating!! I hope you enjoyed your reading <333 Take care! 🧡

#klo #jupiteressence #tarot community #free readings #spirituality #intuitive game #closed game

[nichoolala-blog]

How ICT affects my daily life

         Today I want to share to you about how ICT affects my life. But before everything else let’s define first what ICT is.

          ICT stands for Information and Communication Technology. These are technologies that provide access to information through telecommunications. So basically it deals with the use of different communications such as mobile phones, computers, tablets, telephones or laptops. Any gadgets or technologies that can be used to transmit, save, or gather information.

Now, let’s talk about how it affects my life.

         Every single day, my life has become dependent on ICT. The moment I wake up in the morning there’s my phone beside me, ringing informing that I have to wake up. Before I leave the house, I had to check my messenger if there’s any sudden announcement at the GC. Upon arriving at school we are mandated to tap our ID’s at RFID to inform our parents that we safely arrived at school, also to monitor what time we went inside. As the class goes on, there’s an instances wherein I encounter unfamiliar words while reading, so I have to browse it on Merriam Online Dictionary to check. After the class we also have to tap our ID’s again to inform our parents that we had left the school at that time. If I ever go home late, I should inform my parents to keep them updated.

          As I arrive at home, I still use an ICT to communicate with my boyfriend. Of course we have to update each other and keep in touch even if we’re miles away. Since we are already in the 21st Century, the way we do a research is through online. I’m using my laptop every time I have something to look for in the internet. ICT is very useful when it comes to school works. It is very convenient and time saving.  I use it in researching for the upcoming lessons. Especially on Chemistry and Physics. Of course as a student, I shouldn’t just rely on our teachers during discussion. I also have to do my own research and to study in advance. For chemistry, I usually watch on youtube because I find it easy to understand. There are lots of videos there that discuss every lesson in an easiest way. Most of our lessons in Chemistry are really C-O-M-P-L-I-C-A-T-E-D. And I usually stay up late in night just to finish reading and comprehending a certain topic. Aside from chemistry, there’s PHYSICS!!! TBH physics is not and never an easy subject, just like math it involves complicated problems that needs to be solved in a complicated way.And I also watch youtube tutorial on solving in physics.

            At facebook, I followed some medical pages that post medical stuffs which makes me entertained. It will greatly help me prepare for my college. I also followed some random pages that constantly post a funny memes aside from the fact that it is entertaining it also makes me laugh and forget my problems for a short period of time.

           Whenever we have a group works, projects and reports on school we usually communicate and discuss it on messenger. It is very convenient because we can brainstorm and share ideas whenever we are. And if we have a meet ups with my friend, I can just capture the surrounding place and send it to them or I can tell them where I am so they can be informed where the exact spot I’m standing at.

            Even though there are lots of school works I also want to wind up a bit. ICT is a good source for entertainment. I usually play mobile legends with CJ or with my classmates.  But sometimes we end up getting defeated so instead of enjoying the game I would feel mad and stressed because of noob or AFK members Since we only have classes 3 days per week, my classmates and I use play at Mineski every time we have no classes.

             Aside from playing, I also love watching videos on YouTube. Sometimes I watch a gameplay, funny videos collection, animal videos, cooking show, music videos. One thing I love watching the most is the piano covers of Rosseau, aside from watching how complicated those notes are, it also relaxes me.

             If you observe well, you’ll notice that I only wrote the positive ways about how ICT affects me. For the negative ways:

             I usually stay up late at night, I think that’s the reason why my face has been bombarded by a pimples. I spend my time playing Mobile legends until 2 in the morning.

              Every time I got a free time, I’m always on facebook for a long period of time that I forget what I should do and end up accomplishing nothing.

               And I watch gameplays on youtube, same with the facebook. I always fail to notice the time being consumed.

                I’ve been doing that unhealthy thing for how many years, and I just realized recently that using too much gadgets can greatly affect my health physically, mentally and in cognitive. And I can testify that, because instead of reading something worthwhile I was being eaten up by the social media. So as of now I’m still on the process of disciplining myself. I always turn off my wifi at my phone so I can refrain from clicking any social media apps and before I went in to the bedroom I make sure I turn off the wifi.

                Look how easy it is to access everything that we need. Everything is just one click away. Sometimes I think, what if ICT and internet has never been invented until now. It will probably take 5 days or 2 weeks before a letter can finally arrive and can be received. Imagine that situation in our generation. Especially for those people who are working in abroad. They have to endure their home sickness while waiting for their letters. It is really hard. It really do requires a massive amount of patience.

Before I end this, I just want to leave some points to ponder.

                The wide usage of ICT has been transmitted all over the world. And social media platforms are often to be use these days wherein in fact, most of us subconsciously abuses our freedom of speech that we almost forgot that we already crossed someone’s boundaries. The fact that destructive criticisms are more likely to be use rather than constructive criticisms. The way we talk online proves what kind of people we are and how we think. Folks, we should consider the proper usage of words and always remember that never post a statement with brashness. Because we always held a liability in whatever we do. BE RESPONSIBLE ONLINE.

                Anyway, this is getting long. Thank you for staying up to this point. ^_^ I hope I was able to deliver what I wanted and needed to say. And BTW, this blog is intended only for school purposes. Thank you so much and have a nice day!

#BeResponsibleOnline

[fightingtrim]

a vast and empty desert strings of human teeth, worn around the neck a deep abdominal wound, slowly oozing something thick and black they will continue walking for as long as they can they don’t have much longer                         ——— you wake suddenly. the dream you had struck you as profound, which was odd because you hardly ever dreamt, and even then never thought much of what you dreamt of. this time is different. that person wandering the desert was not looking for help, but they clearly needed it, and would be willing to repay the favor. it feels like it would be a good idea to earn the trust of someone wearing strings of teeth as necklaces. you recognized the sand dunes around them, they were maybe half an hours ride away from your camp, and headed in roughly your direction. mind made up, you get dressed, pack your camel’s bags with some bandages and water, and set out in the direction of the wounded traveler.

the desert is flat enough, making it relatively easy to find the stranger. the black and yellow colors they wear make them easy to spot against the sand and dirt. you spur your camel towards them. as you get closer, you can make out some details of their appearance. their hair is thick and dark, hanging in dreadlocks past their shoulders. they are wearing loose black pants and a large bright yellow shirt, their strange wound stark against it. they are visibly unsteady on their feet. once you’re close enough, you dismount and approach them carefully. they hardly seem to notice you, still trying to force their way through the pain and the heat. “Hey there, I don’t wanna hurt you. My camp isn’t far from here, come with me, and I can get that gash sorted out for you, yeah?” their feet come to a standstill, their head turns vaguely in your direction. they seem to pour what energy they have left into processing what you just said. “hngdhhh... that’d be... great... i have... stuff... i can give you... in... as...” you catch them as they start to collapse. you’re no doctor, but that wound looks bad. you try not to aggravate it too much as you hoist them onto the back of the camel and climb up behind them. you turn back toward your camp,  and gently set off, holding your extra passenger securely so they don’t fall and break something else. back at your camp, you lay them down on your bed, and get to work at tending their wound. you carefully peel their shirt off them, and toss it to the side to deal with later. their chest binder is trickier to remove, but you manage. you leave their necklaces within their reach, not wanting them to think you stole them. looking at the wound, you are again reminded of your distinct lack of experience in medical care. you’re a merchant, so you have bandages, but barely any knowledge on how to use them. you need to apply pressure, you’re pretty sure. and clean the wound so it doesn’t get infected. you wet a rag and try to wipe away the excess - blood? it doesn’t have the appearance or texture of blood, but it is coming from where blood is supposed to be, so you’re going to call it blood. there is a lot of it, and it’s thick enough that you can’t see any of their organs, despite the fact that this cut is definitely deep enough to have reached some. gods, this is intimidating. regardless, you soldier on. now that you’ve got someone bleeding out on your bed, you might as well do your best to help them. now that the wound is more or less clean, you squeeze the two sides of it closed as you wrap the bandages around it. gods, you hope you’re doing this right. eventually you decide that’s probably enough. you go get some water and a small healing potion, and leave them with their necklaces on the small table next to their head. you grab a book and settle down in the corner for your guest to wake up.                          ———

you wake up slowly. you aren’t... sure where you are, or how you got here. your head is fuzzy, and you’re in an awful lot of pain. tentatively, you bring a hand down to your torso. bandages. someone’s taken care of you. you weren’t expecting that. you turn your head to the right to see where you are. aw Fuck that made you dizzy. after a second or two, once the dizziness has passed, you focus again on the room around you. your teeth have been left on the bedside table, along with a bottle of water and a vial of something green and glowing. how considerate! whoever helped you, it doesn’t seem like they plan to be much of a threat. speaking of, there they are, sat in the corner. his face is darker than yours. his long blond hair is tied back. he’s wearing teal and white. he’s fallen asleep with a book in his lap. you smile to yourself. you’re safe here, it seems. gods are you tired. your thoughts are still slow and groggy, which isn’t fun. maybe you’ll just close your eyes for... a second...                         ——— you wake up to a clattering sound. the sound of teeth beads getting pulled across a table, as it turns out. they’re awake, or mostly at least. they do still seem rather out of it. “Hey there.” at the sound of your voice, they stopped trying to drag their necklaces closer, and shifted their gaze to look your way. “Um, hi. You weren’t, uh, doing so good, out there in the desert by yourself, so I brought you in here, and bandaged you up as best as I could. How are you, by the way?” “mmmmmsore. tired. confused.” “Oh! Uh, if we can get you sat up, I have a healing potion that would probably help with that first one.” “oh. thank you” it’s only a little bit awkward as you hoist them up into a seated position. they have to take a second for the dizziness to pass, but after that they’re fine to drink the potion on their own. “So, uh, how did you get here?” “huh?” “Yknow, grievously wounded, wandering through the desert?” “oh, uhm...” they have to take a long moment to think. “there was this witch lady... more powerful than i am... wealthy too... i pissed her off somehow... i think there was some sort of... competition? maybe a test... she got, like, really mad at me... magic attack... fucked up my memory and sent me out here...” “Why out here?” “oh... deserts are bright... my magics tied to darkness... not a good combo” “Doesn’t she know that deserts get, like, really dark at night?” “probably wasn’t gonna make it that long tbh. till you found me. how did you find me?” “Oh I uh... I had a dream...” “aw fuck. didn’t mean to do that. sorry.” “Don’t apologize! How else would I have found you?” “i dunno. thank you tho. you didn’t have to do all this. i can uhh pay you back. ive got some cool stuff” “Dude! I helped you cause I wanted to! ...but... what sort of cool stuff?” “magic trinkets and herbs, things I stole to trade for food and stuff” “Oh shoot that’d be incredible... I’m a merchant, I trade and sell stuff too - but wait, ‘trade for food’? Do you like... where do you live?” “mmmmmon the streets mostly, it’s fine tho, i have a void i sleep in” “I...” you pause for a moment, thinking. “Do you wanna travel with me? I have food and resources and shelter, and in a couple days we’ll reach a fairly big city, Kl’orma, and I’m gonna sell my stuff there. There’s a fairly lively wizard subculture there, I’m sure you could find people to talk to about, uh, magic and stuff...” “oh fuck that’d b incredible, actually, thank you so much! uh, here” they grab at their necklaces and arrange them in even concentric circles on the bed. they wave their hand over them and everything within the outer circle, bedsheets included, falls away, revealing a seemingly endless void. they reach in and pull out a couple trinkets; some weird herbs, a bottle of something thick and roiling and neon orange, what might be a cat’s skull, and some pretty rocks. you can’t help but stare at the casual display of power. “Wow I... don’t think I’ve ever seen someone with magic like that...” “haha me neither. maybe im the only one, or maybe void people just don’t like the spotlight. either way, i would like to go talk to those big city wizards” “Yeah! But, uh, I definitely want you to rest for a couple days before we leave.” “it shouldn’t take that long, i heal fairly quickly. oh btw i don’t think i got your name?” “Oh, sorry. Uh, don’t laugh, it’s Ozwald.” “that is a pretty weird name. im zachary.” “Nice to meet you, Zachary! I’m, uh, going to get breakfast, do you want anything?” “actually, uh, i think id rather nap. thank you tho, for everything” they pick up the outer necklace, and with it, the rest of them fall onto the bed and the portal closes. they move their stuff onto the bed side table, and settle down. you go into the other room of the tent, to make food for the two of you. you smile to yourself, thinking of your new friend.

#my stuff #zach writes #fic #text #this is my first time writing something outside of school #late one night i thought of that poem at the start #and thought 'oh damn i could turn that into something' #and then i did #btw i will reuse the concept of 'void enby who likes teeth and bleeds black' in the future #so look out for that #oh uh #gore warning #body horror #its not too bad but just in case #hopefully itll post properly this time