#sure whatever call me childish for counting the days since my last consideration of suicide but loosing yet another friend because they

[grandninjamasterren]

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#shittiest way to lose an entire friend group: reacting badly to being ignored #and i just keep going over it in my head because i can tell ive done something wrong but i dont know what it is and why this always happens #i know i reacted badly but what makes everyone im friends with decide to ignore me after a certain amount of time #i dont know how many more times i can take this happening #its like being back in middle school when all the popular kids would pretend to be your friend- laughing behind your back the whole time #im already suicidal i didnt need the help thanks #next time just shoot me- it'll be easier #heaven forbid i get upset because an entire group of people all decide to give me the silent treatment at the same time and then lie about #trying to ask about me while taking a week to realize that id left the game server because of it #sure whatever call me childish for counting the days since my last consideration of suicide but loosing yet another friend because they #“cant reconcile with [me] in good faith” because i reacted badly to the rest of the group purposely excluding me? #they were the one who encouraged me to leave in the first place