#sorry if this isnt what you wanted AHJASHFJASJKFDG im Not Good At Headcanons

[vypridae]

headcanons for gogol in love?

ohhh he'd HATE being in love so much because he'd see love as a chain to the earth. he'd see love being a cage that isn't as easy to escape from as he wished it was, he would hate how much he'd need to be with whoever he's fallen for, how much he might start relying on them, he'd try to do anything he can to rid himself of that love but he wouldn't be able to and then he'd end up just accepting it.

once he accepts it he'd act like nothing is different. he'd try to keep himself from being too clingy (he would be so clingy to whoever he falls for lets be so so real rn), he might be a bit clingier but it'd seem relatively the same. he'd never want to confess, he's too against the commitment that would come with a relationship so he waits until they reciprocate, no matter how long it might take, but if whoever he likes does end up confessing, then i mean, who is he to deny them?

also im going with my silly hc that he loves cooking and he would LOVE to make food at random for who he's in love with, he'd make sure they take care of themselves and would surprise them with food or somethign to drink or something, make sure they take breaks (because he himself cant stand sitting in one place for that long so how in the hell can other people?)

he'd think about whoever he's fallen for constantly and he would definitely hate that, they occupy his thoughts so much he cant feel as free as he wishes he could anymore, and he hates that he loves that feeling.

#this only went a little angsty #im obsessed w the concept of nikolai not wanting to fall in love because its a chain keeping him from his freedom #sorry if this isnt what you wanted AHJASHFJASJKFDG im Not Good At Headcanons #sorry if none of this makes sense either i threw this together within like 15 minutes with markiplier playing tsp on in the background #xanbox #xanthinks #bsd #bungo sd #bungou sd #bungo stray dogs #bungou stray dogs #nikolai gogol #gogol nikolai #bsd nikolai #nikolai bsd #bsd gogol #gogol bsd #fyolai #siglai #nikozai #nikolai x reader #idk this works with every nikolai ship or x reader tbh