#something was off this past weekend

[skyhawkstragedy]

was it just me or were there more tech difficulties than normal in coachella the past weekend? grimes and ice spice had some things going on, bebe’s mic produced major feedback during one of her songs, now I’m hearing le sserafim performed without in-ear mics for their first half?

#coachella #ice spice #grimes #bebe rexha #le sserafim #not audio related but jhene aiko’s set design also fell within the first 30 seconds of her singing #I also heard shenanigans were happening during Sabrina carpenter’s set #something was off this past weekend

[darkwood-sleddog]

Well. Sigurd ripped a dewclaw out bc he snagged it in my sweater, literally while we were both either on work meetings or about to go to work meetings…so to the emergency vet we went. Where we waiting for an hour to be seen bc we were non emergent. Finally, a hero tech came to see us and told us it was either wait four more hours or she can try and rip the nail off now. Me and Me D held Sigurd (muzzled) while he flailed and growled as dramatically as possible but we were somehow able to get the nail off and bandaged. That tech had fingers of STEEL and we were super appreciative of her. Then Sigurd got McDonald’s French fries on the way home. Urg. What a night.

#dogblr #alaskan malamute #dog #canine #sigurd #I’m fairly certain that ever since he had his first dewclaw injury as like an almost 1 year old that they’ve grown back weird/layered #making them very prone to injury #he had hurt the top of it over the weekend playing in the yard #and I thought it might heal and the top layer would come off #Little did I know how delicate it was #bc he treats all nails…like they’re sensitive end of the world injuries #so imagine how he was for this one #barely bled compared to past ones but he was in more pain #I’m going to have to rebuild a LOT of trust with his feet. #also trying to hold a dog who weights as much as an adult human #on his hind legs while he flails and bellows #is something…

[suddencolds]

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#not snz #more musings 📝 / mini vent: #not sure why my social battery is so limited 😭 and also so inconsistent #i feel like i can't sustain the amount of... like continued/consistent enthusiasm i see others giving esp in group settings #i just don't know how to engage in that way without burning out #over the past few weeks i've been stuck in like #a strange state where i can't muster the energy to properly respond to even the people i'm most excited to reply to #which is strange?? #(and if that is you i am sorry 😭 i love you and i will get back to you) #i think i can't even like manage to get myself into the mindset of enjoying something for myself (eg. a conversation with a friend) #i think a part of it is the stress from work leeching into my personal life #i feel like i've been working so hard and for such long hours but its the kind of work where the progress i've made is very hard to track?? #:( i just want to be off of ******* work so i can work on ******* work again #i also want to get ahead enough on everything in my life so that i write y+v D: #i feel like i haven't had a properly restful day in weeks... even over the weekend i was busy attending to others' needs #i just want a break from it all... but i dont have enough time to take off... but i dont know how much more of this i can take #i remember also feeling during uni like i was drowning #like there were simply not enough hours in a day to deliver everything i promised. it's such an awful feeling #i just feel defeated. like i've felt exhausted for weeks and weeks on end and like i spend every waking hour working on something or other #but ofc there is nothing to do but to keep at it 😭 other people can handle all of this and more #there are so many people i refuse to let down

[ghostoffuturespast]

Being a writer is weird.

#it's tough fighting that human visual bias on a platform like this #my queue ran out and i haven't posted any vp because i was trying to crank out that last chapter for my long fic #and like i get it maybe most people aren't interested in reading it #different strokes for different folks #but like the discrepancy between how people interact with photo vs writing posts is wildly disheartening sometimes #and i've been see-sawing back and forth all day about this #riding high and wallowing in the mud #this is literally the creative project that i've been pouring myself into for the past month and a half every spare moment i have #and i've been doing this for the past year and a half #it's weird pouring so much love into something when the vast majority of people won't even give it two seconds #i love writing but it is also a mentally exhausting craft and people don't seem to acknowledge that for some reason #it's why i try to reblog stuff from my writing mutuals when i see it because it's usually the artwork that gets the least amount of love #anyway just felt like getting that off my chest #i'm sure my fellow writers can commiserate too #i'm not mad or anything i just had thoughts and perhaps voicing them is better then stewing on them i suppose #also i feel bad for not reading more stuff from other people but i've got like zero beans to give atm #no need to worry or anything i'm still gonna keep writing and posting my shit #more vp comin in over the weekend #also god the new tumblr ui for desktop is fucking ugly absolutely atrocious #man i really don't want to have to set up shop on another social media outlet it's tiresome #i don't want to keep up i just want to blog in peace

[figuerockfaeth]

I NEED TO MOVE OUT NOOWWWWWWW

#i woke up at 3 pm bc this was my 1st day ‘off’ in forever #and when i went to grab something to eat our back door was fully open and my car was nowhere to be found #cat* #so i freaked out and started looking outside but when i realized she wasn’t there and my roommate also wasn’t recently outside #i knocked on her bedroom door and she was like ‘oh sorry i was asleep do you want me to help look’ #YES i want you to help look what are you talking about #eventually i found her bc my cat is the best girl in the world and never left our yard- she was in the crawl space under the house #but not only am i pissed she let my car out then took a nap #but we don’t live in the safest city in the world and while we were both sleeping our door was fully 90 degrees open #so now not only do i feel like kevin (cat) isn’t safe here but I don’t feel safe sleeping here anymore #the lease is up in july and i finally get to leave #this girl is a random roommate my former roommate found to replace her #and the whole process/experience has been awful #i just have to survive 4 months #during the summer i might keep paying rent but fully leave and go live with family #bc my school isn’t in driving distance of any of my family #now i’m thinking about asking someone if they’ll take kevin for a couple months bc im so sorry about her #but my dad has a dog that doesn’t love cats and my best friend is allergic and my mom lives in another state #personal #delete later #also this is unrelated BUT every weekend without fail she does laundry at an insane time in the morning #and our washing machine is the loudest washing machine i’ve EVER heard #and of course it’s right against the wall of my room #not hers #i only get two days a week to sleep past 630 am and she almost always ruins it

[llondonfog]

🫠

#tbd #nauseous with stress all week #literally carried it all within my shoulders and lower back these past few days; i feel like ive been run over multiple times lol #its the last of the 12+ hr days #or almost; i still need to send a few emails before i can breathe a bit #but im gonna take a break and get to the new glomas chapter ive neglected all week #i need something mindless and silly for a bit #before i stress about cleaning and packing this weekend #there's never going to be a break with this project im just accepting that now; i just wish i could have a few days to breathe #without immediately regretting my time off after all my emails pile up (love getting 80+/day) #anyways if im quiet and lurking pls dont be upset if im not responding #I literally have no energy; maybe a good cry might fix me lmao

[dormiloncito]

ok guys i may need to take drastic measures

#i may log myself out off tumblr on purpose LMFAO #sad i know 😢😢😢 /s #i just noticed i have three major things due for the same day and i also noticed said day is closing in AHA... #and all i've done for the past few days is refresh tumblr and get nothing done #i swear whoever designed this shit made sure it feels like a gambling addiction or something #so yes #i'm currently here typing this instead of working on the paper i have open. you see the problem now. HELP. MEEE #ok see you all later *logs back in 2 seconds later* #kidding... #i will. idk. leave a queue. and um. probably be back by the weekend. or later. we will see ☺️ #ayudame loco. loco. por favor loco ayudame 😭

[tvrningout-a]

i got a high b on my test and :' )) thank goodness that's over!!

#i'm not a fan of tests bc it always feels like a lot is riding on them (bc there usually is asdfg) #but i also was a lil worried since i slacked off a bit these last few weeks bc of general stress and whatnot #thankfully i pulled through though!! it really helps that language is something i enjoy learning about #now if only i didn't have to go to work and be there till late :' ))) #we got inventory this weekend on top of our anniversary sale so!! hopefully!! we're not there too far past 9 o'clock #i gotta be back in the morning at 8 so fingers crossed!! #for nooooow i dunno i really wanna goof off maybe write something for sunday? #we'll see bc i don't have a lot of time before i really gotta get ready! #get ready to ramble | ooc

[ur-humble-overlord]

every time i feel like im ready to explode i am granted a new horror to my shit sandwich

#lost in the sauce but its me drowning in every new layer of things happening in my life rn #at first it was a bachelorette on my birthday that i cannot afford. and then we were told it was one night. it was originally all weekend #then i got told we're moving #ok. i already have time off for my birthday. so i guess i have time for all this now. #now the new apt has water damage and i cannot move into it on my long weekend. i do not have the pto to get another long weekend. #ok. fine. i will pack on my birthday. #no. you have jury duty that week. you COULD'VE got pto for that but you have too many important things to miss. #ok. #ur jury duty would've rlly helped your moving btw. if that was happening anymore. #ok thanks. #like anything else? genuinely? anyone else have something they need me for this month before i spontaneously combust? #anyway im going to make dinner #so i can go to my cousins baby shower. #so i can go see my in laws #when i haven't seen my own family in like a month but ive spent the past few weekends with them. #and will continue to spend my weekends with them for this wedding my partner is in. #which im not but since we're engaged im expected to help without any of the recognition of being in a wedding. its cool. #like 3 of my precious pto days were used for this but its good. #i just am not allowed to take unpaid days off without a writeup. #even if i feel like i wanna die i am out of time off. #its soooo good im sooooo in a great place. #biting and biting and biting and biting the pto system at my work

[fingertipsmp3]

I feel like I’ve lived through at least a month just in the past 3 days. I checked the date just now and damn near had an out of body experience when I realised Monday was only two days ago

#bro the absolute sodding emotional rollercoaster i have been through this past week should be studied by scientists #thursday: unsuccessful job interview. friday: found out that the job interview was unsuccessful. but one of the interviewers (actually a #former colleague of mine lol) gave me a piece of feedback that made me feel like i’d cracked the code for all future interviews #it was this: keep. talking. give as many details as humanly fucking possible. talk about policy. drop in words like safeguarding #list as many examples of stuff as you can. tell stories. bamboozle them #OH i forgot to even fucking mention we had builders at our house until friday. friday was the last day they woke me up with a cacophony #so the weekend was uneventful aside from there was a skip in the driveway and scaffolding all down the side of the house but zero men #monday: successful interview. found out it was successful 5 hours later. got off the phone having accepted the job…… and found a text from #my old boss (the boss i had at the job i really enjoyed. that old boss) inviting me to come back this summer #i had a bit of a mental breakdown but eventually decided to stick with the job i’d just got because it’s a permanent contract and they will #let me sit down #yesterday: found out that the foster doggy i applied for and really wanted is going to her forever home on thursday (which is now tomorrow) #obviously i love this for her but i was like ‘damn. okay’ #today: the foster co-ordinator was like ‘hey do you want to foster this rambunctious 3 year old unneutered terrier?’ #i was like ‘sure yeah what the fuck. that might as well happen’ #(they are neutering him beforehand. and he looks really cute. he’s not aggressive he’s just a young terrier with like 3 brain cells) #unless something finally kills me in the meantime i’m picking him up on monday. i cancelled therapy in order to do this. yes i’m well aware #that there’s a metaphor somewhere in there but it’s fine. i rescheduled therapy #i also have realised i do not know how and when i’m going to get my ssri prescription renewed… i know the pharmacy will call me in a couple #of weeks to make sure i haven’t died. but i think i was supposed to get a prescription renewal at therapy #the therapy i won’t be going to until like 5 days after my prescription runs out. that therapy. foook #honestly withdrawal symptoms would probably just spice up the situation at this point. they’d just make things interesting #i swear to god everything always gets crazy and stupid right before my birthday… remember when i turned 26 and couldn’t drink because i #was on antibiotics for a kidney infection. and when i turned 27 and one of my wisdom teeth tried to emerge #this is like that except with dogs and jobs. at least the skip and the scaffolding are gone now #i AM trying to sell a sofa on facebook marketplace so wish me luck with that ig #personal

[j-esbian]

so so so fucking tired of people who perceive working in an office as the only “”real”” jobs

#the equivocation of ‘’professional’’ to ‘’white collar’’ #the way people treat those schedules as ‘’the normal one’’ when there’s millions of people working outside those #me every weekend for the past seven months: i only have sunday off #my friends ​every time we want to hang out: can we do saturday instead uwu #and just the disparaging attitude ‘’business culture ‘’ has towards literally any job #tbqh i would rather die than work in marketing and that is. from what i can tell. most of the jobs available #in an office setting #idk maybe this is my outside opinion but a lot of those jobs feel superfluous or like. making their own problems to solve #like that post about the leftist commune where everyone was like ‘i can do admin and project management’’. how is that useful #it just feels very much like the american ideal of ‘if you work very hard you can be a self made millionaire’ #is a lot more prevalent among that class #and like i know it’s also a matter of ‘i make more than you so i’m more important. skill issue’ #but idk i just have the perception that i’m ‘’supposed to’’ go into a field i have no interest in and i’m Doing Something Wrong #and making my life unnecessarily hard on myself. because i have no interest in it #rant paused bc i’m gonna be late to work if i keep going lol #mine

[freebooter4ever]

ignoring everybody in my phone, sorry not sorry ;_;

#i have been canceled on or weirded out too many times in the past four days #journal shit #you know how the baseball player was bragging about all the celebrities and best hiking spots he knew and how LA was better than my home? #and it turned out he wasnt a hiker at all according to his friends? #well this new guy is bragging about dancing spots in the city #im fucking tired of the bragging i dont care #but he may actually be legit so maybe next week ill think about it. i already told him i was busy this weekend #i feel like its really not actually hard to impress me #just be smart and very fucking funny have good timing and know when to surprise #like instead of bragging about something orchestrate a way for me to discover it #my point being if you're the one who introduces me to the turtle pond which is fucking free btw im going to be a lot more impressed #than the person who knows all the hot spots in town because they think it makes them look cool #or driving lmao #skilled driving is always sexy to me i am a DISASTER for someone who is good behind the wheel #i have a certain friend who im absolutely not attracted to #EXcEpT for when he is driving like fucking hell it's hot the way he takes those curves lol #one time i volunteered to ride along with him for 45 minutes both ways in LA traffic to drop off his watch for repair just so i could #watch him drive 🤣 #thats over an hour and a half of LA traffic i mean #or god timmy whenever we are together if im not making him laugh hes making me laugh i dont think there is a minute we arent giggling #why is it so hard to find someone who combines all three :( #or even just one who isnt already in a relationship :(

[southislandwren]

I deeply love the freshman but she just called twice to ask if could jump her car at a location 30 minute drive away, I am pajama’d and blind in bed . No I cannot dedicate over an hour of time when it’s already my bedtime because surprise, I wake up at fuckin 4:25 am 🙃

NO FUCKING WAY was I awake typing this godforsaken post and my other friend called me for 30 MINUTES!!!!! You fuckheads I work on a farm do not contact me after 7:30!!!! Arggghhhhhh okay goodnight and anyone else who calls me is NOT getting an answer I am asleep GOODNIGHT !!!!

#and last night I got like 5 hours of sleep and I didn’t take a nap today. I shouldn’t be fucking driving anyway because I’m SLEEPY sleepy #I was like give me 30-40 minutes and she was like uhhh I will call some other people… yeah do that . #like if I do go for a drive this weekend I’ll still invite her but I’m getting a little sick of her antics #diary post #ugh. anyway if you find this E I do deeply love you fr but I told you I wasn’t going to be a good friend this summer #and I didn’t mean like teehee I can only hang out on Saturdays #I meant the likelihood I text back or see you in person more than twice a month is VERY low #and yeah this is on me for picking a stupid fucking job but like. I need to be sick of farming before I head to a city for 5+ years #I am exhausted down to my core. I relapsed in my bad habit on Saturday. I am barely functioning. #I don’t think I’ve eaten anything that’s not fruit or dairy products in the past 3 days. I am desperately waiting for an incident at work. #begging to the universe to let me get kicked in the head or something so I can have a few fucking days off PLEASE #anyway goodnight. now im all wound up and I’ll get another 5 hours of sleep #also ironic the second friend who called me was gossiping abt this guy at work that should just shut up sometimes #and im sitting there on the other side of the phone YAWNING after picking up and answering I am already in bed #and my friend is still rambling on about stupid inane work bullshit that I do not care about. #okay goodnight for real. I hate everything

[magdalenas]

i am just straight up miserable

#why am i always working past when i’m supposed to get off like every single day is something where i have to stay late #i have absolutely no life and now that i’m working weekends again i certainly won’t get one in the future #even when i get invited to see people or do things i have to decline or cancel last minute like #today i didn’t even know i had two events to look after until 4pm & the first one started at 4:30

[missshame]

Ding dong it's mental distress time

#Soon I'll make a sideblog where I can rant and shit and keep this one for music related stuff so I'll stop being so annoying on main #But for now #I feel so shitty lol kinda saw it coming kinda did not #Like yes I'm overworked cause I have been studying pretty much all day everyday since Monday and I also have studied a lot these past few #weeks #But at the same time I've been studying less than I usually would #Like I took two weekends off for Christmas and new year's eve #And I've never allowed myself to relax this much around this time because I always have exams in January #So basically I guess allowing yourself to spend time with your love ones for like four days isn't that crazy but I still feel like I've bee #Been very self-indulgent #And also the fact that I'm like almost getting enough sleep #Not studying past 8 or 9 pm #And allowing myself around 40 minutes of exercise a day makes me feel like I'm not doing enough #Like I don't feel like I'm studying enough unless my life is becoming as unhealthy as it could be lol like either I'm doing nothing but #study either something feels off #So yeah I'm very tired but like #Not derealisation kinda tired you know so I don't feel like I'm suffering enough to complain or to be allowed to expect a passing a grade #Which is fucked I know #Like I'm almost nostalgic from two years ago when I was studying all day during winter break and emptying bottles of rum in my room #At night to help me fall asleep #After studying real late #Anyway that's not how I imagined the #College life #also this way of studying led me to burnout the next semester #like I passed my finals but it was the lowest point for my mental health #and then i could not study for a whole semester and I failed #So like I know I shouldn't study more because I can't take it and it wouldnt work in the long run but I still feel like a complete failure #But nvm sorry goodbye

[seekingthestars]

i promise i'll stop coming on tumblr just to make complaney text posts but

sarah's thanksgiving (currently):

monday: work + lunch with friend tuesday: work + (maybe volunteer thing?? idk if we got signed up for it or not lol) wednesday: work thursday: 5-6 hr round trip roadtrip to grandma's (+ lunch with relatives i don't like) friday: 6hr round trip roadtrip to sister-in-law's grandparents' house for thanksgiving with her family saturday: maybe actually nothing sunday: 6 hr round trip roadtrip to grandpa's (+ extra hr in the car driving to get lunch)

like when am i even supposed to enjoy the holiday lol

#personal #also grumpy about this bc no one has made any of these damn plans in advance #going to my grandma's was decided this past weekend at least #but the sister-in-law's family thanksgiving thing was sprung on me today?? #i knew we were going to my grandpa's /sometime/ but that time being sunday was also sprung on me today #bc i guess it got bumped bc of the sister-in-law thing #i knew 2 of my 4 day break would be going to see MY family but why has a 3rd day now been taken up with my brother's wife's family sigh #i have been asking for people to make plans so i would know if i needed to ask for time off or not and no one would say anything #UGHHHHHH #anyway i'm tired of being collateral damage in everyone's holiday plans lol sick and tired of it #after my mom told me about the sis-in-law dinner thing today i literally hit my head on my desk several times #that was a MISTAKE bc i think i somehow actually bruised my forehead or something?? #there is a little round mark there that won't go away now lol #oops #y'all just thinking about next week is making me tired wtf