#so yeah! crazy week!

[calumsclifford]

i’ll be patient despite our racing hearts

rating : teen and up audiences

relationships : mashton, minor cake

words : 5767

The thing is, Michael and Ashton aren’t not friends. They do things that friends do. They enjoy each other’s company. They have the same taste in music. They have good talks. “You can be friends with your boyfriend, Michael,” Calum says, exasperated.

or, Michael and Ashton are accidentally fake dating

read here on ao3

a/n: this fic is part of the 5sos summer fic exchange! this time, i wrote for monse (@lukemichaelcalumashton)! i hope you enjoy some good old mashton fake dating! i had a blast writing it!

as always, massive thank you to hazel (@allsassnoclass) for organizing! i am always in awe of your work and dedication, and i appreciate you an insane amount!

i am, of course, not the only writer participating in the exchange! please go check out @5sos-fic-exchange to check out our other wonderful writers’ fics! i’m excited to read through them, i hope you are too!

#5sos fic exchange summer 2022 #my fic #lukemichaelcalumashton #allsassnoclass #5sos-fic-exchange #ive had a crazy two weeks #i got a puppy 13 days ago!!!! #he is a sweetheart and i love him #but it's obviously a lot of work #and not a lot of sleep lol #he was sick this morning so i was up with him finishing this fic :( #my poor baby :( #i'm not going to get into it but work has been hell #so yeah! crazy week! #on that note puppy is napping so i am going to nap too #all the love <3 #mashton fake dating

[ohitslen]

Promises

He should know better. 

Wolfwood has seen Vash make promises, or hear about the ones he has made in the past. He has also seen the end of each one and how every single time the outcome is less than what was promised. 

Vash likes to say embellished words, with a soft and determined voice that lures you into his hopes and dreams, it almost feels like a spell, as if he was calling for you to come closer and believe him. But Wolfwood knows better.

He believes in him, but Vash is much closer to being an idealistic dreamer than a realistic person like he is. He might not be aware of it, but his beautiful promises of a better future give people hope, a hope that is usually embraced with things like disappointment and abandonment. 

He doesn’t think that Vash does it with the intent of looking for any of those things. Far from it, he might even do the impossible in order to accomplish said promises, but life is too short and humans are too mortal for his wishes, so in the end, most of Vash’s promises end up being empty or they come to haunt him as a reminder of his failed vows. He admires the man, for his perseverance and idealism, but he also hates the man, for his stubbornness and lies. 

Wolfwood knows all of this perfectly to a tee. And yet, he has also found himself being drawn to his world. Because he also dreams of it.

A world in where his always present calls for love and peace exist, a world that is far more kind than what he might deserve, a world in where the kids can be happy and roam around without any worry in their heads, a world in where he can peacefully turn grey with age and his hands can shed the harsh callouses of his life. Who knows, maybe a world in where he and Vash can finally know the peace that was taken away from them, in where they can share the calmness that comes with the passage of time, indulging in every tick of the clock welcoming with open arms whatever comes their way without any fear.

It is a beautiful promise. But Wolfwood is a person that has to keep his feet on the ground, indulging in “what ifs” would only make things harder than what they had to be. He can’t have any ifs if he can’t make it through the now. And by the way he is carrying his present, he is doubtful he will even get to see a shed of that promised world that Vash tries to drag him into. So why mourn something he doesn’t even have, or will ever have for that matter.

He hates the way Vash seems to promise things so easily. His tongue silky and pliant, slipping divine words one after the other, promises way too big for what that barren world can actually fit. 

But when Vash talks to him in that holy voice of his, when he hears him say “It’s okay, everything will be alright, I promise” so gently right on his ear, while he holds his face so tenderly making him focus on him and nothing else, he wants to believe him.

He has seen the end of his promises. He knows how impossible they are. But for once, he wants to believe it too. Believe in that loving world that will cradle them both until they fall asleep, listening to the soft sound of the wind laughing while the moons smile upon them. 

So he allows himself to indulge in the warmth of his palms, leaning into the comfort of his existence, feeling the soft air of Vash’s breaths against his skin while their foreheads meet in a touch that feels like a hot brand that will melt him.

For an instant, he allows himself to be selfish and believe that maybe, that is how living in that world Vash so desperately fights for would be. Soft and warm, making him feel safe in the hollow of Vash’s hands where the world seems to fit so well. A world where the blue sky is a blanket that covers the love and care that is nestled in it like the one in Vash’s eyes. He wants to see that world.

For now, he will selfishly think that the world that fits in Vash’s hands is right there in where he is holding him, where his blue eyes are drowning in the light of the sunset dripping with love and care while looking at him, that the gentle touch of Vash’s thumb wiping his tears is the same as the kiss of that laughing wind in that distant future, where the smile of his eyes overcomes the smile of the moons.

He should know better. But he loves the thought of that world. And he hopes that Vash will get to see that world, because that gentle sight is more fitting for someone like him than the one of his violent world.

He promises to himself that he will do what it takes for that day to be possible. Even if the end of that promise will be empty for Nicholas, he knows it will be a full one for Vash. So it really isn’t that empty for him after all.

He hates his lies, and he hates how true they sound, but Vash’s embellished words are far sweeter than his bitter thoughts so they feel better on his insides, almost like a balm that cares for the wounds of his throbbing, painful reality.

He should know better.

But aren’t humans weak at the promise of love?

#yeah….mm…mhm yeah #my thoughts were going crazy with this one. because WW crying is something that has me week on the knees #WEAK FFS #also the thought of him becoming bare and emotional at the hands of Vash makes me want to jump around until I pass out #think of it. he is afraid of him in a way. but he trusts him so deeply too it’s such a contrasting and little contradictory thing #more like. denial after denial but yk what I mean. because that’s the whole post #also as a fun fact. while on the making of this thing the line of “it’s okay. everything will be alright. I promise #it’s meant to be said by Vash to WW #but also I did it considering that a)Vash is saying it to himself as well and b)it’s something WW wants to say to Vash as well #they are both incredibly pained men and they know it but don’t adress it. so verbally saying such words to each other issssUUUEHWHAGAH #ah yes. the intimacy of being emotionally vulnerable with the person who you would trust your life to but never openly say shit to eachother #isn’t that such an amazing flavor? I won’t lie to you it’s one of my favorites #trigun #vashwood #vash the stampede #nicholas d wolfwood #trigun stampede #trigun fanart #wolfwood #nicholas trigun #nicholas the punisher #lenssi writes #lenssi draws #trigun 2023 #trigun 98 #because I did a mishmash on WW design bc this is meant to be TriStamp time skip in my mind #his eyes were originally their canon steel blue/grayish tone. but while doing the lighting the brown looked gorgeous #i couldn’t help myself so I left it that way. because there is something so beautiful abt his eyes shining like that in #the afternoon light while he becomes undone under the sunset ya feel me? #OHFUCKIALMOSTFORGOT another little detail. Vash’s right hand doesn’t have a glove and it’s on purpose btw you’re welcome

[butchviking]

i hate being a mentally ill adult actually. i hate that there’s always groceries to be bought and housekeeping to do and work in the morning i hate that we have no space to feel it all i hate that we walk around acting normal. there are so many people i know who are clearly deeply unhappy with their lives and we make silly little jokes that allude to it but sometimes i want to grab them by the shoulders and scream ‘i know you are miserable!! we can’t keep living like this!! this is why people break!!’ im sick of this drudgerous apathy i want us all to be dramatic like when we were teenagers i want us to sob together and scream bloody murder at each other and tell each other we want to kill ourselves not as a funny post-ironic joke but because we all feel like that sometimes!! i want us to get fucked up on god knows what til we can’t open our eyes i want us to take care of each other instead of always taking care of ourselves i want us to be vulnerable i want us to hold each others hands in the ambulance!!

#don't get me wrong there are happy and beautiful times! there is wonder and fulfillment!! #but how do u share in the one if u can't share in the other? #i can't walk into work and say #'yesterday all i could think about was which of you would cry if i died #but today i saw a kid pick a flower and it felt like the most beautiful thing that had ever happened' #i don't even talk to my friends like that! it's all 'haha yeah been having a rough week. u know how it is. hbu?' #i feel like im going crazy but i dont believe that! aren't we all feeling this??? is anyone else feeling this??? is this fucking normal???? #am i just emotionally closed off?? is everyone else having these conversations am i the stunted one who doesn't know how to talk about it?? #i KNOW im living with mental illness but so are a lot of people! im sad sometimes but im not losing my mind! i know other people feel this!!

[sluckythewizard]

these are A BIT OLD but uhhh here check out these aggio doodles i did forever ago. still VERY happy w my colors :3

#this was back in uhhhh jan 2023!! hot dog!! and its still perfeclty good to eat! #i think kian and chip would get along. they could talk about feelings. kian could give chip the therapy he needs. maybe kiss? who said that #jay and rand could also get along i think. smoke buddies. cigarette fans. i bet they could play dnd together. or build a contraption togeth #also WAUHG the way i colored in kira here is SO PERFECT.. SHES SO SPARKLY N PRETTY. ALSO THAT HOOORNN i remember bleeding for that #shading is HARD lighting is HARD drawing a crazy unicorn is HARD but SOOOO WORTH IT I SITLL LOVE HOW IT LOOKES..... #waht else is there. oh yes the prime defender doodles #i love mark so much.... i miss being crazy and strange abt mark winters... i need to draw him killing more people someday #anyway i gotta go to bed soon to keep my sleep schedul on track but I DONT WAANNA!!!! recently relistened to bitb. that might release spore #im also chippin away at that am i in heaven animatic between workin on commissions. I GOT RLY FAR!! i think that i could finish it within #like. 3 or 4 more inspo waves. it wont be unfinished forevcer..... its so close... just 4 more full scenes to rly fleshh out #so basically another 2 years. YEAH BABy. in the meantime i have a backlog of things i can poast. i got plenty o drawings and doodles to sha #alrigh thats all the ramblin im gonna do for now. sleep well everyone hope shool or work goes easy on u in the coming week

[sapphic--kiwi]

gustholomule week day 2: royalty

👑 & ⚔️

when your best friend—the prince and sole heir to the kingdom—gets knocked unconscious in the woods and you, his personal bodyguard, have to carry him to safety…

#gustholomule #gustholomule week 2024 #matt tholomule #gus porter #toh mattholomule #augustus porter #the owl house #toh fanart #i imagine they’re like. idk mid-20s here but it’s an au so idk #yeah i’m crazy about them. went a little insane over this one oops #i love dramatic lighting it’s SO much fun. i will never stop using it sorry!!!!! #steph draws #x

[bloomingnewwrld]

Siffrin doodles

#in stars and time #isat #isat fanart #isat siffrin #in stars and time siffrin #yeah guess who decided to play this game during finals week. not my brightest moment but we ball #i love this guy by the way #what the hell is his deal #i love it when protagonists are awful at being heroes #they’re so lotus coded its crazy. you should play this game #my art #artists on tumblr

[mishidefresa]

Rockstars

#It's only #tuesday #And it's been a crazy week for me already #Somebody died #Somebody had to go to the hospital #They just told me another relativo who haven't come to México in 30 years #Is gonna spend the holy days in our home #So yeah im tired lmaooo #Anyway #c'est la vie #I can't wait to d1e :D #rymin #mingixryan #my art #rymin fanart #infinitytrain #Infinity train #infinitytrainseason4 #infinitytrainbook4 #ryan akagi #ryanakagifanart #Min gi park #Min gi park fanart #ryanxmingi #ryan akagi infinity train #Min gi park infinity train #infinity train book 4 #Infinity train season 4

[saturngalore]

she’s so darling to me honestly <3

#i think i finally decided her name should be angela #her possible names were thelma dawn denise sylvia but they all reminded me of real 70s singers #and the other famous angela is davis but she’s an activist so #she’s supposed to be the love child of donna diana pam brenda sykes and shelly duvall #im still working on her outfits but that seventies edit really pushed me into the right direction #she’s a disco singer turned actress/model so yasss a generational talent #and i almost finished her house a couple weeks back but i stopped when i started making hairs 😭 #i built a whole house and made a hair just for her…this is crazy! #she also used to be a fairy and her name was sarai? idk you guys keep up with saturngalore lore but yeah #anyways idk if anyone will read this long but tysm if you did ily 💗🫶🏾 #🪐 speaking #angela haynes

[comradekatara]

ppl who want sokka and suki to break up baffle me. they make each other so happy. sokka is miserable most of the time, but the second they get suki back from the boiling rock he is so happy, just to be near her. they work so well together. they make each other laugh, they have great chemistry, they save each other, support each other, get each other; they just fit. i get that conflict makes for good stories, and that they are a very uncomplicated couple. but sokka is such a tortured soul. why would you take away the one straightforwardly good thing he has in his life? why can’t we just let them have this one perfect happiness?

#please do not point to the post I made last week about how fun it would be to see sokka and azula ruin each other #i was a different person back then ok i was crazy i don’t know #sokkaxsuki #no but like it rly is crazy #how sokka is in such a better mood the second they back from the boiling rock #and yeah that’s partially because tbr is the climax of his entire arc and his Journey has been Fulfilled #but also he just loves suki so much like 😢😢😢 #they’re literally written to be a perfect couple like. #sorry for wanting the most depressed boy in the world to be HAPPY FOR ONCE #sokka #suki #forever <3

[ender1821]

the sun can’t break the habit of going down

Posted on ao3: read here!

The world is burning, everything is falling apart, and in the middle of it all, Gem soars through the skies to find Pearl.

For the final time, that is.

— — —

(For @mcyt-yuri-week valentine’s day 4: Grief/Revenge)

#ender writes #gempearl #pearlgem #empireshipping #mcytyuriweekvalentines #empiresblr #empires gempearl doomed yuri walked so SL gempearl doomed yuri could run #mcyt fanfiction #mcyt #empires smp #empires s1 #yeah. yeah TWO fics today crazy huh #this was such a productive week for me in terms of writing and absolutely nothing else #thank you chinese new year holiday for the free time i will NOT get this amount of time in the next two months

[fratboystrider]

girl dude

#my art #doodles #oc art #dude #he just has longer hair and is a lesbian #anyway HEY GUYS! #Booked a tattoo appointment 🤯🤯🤯 im looking to finish my sleeve as much as i can before i graduate #im in the works of booking another one so i can get some more tattoos sooner #because my other appointment is october #thats not too far from when im typing this but its like 3 weeks til my appointment #so…. yeah….. yanno……. #Otherwise seeing fob again in march! #and seeing ricky montgomery also in march! #Im registering for my final semester of college #and apartment hunting #life is CRAZY!

[glittergoats]

-but at some point, you come to your senses.

#persona 5 #persona 5 royal #persona 5 royal spoilers #akira kurusu #ren amamiya #goro akechi #takuto maruki #shuake #kinda #my art #guess who made it to 2/2 #yaaaaay #i get it now #fucking OUCH. #on maruki's boss fight and i just devided to stop last night bc i was flopping and really tired. its pretty fucking hard #crazy that ill be done with this game this week #been playing since october so its been ever present for a while now #anyways yeah wow i had a sinking feeling akechi was dead from the moment he brought up Okumura and wakaba being #like i know foreshadowing when i see it #and that makes me #so sad #all akira wanted was a second chance with him #anything in the world could have changed for him he has been through so much #and his one regret HIS ONE REGRET is not getting more time with Akechi #not being able to save him #to finish their deal #fucking insane #good god #anyways partly inspired by my dear friend who bought this game for me's fic of the same title in the caption #his ao3 is laceaesthetic and you should read it he's a wonderful writer and an only slightly worse friend for putting me through this

[lord-squiggletits]

Bolts upright from my bed

In an AU where Pharma lives the Adaptus thing and comes back on the Lost Light, wouldn't he find out that the crew had to deal with being cornered and nearly killed by the DJD and a bunch of other Decepticons?

And then Pharma could get to be like "oh I see :) you were under threat by the DJD :))) why didn't you just run? Oh you couldn't and had no means of escape? Funny :)))) didn't you call for help? Oh you did right??? And did anyone come???? :)))))) did anyone come in time to save you from the DJD????? DID THEY????? DID YOU JUST CALL FOR HELP AND RUN AWAY AND THE DJD JUST LET YOU GO????? :))))))))))) OH THE DJD BLOCKED COMMUNICATIONS AND HAD YOU SURROUNDED????? OH HOW TRAGIC I GUESS YOU COULDN'T ESCAPE AFTER ALL AND A LOT OF YOUR FRIENDS DIED :)))))))))))))))) AND THE ONLY REASON YOU WON WAS BECAUSE YOU HAD A LOT OF SUPERPOWERFUL FIGHTERS ON YOUR SIDE???? WOW IMAGINE WHAT MIGHT'VE HAPPENED IF YOU HAD NO FRIENDS AND BARELY ANY MILITARY SUPPORT AND THE DJD CAME HUH??? WOW WHAT A RELIEF THAT DIDNT HAPPEN"

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In other words, I'm pretty much convinced that the reason Pharma is remembered as "the evil cowardly doctor that murdered innocents to save his own skin" instead of "the Autobot that got mindbroken by Tarn into thinking that making a plague and killing everyone was his only way to escape" is because he got introduced before the DJD were established as a pants-shittingly evil and sadistic group of freaks, and unlike Rodimus' crew he didn't have the luxury of being a main character whose thoughts and experiences were shown on screen. Pretty much his reputation as "crazy token evil Autobot" was sealed from MTMTE #5 and by the time MTMTE #50-something brought Dying of the Light, Pharma was a footnote in the story and never got to have this new information about the terror of the DJD factored into his own character.

#squiggposting #pharma apologism #i mean isnt there literally a scene in dying of the light where tarn talks about how drawing out his strike #makes the enemy suffer more from degradation and panic #and megatron says that he wrote the DJD manifesto to be about systematically isolating and tormenting targets b4 actually killing them #and when they send out an SOS its not received until literally weeks later #and pretty much the only reason most of them survived was bc of spark trauma magic #and having a mad scientist that could make super badass upgrades and weapons #but oh when PHARMA doesnt call for help and doesnt run away it's just bc hes evil and cowardly #i mean i know in the text he says that he just wanted to get away with his name cleared but like #how can you look at what the DJD did in future chapters and go oh yeah pharma did what he did #just because hes prideful and didnt want to ask for help or get caught for his misdeeds #like sure that's the only part the narrative shows but that's prolly bc pharma wasnt meant to be that deep #from a doylist view there wouldnt have been room in the story for this random side villain to get a sad backstory #anyways it just really. gets my goat lmao #the difference b/t pharma and the LL crew on necroworld in terms of audience sympathy #was basically just placement in the story and screentime #hence why pharma is just a crazy evil doctor who sucks at being an autobot #and the LL crew are brave heroes and friends making a last stand against evil #good for the LL crew that they could actually fight back but uh. pharma couldnt #abyways sorry for being weird about pharma on main it will happen again

[maddy-ferguson]

i don't like j0pper either but when people say joyce should've stayed with bob they always lose me because i have a hard time believing she even liked the man

#like hardcore twitter j0ppers have a point i fear she wasn't amused by his antics #and narratively he's very much her el and her steve the normal she can't go back to after the upside down stuff (like him wanting them to #move to maine) #something else about joyce and hopper. when someone said i don't think hopper's homophobic for saying like is he in s1 (i don't think he #would be based on that alone like it's not a convincing argument to me at all) someone else said you're crazy to think joyce would get #with a man who could be homophobic she would never do that to will when like. wasn't murray's whole thing in s3 that joyce didn't #like that hopper was a brute but that she also kinda liked it. now why they would choose to highlight that instead of continuing on the #path of s1-s2 j0pper idk but just. it's funny that they'd immediately go joyce would never do that to will when like. yeah. #i do think bob was the better choice...for will's stepdad lol. for joyce idk. #for jonathan...no idea #and hardcore j0ppers are cute when they say how dare you base your opinion of hopper on s3 that's like three days in his entire life WELL #we only spend one week a year with these characters blame the duffers for giving us this side of hopper and for leaving us with that for 3 #years. but i can also find stuff i don't like about him in other seasons so we're fine #and like i say: brf slt

[sapphic--kiwi]

gustholomule week day 2: sports

in which there’s a flyer derby and a grudgby game back-to-back (and matt made some smartass comment to his boyfriend) 💚

#gustholomule week 23 #gustholomule week 2023 #gustholomule #gus porter #augustus porter #matt tholomule #toh mattholomule #the owl house #toh fanart #yeah so they make me crazy #i love drawing my 15/16 y/o designs for them so much its my fave era to draw them in tbh #matt’s grudgby team is called the hexside hydras i got that from em’s fic “I’m tired of waitin’ I was never good at sports” #steph draws #x

[housewifebuck]

Anyone else accidentally form an extremely buddie coded relationship with their best friend or am I just gay

#the only part we don’t got is the being in love part. not that I wouldn’t hit but she’s straight and married unfortunately #work together ✅ #legally bound to me ✅ #the emergency guardian of my kids (my cats) and vice versa ✅ #people think we’re married when we go out together ✅ #her kids are obsessed with me ✅ #literally the youngest one has imprinted on me fr #last week she called me mommy by accident and today she called me daddy on purpose 😭 I was like yeah sure okay I’ll take that #sorry I’m literally always on here gushing about my best friend but I just love her soo much like that’s my second family bitch …. #and everybody gonna fucking hear about it #bc I have soooo much love for my friends but this one is particularly emotionally constipated so I can’t love bomb her like my other friends #and I need to let it out somehow or I’ll go fucking crazy sorry #personal