#so sad about moustache 😭

[skyward-floored]

For thr wip game: I Mustache You A Question

I’ll mullet over

I:

“The fallback from being four people for so long was bad,” he said, fiddling with his bracelet. “I won’t deny that. Having four sets of memories suddenly in one head wasn’t... easy to adjust to. I could barely function for a month.”

There was not a single result for moustache 😔

You:

“Wow, you have a lot of books rancher,” he mentioned.

A:

A dagger was pressed to Mask’s neck and he froze, Link’s heart shooting into his throat again.

Question:

“Um, quick question,” he said a little on the panicked side, “why uh, what did you mean by ‘Hero of Time’ exactly?”

#so sad about moustache 😭 #a few come up for question but they were either boring or a bit #uh #well #there’s a particular part of something I’m writing I’m trying to convey without actually writing #if you get my drift #anyway question popped up with that one and it’s really not that bad but I’m not going to just post that #answers from the floor #wip #wip ask game #telemna hyelle my beloved

[jinnirev]

Falling, Fallen (NSFW)

☆ Pairing: Han Jisung x fangirl!reader

☆ Synopsis: Jisung feels a sudden attraction towards a particular fangirl.

☆ t/w: slowburn, depicts mental health struggles, slight angst, jisung stalks the reader on social media, lowkey parasocial relationship on the readers side 💀 choking (jisung chokes in food and reader performs choking exercises), oral sex (f!receiving), softdom!jisung x sub!reader vaginal penetration, unprotected sex, creampie, overstimulation if u squint, porn with plot

☆ Note: Happy birthday late Jisung!! GUYS I COULDNT FINISH THIS IN TIME AND I GOT SICK 😭😭😭😭

Han Jisung. A hardworking idol, someone who tries his hardest to perform despite how he feels. It broke your heart every time you saw him in interviews. After the latest comeback, 5 Star dropped, fans noticed Jisung feeling extremely down. You couldn't stand seeing him look so sad, his usual energetic personality toned down to just a couple of smiles here and there.

"My moustache can be seen?" Han immediately pulled up his mask after reading that comment in the livestream. God, you hated that. Hated the fact that people were pointing unnecessary things out, he was barely showing his face before that comment, now his face was completely covered by the bucket hat he had on his head and the white mask.

Immediately, you rush to comment, sweet, encouraging words to him.

y/nnie: Noo! We don't mind it! :(

y/nnie: Please don't cover your face, you look good

y/nnie: your hair is so pretty I would start barking if you took off your hat

Jisungs glances at the comments, your comments being one of the first ones he sees. He tilts his head up to the camera, his eyes filled with a hint of amusement, "you'd bark for me to take off my hat?" he asked with a deep chuckle. God, you forgot how wide of a vocal range he had. Sometimes, his voice would sound so deep it made you feel things.

You almost screamed to yourself when you realised that he had read your comment, your fingers immediately rushing to type more

y/nnie: YES PLSD I WOULD PLS 🙏

y/nnie: YOURE SO PRETTY I LVOEYOU AONMUUCH

Jisung lets out a brighter laugh this time, seeing your comments with the amount of typos made him chuckle. You were on cloud 9. You just made your favourite idol laugh on a livestream? In front of so many people?

☆☆☆

Han finally ended the live. After running on one hour of sleep and explaining his new song, he was quite tired. He went on his phone, going onto bubble to see what Stays had to say. Ah, it was the same person who wanted to bark for him to take off his hat.

y/n <3: You did so well! Go get some rest, Miserable was such a good song, I cried while listening to it 5 times 😭

y/n <3: eat well!

If he was being honest, Han usually gets sweet comments like these from Stays. But for some odd reason, he felt his heart swelling, butterflies shooting straight to his belly as he read what you said. He looked at your profile picture. It was a cute selfie of you smiling to the camera. Your hair styled perfectly to suit your face shape, makeup done in a way that enhanced your facial features, you were breathtaking.

He quickly switched apps, going onto Instagram to see if he could find more of you. He switched to his personal account. Obviously, he couldn't be seen using the official Straykids account. Who knows what crazy rumours sasaengs can come up with? Typing your name into the search bar, he scrolled and scrolled, finally finding an account, its profile picture set as Han Quokka. He pressed into it, relief overflowing his senses when he realised that your account was public.

Was he being a stalker? He felt quite guilty for trying to find out more about his fan like this, but he thought that you were just so pretty. How could he not? Jisung looked at your highlights, posts, and stories. You were an average girl, random posts about food, some occasional OOTDs which he wished were more so that he could see more of your style.

Jisung catches himself celebrating when he finds out you don't have a boyfriend. Or at least he assumes that you don't have one since you don't post any pictures of men. He decided to take a break from the stalking. The one hour of sleep seriously kicking in, he decided to return back to his dorm.

☆

12.37 am.

Jisung woke up feeling his back aching. He shot up, wincing in pain. He sat there in silence until his stomach rumbled. Ah, he hadn't eaten much. He lets out a sigh as he goes to brush his teeth, grabbing his beanie and a mask before heading out the door.

The night was silent. The stars would've been shining brightly if it had not been for the bright lights of the city. He could still see a couple of them, blinking and basking in all of its glory. He walks silently, the chirping of the crickets fills his ears, the soft breeze blowing in his direction. There was just something about the night that made him feel at peace.

He arrived in front of the local convenience stall, pushing the glass door open. The classic convenience store bell rings, indicating he had stepped foot into the stall.

Jisung grabs the usual cup noodles that he likes, chicken breast and an Iced Americano. He places it onto the counter, greeting the cashier before pulling out his phone. He quickly paid for his food before thanking the cashier and going over to the food preparation station.

Quietly, he prepares his food. His fingers reached up to pull down his mask to, getting a sip of his Iced Americano and letting out a happy 'mmhm!'. He takes a seat at the seating area, disappointed that there was only one. The table, which connected to the large window, perched a girl, quietly sipping at her drink and scrolling mindlessly on her phone. Han decided to just take a seat next to her. He was just there to eat his food, nothing more, nothing less.

He took a bite out of his noodles until he hears the sudden blaring of one of Straykid's songs from the girls headphones next to him. The noodles that he had been trying to eat getting caught in his throat as he lets out loud coughs. He was caught completely off guard when he hears God's Menu blasting from her headphones.

The girl turns to him, surprised by the loud coughing and sputtering next to her. Immediately, she spoke up, "Are you choking?" her voice filled with both panic and concern for his wellbeing.

Han could only look into her eye, nodding frantically, still coughing. She immediately gets up off her seat, pulling Jisung off his seat, making him stand up straight. She wrapped her arms around his abdomen, balling one of her hands up into a fist, the other one wrapped above it. Using some force, she thrusted repeating it until he spits out the noodles he had lodged in his throat.

Jisung lets out gasps for air. The girl rushes away before scurrying back with a bottle of water in her hand, holding it in front of Jisung. He takes the bottle, chugging it down.

"Don't drink so fast, you might choke again!" The girl warns, worried that he might choke on the water.

Jisung finally puts the bottle down, turning to the girl who he was ready to thank for saving his life. His gaze landed on her, suddenly everything was clicking in his head. This girl was the same girl we was stalking earlier, it was you!

His face suddenly flushes in embarrassment when he realises this was his first interaction with you, definitely not ideal, but hey, at least he got to feel your hands around his waist.

"Are you okay?" Your voice breaks him out of his train of thoughts as his face gets even redder when he realises he was just staring at you, blanked out.

"Sorry.. Just wanted to thank you for saving my life," he chuckles, rubbing at his nape. He averts his eyes from yours, clearly very embarrassed.

"Don't worry about it, you should be careful when you're eating," You flash him a pretty smile, even when your voice was laced with concern, he could only focus on how pretty you looked. Your hair was let loose, barefaced and wearing only a grey hoodie and loose wide legged black pants.

Jisung pulls out a tissue that he had stuffed into his pocket, cleaning up the noodles that he had spat out which landed in the table. His face still red from the embarrassment, he doesn't know how he's going to recover from this one.

He hears you moving, taking a seat on the chair that you had previously been sitting in. Jisung sits down as well, silence filling the air before he breaks it, "Uh.. so, do you know who I am?"

You turn to him, smiling sweetly at him, "Are you Jisung from Straykids?"

Han nodded, flashing you a small smile. He still couldn't get over how he embarrassed himself. He doesn't know why but he started talking again, "I, uh.. started choking cause I heard you listening to God's Menu," he chuckled, smiling at you sheepishly.

You burst out laughing, tears starting to brim at your eyes from what you heard. "I can't believe I made THE Han Jisung choke..." You giggled. God, that was like classical music to his ears. It made him forget about how embarrassed he was as he laughed as well.

"You almost killed me, you know?" Han voiced out, his eyes landing on your pretty orbs, the way they looked as if they had the entire universe in it. It sucked him in.

"I'm sorry, I didn't mean to make you choke.." You apologised, sounding half serious and half in a joking manner. Jisung chuckled before silence fills the air again. It was a comfortable silence, one which had the two of you staring into each others eyes, not a word leaving your lips.

"I saw your comments," Jisung's lips turn upwards into a cocky smile. A small gasp emitted from your throat, your cheeks quickly getting hot. "W-Which one..?" You cupped your cheeks in your hands, trying to cool it down while trying to desperately avoiding eye contact with him.

He cracked up, "The one about barking, and the bubble one about you crying 5 times to my song," His laughter fills the in the empty convenience store.

"If you weren't right in front of me, I'd be screaming, kicking my legs and celebrating.. I'm sorry, I'm never commenting things like that ever again." You keep my eyes fixated onto the wooden table even though you could feel Jisung's gaze burning holes into you.

"I don't mind, really, but if let's say... hypothetically, if I were to take off my beanie right now, would you start barking?" Jisung snickered. You looked up at him with wide, horrified eyes. A dangerously handsome smirk on his face as he wiggles his eyebrows.

"What?! N-No way!" You scoffed before speaking again, "I can't just throw away my dignity like that..." You let out an embarrassed laugh, acting as if you weren't just thristing for him just a few hours ago.

Jisung snorted, "I see your comments every day, you know?" He had a mischievous smile on his face, eyes glinting with excitement when he saw how flustered you were. You quickly covered your face, "I'm never commenting ever again..." You spoke with your face buried into the palms of your hands. The tip of your ears burned bright red, Jisung couldn't help but laugh at your reaction.

He realised that you were genuinely embarrassed, his hand landing in your shoulder as he rubs it soothingly, "I like your comments though, they made my day better," He whispered sweetly, his cheeks also starting to get flushed.

You raised your head up from your palms, making direct eye contact with him. A sheepish smilen plastered in your face, "Y-You actually remember me?" Jisung nods in response, "I liked your profile picture, I thought it was pretty," He says again in a shy whisper.

Was the Han Jisung flirting with you right now? Seriously? At 1am in the morning in some random convenience store?

Your cheeks immediately turned into a dark hue of red, giggling at his statement, "I can't believe THE Han Jisung is flirting with me right now..." Jisung blushes, reality hitting him hard when he realised that he was trying to hit up a fan.

"God.. I'm sorry, I don't know what came over me.." Now it's Jisung's turn to be embarrassed. He whipped his head away from you, his fingers rubbing at his temples. He feels your hand land on his shoulder, rubbing his shoulder the same way he was rubbing yours earlier.

"I liked it," you giggled, "are you not gonna finish your food?" You asked, voice sounding a little bit worried. Jisung turned to you, "It almost killed me, I'm not hungry anymore.." His lower lips poked out. Was he consciously making puppy eyes? Either way, it made you melt in your seat.

"But you need to eat," You say with worry, "how about this, I'll treat you to something nice since I was the one who made you choke," You proposed with a grin, Han swears the more you smile, the more he was getting energised. At this point, he thinks he can survive just from seeing you smile alone.

Jisung nods, "I'd like that, let's go," he excitedly stands up, throwing away the now cold and sad looking chicken noodles. "What?" You're confused as he cleans up the table. "But you should go rest, didn't you say that you had one hour of sleep?"

Jisung looks over at you, "I already slept earlier," he grinned. His heart fluttered at how you remembered what he said during the livestream, god, you were so cute. "But I want to treat you to something nice. All the good restaurants are closed now," you pouted.

"But you promised," He whined, grabbing your hand and ushering you to clean up and leave. You let out a sigh, "Fine.. what do you want to eat then?" Jisung smiled from ear to ear, "Ramen, I know a good place. It's open till 3am, we still have time so hurry!" He helps you grab your empty plastic cup, dumping it into the dustbin next to the table before grabbing your hand in his and pulling you out the convenience store.

☆☆☆

The sounds of the two of your footsteps filled your ears. Again, Jisung was under the night sky, this time with someone who he thought was even prettier than the starry night sky. He shoves his hands into his hoodie pocket, letting out a sigh in relief when he feels the warmth of his pockets engulfing his hands that were previously shivering in the cold.

The flickering street lamps were not quiet either as you followed Jisung. The streets were dead silent, not a single person in sight. "Do you know my name?" You suddenly ask, looking up at him with your pretty eyes. He wanted to capture the moment, the sight of you looking up at him with your gorgeous eyes that seemed to shine even brighter in the night. Your glossy lips that makes him want to press his lips against yours so badly, but he knows he could never do that.

"Y/n, right? I'm a good idol, so I remember my fans," He shoots you a wink as you giggle in response. Slowly, you clasp your hand around his, holding it up, "Not the be sappy and ruin the moment, but I hope that you will take good care of yourself. Don't rush yourself, yeah? We have all the time in the world to wait for you to feel better, so don't feel the need to be funny and energetic all the time."

Jisungs feels his heart pounding against his chest, his vision suddenly becoming blurry. "W-Wait, are you crying?" He hears your panicked voice, he heard some shuffling of your clothes before a soft napkin is dabbed against his teary eyes. He looks down at you, more tears starting to stream down his cheek when he sees you wiping his tears away for him. Your fingers worked on his face softly, treating him as if he were a delicate porcelain doll.

You feel his hand suddenly wrapped around your wrist, his other hand snaking its way around your waist, pulling you into an embrace. You let out a soft gasp when he buries his face into your neck. You could hear his choked sobs as he cries against the fabric of your cotton hoodie. With shakey hands, you wrapped your arms around him, your hands patting his back soothingly. Hearing his crying made you extremely emotional as well. You couldn't help but bury your face into his chest as you start to cry yourself.

Engulfed with each others scents, you felt at peace, even if you're crying your eyes out with him right now. The soft scent of his cologne filled your senses. He smelled of soft floral scent of roses and lilacs.

Jisung's crying stopped, but you didn't even notice as you were too absorbed into his scent to notice. He pulls away from you, with a frown on his face. He reaches up to cup your face in his hand as he tilts your head upwards to meet his gaze. Your eyes were puffy and red from crying, and you could say the same about Jisung's.

"Why were you crying?" Jisung asks in a whisper, his thumb wiping away the tear that falls from your eye, his voice shakey. You sniffled, "...It hurt me to see you cry," You finally get out after a long sniffle. His lips curve upwards into a loving smile, "I'll keep in mind to never cry in front of you ever again," He chuckles.

"What? No! You shouldn't bottle up your emotions. If you cry, we cry together, okay? Then we can cry it all out and feel better afterwards!"

He laughs, "Whatever you say, princess."

"Yah! We're not on pet name basis yet!" You slapped him on his shoulder, his eyes crinkling as he giggled at your response and how flustered you were.

☆☆☆

"Order whatever you want, it's on me," you grinned proudly, as the two of you walked into the ramen bar. The delicious aroma of bone broth filled your senses, you could feel yourself getting hungry after only drinking an iced latte.

"You don't mind if I order the most expensive one?"

"Don't push your limits," you glared at him, taking a seat. Jisung slides into the seat in front of you, smirking. "But you were the one who almost got me killed from choking," His fingers tapping against the table in, feigning a frown.

"You're a literal millionaire trying to milk money out of a poor girl. You should be embarrassed of yourself," you scoffed, crossing your arms over your chest, furrowing your brows to make you look like you were mad.

"But you can afford to pay for Bubble," He shrugged before grabbing the menu and scanning through it. "You're so lucky I just met you today. If I had known you for a day more, I'd punch you," you scowled, watching him point at the most expensive option.

He looks up at you, his lower lips poking out, staring at you with the cutest puppy eyes he could muster. "Are you for real...?" You deadpanned, a sigh escapes your lips, "Fine.. order it, I'll pay." Han smiles brightly at your response, he pulls his phone out, scanning the QR code on the table to quickly order.

Jisung lifts up his head, "What would you like?" Still smiling brightly at you as if he wasn't about to burn a hole into your wallet. "Tonkotsu ramen with grilled chicken."

Han nodded, quickly submitting the order. He turns to you, "Tell me more about yourself, Y/n," he rests his chin on his palm, waiting for you to respond. "Uhh... what would you like to know?" You ask awkwardly, unsure of what to say.

"Hmm.. I dunno, like your job? Your relationship status? Uh, whether you want a boyfriend or not? Uh, do you think I'm your type.." He trails off, realising what he had said, he buries his face into his palm, groaning at himself.

You let out an amused chuckle, "Seriously? Han Jisung from Straykids wants to know if I have a boyfriend?" You laughed again, watching the boy squirm in his seat, cringing at himself. "Well, I don't have a boyfriend, you're in luck." You lean towards him.

He moved one of his fingers that was covering his eye, peeking out from under his hands, "Can I- Can I uh.. have your number," He asks shyly, almost in a whisper.

"God.. you don't know how hard it is for me to not pass out right now..."

Jisungs hands flies off his face in an instant, his shyness vanished as a concerned expression takes over his face, "WHAT?! ARE YOU OKAY? SHOULD I TAKE YOU TO THE HOSPITAL?"

You burst out laughing at his little outburst. Jisung stares at you in confusion, a frown on his lips as he tries to comprehend what was going on. "I'm okay... oh my god, you're so funny, Jisung..."

He rolled his eyes at you, "This isn't a joke, Y/n! You scared me!" he whined, grabbing your hand in his and pulling it back and forth. "I'm sorry, it's just that I'm still shocked that my bias is sitting right in front of me, asking for my number. It's crazy, you know?"

"So are you gonna give me your number or not?"

"Pass me your phone then, idiot," This time, it was your turn to roll your eyes at him. He quickly slides his phone over, and the contact page was already open and ready for you to type in your number.

"Yah! Have some respect, I'm older than you! Wait, am I? Wait, how old are you?"

"I'm 20, but it doesn't count cause I'm a foreigner!" You stuck your tongue out at him as if you were mocking him. "But you're in Korea, so you gotta do it!" He argued back. "Would you like it if I called you Oppa?" You immediately cringed at yourself when it rolled off your tongue, you felt like a disgusting Koreaboo. With fast fingers, you typed in your number before sliding his phone back to him.

Han nodded, a sly smile finding its way onto his lips. "No way I'm calling you that! I'd rather die than to be accused of being a Koreaboo!"

Your little banter was interrupted by the arrival of the food. The strong aroma of the nicely cooked meat combined with the warm broth, you swear you were drooling when you saw the bowl of noodles. You said a quick thank you before diving into your bowl of ramen, instantly forgetting about the banter that you were having with Jisung.

Jisung smiles to himself as he watches you struggle to put your noodles onto the big spoon. An eating habit that you've had for a long time. Jisung thought it was the cutest thing as he sneakily picked up his phone.

Snap!

"Did you just take a picture of me?" You asked with your eyes squinted, hands still working on putting the noodles onto your spoon.

"But you looked so cuteee," Han turned his phone towards you, showing you a picture of yourself with your brows furrowed, staring angrily at the spoon you held in your hand.

"I look so bad!" You whined, quickly trying to grab the phone out of Jisung's hand. Screw him and his quick idol reflexes. He moved his phone away in an instant, laughing at your miserable attempt of theft against his phone. "Han Jisung. I better not see you send that to anybody."

"Don't worry, it's gonna be safe kept in my phone."

☆☆☆

11am. Quiet snores fill your ears as your eyes flutter open. It was a quiet morning. The sun shone into your room through the small gaps of your curtain that was blown open by the soft breeze of the morning. Wait. You don't even snore, and why do you feel a hand wrapped around your waist?

You let out a loud gasp when you see Han peacefully asleep next to you, his hand wrapped around your waist as he snuggles closer to your body. Your mind wasn't comprehending what was happening until you blinked a couple of times and finally you remembered what happened.

Jisung begged to come over to your place last night. Who were you to say no to him when he was giving you puppy eyes again? He ended up dragging you to bed despite your protests that you both haven't showered.

"Good morning," His voice was all groggy. It was deep and somehow attractive. "We stink."

Jisung laughs when he heard what you said, "Are you gonna help me take a shower then?" His fingers trace at the skin of your belly, drawing random shapes onto it.

"Don't be creepy, I just met you yesterday," You rolled your eyes at the clearly disappointed man. "Pleaseee?" He tries again with the puppy eyes, thinking it would convince you for the third time. And it did. "Fine," You groaned, slipping out of the soft covers of your bed.

Jisung celebrates to himself when he hears your answer, quickly following behind you. Something about Jisung that many people don't know is how high of a sex drive he has. He couldn't help but stare at your ass while walking to the bathroom, the way it was perfectly plump in your pants. He wanted to hold it in the palm of his hands and slap it to watch the fat of your skin ripple.

"Are you kidding me? You got a boner from me agreeing to take a shower with you?" You had an amused smirk on your face, your index finger pointing at the awfully obvious bulge at his crotch. "But you're just so fine, how am I supposed to resist?" He whined, moving his palm to cover the tent in his pants.

You grabbed him by his hand, holding it in yours and pulling him into the bathroom. You slammed the door shut behind you. You slipped off your hoodie, revealing your bare torso. Jisung's eyes widened as he realised that you were braless the whole night with him. "Are you gonna take a shower with your clothes on?" You ask mockingly, slipping your pants off as well. Leaving you only in your black lacy panties.

Jisung curses, seeing your almost naked body had him getting all tense, blood immediately rushing to his cock. He felt himself get impossibly harder. He ripped off his hoodie in an instant, he was also not wearing anything underneath. Your jaw drops to the ground when you see his small but toned waist. His abs looked as if they were carved by the gods, his soft and milky skin that made him look so inviting to touch and mark up.

Jisung smirks when he sees you ogling his body. He removed his pants as well, leaving him in only his underwear. "Get on the sink, pretty girl," His voice was husky, the moment you heard that, you scurried to climb onto the sink. "You're excited aren't you?" He pushes your legs apart, bending down to your core as he stares it down.

You couldn't help but blush as he was practically breathing against your clothed pussy. You could feel your slick oozing out of you at the sinful sight of Jisung in between your legs. His wavy hair made him look divine. "You're very pretty," His fingers found its way to your pussy lips, rubbing at your clothed clit gently. You let out a small gasp at the stimulation, whining as it wasn't quite enough. "Stay still, princess." He holds your hips in place, stopping you from bucking them against his hands again.

"P-Please, Hannie? Don't tease," You whined, your panties were drenched by your slick at this point. He doesn't say a word as he opens his mouth, this tongue darting out and licking at you through the lacy fabric of your panties. Your hands flew down to his head, grasping at his soft brown locks.

He pulls away, looking up at you with the most gorgeous boba eyes you've ever seen in the universe. "Be patient, yeah? I'll give you what you want," His fingers tug at the waistline of your panties, tugging down your underwear. Your cunt suddenly feels so exposed, you could feel his hot breath against your wet core, the sight was truly something only you'd have the chance to see.

You let out a gasp when you feel him sucking on your clit. His saliva mixing with the wetness of your pussy beginning to make lewd, wet noises. He pulls away, diving into your cunt, you feel his tongue fucking into your tight hole. You were chanting his name like a mantra, hands still tugging at his hair. He stops his movements, pulling away slightly as you whine at the loss of contact. "Best pussy I've ever eaten." He dove right back into your cunt, slurping and sucking at your little pussy. His finger now rubbing circles at your clit, you felt your orgasm approaching.

"What are you doing?" Jisung looks up at you when you pull him away from your wet cunt. His chin covered in your juices, mouth all wet with a mixture of your slick and his saliva. "W-Wanna cum on your cock.."

Jisung lets out a chuckle, "I really wanted to taste you, though. But if you insist," He pulls down his underwear, his cock springing up, standing proud and tall. Your jaw falls wide open when you see the size of his cock. He was definitely above average.

"Speechless?" He rubs the hard tip of his cock against your wet, sensitive nub as you let out a whimper. "Hurry, Sungie.. want you so bad.."

That was all it took to convince him to push his cock through the tight folds of your cunt. He groans as he feels you clamping down on his cock, "Relax, princess, can't fuck you if your gonna choke my cock like that." You whimper in response, trying to keep your vagina relaxed so that he could work his way into you.

He lets out a lewd moan as he was finally buried to the hilt, your warmth engulfing his thick length had him wanting to cum on the spot. "F-Fuck.." He cursed, knowing he wasn't gonna last long. He reached down to your clit, rubbing at it as he rocks his hip slowly against yours, eliciting pretty moans to fall out your lips.

"F-Faster, Hannie, promise I can take it.."

Jisung drags his cock all the way out of you, leaving only his tip inside before slamming back into you. Your eyes rolled to the back of your head when you felt the tip of his cock hitting that spongy spot inside of you, he was practically kissing your cervix with his cock at this point. "So deep!" You wailed as he pulls all the way out before slamming back into you again.

His hands holding your hips, his nails pressing into the soft skin of your hips. Leaving behind small, pretty crescents. He moves your hips with his, pounding his cock into you. His stamina never seemed to decrease as he continued at that pace, you could feel the knot in your stomach about to snap.

Through your mindless babbles of his name, you cry out as you feel the knot in your stomach snapping. Jisung lets out a growl as he watches your pussy cream all over his cock, clenching as your orgasm washes over your body. He slams into you even faster now, ignoring your whines of overstimulation.

"Mhm.. you can cum inside, Hannie~"

You felt his cock twitch inside you before he releases thick spurts of cum, moaning as painted your walls with his cum. He couldn't take his eyes off of your blissful expression as you felt him fill you up to the brim. Your cheeks all red and flustered, eyes rolling to the back of your head. God, you looked so amazing.

He pulled his cock out of you, watching as his cum slowly flows out of your poor little cunt. It trickles down your thighs before ultimately hitting the cold tiles of the bathroom floor.

"Let's clean you up, yeah?"

#han smut #skz x reader #skz smut #skz hard hours #straykids smut #han x reader #jisung smut #jisung x reader

[grimalkinmessor]

Mikalight for the ask game! :D

Hi Moon :D

AYYYY MIKALIGHT 👓🖋️🍷

when i started shipping it: Before I'd even finished my Death Note rewatch honestly—I only binge a max of six episodes a day so I didn't even remember what Mikami looked like when I started reading fics that mentioned him. Deadass I thought he had a moustache, I was so convinced in my old memories before I saw him on screen again 😭 BUT YES I read TrashKing's Composure before I finished the series again and found their dynamic there intriguing :3

my thoughts: They just bring a sort of Riza & Roy, Barty & Tom, Crim & Alessio, Aro & Jane vibe to the table that I really enjoy ✨ The Mastermind™ and their feral attack dog—Light says "Bark" and Mikami goes "At what tone, pitch, and volume; poodle or rottweiler?" and that's just SO much to play with >:3 IT'S ABOUT THE SERVITUDE 🤌🤌 THE IMAGE OF LIGHT SITTING CLEAN AND ARROGANT IN HIS THRONE AND MIKAMI STANDING PROUD BESIDE HIM COVERED IN BLOOD 😩🙏 Mikami is Light's favorite little pet and Light is Mikami's everything.

what makes me happy about them: They are soooo unwell your honor 💕 Two freak ass nerds both thinking they're more righteous than they are. Mikami could probably snap Light in half over his knee (dude is JACKED) but he won't 🥰 They're what I need when I want Light pampered and spoiled and getting everything he wants.

what makes me sad about them: THEIR DEATHS. DEAR GOD CANON DID THEM SO DIRTY, MIKAMI ESPECIALLY 😭😭 There is no dignity in death INDEED

things done in fanfic that annoy me: Honestly? (Don't hate me for this one Moon (⁠๑⁠•⁠﹏⁠•)) I don't like how often L is brought up or mentioned in Mikalight fics. Like Mikami is L's replacement in Light's heart, like he sees L in Mikami—they're literally nothing alike 😭 They both have black hair but if that's the only thing you need to be L's replacement then Matsuda would make the cut. Besides; if I open a Mikalight fic, I want the focus to be on Mikami and Light :') If I wanted Lawlight I'd have gone to the Lawlight tag instead, you know?

things i look for in fic: Mikami being obsessed and Light viscerally enjoying his obsession. That's it :3 I want Mikami to be the devoted pursuer and Light to be the deity deigning to touch him out of amusement and curiosity. I like Light in control and Mikami being super horny about it ✨

who I'd be comfortable with the ending up with: For Light, I like him with pretty much everyone lol (have that man running from his harem 24/7), though L and Ryuk are definitely at the top of the list ;3 For Mikami.... it's harder, because I only like him with other people in situations where Light isn't a factor at all, such as they've never met or Light just doesn't exist. Save for maybe Near, because I think captor/captive is always a fun trope 💫 But with Light there (and specifically in Kira Wins AUs) I tend to like him with either Matsuda or Misa, because I can see both of those relationships turning antagonistic >:3 Mikalight is pretty much the only DN ship I have that doesn't have SOME form of chafe to it, so anything else would need to be made interesting for me to ship it.

my happily ever after for them: Kira wins, Mikami uses his eyes and tenacity to become Light's right hand man, and then they spend the rest of time being righteously evil with Light directing and Mikami wielding the scythe—which he is then reward for by Light allowing him to use his mouth and hands and sometimes cock to make his Kami-sama feel good 😌💖

who is big spoon/little spoon: TOUGH QUESTION. Because if it's in a No Death Note AU and they were both,,,normaler, I'd say Mikami. But in any other circumstance I'd say Light, if only because Mikami kneeling between his legs while Light works is practically the same thing as being the little spoon when you think about it :3

what is their favorite nonsexual activity: Not to get super soft all of a sudden, but probably talking. Mikami is canonically very intelligent as well, even if I think his smarts come more from diligent study than any born-in ability like Light's—they've probably read a lot of the same books and I imagine them sitting in comfortable quiet reading together and occasionally looking up to speak their thoughts about the book aloud, which leads them into calm but intriguing discussions. When they're not being murderous psychos, I think they're both actually quite calm and content people, so things like going for a morning run, drinking coffee together, and reading in the same room are definitely their favorite moments otherwise 💗

#asks #ask game #asmallmoon333 #death note #mikalight #yagami light #mikami teru #hehehe thank you moon 😘

[little-miss-dilf-lover]

Sorry sorry but I can't help myself, the power this man holds I swear. I feel like aaron and brian just fit them so right??

Sorry for the angst, I actually wanted to save it for when you're requests are open but I thought it's too sad and you might not want to write it. Is it ok if I extend it a little and send it a few days later? (Apologies if it's too much but you've just awoken something in me that I didn't know I had)

But I'm so in love wirh the idea that you'd be that one unfathomably cool trio that is just so reckless and chaotic. We'd be the brain of the group (if that makes sense) and the only one who thinks before we act. Feel like we would be able to handle ourself in small fights, so he sometimes just stands there, awe struck, watching you like, yep, that's my girl. But god forbid someone manages to lay a finger on you, he'll see red. He WILL choke the man to death, no questions asked.

In the novel it is mentioned that he likes to read while on missions (when he has the time that is) so I can just imagine him grabbing two books for both of you as you sit and read like the classy couple that you two are. ("Killed 12 people and y'all are over here reading." lem, probably)

This is so self indulgent so I apologize but if you're first language isn't english, he WILL learn a few things just for you. He adores the surprised look on your face, followed by that pretty smile and laugh of yours.

In an interview with aaron and brian, aaron looked confused at the word "simp" and I can just picture that with tan and lem. He doesn't spend that much time on the internet so when lem hits him with the "You're whipped." or "Man's got it down bad." he'd look so confused.

Ok but imagine you trim his moustache, omg, he'll have you sit on his lap, his hands gently placed on your waist, you'd be too focused to notice the soft look in his eyes. "Darlin' stop smiling, I'll mess up." he mutter a sorry but the smile still remains present on his face.

Rewatched the movie, love the way this man looks in his full suit. Gotta ask, what's your fav scene of him? Or maybe your fav line of his? I'm in love with the way he explains the white death's backstory, he looks so good in that scene too. Also like the way he says tickety-boo, it's just so silly. Again, I'm so sorry, I said I'll wait a few days but I just couldn't. Just when I send in the ideas I get new ones, no thoughts, head empty, only tan. If you want I'll write them in my notes and save them for few days later.

💺 anon

hii!

1. not to worry, he still has me in one too. and right?!?

2. don’t worry about it!! was a beautifully sad idea. yes yes!! you’re more than welcome to expand it

3. YES!!! like the brainy/ maybe techy one. I feel like he’d let you have your moment/ revenge/ fighting time etc until it gets too close, like he knows you can handle yourself and don’t need a guy to defend/ protect, but tan wouldn’t risk it. like after a few minutes if you’re still fighting, he’ll come and help (he knows you could’ve done it, but again he didn’t wanna risk you getting killed/ really badly injured) you’re like “I nearly had him” and he’s like “yeah, I know” but he’s grinning and checking you over for cuts/ wounds etc

4. UGHH I LOVE THAT!! very classy, sitting in first class, legs crossed reading the same book😩 that lem moment😭😭perfect

5. omg yes!!! even more cute and perfect if it’s broken and the verbs and tenses are wrong and he says something in different language and you’re like “you said, ‘I am very beautiful’” 😭😭😭 and you’re trying not to laugh or embarrass him

6. AHAHAHA yes!! I feel like lem knows lots of the lingo, and tan is at a loss, “peng? what the fuck is peng” “what the fuck does that mean?” so lem is always educating him on the words. I feel like he sounds old when he asks about it, like “when did people stop saying …” “what’s wrong with saying …”

7. 🫠🫠🫠🫠 that’s all I gotta say about that one, omg!!?! melting and crying at that thought. WANT THAT

8. well… I haven’t watched it in a while, but I have many memorable moments. so I love when he walks off the train and lighting his cig (for obvious reasons) when he’s punching the back train window (again, for obvious reasons) when he and lem are debating the 16/17 kill count. and quotes … “you following me? stop… arsehole” and something along the lines of “story about when gordon met percy and how percy’s bleeding from his fucking eye sockets” “not particularly, no” “some 80s dance off, innit” AAAAHH NEED TO REWATCH IT AGAIN SO BAD

don’t worry about it bby, if and evenever you get ideas, keep them in your notes and then like this time and last send them over. don’t worry about sending in a few days, if you wanna, send them when you want. I said send too many times😭😭 hope you catch my drift

#💺 #tangerine #tangerine x reader #tangerine bullet train

[lansplaining]

Evil modern JGY makes me so sad 😭 Wangxian is my forever OTP but I love JGY too and the way he gets designated as a villain is often so OOC. I don't mind as much if it's in circumstances where it makes sense for him (tho I'm still 😥 about it) but he's often being ~evil~ and making stupid decisions just because he wants power or something and that is not him!!! What's really annoying is that if you want an evil moustache twirling villain with no depth, JGS IS RIGHT THERE

right?!??!!

the other thing that gets me is that unless it's a JGY-centered fic in some way, he's basically never involved even when the modern AU plot is a version of taking down the Wens!!! like!!!! he was pretty instrumental to that, you guys!!!!! i've even seen ones where he/the Jins are allied with the Wens or helping them in some way and I just

#ask answered

[sbc-moved]

make the anti selfships implode… be what they call cringe… (despite the only cringe being them) cue me asking you to gush about your f/o(s) because my eyes were made to read through walls of text!! build a fortress of affection!!!! this is your pass to gush all you want!!

Real footage of me exploding the people who are against self shipping:

Anyway THANK YOU, thank you for giving the the opportunity to once again, post about my lame ass boyfriend Mario Jump Man Mario

In the most normal way possible I love the way he like. Emotes 😭 like the way his face moves when he speaks is genuinely mesmerizing to me.

Ugh this movie fed me sosososo well

It’s mainly like. The way his cheeks and eyes move whenever he smiles the way they kinda puff up and look chubbier ☹️☹️

The most sickening thing about being in love is that you pay attention to stuff like that. Like I see the way his eyes get kinda squinty and his moustache curls up when he smiles like I am actually so in love with this guy it’s not even funny.

There’s that thing and it’s like. When you’re in a group and everyone is laughing and you look to your favourite person to see if they’re laughing? That’s me. That is me. I am always checking to see if he’s laughing. I want to know if he’s smiling. I want to be the reason he smiles. UGH

And he has all these cute little habits that I will talk more in depth about in a later post but like. The way he hides himself when he’s sad n upset just breaks my heart and that cute little wave he does when he’s nervous. The way he covers his eyes with his hat when he’s embarrassed the way he like. pushes peaches hand away because she’s touching him too much I SEE THESE THINGS I NOTICE THEM AND THEY MAKE MY HEART FLUTTER

Also his fat littol face when he bite. Apple.. SHUT UP.

I’m so normal. By the way.

Anyway Thanks for the ask n the gush pass I looove talking about this guy <333 hope you have a wonderful day you deserve it !!!

#the very definition of love sick. actually #my head is spinning #if anybody wants to gush in my inbox pls pls pls pls come do that #selfship #self shipping #f/o community #f/o gush #mario #⭐️🍄you’re my superstar #♡.love letters #♡.mail box

[frozen-snowflakesandsunflowers]

Once upon a snowman review ☃️ | Analysis

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I'm cryingggg!! I just saw Once Upon a Snowman on Disney plus and it's beautifulll ahhh! It's only 13 minutes but it's so heartwarming. If you haven't seen it or heard of it, it's of Olaf from the second he was born to just before he meets Anna, Kristoff and Sven.

Here's a brief summary, if you don't want spoilers if you haven't watched it, don't read this bit: ↓

We open with, a few seconds into "Let it go" when Olaf was born, and then as Elsa lets go of her cape, it goes in Olaf pushes him down the mountain. He has a mini cute identity crisis and walks along the mountain. He sees Oaken's Trading Post and Sauna and as he approaches it, he hears Kristoff sing “Reindeers are better than people" from the barn. Just before Olaf opens the door Anna bangs the door open exactly like she did in Frozen as it's the same scene. An easter egg I didn't notice until now is that there's a statue of one of the tills outside the Oaken's shop. He goes into the shop and we see Oaken selling Anna's coronation gown for 55. Oaken likes Olaf and helps him find a nose but Olaf doesn't have any money but Oaken the “fuzzy man fear” as Olaf calls him, let's him off generously. The noses Olaf tries on after being told the last carrot was just sold (to Anna for Kristoff) are, a mini Arendelle flag, a ping pong aka a paddle ball, a snow globe, a glass bottle of some green liquid, a plunger, a comb (as a moustache lol), a live fish and then finally an old fashioned view master (like binoculars but you can add frames to make you see that scene, like virtual reality). Oaken tells Olaf it's summer and he puts in other pictures of Summer which we see in "In Summer", in Frozen to see and that's what triggers Olaf's love for summer. And as he discovers this, "In Summer" instrumental music plays 🥹 Seeing Olaf fall in love with summer, he gives him a “summer sausage” nose! Just seconds before Olaf leaves, we see Kristoff, Sven and Anna leave on the sled on their journey to the North mountain. Now Olaf is set to find his name out. But the sausage smell triggers the wolf and they cause him down cliffs. While Olaf's being chased, we see a tiny glimpse of Kristoff telling Anna “You got engaged to someone you just met that day?!”, a different angle of the scene when Kristoff recognises Wolves are nearby, and another smaller glimpse of Anna telling Sven “Get ready to jump, Sven!”. Falling down a cliff, the wolves run away but the baby wolf makes sad hungry noises which make Olaf give up his nose. And then here comes the best part of the short; The baby wolf licks him and snuggles Olaf before running into the sunrise then Olaf says “That felt just like a warm hug”. He then hears voices of young Elsa and Anna playing and Anna saying “Do you wanna build a snowman?/ Do the magic!”. And then the realisation 😭 “(Gasps) I'm Olaf and I like warm hugs”, all the whole "Do you want to build a snowman?" instrumental plays in the background. The most beautiful thing isn't just Olaf's realisation of who he is but right when the sun rises, Elsa finishes her song and has found who she is, in a way, transforming into her new gown. The final scene is Olaf walking down the snow covered forest seeing Kristoff and Anna. And we all know what happens from there!

I don't know why I didn't watch this before 😭😭 Indeed water does have memory. His memories consist of Elsa and Anna's too. All this Frozen content is making me love the entire thing so much more, and right when they're about to hit it's 10th anniversary! Fun fact, Olaf's birthday is the day after Elsa's coronation and is in the summer too! Speaking of the 10th anniversary, I expect something revealed or announced on the day cuz I'm hungry for moreee! ❄️

#disney frozen #frozen #Olaf #Once upon a snowman #ouas #disney #elsa and anna #a decade of frozen #frozen 10

[swiftlydnp]

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#it is sooo dan™ to be like oh no i am too happy phil leave me so i can be sad and lonely yeah that will get me to make more content😭😭😭

My Top Posts in 2022:

#5

dan, the biggest phillie always makes a point to reference the iconic ASs tweet

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310 notes - Posted October 17, 2022

#4

phil telling louise "i love it when you get dark and dirty", not remembering how old he is (i was screaming 35 at the screen plsldkd) , he said something awkward to jack howard about his moustache??? (still wanna know what was censored) and just hanging around the dystopia daily set drinking coffee god i really love him and his chaotic energy so much😭😭😭

338 notes - Posted October 16, 2022

#3

oh the combination of dan being the only one who is able to understand and interpret phil's weird gestures and alien language and phil being the only one who is able to hear dan's tone and bring everyone's attention to him when he wants to speak oh they're so perfect for each other and really do bring out the best in each other godd they're in love love🥹🥹🥹

433 notes - Posted October 19, 2022

#2

this tweet is so inherently dan i am kinda losing my mind😭😭😭

435 notes - Posted September 20, 2022

My #1 post of 2022

dan (and phil essentially) openly saying mind your own fucking business and calling out creepy stalkers on main and maintaining their privacy about the thing that's most important to them while still sharing spicy details i am so fucking here for this era!!! it's like we know you know cause it's really fucking obvious now but you're not getting all the details by any means and i love that for them honestly kings!!!

2,225 notes - Posted September 8, 2022

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[b1ttersweetzomb1e]

Humanized we bare bears: the bears + charlie and nom nom on picrew!!! Hope you like it!!

The pin flag on Grizz, aside from the pansexual one, which is also on Charlie's, is the queer indigenous flag. Panda is indeed chinese as he canonically came from China, but his skin is tan and not pale in my humanized version in my head. BY THE WAY this human Ice Bear is albino, it affected the colour of his hair, the colour of his eyes and, of course, his skin. He's not white tho, he's an Inuit siberian indigenous, I just forgot adding the indigenous queer flag in his clothes as I did with Grizz uugghh😭 It's so sad that this moustache is the closest do the show's Charlie I could find. And OMG Nom Nom looks like an e-boy and I swear it wasn't my intention🤡 btw he's queer as well, just closeted and thats why no queer pin (i thought about putting a lgbt flag pin on him that he got for pink money and fame saying that he's an ally, but naah changed my mind)

This is the most adorable picrew I've ever seen and if you also thinks that and wants the link, here you are babes: https://picrew.me/ja/image_maker/2069970 <3

#we bare humans #we bare bears #wbb #wbb grizz #wbb panda #wbb ice bear #wbb charlie #wbb nom nom

[robinsnest2111]

I don't yet know if shaving off the beard is optional or a solid part of the storyline for Harry

but in my mind he keeps it. no shaving in my headcanon, only an occasional trim to keep things neat

#idk what it is about me but when people change their haircut or facial hair? throws me for a loop #a real bad time tbh. couldn't talk to or look at my own father for a week when he decided to shave off his moustache #kinda feeling the same about harry orz #i know it's to symbolise a fresh start. a new person. but he looks so sickly and sad without it 😭

[vic-chaos]

OK OK it’s time for me to post all of my thoughts in a long ramble under a readmore in order to not explode jsdmsnd

Cartman............................... not even sure where to start honestly sjdfhdbff. it makes me really really sad that he gave up everything to do something selfless and suffered the worst fate of everyone?? None of his friends even giving a shit about him in the end..... ok then. I love the moral of this story guys.

But yeah I guess, it’s hard for me to look past anything about him other than the ending because it sucked so fucking hard jhbsjgdgf

Positives are uhhhhh..... I liked seeing more of his personality coming out in this part, and I like the further proof that he’s capable of both being a good person and doing genuinely selfless things when its for people he loves (we already had the first time with the pangolin, but the stakes were much higher this time and he still did it).

I guess unfortunately.... I still just don’t like Cartman’s storyline in both this and the last special. In the last few days or so I had already kind of come to terms with the fact that this is just another instance of a story arc/episode I simply don’t like, which there are already loads of, and its fine and not a big deal. (No shade to anyone who does like what they did with him, its just an issue of personal preference). And I had expected to maintain the same kind of emotional distance, but I didn’t know that the ending would hurt me so badly so now I have to go through a whole other grieving process djhbsdjfgg

Alright..... UHHH........ the buttman was extremely good though. Cartman grabbing him when he had his pants down in the toilet (also the fact that he still does that to pee sjdjsdjsjdsdj) and Butters accusing him of trying to look at his dick is making me sob, like the pattern with them really continues..... LMAO 😭

The way Cartman was the only one who could control him is making me insane ((thinking back to S20 when Kyle said he was the only one who could get Butters under control then too......)) Butters went back to being his henchman and partner in crime SO quickly and easily hdfsfdh I love themm 😭

Butters was also extremely cute I love the moustache I love the accent, the chest hair 😔🙏 and how much he still looked like himself..... kisses him. The NFT shit made me laugh so much too and I’m glad they made fun of those dfgjhfbjdhgf

I also have some feelings about Butters becoming this smooth talking, money obsessed con artist as a result of being trapped by his parents for so long, how much that persona feels like Cartman and thinking back to my post about how adopting personality traits from him has been helping Butters stand up to his parents and become more confident...... I may try and put this into better words another day lmao.

Clyde was super funny, RIP in rest king 😭 maybe he deserved it but I did love himm

Token was so good and perfect, Ike too. Stan’s astronaut uniform in the end was cute as hell, Shelly was so cute too!!? Also main 4 going back to being friends as kids......... 🥺❤ (I’m just gonna pretend that ending didn’t happen LMAO they all stay friends forever and they all end up happy. Its canon now)

I think that’s all I needed to get off my chest for now smdsnd, I may have some more things to comment on later when I’ve processed everything.....

#x #sp spoilers #this is super long

[leqclerc]

Sad truth is Charles would probably leave Sebastian after seeing his hair fall out. He cares about appereances too muchfagafagfagafagfga. OR would talk Seb into hair transplantfgafagafgaga. Second option most likely probably.

ASEDFHRJGTHK SHUT UP 😭😔 Look, in my take, he accepts it just fine (once he gets over the initial shock) because unconditional love. Not gonna lie, a part of me wishes they were still teammates so we could see this play out in real time and I wouldn’t have to make assumptions. I agree that Charles cares about looks and to a degree he’s a vain bastard who knows damn well that he won the jackpot at the genetics lottery, but that’s him and his perception of himself. He still looked at Seb with big, adoring eyes even when he had that infamous hairodynamics haircut all through 2018 (and for a while there in 2019 even? I swear he’s sporting it in one of their Q&A videos from mid-2019) and the Luigi moustache (they even joked about it) so I would like to think that he’d get over it because it’s Seb, and who he is means more than what he happens to look like at the moment. But in reality...I guess unless he comments on it or is asked to comment on it, we won’t know. 

The hair transplants sdwjfekrgdhtjyfukgjt I mean look if he managed to successfully talk him into that, good for him. Good for both of them. A part of me wonders if that’s what’s happening, if he actually went and got hair transplants done like he joked about (in...must’ve been Bahrain?), but then I think, “is Seb the type of person to get cosmetic surgery to ‘fix’ ageing?” Maybe he’s just embraced it and doesn’t much care about his physical appearance. In which case, more power to him. The seat fit was...what, last week or something? Unless AM release more promo footage/photos until then, we’ll probably see him next at the car launch (I think they said that’s happening sometime in February?) and then obviously testing. Until then, the case of BaldSeb remains *Ryan Bergara voice* unsolved.

#replies #anonymous #sebchal anon #sebchal asks #i wish he'd just shown up to maranello like that. the CHAOS

[sweatblvvdtears]

Lmfao my god , someone just told me that if I happened to have moustache or beard , wtf . Man , shiitt , I'm gonna die . StoP assumiNG . Go mind your own business you weirdos . Even if "did" , I would shave it all 😭 What the fuck with this people mind nowadays *taps my head twice* *confused* What the freaking fuck . I am crYIng . The HELL . 🔥 This people are actually thinking that I'm 30 or 40 years old or around 50's ? I'm actually are around 20's + irl . ? I know how to take care of my personal hygiene and etc okay . I may have heavy depression and seasonal relapse and mental disorders but I will still keep myself clean and fashionable as much as I can and etc . I am like a living nephilim person but with demon side personality and zombie-fied as emotions when actually I AM FEELING LIKE ENORMOUS GIANT OF raging fire and BURNING most of the times . I'm having war inside myself most of the times and you won't know it from me . I love mantaining my poker face a lot even though I'm destroying in the inside and in pain most of the times . It doesn't mean I am faking my face expressions when I actually feeling lots inside but I just like to not to tell people about it irl here . I know how bad they can be with me and how they will treat me about it .

Just face the truth that , nobody ever cares actually in real life here , around here. I like to keep it all quietly and pressed it all the bottled of emotions quietly pressing then I will blow up as same as Satan and Demon did . Blowing it all up . I can reacting as impulsive sometimes . I tried my best . I really am . I am TRYING NOT TO DESTROYING things . You don't know how much did I really want to cut his head off whenever he turning around from me irl here . I am just being so patience-ly . Really am not trying to give more conflicts. Even though it can be ended up as failed . I have sword and knives & blades in real life here , so I really HAVE TO BE CAREFUL with my thoughts and emotions . No kidding . I have feelings too . I am quietly dangerous to someone like my father or who ever behaving like him or simply just abusive . I am dangerous especially when anger involves . I am trying . Now, I'm just waiting for someone to call me after done applying , so they can hired me and working with them .

So I can focus to good things and to fix myself , getting the right meds, treatments and gain my own money and place to live . Or I will still stuck inside this hell hole prison for few months . Or a year . Caged and very strict . I'll be in heavy stress again in loopness . Heavy sadness . Like anchor , dragging and pulling you down deeper inside that "sea" . It fucking hurts . Your feet will be strangle and tie so tight . Till you cannot move much . I can't take much . I am a person too . I want my own freedom and peace . I want my own place . My own happiness . Surrounded by people that will love and care about me . I haven't met that yet . It feels too "expensive" for me . It's like , I am just going through the Hell and just been released and suddenly when I want to have my own rest or go to somewhere in ease , they are asking for money and etc in order to enter for that happiness and kind place . ? I am covered with bloods and wounds also tears also scars ? I probably will just walk away and give up on it fastly . Rather be survival and be all alone and just stay as distinct and dark for people to approach in order to not be hurt or judge or etc .

I also know it will make me in fucking hurt but I do know I can do this all over again and I can stay living even in the admist of fear and sadness and wrath also pain in myself and veins . I am strong and alone . I can do it all over again . I refuse to die . Even though I really do want to die a lot and I am dying quietly and people will cage me up and put me under surveillance also lock me up . It's sad but I don't care . I can lift people up yet going through hell and back and multitasking things all around . I am wounded but I know I can go through it . I also know this is destructive and painful for me but I have no choice . I am tired and sad . I am just trying . I am in pain . I've been suffered for decades and more of hell years . I tried to smile and be brave . Even though it's going very bad and real sad . I really am . If I didn't do all of these and not forcing myself, i might will die or already died few years ago . They might found me laying on floor and doesn't breathing anymore and in cold . Black and blue . I am trying . My real life is hard . People around here putting me through a lot of things . Hard cruel things . That is why I ended up angry and sad at the same time . Massive anger and in pain . I'm crying everyday . I rarely am smiling or truly happy . Tired . I sleep so little or just a lot . I am mostly lonely . I enraged . I was sad . I sat near water a lot . I learned all this pain . I'm destroying myself yet I am pushing myself through all of it . I can't stay like that forever . Did you see now ? I'm just tired . 💔

"Sometimes , you need to fix the environments around the "flower" itself , not the "flower" itself . You will find that you will crushing the "flower" but you forgot about how evil and bad the environments around it . You won't be able to grow or keep it alive . You will only killing it ."

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