#so not as much as shattered at the altar of winchester as sewn together

[spacetrashfallingdown]

Dean Winchester is like home to me

#personal #spn #hes an endless source of comfort #when im dissociating and everything feels off he feels right #im not gonna rant about the specifics of my dean kinnism and its relation to finding self because thats a bit out of pocket #but its like #grounding #sometimes #im the type of person to completely turn their life around upon being introduced to dean winchester #(the very touch of you corrupts etc) #but not by inventing a new way of being but by finding it within myself and enjoying it #because its not like these traits or preferences (no matter how superficial) i share with dean sprung overnight #like cars #like a year or two ago my mother mentioned im a car person to which i reacted with ''oh come on; no im not'' #because thats such a stereotypically over the top masculine thing to be #but like #ive had an interest in cars since about 4 yo #and i felt like a burden to my family since probably even earlier! /lh/srs #so not as much as shattered at the altar of winchester as sewn together #(at the altar of winchester) #well here i went ranting anyways oh well #my pmdd is here so i experience thrice as much emotions as usual so thats why im thinking about this stuff in the first place #aint nothing like a monthly hormonally induced identity crisis am i right or am i right #personal derangements #original content #in the small chance this post escapes containment hi sorry for thar