#so i'm forcing myself to stop there

[geniusphilester]

i’ve seen a few gamingmas wishlists and, as i’ll probably wake up around when the first video goes up, i thought it’d be fun to share a few of my wishes and expectations and have them blown out of the water immediately lol

what we know

-we already know that charlie mcconnell is playing lethal company with dan and phil. lethal company’s a popular indie horror game in early access right now: the description on steam says “A co-op horror about scavenging at abandoned moons to sell scrap to the Company.” and i think pj is also jumping in on this one?

-i’m so confident about the sims being included here that i’m putting it in “know” instead of “guess”. it’s ongoing, the new house is built, dil and dalien were prominent on the promo poster…it's not a big swing. holiday devan wedding???

what we can guess

-since we had halloween baking for spooky week, christmas baking for christmas eve seems likely? i would say the day could be variable, but if baking happens, i’d put good money on it being the last video.

-i’m not convinced that the promo poster is accurate as to what will happen, but dan and phil did specifically request the details included. so here’s what i see:

tetrimos, so maybe tetris? i would enjoy tetris 99 or something

the golf hats, a bag of golf clubs, maybe floating golf balls? probably golf with friends, as anyone could guess

ddr pad??? ddr seems hard to bring back, but i discount nothing and i would love it. (including it is big nostalgia bait either way. they're so sentimental!!!)

we covered dil and dalien/the sims already, but i would feel weird not writing them down lol

the switch, which could have a lot of interesting console-exclusive possibilities: zelda, mario, animal crossing? ring fit adventure would be hilarious and a good dan vs. phil

huggy wuggy, so maybe more poppy playtime. i wouldn’t have thought that likely since we’re done with spooky week, but we have confirmation on another horror game, so why not? i know what the next chapter looks like and the puzzles could be fun. maybe dan would finally exit his chair from jumpscare

this isn’t expectations or guesses or anything, but shout out also to phil’s plushie and the announcement moose

-i feel like they have a mini roblox series now, so maybe something on there? my main pick would be bee swarm simulator; they usually have a holiday event, and it’s a really solid game

what i want

-all my favorite games, which would include: co-op stardew valley (which would be another good switch option), hades, unpacking. maybe unpacking most because they could do the whole thing this month pretty easily.

-skimming my steam to see some other games that i think would be interesting: disco elysium (probably not youtube friendly, but i can dream), another crack at dream daddy, alan wake 1/2 or control, phasmophobia, wobbledogs, oxenfree 1/2, gone home, arcade paradise, inscryption, the hitman series, iron lung, death stranding. out of these, i want wobbledogs (deeply silly) and gone home (gay) the most.

-i really want fan mario kart tournaments brought back. i suspect it won’t happen this month because they’ve got a lot on their plate, but i played them the last couple times they did them, and i would love to make it into their round just once. but even if i wouldn’t (as is likely), it would just be nice to play with fans again!

-i hope there’s a couple other random collabs and indie games i don’t know/haven’t thought of. i liked the surprises during spooky week!

-i’m gonna share some of my thoughts on this bingo card because it covers a lot of my wishes, too:

golf with friends (likely, as i said)

mario kart booster courses: with the booster levels, they could do an entire rainbow road dan vs. phil. tell me that doesn’t sound good

stardew valley (really want, as i said)

sims 4 (pretty much guaranteed)

deltarune: the unfinished sequel(ish?) to undertale. as someone who was a huge fan of their original undertale let’s play, YES PLEASE

baldur’s gate 3: majorly popular dnd franchise video game. i started playing it this week, and it's delightful, but it's a lot of game. it would be a great collab, though!

stray: cat game!!! i own this and i got stuck on a part before i could finish. if they played, that would give me the kick i need to get back into it.

cult of the lamb: popular indie game with the streaming set because it has great twitch integration. i would enjoy watching them play, but i would enjoy it more if they did twitch streams later and played it there

it takes two: popular two-player indie game where you play as a married couple, i believe? i would enjoy watching this, but i admit, some of what i’ve heard about the game doesn’t leave me too interested in watching it specifically

untitled goose game: CLASSIC. oh man. chaos puzzles as a goose in a small english village? you can do this one two-player, too. and it’s good on switch.

spider-man: interesting inclusion! i’ve heard the game is good, but if it’s a new-to-me let’s play, i prefer indie games.

a board game: i wouldn’t be surprised if heartthrob with celebrities or whatever shows up lol. but this would be another good collab opportunity

among us: yes yes yes. mostly because i could watch it with my nibling lol. definitely a collab game; i wonder what size of party they could put together

minecraft (redo): could be interesting! i find minecraft so boring, but it would definitely get them views, and they always make things good

festive baking (likely, as i said)

-here’s my biggest wish: another festive day in the life. i don’t think i need to elaborate on that.

#and now i need to go to bed #so i'm forcing myself to stop there #i was gonna finish my sim pack update but i wanted to do this more #i have no guesses what they'll post today #probably not sims since they just did it? idk let's see #dapg wishlist #gamingmas #let's gooooooo

[aiwaly]

oh hello tumblr

here's your desert duo

goodbye for now!! have a nice day!!

(without text under keep reading)

#desert duo #gtws #hermitcraft #grian #goodtimeswithscar #gtwscar #hermitcraft s8 #i guess?? #i don't post usually but man i'm so grateful for all the content this app provides me everyday i just can't give something back #i stopped drawing like two years ago and literally forced myself to make this #okay anyway #i would do anything for them

[iraprince]

Hiii, i love your stuff and kinda from a distance really look up at you for, in my perception, being able to express yourself without giving a fuck. Thats sick dude, Im so so afraid, of absolutely everything, its nice to think like i might grow into someone less apologetic of my existence. Nice to see people just being yknow

hey, thank you, this is really really nice. the secret that is probably not a secret is that i am also deeply afraid a lot of the time lmao -- but less than i used to be, and in ways that feel less stifling and self-suffocating, if that makes sense.

like, it used to be "i'm scared that if i express myself the way i want to, everyone will find me obnoxious, so let's just sand those edges down to be safe" -- now my fears are more like "now that i'm expressing myself in a way that feels natural and real, i'm afraid that it's all stupid/vapid/not worthwhile or meaningful" (<- specifically abt my art) or "i'm happy that i talk and act the way i want to now, but what if it makes me impossible to befriend," etc etc etc. which still feels bad and puts me in a funk a lot of the time but at least it's a fear that comes After/in reaction to doing stuff, rather than a fear that STOPS me from doing stuff, you know? like, it's evolved into a kind of fear that's less in my way.

anyway. i believe you'll experience something like this, because wanting to grow is the first step of growing. the fact that u hope or wish for something different means you're already on your way. to fewer fucks!! or at least distributing the fucks u give in a way that serves u better

#stuff like accepting that i'm reserved and i'm not very accessible via messages. #or that my online tone isn't very bubbly and it's weird and uncomfortable to force it. #i stop letting fears about that shape my behavior ('i'll look mean or snotty so let's force markers of Friendliness to avoid that!!') - #- and instead act the way i want to and then trade it in for new fears that come After the action. #also a good reminder to give urself is that if ur fear is abt how other ppl perceive u (as 90% of mine is personally) #u really... can't actually control that. and being very very anxious abt it all the time is usually ur brain throwing a tantrum abt not-- #--having that control. bc it is understandably very scary that u don't have that control #as much as it sucks + is terrifying the truth is the only thing u can do is ask urself 'am i behaving in a way that i'm proud of' #'am i behaving in a way that's in alignment w my values + what i think is important' #bc if the answer to that is yes and somebody hates u or is deeply offended by ur existence anyway. well. literally not ur problem #but obv being at peace w that is way way easier said than done + requires tons of practice and will take. probably. years. which is fine #i am stuck with myself. i can either contort myself forever trying to be someone everyone will like and find totally nonthreatening and- #inoffensive and in the process exhaust myself totally and never feel safe or natural myself. OR #i can say okay. so i am a kind of prickly guy with stern and drab speech patterns and close to no social energy. and i think i can still be #-sexy and fun this way. and it is up to other ppl to figure out if they can agree w me on that #ANYWAY enough rambling for now. just another one of those things i think abt a lot so i have a lot of ready-made sentences abt it in mind

[mccoyquialisms]

the elven oracle, heavily based on klimt's hygieia

#adaine abernant #boggy the froggy #fantasy high #dimension 20 #dropout #mine #my art #fanart #I probably could have done more to this but I just had to put it down and stop fiddling with it #there are some things that are messy but I'm trying to force myself to adopt a looser more sketch-like style as that's what I prefer #slowly but surely trying to figure out how tf to draw people #I'm gonna be real....my favorite part is boggy. he's so spherical

[risingsunresistance]

devotion

#THIS IS NOT THE MEME REDRAW I MENTIONED EARLIER JGFJHGJ THAT'LL HAPPEN LATER #randomly got inspiration for this. been sitting in my brain for A While now... like A WHILE #couldnt think of how to start it but then it hit me #i could keep adding to this all day tbh so i'm forcing myself to stop now #this was soooooo relaxing #(trying to force myself out of tags lmao) #technoblade #my art #ALSO HE DOESNT HAVE THE CROWN ON PURPOSE THIS TIME! dont pose as a king to your god it's rude #i listened to sooooooo much red vox while drawing this.

[clownprince]

GUYS GUYSGUYS OH MY GOD. OHMMYGOD I JUST FIGURED SOMETHING OUT

so after joker gets hit by a train solomon gives him this mysterious green liquid. i've been wondering what it was, my first though was maybe there was an undiscovered lazarus pit in the sewers or something like that. but i was rereading task force z and

it's lazarus resin!!!

maybe grundy grabbed a vial when he tackled bloom? but either way that is definitely the same type of vial and the color is similar (not identical but that's likely bc different artists/colorists!)

my running assumption has been that this line was metaphorical but it's not! it's literal!!! joker DID die when he got hit by the train but grundy brought him back with a vial of lazarus resin!

and i've been making mental connections between tfz and tmwsl the entire time but it was kinda theoretical (and still is!) but the lazarus resin thing makes my theories more plausible for sure imo

so in tfz there are clones, amelia, delia, and celia. the powers company has cloning tech. and they also have memory replacement tech!!! that's what they did with the fake bane! they tampered with his memories. the thinker says that he has cognitive profiles of metahumans but in issue 12 bloom manages to resurrect a dead corpse with the powers company resources and make it think that it's jason todd/red hood, who is definitely not a meta, so evidently they have tech to do the same for non-metas

so my theories are that either:

1. they cloned joker and implanted memories in the clone. this could maybe connect to the network plot in the joker (2021)

2. they found a very fresh corpse with a striking resemblance to joker, and then maybe gave him a nice acid bath and implanted the memories (or they found a way to do this with living people)

i think it's highly likely at this point that sewer rat undead!joker is the real joker, especially after knight terrors. so now the question is: if i'm right about this, who's behind the other (LA) joker? harvey? did bloom somehow survive? geri powers? maybe even waller? and what are they up to? is LA joker an escaped experiment or does whoever's controlling him have an agenda?

#physically shaking and trembling i'm so proud of myself for catching this #i haven't seen other posts abt this but lmk if someone else has posted abt this am curious #the joker: the man who stopped laughing #task force z #joker #it's entirely possible that the other joker is either a clone from the network or some multiversal fuckery or something else. who knows #but i think that the lazarus resin thing definitely makes it more plausible bc it establishes a solid connection between tfz and tmwsl #and proves that rosenberg is being attentive to details and leaving lil hints / easter eggs #connecting the dots i'm connecting the dots!!! #should i tag this as spoilers uhhhhhjnjukg idfk

[taegularities]

some men are textbook villains fr

#tw religion? #kinda need to rant.. kinda wanna explain what's going on #some ppl are part of humanity but don't know how to be humane... like the guy i started talking to almost 2 weeks ago #liked him a lot bc he was funny sickeningly sweet mature and understanding.. until he was not #tl dr version is that we somehow drifted to the topic religion and i told him im not too religious and don't believe in superstition much #i was extremely respectful and even when he said that he does believe a lot i was like 'thats cool!! different people believe in different #things!!' and at first it was a normal convo until man went all psycho on me (after one damn week!!!) and started talking about how #id have to be religious in a relationship with him.. my dude i barely know your fav food can we not talk about relationships yet #but he says he doesn't even need a woman who cooks/cleans just someone who believes.. n im like i get it but i can't change myself like that #and then guy moves to marriage and is all 'well my entire family is religious' n my mom and sister (who's 16) would be putting pressure on #you n force you to pray etc.. and I'm like???? who can force anyone to a thing like that are u kidding #things escalate and my absolute STUPID ass tells him about my deepest fkn trauma to explain what made me abandon religion bc #life just never got better and this trauma remained for yrs... and he gets so angry that he says he wants to stop talking to me just to spam #me all day next day.. he'd keep messaging me switching between 'i still want you we shouldn't throw this away i have feelings for you' #AFTER A WEEEEEEKKKK!!! and then goes back to 'i wasted my time with you you were so unnecessary im in a bad mood bc of you' #even said 'you'll never find a guy with a trauma and mindset like this. i will find a religious girl but no one will love you like that' #and the worst thing is that he told his friends and mom about the trauma i had just to spite me.. note that he promised to never tell anyone #(and then still asked for forgiveness and for me to rethink whether we want to end this after telling me 473626x he wanted to end it) #(nothing even ever started you bitchass) #also note that his mom knows my mom n basically most of my relatives.. so i was here trembling for days fearing they'd get to know about it #mom somehow convinced her to not tell anyone bc it's important to me and very very fucking personal.. #but he harassed me all day - i wouldn't answer and he'd send 55 messages.. multiple missed calls like dude i got so fkn scared #my heart jumped whenever he texted he was so fkn aggressive and SO MEAN #'you just needed to adjust and we would've been okay' 'tell me are u gonna fkn be religious or not????' 'you ruined everything' kinda mean #i just :') it was the worst time and i don't think i've ever seen someone degrade me so much or make me feel this defective #but.. it's finally over. his mom called my mom and mine was like pls teach him some manners.. n since i couldn't and wouldn't text him back #and literally avoided whatsapp bc of him she ended it all for me and now it's hopefully done forever #anyway i saw jks gcf performance yday n him singing still with you put a genuine smile on my face.. ill stick to THAT boyfriend honestly lol #def gonna delete later #but ty for reading if u did <3

[anti-transphobia]

Everyone posts about how Stardew Valley is a cozy LGBT+ inclusive game but NO ONE mentions the lack of a platonic option for the bachelors/bachelorettes. Which would be good for aspec people and also just more pleasant for many casual players I believe but that's not even the point. I just want to become best friends with everyone and not only does that require me dating everyone at once and feeling like a sleazebag because of it (ik the bad cutscene can be avoided but I know in my heart they'd be hurt if they knew) BUT it also means the women flirt with me!!!!! Constantly!!!!!!! It makes me sick to my stomach. Truly ruining the characters I liked

#this post is not that serious or meant to be an Analysis or a Discourse Post or a Hot Take or whatever #i just think the dating thing needs to be handled differently #i should be able to Not Date characters and still get 10 hearts with them #also ive never made it far enough in stardew valley to marry someone and this is the first time i could even date someone #and ive heard that the flirtatious comments dont stop once you're married which is. really awkward for me #i mean i could probably handle the guys flirting with me while im married but id hope being married would be an off switch for it #its just awkward to have ppl im not actually dating and only gave a bouquet to so i can be their friend be called my bf/gf when. they're Not #i seriously need to find some kind of mod to fix this once i finish getting all the girls up to ten hearts #i will deal with the stomach churning grossness of the flirting for a while so i can see everything #but then I'm DONE!!! I'm DONE!!!! I just want my friends back!!!! #maru and abigail and haley !!! my buds!!! #NOT emily shes scary and NOT leah because we just didn't click and DEFINITELY not penny because i fucking hate her #penny sucks. penny dni #but yeah the flirting feels gross because im gay and repulsed by women romantically/sexually #and even though i did open myself up to this by playing the game. because i dont want it it feels like its being forced on me #which makes it feel even WORSE than normal #and its like. not only do i feel like I'm stringing along these characters #but i feel like my friendship with my favourites is ruined :(

[hms-incorrect-quotes]

....

Why is this mind-coded.

Cos anything Miku is mind coded of course

#not a quote #i love vocaloid sm so forcing mind to like Miku no matter what #also fishbowl philosophy is such an HMS coded song like #like mainly all three but especially soul #speaking of soul. depending on how you view/see his struggle with self/identity. pathological facade is a good one for him #but I'm biased cos i love that song sm #also don't hit the lights is SO Heart #i even did an art/animation for it i love that song #i should remake that honestly its been a couple months #okay KJ is ranting again i better stop myself lol #im very normal about these guys and music can you tell

[dumbdomb]

hmm really interesting what these forcemasc posts are doing to my brain... it's like, what if somebody pushed me to be more of a butch... picked out more masc clothes for me... praised me for my body hair... hmm... much to think about...

you don't have to be "butch" if that word isn't comfortable for you... embracing your own masculinity is healing and can free you from much of the shame performative femininity forces on people. it's ok to feel more relaxed and at ease in whatever you're wearing, and if that means choosing to wear "masculine" clothing, then go for it! they're YOUR clothes, on YOUR body - stop worrying about what other people think! like, who are you even shaving and waxing your body hair for anyway?!? is there an official authority that needs to touch your leg and make sure it's super soft and completely hairless every day...? lmao, come on!!! seriously, you look way hotter when you're naturally holding your own, in your confidence, and not all fucking anxious about some losers thinking your body belongs to them. It's easy, dude, quit overthinking it...

Read my pinned before you interact! 18+ only.

#the bolded question is what i asked myself one day. years ago. that made me stop shaving altogether. so i'm including that here <3 #butch nsft #forcemasc #force masc #forced masculinization #forced masculinity #trans nsft #transmasc nsft #thegoodenby #answered

[zellkabellk]

Nowadays trying really fucking hard to teach to my brain that it's okay and better to "just do 10 min of this task" even if it means leaving it unfinished (but further along than before!) rather than not doing it "because when I do it I should do it all" Because jfc I can't keep leaving my house in states where I need to do 30+ minutes of dishes instead of just... doing a little everyday and at least it remains a manageable amount in the sink even if it's not always emptied...

#it's hard but i'm doing my best #im using housekeep chores as an example bc it's an easy one but really this is for everything in my life rn #better draw 10 minutes than none at all #better practise for my driving license 10 minutes than none at all #because I VERY rarely actually get the cross of energy AND motivation to do “a whole task” #rn my brain hates not doing a whole task but i'm sure with practise it'll become easier to feel rewarded for doing just a bit #at least future me thanks me every fucking time so yknow #i just have to practise enough so it doesn't feel like i'm forcing myself everytime #bc starting is always the hardest part #and even if i stop AT LEAST I DID 10 MINUTES OF THE THING SO IT'S NOT STAGNATING HOLY SHIT #i wish i was a functioning human :) #or at least a functioning artist that enjoyed drawing for 4 hours straight after work lmao #beary talk #beary ramble #beary life

[torra-and-the-toons]

I like to think Jimmy and Edd have a very special friendship, one where they understand each other whole-heartedly in a way that each individual doesn’t quite have with their usual group of friends. So naturally, in my version of their older selves, Edd is the one Jimmy turns to when they start feeling confused about their identity. And Edd is the one who helps them find it. 

#my doodles #ed edd n eddy #edd eene #jimmy eene #a fistful of ed really sold me on Edd and Jimmy tbh #I feel like Jimmy would be scared to come out to the others #yes even Sarah #especially sarah #what if they don't accept them? #or respect their new pronouns? #what if they lose their friends over who they feel like they truly are? #but Edd isn't like that #Edd is kind and understanding #He is someone they can turn to with any problem and he'll never laugh at them #sorry for the really messy comic btw that couple days of non-stop work kicked my ass and I'm trying to get my creative streak back #I wanted t erase it so bad bc I hate how sloppy it is but I forced myself to keep it

[maranull]

Aerial is being very supportive of the still under construction Chuchu's Demi-trainer

buds

this pic just needed a mini ball or maybe a Michaelis head for the complete football pose

#mara's tiny mecha-posting #gunpla #i'm having a time #a good time #forcing myself to stop building cause otherwise i would had done this one in one go #so far chuchu's demi-trainer (chuchutrainer?) feels less sturdy and slightly more restrictive in posing than aerial #especially around the lower legs #but to be fair i didn't pose aerial at all before having her fully build #and aerial is a full on gundam while the chuchutrainer is just a (very neatly upgraded) mech #so that might be intentional #anyway i love the chuchutrainer too #it has a very shaped head

[whistlingstarlight]

Btw quick reminder please for the love of everything do not force children to eat when they don't want to they will develop an unhealthy relationship with food and it won't always be obvious.

#i have very little in-between of either not eating for hours on end or struggling to stop myself. #because that's what happens when you force a child to eat until they feel sick because they 'don't have enough energy in the afternoon' #I've tried to get help but instead I've just been advised on ways to try new foods. no love I'm just autistic and have sensory issues #vent #sorry this. comes to mind every now and then and i don't really have anyone to discuss it with so throwing out into the ether still helps #clyde rambles

[fantasticgothicpeachsludge]

They are long-lost siblings TO ME!

#ARE YOU GOING TO LOOK AT ME AND TELL ME THAT I'M WRONG #literally no Cal Kenobi fics include Korkie and its killing me #eating me alive #WE DONT EVEN KNOW WHAT HAPPENED TO KORKIE #HE COULD BE OUT THERE #I have been thinking about this for years #and waiting #I need a fic where Cal or Korkie find the other #post purge #I crave it #Korkie finding Cal on Bracca T0T #AGHHHHHHHHHHHHH #I would never stop talking about my headcanons if I trusted myself to make a coherent post #anyway #im leaving my brain worms here as well as my plot bunnies #I headcanon that korkie is force-sensitive #but satine was able to hide it #but she couldn't do the same for cal cause of the echoes #So she had to send him to the temple with someone she trusted and a fake last name #Cal doesn't really remember much but korkie probably not his name or much else but that he did have an older brother #korkie being so scared and sad when he learns they're sending padawans to fight in the clone wars #🥺 #him never giving up on finding cal even after the purge #🥺🥺🥺 #korkie kryze #korkie kenobi #cal kestis #cal kenobi #cal kryze #I now have so many pictures of Cal in my phone because of this post

[vaguely-concerned]

thinking about how augustine puts all the blame for what happened to alfred on cristabel and by extension mercy, because if he didn’t direct all his anger that way he’d have to be angry with john......... and even, most painfully and fraught of all, with alfred himself. and that is so deeply incompatible both with his devotion and loyalty and love and with his immense eternal-life-long guilt. (it somehow feels like there’s something alike here to the dynamic that happened between harrow and gideon after the suicide of harrow’s parents to me -- the trauma-weight shifting blame and guilt and responsibility around to wherever will hold it when it’s too painful to look at straight on -- though I can’t actually explain it properly yet, and in that situation there wasn’t also a notorious deific gaslighter involved to intentionally muddy things up even further over centuries lmao). augustine is definitely not a reliable narrator of what happened back then because of all of this, but notably mercy never really defends cristabel against this particular accusation of being the instigator of the suicide pact either, for all that she clearly loved her immeasurably and will fiercely defend her against any other criticism. so it appears they’re more or less in agreement about what happened back then, they only differ in what they think it means? I don’t know honestly haha I have only Vibes here and from the outside it’s of course easier to spot that at the end of the day the real blame lies with john and the system of empire he set up around him anyway.

there’s also a really interesting contrast between mercy and augustine in how they relate to their cavaliers in the now -- mercy sort of keeps cristabel alive, she keeps bringing her up in conversation, makes idle observations about what she might think of things; to her cristabel seems to be very much still present even in her absence. meanwhile augustine, during the divine threesome dinner party (I love these books), describes being prompted to talk more about alfred and what happened back then as ‘oh very well, then, just dig him back up’, like he wants to at least let him rest in peace, considers him dead and buried in some way that’s of course at odds with the fact that he’s kept forever alive inside him as fuel. (which are also the opposite impulses of what they envision for themselves after their bout of some light recreational mutual deicide -- at that point mercy wants to be buried with cristabel in death, and augustine feels the obligation to keep himself and alfred alive at least until they’ve done what little they can to mitigate the damage they’ve caused. I love how they trade roles back and forth like that at the end of the book it’s so neat. ‘mom said it’s my turn to have the hysterics so you gotta keep your shit together for a few minutes before we switch again’)

mercy says ‘she’s still here’ and augustine says ‘he’s gone’, and they’re both right and they’re both wrong. and this is the system john put in place at the start of his new world: a world where nothing is truly alive but grief.

#the locked tomb #the locked tomb meta #harrow the ninth #mercymorn the first #augustine the first #john gaius #cannot WAIT for nona the ninth to punch me repeatedly in the face while going 'stop punching yourself! stop punching yourself!' honestly #I did this to myself. no one forced me to get attached to the horrible old war criminals #I must admire john's ability to frame himself as both in the wrong for everything in general but nothing in particular at the same time #like yeah he carries the weight of the universe on his shoulders but also nothing is ever actually his fault. just happened like that. #no one could have done anything to stop it. oh alas. what do I know I'm only god #he's so awful <3