#set up a home grow

[sliver-lioness]

Mac: *meeting Mk while he’s in in his monkey form*

Mk: I can explain!

Mac: …

Mac: *kicks in Swk door holding Mk by the scruff* Peaches you never told me we had a cub!

Mk: I tried to explain but he didn’t listen 😓

Swk: *choaking on chips*

#he thinks Mk is their son #I hc demon or immortals grow really slow #he’s mad that Swk didn’t tell him and set up shop in his home #he missed the baby years he’s not missing more #this is the first time Mk and Mac met #Mk does kind of look like Mac and Swk kid #lmk #lmk macaque #lmk shadowpeach #lmk wukong #shadowpeach #lmk mk #six eared macaque #sun wukong #silver writes

[liquidstar]

WOW I FINALLY FINISHED THIS SET. There were a lot of things I wanted to get right for them so I took some extra time but hopefully it was worth it! The guild for this set is Cobalt Heart- a guild with focus on maritime missions, lead by (of course) guildmaster Neptune. There was no other planet I could've picked for his namesake lol. They're the guild I jokingly call the most jockish, but some moreso than others. I really do hope I did all the characters justice, but if you wanna know more about the individual members, it's under the cut as usual!

Name: Neptune

Name Origin: The planet named for the god of the ocean

Pronouns: He/him

Age: 52

Guild rank: Guildmaster

Weapon: Trident

Ethos (Power): Ocean wave (Control over water- stronger with sea water)

Flaw power is based on: Originally based on his overly relaxed go-with-the-flow nature, but since becoming a father and guildmaster he's matured, and his power grew from simple wave control to more powerful control over the ocean's water. Waves aren't always peaceful, but he's become someone who understands their power and the responsibility needed for it.

Notes: If it's unclear, the marks on his chest are meant to be top surgery tattoos, but in cool wave shapes!

Name: Triton

Name Origin: Neptune's moon, aptly named for his son

Pronouns: He/they

Age: 24

Guild rank: 4 star

Weapon: Twin sai

Ethos (Power): Ocean breath (Underwater breathing as well as other aquatic adaptions)

Flaw power is based on: His ardent wanderlust, especially in regards to the ocean. They literally cannot leave it alone despite any possible better reasoning, which is when it becomes a problem.

Notes: Was his other parent a mermaid or did they just do the fish thing on their own? The world may never know.

Name: Otrera

Name Origin: A trojan asteroid named after the queen of the Amazons

Pronouns: She/her

Age: 32

Guild rank: 5 star

Weapon: Brass knickles

Ethos (Power): Preflexes (Hightened reflexes)

Flaw power is based on: Her overly-guarded and cagey nature.

Notes: But her brass knuckles are pink so its quirky when she knocks your teeth out.

Name: Naos

Name Origin: A star whose name means "ship"

Pronouns: He/him

Age: 21

Guild rank: 3 star

Weapon: Modified crutches

Ethos (Power): Helm (He can change the direction of inanimate objects. It's not limited to projectiles, he can change the direction of objects while they're in someone's hand too.)

Flaw power is based on: His avoidant tenancies, especially where more serious responsibility is concerned.

Notes: Honestly? Joined the guild to boost his playboy status.

Name: Aitne

Name Origin: One of Jupiter's moons, named after the personification of Mount Etna, a stratovolcano

Pronouns: They/them

Age: 27

Guild rank: 4 star

Weapon: Spiked gauntlets and armor

Ethos (Power): Molten Core (Lava manipulation)

Flaw power is based on: Their brash and destructive nature.

Notes: Likes all their food to be charred.

Name: Ariel

Name Origin: A moon or Uranus, named after an air spirit!

Pronouns: She/her

Age: 16

Guild rank: 2 star

Weapon: Baton

Ethos (Power): Harmony (Perfect balance on anything)

Flaw power is based on: Her own difficulty maintaining emotional balance under stress

Notes: She's a gymnast! And even though I didn't make the character named "Ariel" a mermaid, you can still see a scale pattern in her leotard!

Name: Maru

Name Origin: A white dwarf whose name means "Sky." It's orbited by the planet Ahra.

Pronouns: She/her

Age: 18

Guild rank: 3 star

Weapon: Claymore sword

Ethos (Power): Sky walking (She is capable of interacting with air as if it were a tangible object, creating leverage for herself to walk and balance on as if it were solid)

Flaw power is based on: Her somewhat vain tendency to place herself above others

Notes: Complete and utterly confident she's the cooler twin

Name: Ahra

Name Origin: A exoplanet whose name means "Ocean." It orbits the star Maru.

Pronouns: She/her

Age: 18

Guild rank: 3 star

Weapon: Claymore sword

Ethos (Power): Wave riding (Creation and control of tidal waves to ride on, as if she was surfing them with no board. But she does have to be on them.)

Flaw power is based on: Her arrogance and recklessness

Notes: Completely and utterly convinced she's the cooler twin.

Name: Pipoltr/Pip

Name Origin: A star named for "a bright and beautiful butterfly."

Pronouns: Whatever really?

Age: 8

Guild rank: 1 star

Weapon: Giant lollipop

Ethos (Power): None yet!

Flaw power is based on: N/A. This doesn't mean they're flawless, but until their power develops they're really just here to go on fun little adventures.

Notes: This child hangs around with sailors all day long. The words they know....

#finn's ocs #finn's art #oc references #FINALLY POSTING THIS SET #there was a bit of a delay bc i wanted to make sure i got the crutches w naos right #i ended up not making just the crutches a weapon but like. with modifications based on a real self defense item i found #but slightly different for both fantasy reasons and also i think its patented lol #his pose is also based on a real self defense w crutches video that my friend sent me (hiiii thank you for that once more btw <3) #so like hes very much in motion here. thats not how he usually stands w the crutches lol he usually like. uses them as crutches lol #the little trigger on them is what releases and returns the blade in them btw #also as for the rest of the group! i think neptune is absolutely the most fitting of his namesake out of all the guildmasters #i mean they all have aspects of it but he's fully embraced it. despite what i said abt him growing into responsibility and all #hes still such a chill nice guy. just in general. it would take a lot to get him angry (and if you did the sea is NOT peaceful!) #and in a lot of ways triton is like how he was when he was younger. responsibilities dont matter he needs to go to the challengers deep NOW #also the reason i picked twin sai to be his weapon is bc i didnt wanna do a trident twice. even tho like thats kind of the typical motif #but sai are like. also a 3 pronged weapon. so i felt it kept the energy. but smaller and 2 of them #omg speaking of weapons i completely accidentally added a trans flag to ariel's baton design lol. but i left it in why not #i had such a hard time w her colors bc i wanted her to be flashy but also to make the leotard mermaid esque #also for it to not be too revealing. like leda (from the lunar flare set) can have an exposing leotard tutu sure but shes an adult #and i wanted to give ariel more of like an 80s home gym workouts vibe. with the legwarmers and scrunchies lol #and the twins!!! i wanted to make them samey but differeny. in a way i havent done w matching outfits before #bc the actual shapes of the clothes are very different but the colors totally match! #plus the twins are fraternal. i feel like thats obvious what w their different hair colors but there are more subtle things #like slightly different eyes. the height and weight differences arent part of that tho bc that can happen to any twins even identical #otrera i also had a lot of fun with. especially the blonde hair in an emo bang with like a pink sporty outfit #the crown logo references her namesake being a queen too! #she really was fun tho bc shes just no nonsense trusts nothing but her gut. and shes meant to be like an MMA type #aitne was also super fun but a bit tricky to make it clear that their eye is half lidded from the burns and not just like a drawing mistake #but i think i made it clear! its important bc their vision is also impaired on that side #and the burns themselves were most likely an accident on their end. remember they're brash and destructive. even to themself!

[opens-up-4-nobody]

...

#there's something really beautiful about experiencing the weather patterns of a new place #where i live now. its not like where i grew up. not like the foothills of Appalachia but its more familiar than the Chihuahuan desert was #when i go home to ohio everythings so green. so green. unimaginably green and the towns are in the woods. the hills roll #and trees billow deciduous and packed so tightly the treeline is like a wall of plant matter. here there are trees but they are tall and #evergreen. patchy in places like shrubs in the desert. the grass grows green but also pale tan and dead. houses are routed in valleys #between mountains. they're made of wood and not stucco but they still look strange and the landscape is crumpled together tall. and there's #water. it rains. days can be dreary and gray with drizzle. i forgot what thats like. when a single low stratus cloud blocks out thewhole sk #and fog clings to the trees. my school bus used to drive by a lake where thr fog was so thick i didnt kno how the driver could see the road #but somehow i forgot how much joy suspended water vapor gives me living in a place where when it rains it pours so hard the streets flood #and the greedy ground drinks the landscape dry. but there are new things as well. here smoke rolls up over thr mountains and gets stuck in #the valleys so that the weather forcast reads: Smoke for days on end. im used to tornado warnings and heat warnings and dust storm warnings #but ive never expected Smoke as a type of weather. and im sure there's more to experience. ive only been here like 3 weeks. its not as gree #as home. the storms dont seem to get quite so violent. the woods are so full of bears that its an active threat. but its not the desert #and while ill miss the shapes of desert plants and little lizards. when i look up at the pine and spruce trees i feel like i can breathe a #little easier. well see how i feel once the long cold winter sets in haha #but i dunno. part of me still longs for a violent thunderstorm. one where u can feel the temperature drop and u csn feel it building all da #one that bends the trees and smells like ozone. it was never like that in thr southwest and im not sure that happens here #but maybe thats just a desire for chaos and violence as a product of my pathological internal control. i cant be spontaneous so let nature #bring the fear to me. some of my favorite memories are watching lightning strikes #so it goes i suppose #unrelated #listen. is it fucked up to have ohio nostalgia? maybe so. but in my defense i grew up in the pretty part of ohio lol

[thatfaerieprincess]

Feel free to skip on past this, I’ve just gotta ramble for a minute bc i cant stop thinking about this kid from work last week. They were so much like me at that age (5-6th grade) that I didn’t know how to interact with them? I didn’t know what to say to them bc I don’t know what I needed to hear back then, what I would’ve WANTED to hear? What would I have even listened to? They were almost entirely silent and looked out at the world with a hesitant curiosity, but would pull back so fast as soon as you tried to interact w them. Little to no eye contact, face hidden in hair, always looking down, following others until they could strike off on their own and just quietly explore. Intently focusing on drawing any chance they got. We did an art project and they hunched over their piece the entire time and wouldn’t let any of us see it in progress, refusing to look up or acknowledge us if we asked to see it or to know what it was. Idk. I barely interacted w them while they were with us for those few days bc I didn’t know how? It almost hurt to try? It was like looking back into a time machine and i didn’t know how to tell them that it does get better,,, I still don’t even know if where I am is better, some days feel so unsure that I don’t think I’ve made any progress at all. But seeing that kid, idk. I’ve come pretty far. And it DOES get better. Maybe it’s not the best now, or even that great at all, but it’s better. I wish I could’ve told them but I don’t think they’d have wanted to hear it anyway

#im a rambling sam #I’m in a weird place again since getting here for this season of work #idk maybe I’ve been in a weird place all year probably #I don’t think I’m that far from where I was at that age but I know I am there’s just still so much further to go #one day I think it’ll feel easier but maybe not today #I do love working w kids but I’m considering going into horticulture instead of outdoor education bc I don’t know if I can handle this #I can #but god I don’t know #in my heart I’m still that exact kid and she’s still in there so damn anxious and unsure and needing to observe the world and everyone in it #just to get some sense of understanding of just what the fuck is going on around here #but by the time I’ve gotten a good handle on what is going on everything is already so set in place and my place is outside the system and I #I don’t know how to step into it #sorry sorry I’m still rambling I’m having a weird day I probably just haven’t eaten nearly enough in the last few days and I’m about to #start teaching on my own this week which is terrifying and I can’t stop thinking abt that damn kid I wish they stayed longer I think #we probably would’ve gotten along #but groups only come here for a couple days and then go home which is v weird after having the same kids for 3 weeks for summer camp #idk life gets better and it gets worse and sometimes u grow into the world a little more but there’s still a mute child in your ribcage #little hands pressed up against ur ribs like laying a palm against a bus window #I put my hand over my sternum as if we could press our hands together thru time #when I was that age I used to pretend to have someone around me like an imaginary friend but usually it was a book character that I liked #and I’d talk to myself in my head like having a conversation and giving myself motivation and assurances from someone else to me #and now I’m here and I still talk to myself like that but without the imagined friend as a buffer I just talk to myself in my head #now I’m the imaginary friend for the little Sam that lives in my chest #when I talk to myself I’m talking to her #I’m giving her the assurance she needed back then #the assurance I still need now #I am here for her so I am here for myself #this is getting poetically nonsensical maybe it’s time for bed

[katierosefun]

not me being fully transparent about law school life as a queer woman of color, but like. literally started tearing up in front of my school’s dei officer lmao

#caroline talks #i mean. okay hm. #the kind of hurt you feel when you're a kid in an all-white town #is p different i think. from the hurt you feel as now a grown ass adult in a professional setting #because at least when you're a kid being bullied because of your race. you can lift your chin #and say that. well they're immature and they're stupid and you're gonna get out of this town. #and when their parents say the same things about you and your family you can still lift your chin and smile and go 'well. i'm gonna grow up #so big that you can't even hit me' #and then you're an adult. and it hurts bc these are people who are might hire you one day #and you can't do anything but just smile politely when they say something about 'your people' #alexa play you're on your own kid by taylor swift or whatever #because truly!!! the jokes weren't funny i took the money my friends from home don't know what to say!

[ferrn-draws]

was gardening for class today and found TWO (2) beetle grubs <33

video of one wiggling back into the dirt lol

if anyone can tell what kinda beetle this is gonna turn into id love to know :]

i’m pretty sure it’s a fig eater beetle but idk

#beetle #bug #cw bugs #beetle larva #i really wanted to bring at them home and have ‘em grow up into cool beetles #but i don’t even know what species it is and don’t have anything set up for them #(plus my mom has very explicitly told me no pet bugs while i’m living here lol) #so no beetles for fern today #but hopefully someday soon #also both grubs were returned to safe spots dw

[snekdood]

idk who needs to hear this but growing native plants is not hard at all, at all

#you could be starting seeds RIGHT NOW assuming your last frost date is some time in april or somethin #put the seeds in the fridge in moist sand or a moist paper towel #if its too late buy them from the fuckin store somewhere. or wait till next fall and toss em on the ground after mild tilling #throw some metal mesh of some sort over it to protect it from the rodents and BOOM. there ya go. the seeds are cheap asf too #its hard to kill a native plant. they naturally grow in that environment for a reason. #you can go a day or two without watering sometimes in summer and still be fine (depending on the plant ofc & if theyre potted) #idk its just. like. so easy. everyone could do it. everyone SHOULD do it. #in an apartment? get a window flower pot and plant some in there. #no excuses to not try and do the bare minimum. every piece of turf grass you see should fill you with violent rage to the point where #your body feels physically compelled to grow native plants in retaliation. #some you can even grow inside. i have some vine cuttings im growing inside rn that i started some time last year at the end of summer #from a wild plant outside. just look up how to grow it. watch the jankiest video you can find first. #i trust the guy with the scuffed set up thats shakily holding his phone scooping home-made dirt into a red solo cup over the #pristinely filmed shots of a garden and a man all dressed up nice #i mean idk hes prolly got some good advice too i just trust the other guy more ykno #give a fuck #literally tho this vine is so tall rn its touching my ceiling sdvvfsdhgdfs idk wtf imma do with it. #but i love it and its one of my favorite native plants and i LITERALLY grew it in a fuckin red solo cup.

[quietwingsinthesky]

i have many many thoughts about rose & tentoo and how their relationship would evolve in this verse. about how you can't just take the love you have for one person and put it on someone else. not even a clone, a regeneration, a metacrisis. about how that doesn't mean you can't love them, or that you can't fall in love with them the same way, but that love has to be for them.

#it is relevant it just isn't relevant. right now. #but i do think about them a lot. #i think about them still living their lives after even leaves. think about rose and donna bonding. think about rose working for torchwood #and seeing a new side to jack and new sides to herself as well because she has to be there for the whole CoE thing. #think about tentoo transitioning because she is trans have i mentioned she's trans yet. she is. even doesn't know that yet because they #weren't there but they will someday. #i think about them all being at donna's wedding. and about a rose noble who grows up knowing the woman she took her name from. #they're a fambly.......... #i think about rose actually not keeping the whole doctor/aliens/mind wipe for your own protection/etc thing from tentoo for very long #about how working through both that being kept from her but also how it was killing rose to do that. how rose had to tell her. #is a fundamental part of what they build everything on now. they grow together. #i think about donna missing someone who isn't there and how sometimes with tentoo she feels a little better but it isn't exactly right #and how as time goes on. that feeling goes away more and more. her grief over losing the doctor *increases* as tentoo grows into a differen #person. she is still. fundamentally. the doctor. but she is also johanna tyler. and donna loves her. and still misses the doctor. #and i think. a lot. about that empty space that even leaves behind. about how they aren't there for donna's wedding. #about how they aren't there when rose noble is growing up. about how they disappear one day and no one ever tells rose or donna #or johanna or *any of them* what happened. i think about how they put up missing posters. i think about how rose holds her breath #for a whole year because hell the doctor got it wrong once with her. maybe they're just late. maybe they'll be back in time for christmas. #but even doesn't come back. they keep a picture of even on the mantel. and they do set an extra plate at christmas. just in case. #a lot of times it stays empty but they sometimes have other impromptu guests. martha and mickey and jack. jack comes by a lot. #couldn't keep him away if they tried really. sarah jane comes sometimes too. (sky babysitting rose noble. ough.) #something about. the doctor does have a family out there. if he'd only come home to them. #so does even. they're both going to have to go back sometime. face the music. sit down for dinner. #there's still time. there's still time. #dw oc

[vainvex]

i went to my first drag brunch today and the queens who performed were both SO sweet and talented. we talked during and after the show, and they were so so nice :-)

#vv.txt #im in toronto rn for the first time since i was a kid. and i never even knew the gay village existed back then?? #i didnt know it could be like this here. it's a side of the city i never saw growing up and staying with my dad here every summer #ive been out comfortably for years but i havent been able to go anywhere this unabashedly queer before #there are so many drag bars and sex shops and dispensaries it fucking rules #and they were HAIRY QUEENS TOO!!!! like me!!!! #they were both so gorgeous #it was genuinely an amazing set and i hope eventually i can be able to go places like this more often.... #<(lives in a rural area) #my partner and i are only here for a few days before we go home and im going to miss this so much

[orangerosebush]

In my opinion, Artemis and Angeline have very similar experiences of paranoia as a symptom of

And thus every single family vacation will have a like, medieval war general moment where you can watch them animatedly debate the merits and/or weak points of whatever barricade they've constructed in front of the hotel room door

#I jest but I HC that Artemis' paranoia somewhat genetically comes from his mother's side whereas his issues with dissociation and #reality assessment is more genetically on his father's side of the family #The twins occupy this weird space in the family where they were born after a lot of things exacerbating mental illness in the family were #less present than when Artemis was young due to the Fowl empire #like my personal version of this is watching my aunts' kids grow up in a house where they were diagnosed with autism and adhd really really #young bc their mothers work in early ed. and are really knowledgeable about how to apply that in their home so that they have the support #they need #and let me tell you watching young autistic relatives exist and interact w kids their age who are so much better #about including 'different' peers socially then when I was a kid? that is so fucking surreal #I am very much an 'autistic Artemis truther' and I know Fox has some posts about Tim being autistic too during an era of the Fowls where it #wouldn't have even been 'masking' to borrow a contemporary term so much as just learning Not to Act Fucking Weird ever and performing this #whenever there is someone else present #but to return to the point of this post Artemis and Angeline will see a 5-star resort with insane security and go 'what I'm hearing is that #when the sun sets we will be in the Purge' #Artemis' form of paranoia is fascinating because he experiences it in the 'struggles trusting people and can spiral and believe people are #out to get him and harm him when that is not realistically assessing a situation' but also has horrible risk assessment which is so realist #realistic lmao

[gfwooyo]

cannot stop thinking about yungi youth mv

#like what if i throw up #it's about the trauma and the tiredness and picking yourself back up and moving on it's about friendship and home #they lost sight of each other when they were so focused on themselves and their own shit #the shot of mingi in front of the mirrors where the center one is himself and the rest are yunho with his back towards him like !!!!!!!!!!!! #their old coping mechanisms not working #mingi used to use music to shut out the world so he could be alone but now it brings him back to yunho but yunho isn't THEREEEEE #yunho picked up his lore!brother's guitar bc it had been his dream before he died and he was grieving him but here he's smashing it on the- #-wrecked car the thing that took his brother away from him #and u can SEE yunho dancing in the burning house even in the 2 different sets u see flames through the windows #and mingi is watching the cabin burn alone until yunho walks into frame and we can breathe bc he's no longer trapping himself in that house #AND THE LOOK ON HIS FACE WHEN HE TURNS TO MINGIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII #IT'S LIKE. WE'RE BOTH HERE. WE MADE IT AND WE'RE STILL TOGETHER. #gonna puke. idk if anything i've said makes sense it's after midnight and my head is a jumble they just got me feeling a lot #it's about the loneliness it's about the grief it's about watching ur past in third person it's about returning to yourself in the present #mingi i love u forever and ever. his lyrics have always hit the hardest like he Gets me #god this is just such a fever era song so ofc i'm obsessed like the lyrics in that series just fuckin HIT #they talk abt how hard and lonely and scary and confusing and tiring it is growing up and i start thrashing and clawing at the walls #how wonderful to not only be alive at the same time as atz but to be the same age & have similar experiences so their music feels like a hug #like. i'm not alone huh #ANYWAY. did not come here with the intention of saying anything in the tags i was just gonna post that picture but alas #kara can talk

[ryuseitai]

today is such a chiaki day in my brain. i mean every day is like this in m y brain but its like overwhelming i keep feeling sick and short of breath.icant do this

#am i autistic #chakky i hate you i love you #i gfound isolated vocals of him in beuaitulf golden drop on twitter This set this all off like i listened to it when i got home andn ow ive #been home for hours and havent done anything except think about chiaki #what does joe biden plan to do about this #What new chiaki vocals does to a mf #I m so scared bc next event is probaby ryuseitai climax and like what if id ont survive #my heart its growing weak. my psyche is withered #Jk im so fucking excited i could throw up

[pleckthaniel]

I love how my mom makes Growing Up Poor a huge part of her identity and talks about it constantly and also I, her child who she constantly brags about being smart and accomplished, am less than 6 months away from earning an Actual Degree in sociology and have taken half a dozen classes on American socioeconomic strata and yet despite all this I still cannot convince her that people my age aren’t being poor on purpose

#scout talks #no mom cooking at home would not save my friend who works 60 hours a week money it would make her even more exhausted and stressed #and substantially reduce her quality of life while also forcing her to spend more money in other areas to save the time she previously saved #by mostly subsisting on convenience food #if you're so damn concerned about all the $7 lattes we're buying and apparently making ourselves poor with #then maybe you should try agitating for a higher minimum wage so $7 isn't worth an entire hour of work #sociology major on main #''people shouldnt go to college if they cant afford to go to college'' if nobody went to college who couldnt afford it no one would go #like if no one ever paid for college on credit - as my mom proposes - i would be the only person i know in college #and that's because i have a full ride scholarship and pay rent out of a trust fund #if i wasnt EXTRAORDINARILY lucky with the family i was born into and the resources available to me growing up #it doesnt matter that im clearly smart enough to go to college. it would not have been an option for me #you KNOW this. because you are my mother and are intimately acquainted with my situation #why do you think IM the poor one out of my friends? me the kid who again PAYS RENT OUT OF A TRUST FUND SET UP WHEN I WAS BORN #ill shut up now. killing and biting forever etc

[mwebber]

seeing the ocean outside my window isn't enough watching lights dance over the water isn't enough i need to be waist deep in it feeling the tide pull at my body i need to be out there breathing it

#clenching fist. #i need to be lying flat on top of a turtled dinghy buoyed by the pocket of air beneath me while the sun threatens to set me on fire #i need to see all the places that meant something to me growing up and let the sight tear me apart and put me back together #instead i am going to be playing tour guide for my best friend. which is fine. it's cool. i like showing off the city and its memories too #where's that old poem i wrote about leaving this place and all its scars behind #i take it all back. this place is a wound that never closes #home is bloody and it bleeds and it bleeds ! home is violent!! home doesn't love you!! home is the only thing that's ever loved you!!!!

[suncaptor]

also kind of frustrates me Britta's past is treated all like a joke when she left home at 17 and starts Greendale having connections across the world and is clearly genuinely educated on the issues she talks about. even if she is like. levying them for identity reasons and not genuine care. does that matter. and she'll often bring up good points just to be mocked and bullied.

#like do i think shes a good progressive person? absolutely not. i think that speaks itself considering her biggest meme #she is like. very white feminism yknow. #but shes literally someone willing to give someone her last couple hundred dollars to make her friend happy #and willing to risk everything time and time again for the ideals shes set #while also having to try to make it alone since she was 17 #and she's mocked for being homeless shes mocked for being upset her parents she left home to get away from would stalk her via her friends #shes bullied every day by her friends #not to mention like. oh my god the ways in which her taste in men gets described legit worried about all of it #it seems apparent to me she was abused growing up and has no standards and she lets people treat her horribly #its just!!! upsetting #bc like. she does suck in the show. but that's because the show decided she sucks lmao. like. #://///////// #i am not a fan of her politics I'm not a fan of many things she says but I'm also SOOOOO not a fan of how shes treated #i think part of it too is the writers clearly mock the concepts she stands and Also think shes a sham #so theres a lot of genuinity in their too getting mocked

[arcadiandeath]

it feels like i am reliving it everyday

#sick to my stomach all the time. heart racing #all my nerves tingling and every organ flipping #and the dreams #last night i was trying to tell my mother in our old family home that there was a fire spreading in the kitchen #but i was too quiet #no matter how close i got i was too quiet #the night before that it was just like Back Then and i wake up thinking i was dying #how do you do it??? how do you carry all the things that accumulate in the cracks? #i feel like i am coated in it. like everyone can see it on me except for me. like it is coming out of my pores. #eugh. and ive lost so much hair. #but i will get thru it #it can grow back. and december will come. and everything will pass. and life will move on. #need to figure out if theyre making things easier tomorrow or not. i gotta. i will keep going. i will keep going. #i am alright though! just having a rough go of it and need to just. keep my sights set on that flight home. #it's hard when youre so paranoid but you KNOW it's an internal issue #like im so sorry random person im sure youre very nice but im Terrified of you