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I feel insane, apocynaceae if you happen to see this I gasped when I saw the notification that you're following me?!?! i AM so flattered and I feel like I should fucking bow in your presence I don't even know how to make words I would have messaged you this personally like a normal fucking human but unfortunately I am living in the fucking DARK AGES and neither my instant messages or inbox is available to me for some unknown fuckin' reason and tumblr support have told me to go fuck myself in the form of not replying to me for days SO. Whatever it's fine I have no self respect; I'll gladly embarrass myself publicly (in front of my giant following of: four people *bites lip*) because I cannot just casually pretend that I didn't notice and do a tiny little excited dance (no, *actually*) when I saw I'll shut up now goodbye

EDIT: MY FRIEND JUST TOLD ME YOU CAN LITERALLY @ TAG PEOPLE ON TUMBLR NOW I DIDNT EVEN FUCKING KNOW I'M SO EMBARRASSING so @aypoksynasayee HAHAHAHA (please do not feel obligated to respond to this in any way whatsoever by the way it is simply a nod of respect to you that you have every right to ignore)

#im so embarrassing i dont care i write fucking mcyt fanfiction cringe is my brand at this point #scht textpost #i feel like outside of my serious (lol) writing i type like i'm on cocaine does anyone else get this vibe

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I'm in such a yuck headspace; I struggle with this time of year so much and I struggle even more admitting it out loud but I'm gonna try really hard to channel it in to writing even tho im struggling there too

#might try to start drawing properly too idk #i just feel this primal need to make art or else i might destroy everything in my vicinity yknow that feeling? yeah #i should really write some schlatt pov #scht textpost #scht delete

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guys i just remembered i can actually draw if im staring at whatever im trying to draw which in my case is an entirely useless skill

but i doodled a little schlatt while i was zoned out listening to smth, and I just think he's so pretty

#scht jschlatt #scht textpost #i wish i could draw like this all the time but i just cannot

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Anyways, now that the disclaimers and warnings are out of the wayyyyy

I can finally scroll the tags without being told off on mobile that I don't have an account HAHAHAHA

I don't exactly expect an influx of people tripping over themselves to talk to me coming from my stupid nobody-ass AO3 page or anything, but if you've come from there please don't be shy!! I think that would be really cool (and if you have any, please recommend me schlatt/quackity/schlackity based blogs to follow, i'm starving here LMAO)

I've never really done the blog thing, idk if it's really ME so idk how much I will post myself??? But it's cool to be here and have the option while I look at fanart and fan theories :p

I'd been thinking about making one for a while so I feel less out of the loop in terms of fandom things and now seemed like a great time (read: I'm procrastinating doing other shit) so here I am

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Please Read Before Interacting!

Hi!

My name's Alex (yes, genuinely LMAO) - you can call me that or schtorytime, I don't mind :)

I'm a dude! He/him pronouns only please <3

I'm over the age of 21, and I talk about adult themed things and NSFW pretty much constantly. I'm a fanfiction author and I write a lot of mature and explicit content, so my blog is NOT SUITABLE for ANYONE UNDER THE AGE OF 18!! If I find out or believe you're a minor, I will block you and not interact - nothing personal, just a boundary I would like to set for obvious reasons.

On top of that, I'm likely to write and discuss topics that others may find uncomfortable, offensive, triggering and/or sensitive, so please proceed with caution! I will try to tag everything very clearly, but if you think topics such as these are likely to cause you distress, please do not follow/interact! If you're on this blog, it's likely you came from my AO3 account - so I'm hoping you already know all of the above. That said, I wanted to pin it and make it very very clear so nobody gets any nasty surprises on their dash/misunderstands what I'm about.

My AO3 account is 'schtorytime', and I (at least right now?) pretty much exclusively write Schlatt and Quackity/Schlackity content. If you don't fuck with that, you will absolutely not enjoy your time here, and that's okay! Just want to be very clear on what you should expect if you follow :)

Now that that's out of the way, please feel free to follow or drop me a message! <3 (By the way, I tag everything with 'scht' before it because I do not want my blog showing up in the main tags ever I'd rather die, so like, Schlackity is tagged 'scht schlackity' etc etc)

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gonna start 3 new creative (if you squint) projects before finishing the first FIVE. I'm unwell

#scht textpost #i swear #i swear im being sort of productive i SWEAR #starts cryuingb

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I am so inspired to write things but none of the things I am inspired to write is the thing that I'm supposed to be fucking writing

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all i have is my dialogue and characterization skills i have literally nothing else outside of it i am floundering i am hanging on by the thinnest of threads i am not real i am a CARTOON

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I have nothing to prove it right this second but I swear I've been working on writing all week and it will pay off eventually

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every day my taste in men gets worse and worse

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I'M FREE FROM TUMBLR JAIL!

They told me my account was incorrectly marked as spam (?!?!?! I hadn't even posted anything yet wtf!?) but they apologized and fixed it for me so it's all good now

#scht textpost #look at me spelling apologize with a z #i write americans too often #and also tumblr gives me squiggly red lines if I try to write it like a brit #whatever

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I'm giving myself some little at home literary workshops (thoughtful rambling about my own writing under the cut, idk)

I dunno if anyone else feels this way, but I think writing in a fandom that - and no shade here, I'm just being objective - has a pretty low bar in terms of fic quality has made me a little bit complacent or given me this false idea that I'm a better writer than I am. Not that I thought I was the best writer in the world to begin with or anything, but I think regularly sifting through the piles of steaming garbage that makes up such a huge portion of the tags on ao3 (and this might be a mcyt thing in general, or it might be because I only read one ship and said ship is in fucking dire straits, idk) has made me feel a little too comfortable or something. Recently I've discovered a few authors that are like - genuinely good at the craft, and I've realised like... holy shit. I am so MEDIOCRE LMFAO. And I don't mean it in an emo oh I'm never writing again woe is me kinda way, that's not really my style; it's in an 'i'm inspired to improve' kind of way. Like sure, I can write in the basic sense. I can create an idea and see it through and get the basic point across; I feel very confident in punctuation and grammar etc. I feel very very at home in writing dialogue that shit comes as easy as breathing. Characterization also comes super easy to me; I find it easy to grasp what a character is about and the way they think and how to predict what they would do or say in any given situation, but everything else outside of those two things?! Mid. Just so painfully mid. My description skills are so flimsy, symbolism and metaphor are virtually foreign concepts to me - I feel like I write really *simply*, and I think the stuff I do write is good! Like it's good in the simplest form, it is, but it's still just... *simple*, and that frustrates me. I know it's enjoyable, I know it's *nice*. But I don't want it to just be nice!! I want people to walk away from my work like, awestruck. I want people to be so immersed and taken back in the same way that I feel reading some of the stuff I have in the last few months. I think I'm in this weird place where I realize I have potential and I have some of the tools and ingredients to *get there* at some point in the future if I really work on it, but I'm also a little lost I'm like how the fuck do you get from point A to point B. I'm such a 'I want a clear route cut out for me and explained to me' kinda person so when I'm left floundering to figure out how to improve by myself I'm like ... where the hell do I start. I wish I'd read more growing up (I did a little as a kid but then by my early teens I'd basically stopped) - I think I'd probably be further along if I had. Kicking my younger self, stupid boy. I dunno I dunno, I'm very inspired I feel restless. I know the answer is just practice but I want to be there NOW D:< I've been doing a little studying and reading some stuff and just thinking how the fuck did you come up with that what the fuck. I just feel like I write so simply, I dunno how else to explain it. I do too much telling and not enough showing and I probably over explain things the same way I do in real life speaking (anxiety havers rise up) but I also write from characters perspectives that I think would also do that, so I don't wanna tip it too far away from that and make it feel unnatural somehow, but I also don't want it to be so BASIC I don't even know if I'm making sense anymore I'm just frustrated but almost in a good way. I think you have to feel that way to make any actual improvements. Hmmmmmmmmm.

It's like in my head I think and see in images and movie scenes and I THINK?? (Maybe I'm a narcissist) that those images and movies are fucking genius, like I'm a genius in my brain, but when you hand me some sort of writing device and ask me to get those movies in my head on to paper???? I plop my ass on the floor and start drawing nonsensically on the walls like a toddler. Okay maybe it's not that bad, but in *comparison* to the stuff in my head - it is. Source : just trust me guys It's weird being very self aware but struggling to know what to do about it. Hmm. Idk, idk. Ignore my ass. HMMMM. Much to think about..

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somebody gives me two or three lines in the form of ao3 feedback and i respond with five thousand words I am such a fucking nuisance

#scht textpost #there's more of me waffling on in the comments than everyone else combined i swear to god

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god i love looking at art it is such a huge source of inspiration to me; it starts the imagination canons firing in my head and it's so nice

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uHHHH so my instant messages and asks (just tested this to confirm with a friend) are not accessible to me right now??? very unlikely anyone has even found this blog yet since I haven't really given it out but on the off chance someone did try to send me anything, I can't receive any til support fixes whatever the fuck is wrong ;A; ?????

#scht textpost #scht delete #they say they dont shadowban but im sideyeing tf outta that #if i got shadowbanned on day one ill laugh my ass off WHAT DID I DO #schlackity fans oppressed for real /j

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i am so behind on sleep deprived AND qsmp right now but my writing is thriving so, yknow, silver lining

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