#same thing happened with tears of the kingdom after the hyperfixation wore off

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#no brain tumor #no cancer #not sure about lyme yet but i doubt it #its just an escalation of the sleep stuff #at the 1.5 year mark and its gotten to THIS #i cant do it anymore. but i have to. so i will. and thats really all there is to it #....i cant color anymore. #i used to be especially good with color blends #patterns and such #the thing i made last night... was like something i wouldve made in grade school #its been so long since i tried but i didnt think id lose the ability to... color. of all things #now im too afraid to pick up one of my instruments again. even if id only have the energy for one song... #what if i cant play anymore? #hell i already had to quit playing minecraft because id just. get lost running in circles around the map. not remembering what i was doing #same thing happened with tears of the kingdom after the hyperfixation wore off #back to not being able to tell dreams from reality and that is really fucking bad when all your dreams are nightmares #for a bit i was able to whittle charms to hang over the bed. but if im not safe to drive i definityl shouldnt be handling a knife #not even to sharpen the colored pencils i cant use... #at least in this hellsite i can talk to myself as much as you #next up is the neurology department. and some harassing of other sleep labs #wish me luck #id say delete later but i wont