#resa.personal

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13 Nov means im again one year older 🤭

And with that just wanna say hi and that im definitely still writing 🤣 ceo!jay is still kinda alive even if im a little stuck. Missed you guys!!!

#resa.personal #resa turns 31!

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🫶❤️

#resa.personal #resa’s face reveal #WESTLIFE #tired face LOL

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going for a job interview tomorrow and...

hello, anxiety.

#resa.personal

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Just because im out visiting for Lunar New Year 🤣

#resa face reveal #resa.personal #felt cute might delete idk #happy lunar new year if you celebrate! #🐰

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trying out something new

#amigurumi #this actually helped my anxiety a lot this week #resa.personal #resa’s amigurumis

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Also im very excited because im gg to a concert today 🤣

#resa.personal #resa face reveal #felt cute might delete later

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It is 13 Nov here, which means I officially hit my Big 3! Happy 30th to me i guess 🤣

#resa.personal #user.resa

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people bullying me out of a job is such a weird thing to do honestly. Especially when these people outrank me by like 3 grades or more??? Which also means probably gonna be unemployed soon, thanks for being dicks

#resa.rants #resa.personal #may delete later

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i just want to say that im in the most anxiety-inducing class of my whole major but the lecturer told us last week to feel free to share any problems/issues/circumstances.

It took me all week to push the anxiety down enough to share with her about my anxiety about translating in front of the whole class (for you know anxiety reasons) but now that I did, she replied me with a "thank you for trusting me enough to share. If you're feeling overwhelmed, just give me a signal in class and I'll move on to the next person"

and i think that's the best response someone has ever given me about my anxiety, like ever.

#alright im done #anxiety #resa.personal

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Don’t do this here very often but im going to today. This is a personal + kpop post so you can scroll on if you’re not interested

When I was going through the hardest and loneliest point of my life, I stumbled upon kpop and spent the next 10 years being laughed at for fixations, for being a fan to people "who don't know you" and "are not real people", and for spending money on concerts.

And while I won't say that didn't affect me at all, I never regretted any of it. I never understood why people were fixated on trying to make me more miserable than I already was, or why they had to drag the ONE thing that made me happy, but then at some point I just realized it wasn't worth all my anxiety and sadness.

Just because people didn't understand it, didn't mean that what they made me feel wasn't real.

So basically, I attended a virtual concert last night (which is what prompted this whole need to get my feelings out thing) and even though I've been a little out of touch with them recently, after more than 10 years, they still can make me laugh and cry, and give me warm fuzzy feelings in my heart.

We grew together, and they were also the group that made my grandmother who was suffering from dementia, spend her last year or so in laughter because she'd break into laughter everytime she heard MAMACITA, and everytime she saw me walk into the house she'd start singing the MAMACITA chorus.

Eternally grateful to Super Junior for the things they've done that have impacted people other than me so much even though they themselves don't know it.

My oppas are older now, but so are we. I grew stronger thanks to all of you.

Thank you for being our light, the road is still long so as we always say 끝까지 같이 갑시다

#resa's kpop boys #super junior #resa.personal

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This is what I did yesterday! 😆 so happy to see Super Junior again finally and even though our show got cut (grr) we still had a lot of fun with the guys!!! I am a happy ELF 💙

#resa.personal #resa’s kpop boys #ss9 in singapore #super junior

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#goodnight from my best friend’s cat #hamisphere #kitten things #resa.personal

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I have friends asking why I don’t have a fuller intinerary on a holiday, but this is what a vacation looks like to me

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Me realizing my social life is in shambles when it's choir concert time and I have no friends that are actually coming lmao

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Having an anxiety attack because my alarm didnt ring on the day im supposed to go into the office is not how today was supposed to go

#resa.personal #tw: anxiety

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imagine being transferred to another subsidiary company because you can't keep your hands to yourself

#seriously what's wrong with some men #resa.personal