#really taking the l rn :)

[fyodorkitkat]

You don't understand this isn't even about ability theories rn or analysis on jack shit for me, I can't even think about that coherently yet. This is about the fact that I somehow managed to latch onto a character based on his appearance in the fucking Dead Apple movie years ago and become so deeply obsessed with him and he not only keeps getting restrained (by his own purposful choices) not only has gotten his shit wrecked beautifully multiple times, not only died sexily and dramatically on screen bleeding all over the goddamn place, but now it turns out he can just die multiple times? He can get his shit wrecked and it is not the end? He can keep bleeding out and getting his pathetic ass dragged past the brink and show right back up? Do you understand how many horrible boxes he checks off for me without even having to manipulate canon in my head? What have I done to deserve such enjoyment omfg.

#im losing it. i am unwell. i cant believe this. now i really have to pretend none of this is on my mind to focus on important stuff. when i #should just be focusing on this mfer #bsd spoilers #bsd ch 114 #i want ppl to be able to filter but sry sry i will take the l and have this in the tags for yall to be able to do that #even though this is just me being completely ridiculous rn. #christ alive this is like the best fucking day for me #fuck my entire life

[theswedishpajas]

Finally drew the boios 👁👁

#my art stuff #digital art #comic book #comic book style #beetlejuice #toonjuice #posijuice #negajuice #I’ve been having a lot of pressure on my shoulders about what my art looks like since the take the L thing #but I’m really happy with this piece and that’s really important to me rn #i know this kinda style isn’t anything new with me and I’m very good at it #but the fact I made something and really liked it in general #no matter my experience in art #just makes me so happy and relieved #I used to do commissions and pushed myself to go iver and beyond with my art in general for such a long time #it drained the joy out of it for me and I found myself unable to enjoy what I was making #(which has always been a very self-centric activity and a way to express myself) #so once it became about others it just broke down around me #and I was getting really scared this new surge of notes was gonna put me back there #but me finishing this piece and LOVING it shows I’ll still be okay #so this is probably always gonna be a very important piece of art to me

[thegoldenelite]

Hey! I may be on here less/gone for the next few days to a week. I love you all, and I hope you have a nice week💜

#i have some really i mportant/s tressful things going on this w eek so i want to try and stay off here for a while. #yknow focus on spending time w my f amily and such #that and I'm just not sure what to do with this b log since I'm just not feeling very inv ested in ae w rn especially after the p pv🤷‍♀️ #maybe that will c hange soon but idk. #i try not to be n egative here but i can't l ie I'm just not f eelin it rn. s orry. #I'll try other w restling soon but i think i need a b reak at l east🫶 #a nyway i h ope everyone is doing w ell and p lease take c are of yourselves💜 #rin posting

[1980s-jean-ralphio]

the lack of any off-season or hiatus in w r e s t l i n g means I have to take a break from it every now and then for my own sanity or I end up feeling really burnt out on it.

I take up very little space in the fandom and lift in and out of it easily enough that I hope no one cares whenever I stop engaging with it for a little while.

I adore the bucks and o k a d a/have been watching their segments and for the most part i do keep up with anyone I like but the shameful truth is I'm simply not as attentive to it or invested when hanger and kenny are both absent and I was feeling that.

it's always been temporary though so don't think anything of it.

#consider it me resting up and preparing for the inevitable e l i t e drama that will occur when they return #bc we all know thats Really why i'm here. it's what i live for #i'm not rushing anyone to come back btw. i need them to take all the time they require #i'm just being honest that my head isn't fully in it rn and it's been a while since i took a lil step back

[hollypies]

I'm tired and not doing well mentally so jave some more Separated Strings au stuff.

Hollow tries to follow Kris around, but they get distracted really easy !

The Soul is the same one from undertale obviously. Would make actually meeting the townsfolk face to face a bit . Sad and nostalgic

Hollow gets along well with Susie and Kris, but doesn't really connect as well with Ralsie. They like him, but they're just . Unsure.

Kris and Susie return to the light world on their own. Since Hollow looks sorta human it'd be difficult to explain their presence! While they're gone Hollow uses Kris' room. The. The other side. They found a bed somewhere

Hollow fights with a spear!! I just think spears are cool. It has a heart shaped point . Hehe. Hollow's gear is a pink/red cloak, blue butterfly hairpin, and an old heart locket.

#holly rambles #Separated Strings #deltarune au #utdr au #utdr player #deltarune soul #deltarune vessel #weeeeee i am... not doing good rn agh. #everyday is the same as the last. i am stuck in a loop of torment #ok seriously tho im. struggling artisticly rn. which is not good cause i have a commission #a commision to finish AGG AGH AGH. IM SO SORRY ITS TAKING. SO LONG #plus everytime i try to write the next chap of hollow cell i just. go kinda blanck fod . for a while #HGGGG. :( #so. prolly just gonna. talk about yhis new au for a bit. idk if anyone like! really cares #its mostly for me? i am just rotating it in my mind and screaming inot the void that is tumbl r. L

[chiimeraangel]

thank fucking god for hot chocolate!!!!

#I'm so miserable rn and that's all I have to look forward to!!! #just the thought of getting a big ole mug of the stuff is pushing me to the end of the day #I have to pick up my dad from work and THEN I will immediately take a hot shower before I get in soft PJs and make myself a hot bevvy #I'm going to bed E A R L Y tonight I feel like I'm walking through depressive jell-o #I spent the weekend with my friends and as much as I miss them I didn't really have fun #feeling :-(( about it #but it is okay!! bc I have!! hot cocoa <3 #and my cute lil cat #I would blow up something small for her #if she wanted I think #my bby #she's so moody and kind of rude but she's also the sweetest and I like her that way!! #chii talks atchu •.• #womp Womp WOMPPP

[childhoodsickness]

Tried tentatively dipping my toe in a "talking stage" with someone online i found who seemed cool and already fucking sick of it

#they seemed to really want a relationship from their posts/bio #but theyve been taking ages to reply each time and thats a fresh wound for me rn #bc my ex just did that to me and ghosted me AGAIn #which prompted me to finally move on in the first place #and this is what i get thanks universe #can anyone ever match my energy? tbd l:/

[raayllum]

still have to finish the bigger meta this will currently be a part of but just know that i’m crying bc i think i have actually figured out precisely what the key unlocks and how it works 

#literally like Crying on my couch rn #like i had this theory about a week or so ago #and i was like 'huh yeah that would make a lot of sense' #and obviously thinking about it thematically first and foremost #but then i was like 'what would do this on a character / worldbuilding level' #and i really think this is it man #MAYBE IT WON'T TORMENT ME ANYMORE #y'know? #fandom history #but as always am prepared to take the L lamo #dragons rambles #key to his heart theory

[vamprnce]

ppl really need to start saying cis perisex men when talking abt abortions/reproductive health

#text #like you're really throwing us trans guys under the bus when we're vulnerable rn :l #sorry for be the language police or w/e but us trans guys didn't take our own rights away lol cis men who are our oppressors too did

[pepprs]

having the issues i have is literally exhausting. like why do the miseries have to be ceaseless and the horrors unending.

#purrs #idk if im swaddling my inner child or str*ngling her (sorry) but she needs to stop crying bc my GOD i can’t keep living like this. my counse #counselor literaly told me i could get fired if i end up working somewhere else (🤨👊💥) and don’t heal AJD it’s like ok you’re right but also #shut up don’t fucking say that. but he is also so right like i can’t keep living like this. i was anxious and agitated all day and it’s good #that no one noticed but also like it takes so much energy just to sit in one place and do my work and respond to the stimuli and not start a #sobbing and howling. i hate this shitty fucking situation i want it to be over so i never have to feel this helpless again but im feeling pr #pretty helpless right now mutuals. i am feeling pretty helpless and i also cannot breathe because the elephants are taking up too much space #and i mean that in more ways than one. i don’t even have the energy to play video games rn like literally all i want to do is sleep. omg #still not as bad or in as bad a place as last week. and thank god i have not been dizzy since friday. but this is really pushing my limit. l #like im scared my heart is gonna give out from pounding so hard and i was trying to do affirmations w mysef and talk myself through the #logic and it didn’t work really and im like 😐 plus like almost every triggering / upsetting kind of situation that can happen has happened #today and i haven’t flipped out abt it it’s been more like slowly chipping away at me and.. i am at my fucking limit. i need to sit in a #sensory deprivation tank. and i also need to get married and/or a phd immediately. and i also need a lobotomy.

[hyunjining]

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#i think it’s 100% understandable to get bummed out by stunt stuff #i mean obviously because i do and i’m kinda bummed rn #sometimes it hits harder than others #but i do think some people do take it way too far and start projecting onto h&l or getting angry with them when we don’t know the full story #and i think that’s def when you need to reevaluate and maybe uh… do something else with your free time #idk we’re all only human and shit fucking really sucks sometimes lol so i’m not gonna say anyone has to ignore how bad things are #bc if you can’t i swear i get it lol #but like the point of being in a fandom is to have fun with likeminded people #if you’re not having fun at least sometimes what’s the point #go find something that IS fun for you #doesn’t mean you love h&l any less necessarily unless you’re being a dick about their closets

[moe-broey]

THE CRUSHING WEIGHT OF ALL MY WIPS AND NEARLY ABANDONED PROJECTS. OF ART I HAVEN'T TOUCHED IN MONTHS AND MAYBE EVEN A FUCKING YEAR. OF ART I FEAR THAT WILL NEVER SEE THE LIGHT OF DAY. AAAAUGHAGAUHAHHAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHhhhhhhh...............

#i'm honestly just thinking of posting some art that i don't think i'll have the energy to return to. #like i REALLY wish i DID. but also i know how easily distracted i get and how much time and energy it takes too..... #i have some comics i really want to focus on. becoming dangerously autistic about characters rn #and i guess i really want to prioritize here. and maybe make peace w not having everything finished. #like...... even if i may not finish a drawing to my liking. i still had a lot of love and care put into it. #i still had ideas i was passionate about. that's really important to me. #sharing my work is really important to me too. it's really one of the few ways i feel i can connect w others. #i think. i just have to take the L. i may never be on that level of cool stunning artist who makes these amazing big projects. #at least not all the time. i still want to make big cool projects. i want to actually finish one someday. #but i think maybe sometimes i just have to accept that. something is better than nothing at all. the love is still there.

[deus-ex-mona]

my mood rn be like

#(this is about shin jidai. and the bonus dvd it comes with) #i stg i’ll (ʘ‿ʘ) if the tracking website doesn’t update within the next hour #c’monnnnnn pls i’m pushing back my med checkup to wait for this delivery pls reward my dedication— #the thing arrived at the delivery facility almost 4 hours ago </3 where is ittttttttttttttt #i’ve been obsessively refreshing the page every other minute send h e l p #and the thing is i’d normally take a nap rn to pass the time (esp since the weather is really cool and nice for sleeping) but (ʘ‿ʘ)— #what if i took my nap and the delivery dude comes? my shin jidai!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #i stg i’m almost about to head down to the delivery facility to pick it up myself (ʘ‿ʘ) #pspspspspspspspspsps pull through for me dhl #inedible blubbering #dhl said no shin jidai rights

[karmaphone]

when ur playing a game marketed to children but u can't get past insane skill-based shit

#like. this is clearly not meant for kids this is some Winnie the Pooh baseball typa shit smh #it's sky: children of the light of anyones interested #yes this is supposed to be a skill-based section of the game but the combination of not being able to fly the ice constantly activating the #slide mechanic AND the wind activating the slide mechanic on top of it taking a million years to reset every time you fall too far is TOO #MUCH. ITS TOO MUCH DEVS YOU DO REALIZE THIS IS MARKETED TO C H I L D R E N #IM AN ADULT AND IM GETTING UPSET CAN YOU IMAGINE IF I WAS A CHILD RN #this is the exact type of shit that discouraged me from playing video games for YEARS #'oh yea haha we'll make this part impossible to separate who really cares about the game' jokes on you you're filtering out the exact ppl #that would enjoy your game the most IF IT WAS FUCKING PLAYABLE

[avatardoggo]

i am the smartest girl in school

#i was at the bus station waiting for my bus tonight close to 1130 and this guy comes up to me and he’s like ‘i just wanted to say yiu look #really cute and that color (this lavender long sleeve top) looks really good on you and i was like “o ty 😊 on the outside 1000% normal but #SCREAMING on the inside and mind you a couple hours ago when i was dt with my friend this guy stuck his head out the window to say he liked #my top too so when this guy at the bus station complimented me i was like o wow ok guess this is my color even my coworkers were saying so #so bus terminal guy introduced himself and i instantly forgot his name bc i big brain smart and we just started small talking and then my bu #s came so i was like cool i can go but then we take the s a m e bus and the same stop but i didn’t tell him that i let him think i got off l #later at a different stop so we’re on the bus just talking about movies and christopher nolan ans quinton tarantino and movie nerd stuff #y’all know how i get and i’m thinking o this guys cool like i’d be his friend and then when his (our) stop comes up he asks for my number #AND I JUST GIVE IT TO HIM LIKE ???!! and i could’ve lied or given another number or just said no but i was thinking o he’s cool like he’s a #movie nerd and we can have a good discussion and like i wasn’t shaky nervous around him like my social anxiety was non existent so i was lik #o friend? but as soon as i went home to text my friend she was like GIRL WHY WOULD YOU DO THAT AND NOW ITS CLICKING THAT HE MAYBE MOST LIKEL #Y DOESNT WANT TK BE MY FRIEND BUT SOMETHING ELSE ANS HE LOWKEY LIVES NEAR ME ANDBJDJDHDHSKJSBDHDJDJJS THIS #has never happened to me like nothing of the sort i’m blaming the top and it’s color like ahshhdjdjdbdbdbd i’m flattered but no i’m not look #i got for that rn and he looked older like late 20s?and i’m baby so no tanks #hopefully i never see him on th street omgoofness that would be the worst i won’t know how to act like i thought friend as if he didn’t call #me cute upon introducing himself goodness i shouldn’t be allowed to speak for myself smh #i need to search up how to be a Normal Calm Girl Who Can Take A Compliment And Reject A Guy If Necessary Withiut Being Weird #wikihow here i come #vk overshares in the tags

[albonium]

..........i really don't want to go to work this week lol.

#i'm gonna have to see my superiors and it's not like we can avoid what happened the other day #(i had to do analysis i was barely trained to do once 6 months ago in an emergency at night. didn't finish soon enough for the director. #he came into the lab the next morning and yelled bc the production line hadn't started up again lol) #in general work is a mess rn #also we're being audited #and my colleague is getting minor surgery on tuesday so i'm gonna be alone for the rest of the week #also it's a long week so i work all the way to sunday morning :) #after this i really want to take time off #but they probably won't allow me to take it l o l