#rapo rants

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if i see emotama's goddamn mug in the ranked matchings one more time i'm going to completely flip my shit

#ok i know why she's everywehre #but everything from her design to the reason she (as in the alt not mitama) exists is SO INFURIATING #most of all the fact that everybody just immediately went 'omg she me fr fr' when she and emonagi came out #fuckin' traitors #i wanna commit genocide sometimes too you don't see me doing it do you now huh? #g o d #this even has NOT been good for my health i am physically shaking right now #one more fight to go and i'm free! for the next 24 hours and then it's right back to hell #magia record #yakumo mitama #rapo rants

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Thats her. Writing this now while she’s sleeping sa call. Haba ng usap namin. Was not the same anymore at all. Walang lambing, walang baby, seryoso talaga, blunt. She became a strong woman na sobrang taas ng respeto ko ngayon. Tbh, i dont wanna bother her anymore but at the same time I still want her to stay with me. Convo started off with me saying kamusta. Classic line ng di alam kung anong sasabihin pero may guts na mag ask if “can we talk”. Dami kong nalaman sa kanya. Galing sya sa friends nya last night. Nag inuman, bonding, tawanan. Im happy for her she met new ppl doon. But theres this guy that I hate the most for her si Jayvee. Di ko sa hinuhusgahan ko yung guy pero una pa lang alam ko naman na talaga gusto nan kay lyne. Dati pa man last year nag dm sya pasimple, ayos kami ni lyne. Single yung guy alam ko yung motif, pero si lyne she dont see it that way, friendly lang sya. But theres me. Alam mo na boyfriend instinct. Ngayon sabi nya sakin, kasama nya the whole night si Jayvee. Nakikinig si jayvee sa rants nya at masaya daw sya na may genuine na nakikinig sa kanya. Inuman sila ganun kwentuhan siguro dk what happened next. And theres me here nakikinig lang. Deserve ko to. Yung marinig ko to. Kasi ako naman dapat nasa pwesto ni Jayvee, but what did I do. I wasted her whole time, ngayon she’s strong she doesnt need me anymore. Yung pain sa puso ko, tangina inakin ko, sabi ko sa isip ko “tangina damahin mo yan, sa mga ginawa mo sa kanya kulang pa yan.” Patuloy ako sa pakikinig, Nilakasan ko at sinabi ko “okay lang ako” “gagawin ko lahat bigyan mo ako ng chance pa” “magsimula ulit tayo ng dahan dahan” “ako naman this time, wala kang kailangan ibigay” . Sa sobrang bait nya sinabi nya “no, hindi ako selfish” “gusto ko pag okay na kung babalik dun tayo mag aayos hindi ganito”. Sobrang na touch ako pero sinabi ko parin at sinabi paulit ulit. “Last chance”. eto talaga yung babaeng gusto ko makasama habang buhay. Pero sinaktan ko ng big time. Dahil lang sa pagkawalan ko ng “oras” no cheating involve. Di ko kaya gawin sa kanya yun. Nangyare lahat to dahil sa selfish kong pag desisyon na maghiwalay na muna kami ng landas. For the past 3 months di nya ko pinabayaan, pinilit nya ko na bumalik sa kanya, sinubo nya sakin lahat ng sagot, solusyon para maayos kami. Pero wala. Ako tong di grateful. Nandyan na sa harapan anong ginawa? Sinayang. Now mag hulos dili ka sa ginawa mo ryan. Okay na sya ngayon ng wala ka, ngayon ang tanong anong gagawin mo?

Nag open ako ng deep thoughts ko for the cause of my depression. Nakinig lang sya. Wala ako mapagbuhusan neto sa kanya lang naman ako nakakapagkwento ng buhay ko wala ng iba. Nabuhos io halos 1/4 nasa isip ko siguro dami pa kqsi hirap lang mag express talaga sa iba. Pero dami ko nasabi. Feeling ko nga nakatulog na sya. May nasabi sya sa huli. “Pasalamat ka nga meron ka na ng lahat rapos ganyan ka pa” di sya exact words pero along the line yan. Di ko ineexpect na ganun sasabihin nya. She’s not my girlfriend anymore talking, she’s her na yung sinaktan mo at now bumangon mag isa at kinaya mag isa.

Sabi ko. Lyne please. Lyne please. Lyne please. Kaya pa natin to. Ako na muna. Lyne please. Lyne please.

“No, di ko kaya, di ko alam paano, di ako ready pa.”

Sakit. Di ko alam sasabihin dun. Sa mga pinagdaanan nya sakin? Grabe lang.

Lyne sana nababasa mo to. Gusto ko malaman mo na mahal na mahal kita at sana bigyan mo ako ng chance na mabago to, ma end yung cycle na to, at mapakita ko sayo na sobrang genuine ako na gawin lahat para sayo hanggang sa dulo. Di ka na bibitawan, at malakas na yung kakapitan mo. Gusto ko respetuhin yun gusto mo, pero ayaw kitang mawala. Ayokong pagsisihan to na bakit di ko pinilit, di ko binigay muna lahat bago ako gumive up. Kahit hope na lang meron ako. Gagawin ko. Gusto ko pag bumalik na tayo, wala ka ng iisipin pa sakin, dapat pang ika worry, masaya ka, di ka nag hihirap, wala tayong problema kkundi kung pano lang natin masosolusyonan lahat ng pagdadaanan natin at hindi na tayo mismo yung problema. Gusto ko maging safe space mo ulit lyne. Ayoko mabasa mo to ngayon kasi gusto ko mag pakatatag ka sq desisyon mo, gusto ko na i test mo ko kung may nagbago na ba o ano. Ayokong kaawaan mo ko at na gi guilty ka lang kaya ka babalik. Gusto ko bumalik ka kasi alam mo na or nakita ko na yung pagbabago dito. Di man ngayon pero sana bukas or sa susunod. Ibabahala ko na kay bathala ngayon. Sarap pakinggan ng pag hilik mo sa call ngayon haha. Sana palagi ganito. Makatabi ka sa lahat. Wag susuko lyne. Hanggat nahinga mag mahal lang. Sorry for hurting you. Never again. Havent slept for 2 weeks mahal. Kung alam mo lang. but i dont want u to worry about me. Kasi I got this!! Eto na lang yung pinaniniwalaan ko. Yung grabeng pagamamahal ko sayo. Sana talaga ganun na lang kadali lahat. Patawarin mo ko lyne. Gusto kita mayakap ng mahigpit.

This is how I start my month of Aug 2021.

Pre ikaw naman: pahinga ka na. Kayang kaya to. Hayaan mo muna siguro sya this time. Goodnigjt tol. Speechless ako sayo man. Haha ang tanga mo.

Goodnight Bob. Praying for you always. Remember? Eto yung centre ng relasyon natin. Si God. Wag mo sana makalimutan yan! Even sa life sya parin. Sleepwell madam. I love you mahal. Miss saying this back to you many times as we can. Mahal na mahal na mahal at misss na misss na misss na kita kung alam mo lang. CELYNE PARIN SIGAW NG PUSO KO! haha. 🌻

[dearhummingbird]

3, 12, 14 xx

3. rant. just do it

ok this was a draft from when Bon Appetit was going down the drain and i was extremely annoyed and bothered by how the discussion about it was being held in this all-women Slack group i’m in. it really mostly comprises of extremely rich white mid-20year olds who only used to shop at Reformation and only use Glossier/Golde/Milk Makeup/Kosas products. a lot of it probably wont make sense unless you kept up to date with what went on with BA, but two things that i want to note is that 1) i don’t like the me who calls people crazy and goes ??????? when others share wildly different opinions from me, even when i think those opinions are flat out wrong. it’s language that im trying to change bc i also do it when im even mildly annoyed at people, which is bad. that’s one reason why i didnt initially post this here bc i was abit ashamed. idk if thats right or wrong but ya. 2) i didnt share this earlier bc while i still stand by what i said about Gaby being an immigrant status i was and am afraid of being called out as insensitive or wrong. it would be nice to hear opinions about this, if anyone has any at all. but yes, it is very long and very passionate, please dont mind......

this is with regards to the BA drama and the Slack group i mentioned here awhile ago. the people there are so...????? not only is their cancel culture ugly but their flimsy explanations and lack of care for their words just makes everything that comes out of their mouth performative. there’s a whole thread with 150++ messages about the BA situation and i said i was sorely disappointed with Gaby’s willy nilly response to the initial Sohla uprising. for context, Gaby is Argentinian, is BA’s test kitchen manager as well as the oldest member of the BA universe. she posted a story saying: “Hey guys! I am not one for following what the heck is going on! You know me, I do my own thing! I cook and be happy! 💚🌈 💚🌈 💚🌈” while the BIPOC members of BA were risking their jobs by going public about the systemic racism within Conde Nast. the white members of BA had stood in solidarity(🤔) with the BIPOC members, and Gaby is the only one who chose to bow out of all of it. someone replied saying maybe its bc Gaby’s an immigrant, like their mom, who was afraid to get involved in politics of any sorts because doing so in her time meant death. please tell me if im being insensitive but i think thats a grossly biased biography to impose on someone else, esp w such a clearly tonedeaf “💚🌈💚🌈” response at a time like that. i replied that and said yknow what, maybe thats true, maybe its not, but Gaby couldve read the room and given a much more neutral response even if she didnt care about it. THEN someone else replied saying they agreed with the previous person - “[i think] people are being too harsh on her. She is of a different generation who perhaps doesn’t grasp the role of social media in this movement. How can we expect her to condemn her EIC in the most thoughtful, politically correct way, when English is not her first language and the US is not her first country?” ???????? just saying Gaby doesnt “get it” bc shes old and an immigrant? i thought it was wholly condescending and fired back saying Gaby has mentioned being in the states fr a very long time and she knows how to put up highlights on instagram ffs, shes tech and English savvy. i also said Gaby’s language was very telling and tonedeaf “i do my own thing”. then the person replied saying “oh i didnt mean it like that, her response to me was representative of tbings we’ve heard from our own immigrant families right? “A lot of survival as an immigrant is tied to “I do my own thing” and that is inherently privileged while being a victim of the white supremacist system at the same time” 🤔🤔🤔🤔🤔🤔🤔 i did not like the “right?” super annoying rally tactic like actually debate w me dude. and if she hadnt meant to say Gaby didnt “get it” maybe she shouldve worded her thoughts far more carefully. also um..? i understand what youre saying but my whole point is Gaby shouldve been more careful with her words. pegging all of this onto her immigrant status, while may be right, seems so¿ what if Gaby didnt give a fuck, just like she shows she doesnt in her words? then what? like? am i crazy?? then i said i‘d rather she had said nth at all if she was gonna hang her members to dry. THEN THE PERSON RESPONDED, “LETS BE REAL [INSERTS BA’S WHITE MEMBERS] ARENT GNA LOSE THEIR JOBS” ????? I was very clearly talking about the BIPOC members...... why would i talk abt the immune white members..... she mustve barely read anything i said!!!

then w regards to the Delaney situation, some of them were like “he was in college when he used the queer slur?? when i was in high school everyone already knew better than to say it” “19???? way too old to be saying shit like that” sure he shouldve known better but age should not be the issue here. + Delaney has been one of the most vocal BA members abt BLM! hes clearly changed as a person, if not is at least one willing to learn frm mistakes! people were hunting him down on twitter, screenshotting shit frm 2012. they called him a coward fr deleting his twitter and tumblr - but whats the point of digging fr more shit to say “yes Delaney was indeed a bigot frat boy” when you already have a handful. i never knew what cancel culture was until this. other things theyve said include “🚫 no more conde nast 🚫 society has moved past the need for conde nast / ugggghhhhhh damn it, it’s my fault for thinking a white man could be unproblematic” howww. Later on Brad said he would quit if they fired Delaney and everyoneeee was like “duh Brad’s an outdoorsy white man 🥴🥴” ??? 1. THATS A DUMB STATEMENT TO MAKE 2. THE PERSON WHO POSTED THIS IS ALSO WHITE. what if Brad will quit bc Delaneys a friend????? then what? 85% of the BA team is white, Carla and Molly went to Italy while Chaey wasnt even paid fr the Thanksgiving series, Claire gets something crazy like 20k for every gourmet makes, and Molly was the chummiest member with Rapo, and you’re saying “duh Brad’s an outdoorsy white man”?? get your shit together

ok last one is when in response to my point about how Molly was so friendly w Rapo that she was the only one who‘d snap at Rapo as if he wasnt the scary prissy boss the same girl who said Brad is an outdoorsy white man said “oh i actually saw that as a personal coping mechanism against Rapo’s toxicity!!” i really died

#seems silly to answer 14 now but #i dont drink coffee! #and i will leave 12 for another day because im sure i know of some good ones

[raposarealm]

I cooked some waffles and now I feel like I'm dying I think I was standing for maybe 20 minutes

#aaaaaAAAAAHHHHHHH #at least i finally ate one but #ugh #it's not even raining outside but i feel like i was slammed into by a train on a high-speed rail line #which is made all the more impressive by the us's chronic lack of rail lines #rapo rants

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WAIT

WHADDYA MEAN THE EVENT STARTED TONIGHT

I.. didn't the dates say the vent would start when the Kimochi ended? Like, in the late afternoon (JST) when the Kimochi would end the next morning, not starting at the same time as Day 5 being cut short-!!

Now I'm actually livid

#GIMME MY TWO BATTLES BACK F4 #of COURSE it cut out when I only had battle one done. the fight where i set up for magia looping. and therefore do no damage. #if it'd been after round 2 i'd be a little more okay with it but. #trying not to scream right now it's 3am #god #magia record #rapo rants #rapo loses her damn mind #it's been an hour and i cannot calm down from being cut off from the fights because I went. to the bathroom-

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Watched through the Exe presentation during the Tokyo Game Show this year, and yeah, online battles and all are cool as hell, but

I forgot how Rock’s English VA (Andrew Francis) sounds. 

And no disrespect to Francis, but.

I am in pain.

#WHERE IS KIMURA AKIKO CAPCOM #I didn't grow up with the dub ok #I didn't even know this series existed until I was in my late teens #so I've only seen the Japanese version of the anime #so hearing the Japanese narrator switch to Francis's way-too-old-sounding Englsih voice made me take a d4 of psychic damage #look I know Francis did a good job of voice acting in an objective sense #but I will continue to argue that he's a poor fit for Rock #I'm gonna get hated for this aren't I #rockman exe #battle network legacy collection #tokyo game show 2022 #andrew francis #hikari saito #still online battles would be neat #I have a friend who's probs equal in skill to me #and one who's gonna effing destroy me #fun times :') #rapo rants #rapo rambles in the tags

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tumblr why are you recommending posts about anorexia to me

like, bruh, way to send me down a spiral of self-hatred yet again, it’s not like i despise my weight or anything

#in fairness i did lose like four pounds over the last month-ish #but that means i went from ~290lbs to around ~285 which #even with my extreme amount of muscle for a woman who doesn't work out #i'm 5'1" so. that's like 100lbs overweight #i'm overweight because a) i'm in pain both mentally and physically 100% of the time #and b) i use food to cope because i don't drink nor do drugs and i (usually) don't self-harm #*sigh* bad mood today i guess #rapo rants #cw: anorexia #i guess the tags have some stuff mentioned so #cw: mental illness #cw: alcohol mention #cw: drug mention #cw: self harm mention #i don't know how to do content warnings uh

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A break from the disastrous Kimochi, because I feel like crap! And what better way to distract myself from feeling sick than to talk about a sick boy!

Not the Yuyoyuppe album, this but this specific scene from Axess I’ve meant to rag on for a while now, from Episode 50.

(A read more for minor spoilers, I guess. And also because this got hella long.)

You might remember this as being right after the final fight versus Dark Blues, and also after the stupidest stunt the egghead pulls all season, which lands him in the hospital. 

First off, I’m going to bitch about this shot for a second:

(Credit to @panningexe​ for these shots, by the way, because I physically cannot bring myself to rewatch Axess.)

(This would be a good time to add in a disclaimer: I’m not a nurse or other medical professional, I’m a pharmacy technician who still doesn’t have her license in this state because I’ve been too busy to take the PTCB test. I did some preliminary research for the stuff beyond the pharmaceutical aspect, but most of that was just ‘stuff I learned from my mother who was an RN 20 years ago’. Take the finer details with a grain of salt, and please correct me where I’m wrong.)

Series never get medical things right, but, shockingly, that IV line is correctly set up. Taping down the extra line isn’t usually done from what I’ve seen, but it’s not wrong. Tangled lines are more of a danger, as long as the taped lines there are still loose enough to not impede the flow rate. But. You want me to believe this is a patient in critical condition, in a hospital in a large city, in the future, and all you have to regulate flow rate is a roller clamp?

But Rapo! you say, clamps can be used along with other regulators! Yes, but, lemme direct you to this other shot from the same scene:

It’s harder to see here, but: there really is just that one roller clamp and the drip chamber built into the line (which doesn’t really regulate drip rate well on its own.) Yeah, those work just fine, but they’re harder to use, and are therefore more prone to human error. Hospitals are already phasing them out, like, in real life. 

There’re two LVP bags (Large Volume Parenteral bags, large amounts of sterile fluid used usually for regulating essential bodily functions,) on the stand there. If I remember the episode correctly, Enzan was out of commission for multiple days following his dumb stunt, but I don’t remember how long he was unconscious. 

Quick rundown of some common LVPs for context: Normal Saline contains sodium chloride (usually 0.9%, but treatment of severe dehydration and NPO/’Nothing By Mouth’ patients often receive 0.45% instead,) is used on nearly everyone who’s admitted to the hospital, since it’s used to help with dehydration, and especially on critical patients and those with blood loss (and is sometimes co-administered with blood products.) Also containing sodium chloride with other compounds are Ringer’s Solution and Hartmann’s Solution (also called Ringer’s Lactate.) Both contain other electrolytes (calcium chloride and potassium chloride are pretty standard, for instance,) but Ringer’s Solution contains sodium bicarbonate in place of sodium lactate (hence “lactated” Ringer’s.) When high sodium is a risk, such as with renal impairment or some chronic conditions, or when a patient’s body is especially acidic, such as suffered with sepsis, then Ringer’s or Hartmann’s may be used in place of saline. (Source because it’s long.) Lastly, Dextrose 50% in water, usually abbreviated to D5W, can be used when the body is malnourished. Note that these might have to be switched around depending on the SVPs (’Small Volume Parenteral,’ or just normal medicine that’s injected or otherwise administered parenterally) given, e.g. nitroglycerin and norepinephrine, medicines used in cardiac emergencies, can’t be used with Hartmann’s. 

Side note over. Anyways, there’s only two bags present on the stand there, and the line’s only attached to one. Sometimes LVPs can be used to keep an IV line open while no medicine is being administered, but. This is, again, an unconscious, critical patient. From the first picture, we can see bandages on both Enzan’s hand and head, which I’ll guess are probably burns from the forced Fusion attempt (he was holding the PET and smacked into Blues head-on.) Burns are one of the worst things to treat, as they’re excruciating for the patient. Plus, there’s a chance that said head-on impact could’ve cause some head injuries. Why isn’t he on pain medication? A conscious patient can take medication orally, but that’s kinda hard to do when someone’s out cold. Burns carry significant risk of infection, too, and IV anti-infectives are often injected into the LVP bag directly, or ‘piggy-backed’ onto the IV line, which requires them to be placed on the stand higher than the LVP so that gravity pulls the piggyback medicine into the main line. I don’t see a connector on that line, but I suppose the medicines could have been injected directly. However, due to the manufacturing of that type of bag, there’d be a stopper on it to keep sterility, which maybe it’s there, but I don’t see it.

Also, can we take a look at the rest of the room? WHY ARE THE MONITORS OFF?!!? The only time you shut those things off are when you take someone off life support. That’s why hospital halls are filled with those annoying ‘bing’s -- those monitors have to be there. You never know when someone who looks stable suddenly become tachycardic. You never know when someone’s IV line fell out and now they’re not getting the medicine they need. You get the point. Not only are those monitors not connected to Enzan there, they’re not even on! For God’s sake, the closest he has to a monitor right there are Anetta and Netto standing next to him! 

As side not that I don’t know how to work into the rant, I’d say I’m surprised he’s not on oxygen, not even the nasal cannula you’d see in every soap opera episode that takes place in a hospital. I had one of those in for a sleep study, for God’s sake. But, since this is a medical device that I wasn’t actually taught about because my class sucked, I’ve now been informed that cannulas aren’t used unless the patient shows explicit difficulty breathing, but doesn’t require intubation (endotracheal tube, AKA tube down the throat,) or mechanical ventilation (partial or complete respirator.)

It’s nearly 1am and I’m done ranting, but TL;DR, if I lived Akihara, I’d have sued this hospital by now.

#speaking of pain meds that's what i'm on right now and i'm H Y P E R #i almost wrote kamihama instead of akihara so i guess enzan gets to stay in the satomi medical center along with mitsune that one time #like i said before i have three modes #a) madoka b) rockman and c) pharmacy #now i need to cover the one hospital(?) scene from the manga vol 5 because it actually wrote a cardiac emergency accurately! #'rapo you want to be an emt don't you?' how dare you but also kinda #i told ma that who was also an emt and she goes 'i shouldn't have told you so much about emergency medicine growing up' #don't let me watch a medical drama. EVER. #rockman exe #ijuuin enzan #because he's the unfortunate but idiotic victim here #rapo rants #i aspire to try and teach y'all medicine but i don't know much myself beyond drugs i just like to pretend i do

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Wait Where's my Ranked emblem?!

I participated last round, and got A1 rank. Look look:

It's on my player profile too:

So then how...?

I want my emblem back F4, I suffered for that >:(

#i swear i'm being shamed for getting b rank in matching #because i'm seeing so many refugees with a rank #so i'm not unconvinced that the game is also trying to make me feel like shit #*grumble grumble* #magia record #mirrors ranking #rapo rants

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FUCK

SHE'S ALREADY 4S

well, there's my first destiny crystal...

#no i didn't bother to crop this and i'm not going to #rapo rants #i get *nothing* on this gatcha until pity #oh yeah this was the pity roll too #so it wasn't free #doka continues to make me regret picking her as my starter #this is worse than anni where at least i did get spooks more than once #and none were full slots #time to go spend the other 100 rolls

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tumblr you gotta start letting me block keywords in people's blog handles and not just in posts i need to block every blog that has the word "bracket" in it asap

#i swear to god those poll-only blogs are getting to be a vertiable infection #i blame twitter. probably. #they have polls many twitter users came over here it all makes sense now #tumblr stop catering to the twitter refugees they either learn to swim or we'll see them down in arizona bay #it's the natural order or something #rapo rants

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ranked ranting

yo where the hell are all these mirrors teams getting so much anti-evade to field on their Oops All Evade teams huh

God, this Ranked feels SO much more broken than last time. I don’t have a particular desire for any of the memos from the medal shop this time (and I’ve got, 20? 30? from last time,) so I’m very tempted to go back to either solo unit chargehunting, or good ol’ solo Fork. My current team is Kirino/Fork/Iromado, thanks to the advice of Discord user marie (and by advice I mean that I stole her idea thank you marie!), and either I can’t keep the enemy alive long enough to get to turn 3 to fire the connects and magia/doppel, or the enemy decides that “Fork has the lowest defense by a lot, so she’d go down in less than three hits regardless, so I’m gonna hit Kirino with the last hit, since she’s got the second lowest defense!” Except Fork evades everything and Kirino gets blasted by the strongest hit in a combo. 66% remaining HP is a huge hit to your score, so that’s obviously bad (especially knowing that Iromado could heal up Kirino either with a connect or their magia/doppel on turn 3, if I could get that far...)

I’ve been testing in Endless first before I jump into Ranked, since this is the first time I’ve tried a mixed chargemagia team (my normal Ranked setup is Kirino/Kamisen doing the usual solo charge unit and/or mokyu hunting,) and I’m wondering if I started testing too late into the day, because I’m seeing some horridly tanky teams stacked with both evading and anti-evading units and whatnot, but also a lot of standard blasters and strong generic attacks that wouldn’t be optimal for Ranked scoring. Especially Yachiyo, been seeing a lot of her around. Not Aniyachi, Not Tanabachi, not AniIro with her 5-star card art that looks like a Yachiyo alt, just normal Yachiyo, and also some Iroyachis. Those two are the least optimal for Ranked right now, since they’re only good at blasting things down, and missing both charge and magia in your scoring costs you any chance at anything other than like, maaaaybe low B rank? I think that might be more high C rank territory actually, depending on remaining HP and skill count. Still, I’ve been seeing teams filled with units like Aniyachi, Mokyu, Iroyachi, Kyoko (not Doppel Kyoko, normal ol’ Kyak,) etc., which tells me that I’m looking at defense teams, not normal offense ones. In other words, teams designed to win by tripping up the enemy, often by baiting them in, or by just being so impossible to fight, but also being hypothetically impossible to score well with. 

I don’t know how much players care about what your ranked score is anymore, so I wonder if B rank still looks okay on my end. Like, if my account reads B rank, are my supports still possibly gonna be used or something. ‘Cause if so Imma just go back to rat hunting, I’ve already gotten the ranked memos that I care about anyways, and the new one isn’t super impressive IMO. Not enough to make me stress over it, but I don’t wanna skip out this ranked ‘cause I need the tickets and the gems for Nayumii and/or SunriseShizu...

Uhhh I’m rambling now I think but TL;DR screw current Ranked meta like always and also I don’t know how the whole defense vs. damage cut mechanic works so if someone does get it can you tell me too please ‘cause clearly I’m doing it wrong

#how are y'all faring? #'hey rapo how drowsy are you?' very thanks for asking #anyways i think if i go directly into ranked i'll find more reasonable teams but #i wanna iron out that issue with the damage cut first and make sure kirino can live long enough to be healed up #send help i don't know what i'm doing #magia record #mirrors ranking #mirrors ranking round 16 #rapo rants

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a kinda sorta rant

a really kinda stupid and tangential thing to rant about, but

a few days ago i ran across a post about a fandom thing that i vehemently disagreed with, but also couldn’t refute because i hadn’t actually gotten to the scene the op was referencing. and look, it was an opinion piece, but now i’ve spent a few days with it sitting in the back of my head and i don’t know what to do about that

it’s annoying

#feel free to ignore this i don't know if i phrased anything well anyways #oh also i'm not gonna mention which post or which fandom but #i WILL mention that is was a ship thing and that it was stating that the ship in question was destined to be tragic and #nonono the canon does not give that impression at all or at least the way i read it it didn't #someone send help #rapo rants

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Wow I’m behind on Magitober and also everything else-

I wasn’t kidding about being behind due to pain, I’ve been having issues with all of my lower body, and I’m so short on some of my pain meds that I’m having to ration them, which. Is not fun. 

I see the pain management early next week, so hopefully I can stop complaining to the void then.

#MY LEFT ARM IS BANDAGED AND IT'S ANNOYING #everything else means some fanfics i said i'd do and also some stuff i said i'd sew #i think i gained back the weight i'd lost #also i made the mistake of wearing shorts and ma almost took my scissors from me cause she saw the slash marks #in all honesty she probably should've #achievement unlocked: self-harm! send help. #rapo rants

[raposarealm]

I’m behind on Magitober and also everything else because last night I sat in this room nearly naked after my mother told me to give my phone over to my father, I gave him the headphones I was using with it (bluetooth-connected was the reason), she responded with “why don’t you give him the shirt off your back, too?” Which I did. Walked inside with just a bra. Then stripped everything else but my underwear in the kitchen and plopped myself down in this room with nothing but the singular nightlight on.

And then grabbed for the emery board.

So nothing got accomplished last night.

#i do think i'll have some more scars though #my left arm is half raw from scratching at it and also emery-boarding it #good news! the scars on my left arm now have matches on the right! :) :) :) #this is a vent post please ignore #for legal reasons this is a joke #cw: self harm #rapo rants

[raposarealm]

Last Ruby fights done, this thing has been a nightmare to anybody without Ao, I’m once again crying that the devs are conspiring against f2p, and Melissa has pulled her weight and then some.

Also my group has the best name -- “レナちゃん応援隊”, or the “Rena Support Squadron.” Truly a team I want to be part of.

#devs give us more remove granted effects options there's like three units in game that can do it #it's bullshite look at how many units can remove buffs #look i picked the name minami originally to reference my own name having the same meaning #but i also love rena with my whole heart so it works even moreso #anyways rena best girl and ruby worst kimochi #magia record #docile ruby navel kimochi #nightmare kohl's mannequin looking fucker- #minami rena #melissa de vignolles #rapo rants #a little bit