#quil’s ​unholy underworld

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doing a project in class and a classmate asked to group up and we’re friendly so I said yes but the topic I’d already picked is 10000% a personal interest and I don’t. know how to delegate anything to her because we’ve got very unfair distribution of background knowledge but also I don’t want to commandeer everything

#quil’s ​unholy underworld #i have done like 98% of everything so far #not because she’s taking advantage of me but just because I picked this topic for me and my knowledge base #i know what comparisons I want to make and what sources to use #and i would be fine doing the whole thing myself but I don’t want her to feel useless or like she’s taking advantage of me #trying to share things but so far it’s very me #and i feel bad #ah group projects my nemesis

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hey anyone got any hobbies or anything to recommend; I’ve got extra energy and need to find something to do with it so I don’t explode. tactile or more movement involved would be nice but not required—this is a genuine request I am brainstorming and seeking input

#quil’s ​unholy underworld #since school ended i now have the first summer break I’ve had in 4 years and I don’t know what to do with the time #without school work taking my energy I need to find somewhere else to put it #or i get overwhelmed and restless #which can lead to meltdowns so. trying to offset that #i have a good handful of like. immobile hobbies (reading and cross-stitch and painting and writing and art) #i need. more things to do with my body and hands #any ideas y’all #i have some but I’m trying to expand

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hey. hey look at these mushrooms on my skirt :D

#quil’s ​unholy underworld #kinda an odd angle because I was wearing it when I took the photo #as I wanted to see how it looked #but I thought the mushrooms were very very fun so I wanted to share :) #I’ve still got more empty space to fill so. I will still take suggestions #I’m thinking that one gender symbol and perhaps a butterfly at the very least #but idk! just kinda fucking around #hey. why is the voice in my head Australian #why is my mental voice speaking with an Australian accent that’s odd #anyway

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it should be illegal for Responsibilities and Events to exist when I’ve got my Medias to Consume

#quil’s ​unholy underworld #shitpost #listen I live my sister i would never skip one of her concerts #however #this is really inconvenient timing #khirin just destroyed the stone if shackles after being ritualistically sacrificed to a demon #which is great because now all magically enslaved people are free #but bad because that also released all demons from their restraints #and now wyrga is loose and the two books are finally about the unit #i want to be reading rn :(

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fervently hoping my Spanish is good enough I can learn another language being instructed in it ough I’m. real nervous for Tuesday wish me well </3

#edit: language is nahuatl btw! #quil’s ​unholy underworld #what is with tumblr’s refusal to remember that tag #anyway #gonna start a new language soon and. the instructor is in méxico and will be zooming in #and they require a certain level of Spanish in order to take it #because of that #but like. yes I’m theoretically passably fluent #however I have very very little real world practice #so I am. nervous #idk how much Spanish will be needed or how much English this instructor knows #but my GOD i want to take this class so I really hope I know enough #they didn’t have any Spanish test before it or anything #i was just casually told knowing Spanish is good for this #perhaps my Spanish will improve from this too #anyway. language is a sore spot ough </3 #also super annoying I have to physically go to campus…to do an online class -_- #it’s my only class that day too I’m literally going to campus JUST to be online #bro let me zoom from home i don’t wanna make the commute #fjowidodknw #imposter syndrome with language activate! #FHIWKSKSK #it’ll be fine everything’s fine it’s all good

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I am about to have what I think will be a very long and exhausting day, someone check on me in like seven hours to see if I’m still functional peace and love <3

#quil’s ​unholy underworld #tumblr never wants to remember that tag even though I use it all the time #anyway #I think I’m. going to explode #but hey #fuck it we ball amirite?

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what kind of exam puts the big essay question in the middle??? what kind of hell world am I living in

#quil’s ​unholy underworld #found this in my drafts from earlier today #took a very shitty exam this was only one problem with it #it was 13 questions. 1 essay question #and it was question 5 out of 13??? #and we weren't allowed to go back once we'd answered a question #i already complained to my mom about it but maybe i'll do so here again #the questions weren't. weren't even about the content of what we've been reading the past 5 weeks?? #it was about a bunch of fucking tiny details #like 'which of these four authors was part of the english depart at this school?' #which like. yes we did mention that. but ONCE. and yes knowing author's backgrounds and accomplishments #especially from marginalized communities is also good #but thats??? not at all what we've been mainly focusing on??? #we've been focusing on and analyzing their WRITING #for 95% of class every single class #WHY are we not drawing from that on the exam #I don't fucking know that one singular detail mentioned once in the documentary we watched once and can't access on our own!! #i didn't know I needed to memorize the smallest shit!! #the teacher is nice and the class is enjoyable but my professional (i've been a student for years) opinion is that that's not a good #exam structure

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for the past week my body has been desperately convinced I need to wake up at 4:30am every day. my guy this is not in the schedule

#quil’s ​unholy underworld #sir this is not the routine what are we doing this for

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today, for some reason, I gave an irl all the information she needed to find me on tumblr (without a url). so o-rod if you’re seeing this: you liar you said you weren’t gonna look me up

#quil’s ​unholy underworld #this is mostly me reflecting being like huh. what a random action to take #to be fair she brought up tumblr first #but anyway! there is someone out there who could. at any time. find my tumblr #someone who knows me irl #the only other person who has that knowledge is my partner #and one person from 8th grade I think but I doubt they remember #so huh. did not expect that to happen today

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there are a total of 8 O’s in a game of scrabble. guess how many O’s I drew? fucking EIGHT

#scrabble #quil’s ​unholy underworld #i think at one point I had THREE o’s in my letter bank #fucking RIDICULOUS #no one needs that many o’s man #i had to use. all eight o’s #i was in vowel hell this game because at one point I ALSO had theee i’s #of which there are nine in game #anyway #i did not win this game of scrabble #my dad had a few really good plays #but my god i got my bang for my buck #got high numbers for using few letters #múltiple times #anyway!

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why do I get hit with the zoomies at 7:30 what’s going on here this is the third day in a row

#quil’s ​unholy underworld #shitpost #??????? #where is this random gotta go fast energy coming from #I usually never feel Right to do anything after 5pm the vibes are always off #unless it’s an emergency like I have homework due that day I haven’t finished #what’s happening I don’t know what to Do in the evening I’m so used to doing Nothing I accidentally trained myself #to see the day as ending at 5pm bro what’s happening #what do I DO

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pensaba sobre creando un blog donde solo hablo y publico en español…a lo mejor ahora es el tiempo más perfecto….pero no me gusta tener mas de un blog. entonces…a lo mejor debería publicar en este blog en español en lugar de eso…las decisiones…

#quil’s ​unholy underworld #ya ​tengo la segunda blog #pero no lo uso #tiene cero publicaciones #pero si voy a estudiar una lengua en español…

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hey <- just bought another twilight book

#quil’s ​unholy underworld #the twilight renaissance #TWILIGHT TIME! #say hola to sol de medianoche a todos #my collection grows #I need to own every twilight book ever #also almost bought a twilight tshirt at hot topic #but they didn’t have the one I wanted #despair #I will own it one day tho #I will

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gradually reteaching myself to be more direct and blunt again, which is relieving because I prefer being clear and direct, but terrifying because I untaught myself this as a kid for a reason

#actually autistic #quil’s ​unholy underworld #i used to be very direct about my thoughts and feelings #but then i got in trouble for making someone cry #and people just. didn’t respond well to what I said #so I spent the next like 5 years observing people and figuring out social situations passably #but i overcompensated. and it can negatively impact communication #and i just also don’t like it #it’s part of my mask #so. part of learning to j mask is learning to be clear and direct again #and it’s so scary what if they react like they did when I was little :( #but also prioritizing myself here *thumbs up* #and i wanna do this #i wanna be clear and direct again #so. doing it scared

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got called a work of art by my partner’s dad I don’t know what I’m succeeding at but I’m succeeding at it :)

#quil’s ​unholy underworld #end of an era my partner and I can no longer call each other creeps :( #anyway #love complimence :)

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I give up I’m throwing in the towel girlies i cannot read another one of the books my teachers suggested to me right now there’s no whimsy. taking a break I’m reading MY books now <3

#quil’s ​unholy underworld #I’ve been putting them at the top of my list for MONTHS #just one after the other #and you know what that did? put me in a slump and made it unpleasant to read #I’ll go back to books like that later #but right now I need some fun reads and to reset my brain #and when I come back to them I will not be reading them all in a row #woof! #now to just figure out which of my silly goofy books to read… #I opened one of the teachers suggestions today and got 3 pages in before putting it down and going No I can’t do this <3