#probably gonna delete but I need to say this somewhere bc I’m losing it rn

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#I feel like it’s VDS week all over again and no one is reading my fics #I’m trying not to be discouraged but it’s hard #is there something wrong with my fic? #that’s gotta be it #and next week’s chapter is the one I’m most worried about #or maybe it’s just not interesting enough bc I’m not even getting hits #I’m just so depressed bc I put my all into this fic #probably gonna delete but I need to say this somewhere bc I’m losing it rn

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How do you feel about Hal

   SUCH A GOOD QUESTION i have so many thoughts on hal omg . like at first i was not a fan at all bc he comes off like a total tool and at first glance it seems like he and alice really don’t like each other much . i got the vibe that they might love each other on some level bc they have kids together and they’ve spent so long together & definitely care about each other at least but they don’t like each other at all ?? like any time she does anything that’s remotely  ’ alice like ’ he’s so put out and its just like ‘ why did you marry her then ?? ’ to me it seemed like a lot of the pressure she puts on herself must be from him and that perfection was a big deal to hal and then ofc the stuff with polly but actually since i’ve been rewatching i’ve changed my mind a lot .

like he still isn’t my favourite character or anything but i’ve been trying to look at it from a different lens and i’ve decided he’s not that bad. like obviously he still has a lot of faults but almost everyone on the show is an asshole so how harshly can we really judge at this point ?? lmao

we haven’t got to see too much of hal yet really, so i may end up being wrong but rn i think he’s a decent guy who loves his family but is also very stubborn. i think from what we’ve seen of him its clear he places a lot of value into FAMILY LEGACY, which was likely instilled in him quite young, and that’s what influences a lot of his poor choices. he didn’t tell alice or the kids about being related to the blossoms because he’s been told its a shameful family secret , one he may have intended to die with him . like - dumbass move dude get your shit together but idk maybe he was trying to protect them from it in a way ?? idk but srsly bro if you wanted your kid to stop dating her cousin - maybe yk tell them they’re cousins ?????

and then booking the abortion the way he did was obvs about the incest which he eventually copped to and you can see when it dawn’s on alice and she’s like ‘so that’s why’ and he’s just ‘yeah alice, THAT’S why’ to me it felt like there was a lot unspoken there and that was his way of letting her know that he never would have had the circumstances been any different. which actually makes me pretty curious what his reaction might have been had she gotten pregnant to anyone else - maybe he would have supported her keeping it after knowing how much it hurt alice losing their son ? who knows man

and then on to he and alice :  i think their relationship is honestly the most complicated and layered on the show and needs to be explored more for sure bc they have such a big issue with communication to the point of being heartbreaking, but they also seem to have this incredible ability to forgive at the same time ( if not completely then at least enough to move forward ) and this weird dependancy on each other i find really interesting.

it’s easy to write them off as a marriage of convenience but it just doesn’t make sense to me for alice, being who she is to marry/stay with someone she DIDN’T LOVE, its not in her character.

like what happened with polly —-  she was DEVASTATED to find out he’d done that after all they’d been through. she was actually ready to walk away even though she’d been able to forgive him enough for doing it to her to marry him and have two more children.

then she finds out the reason and how the two of them were cousins etc and you can see her face when he says it, this wave of understanding goes over her and you can almost see her decide to forgive him and after that they go get polly and he’s moved back in. and it can’t just be for the sake of keeping up an image,  she had kicked him out already, the illusion of perfect was over so there was no reason to take him back unless she GENUINELY loved him.

and while some of the things he does have me side eying him hard af i’ve started to see the way he talks to alice ( not when they’re fighting, just in general ) as them just being MarriedTM lol like yes he rolls his eyes at her a lot but i don’t think its about him not liking her anymore, i think its just that they’ve been together so long now that he’s just like ‘ omg not again really pls ’ lmao but not even in a bad way . and i love that when she starts going overboard he’ll be like ‘alice’ or touch her or something and she’ll calm down and then like when they were in that city hall meeting he’s just sitting with is arm around her, not touching her but theres that closeness. then in the deleted scene after the meeting she has her arms linked around his which i think was really cute.

or like the scene where penelope slaps her , i loved seeing them interact there because he just puts his hand on her and he’s making sure she’s okay and talking her down, etc —-  mostly, i feel, because he knows if she does hit penelope she’s gonna hate hearing people gossip about her etc bc she’s so conscious of that.

i’ve also been trying to think of why tf she would stay w him after he had her give up their first kid, which she views as her biggest regret and i feel like he probably visited her a lot at the sisters and just sat w her and talked to her about whatever she wanted / about what their future would be like / helped her study so she didn’t fall behind bc she probably would have wanted to get a scholarship for college and just tried to be there for her however he could and maybe that helped her get through it IDK

the only thing i can think of is that she honestly really loved him and she knew he was right about them not being ready for a baby even though he handled it badly and at the time she was just young and thinking more about her own future. maybe it wasn’t until later that she started to regret it? like maybe when she had polly that she really started to regret not keeping him

i’m sure she felt some regret before that of course. felt that pull to him as her child but she was still a child herself really and i think it would’ve been seeing polly and all the milestones that come with having a child that would have made her realise what she missed out on with her first / would have made her wish she had have kept him.

i think when she was pregnant it would’ve felt like the end of the world and she would’ve had to give up all her dreams to have him and she was probably scared she’d end up living in a trailer park etc in the lifestyle she grew up in , but then after polly she thought differently. she realised well i could’ve had him in daycare or gone to a community college that would’ve been more lenient so she could’ve managed both etc.

i feel like I’m not even answering your question anymore at this point lmao

i think his parents would have played a huge part and you can tell by the way he told that story about his grandfather he’s very family orientated so pressure from his parents probably influenced him A LOT but i also think had she decided to keep the baby he’d have stuck by her.  i think it was his parents offered to pay for an abortion and probably paid to have her go to the sisters. and i think it would have meant a lot to her if he came to visit / kept coming back hat in hand trying to make amends and keep their relationship going bc she probably assumed he’d want nothing to do with her after. i feel like he’d have been really apologetic about the whole thing though.

i also feel like his mother is probably really intense and thats where alice takes on a lot of her 'perfect wife/mother’ act bc a lot of the show centres around the becoming your parents sort of thing but for alice i feel like it was mother-in-law. you can tell all perfect Mrs. Cooper posturing is very very put on so she has to be getting it from somewhere. and i feel like hal definitely became his father unintentionally with the way he’s holding onto old family feuds and offering to pay for polly’s abortion. i don’t think he would have been like that as a younger man.

i’ve also been thinking a lot about how alice and hal might’ve gotten together in the first place and i like the idea that it was because of her writing that he took a real interest. like he would’ve taken notice of her already bc she’s beautiful but probably wrote her off bc she was from the southside and idk maybe one day they’ve all had to read their own piece to the class or their work has been passed around etc and he’s realised theres a lot more to her than just the southside.

i’m really curious why he originally took interest in her bc we can pretty much guess her reason at least originally would’ve been this hope of having a better life but i think there must’ve been a lot more to him as well we just haven’t seen yet bc otherwise i think she could’ve easily had her pick of northside boys.

and from what i can tell they seem to be a marriage of equals for the most part, which i’m sure is something thats really important to her and that makes me like them together.

#anonymous #i actually left out some things i think can u believe #idk how it got this long im sorry lmao #♛ ❛ ––– THIS JUST IN! ( answered. ) #♛ ❛ ––– WHO KNEW. ( headcanons. ) #♛ ❛ ––– NOT QUITE PRINCE CHARMING BUT CLOSE ENOUGH. ( hal. ) #♛ ❛ ––– OTP : HAVEN’T YOU HEARD? WE’RE THE PERFECT FAMILY. ( alice + hal. )

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1-100 for my baby i love you

Awww I love you too baby thank you for asking!!!1: Is there a boy/girl in your life? There’s a perfect boy in my life named Key 💖
2: Think of the last person who hurt you; do you forgive them? I have forgiven them for it bc it was a long ass time ago. 
3: Grab the book nearest to you, turn to page 23, give me line 17. I couldn’t find a book near me fast enough so I typed 17 on “my” chrome book. 
4: What’s something you really want right now?
 Key and Mexican food tbh. 5: Are you afraid of falling in love? I would say yes but I’ve already fallen head over heels for my baby!
6: How can I win your heart? You already have!
7: Have you ever slept on a couch with someone else? Yes plenty of times with you!
8: What’s the background on your cell?
 So after questioning for like 5 minutes what cell was until u told me it was short for cell phone it’s a set of flowers and you bc I’m gay. 9: Name the last four beds you sat on? Key Key Key and mine. 
10: Think of the last person who said I love you, do you think they meant it? Na not at all because it was my mom lmao. 
11: Honestly, are things going the way you planned? They are going a billion times better than I ever could have dreamt of!
12: Who was the last person whose phone number you added to your contacts? Probably Quinn’s idk I don’t have a lot of friends riiip. 
13: Would you rather have a poodle or a Rottweiler? NEITHER I HATE DOGS FIGHT ME
14: Which hurts the most, physical or emotional pain? Emotional because it’ll never leave you. 
15: Would you rather visit a zoo or an art museum? How bout yes please. 
16: Are you tired? I’m always tired I barely sleep send help. 
17: How long have you known your 1st phone contact? I’ve had them since 2009 when I had my first phone. 
18: If you had to delete one year of your life completely, which would it be? 2008 so I wouldn’t be so fucked tbh. 
19: Would you ever consider getting back together with any of your exes? Lmao I’ve only dated Key ripppp. 
20: When did you last talk to the last person you shared a kiss with? I talk to my first love and first kiss every day
21: If you knew you had the right person, would you marry them today? I know I have the right person and yes I am gonna marry Key!
22: Would you kiss the last person you kissed again? It’s Key so hell yes a billion times over!
23: When was the last time you were disappointed? About a month ago. 
24: Is there a certain quote you live by?
 “This is the anthem throw all your hands up. Y'all don’t have to feel me sing if you’re with me”25: What’s on your mind? Tbh key and I wish my internet would work so I didn’t have to use data. 
26: Do you have any tattoos? I wish but not yet. 
27: What is your favorite color? My favorite color is red it’s lit. 
28: Next time you will kiss someone on the lips? Tomorrow when I see my baby Key!29: Who are you texting? Lmao the one and only Keeey. 
30: Are you superstitious about anything? I believe in a lot of superstition but not any about black cats they’re the good pusses. 
31: Have you ever had the feeling something bad was going to happen and you were right? Oh yea plenty of times. 
32: Do you have a friend of the opposite sex you can talk to? I have plenty just because girls are better than guys to talk to tbh. 
33: Do you think anyone has feelings for you? I know my beautiful future Key does. 
34: Has anyone ever told you you have pretty eyes? You have my beautiful emerald!
35: What was the reason for your last breakup? I haven’t had a breakup and won’t soooo. 
36: Were you single on Valentines Day? Lmao na I had the most amazing Valentine’s Day ever!
37: Name one physical feature that you like about yourself, and one you dislike. I like that I breathe I hate that I’m very clumsy. 
38: What do your friends call you? Dill Bill!
39: Has anyone upset you in the last week? My family every day. 
40: Have you ever cried over a text? I cried when Key said yes when I asked him out!
41: Where’s your last bruise located? On my elbow. 
42: What is it from? I hit it on a wall. 
43: Last time you wanted to be away from somewhere really bad? Probably about a month ago honestly I wanted to be away from the world. 
44: Who was the last person you were on the phone with? I’m always on the phone with Key!
45: Do you have a favourite pair of shoes? I love all of my converses!
46: Do you wear hats if your having a bad hair day? Na I don’t look good with hats on. 
47: Would you ever go bald if it was the style? Oh no I don’t look well bald. 
48: Do you make supper for your family?
 Every now and then I make dinner for them. 49: What’s the toughest decision you made this year? Probably to convince myself to be me. 
50: Top 3 web-pages? Probably any social media site tbh. 
51: Do you know anyone who hates shopping? No and I’ll fight them. 
52: Does anything on your body hurt?
 My knees because I have no protection to them when I walk. 53: Are goodbyes hard for you? I never say goodbye unless the other person says it first. 
54: What was the last beverage you spilled on yourself? Coffee like a month ago. 
55: How is your hair? It’s medium length and very faded denim blue in it. 
56: What do you usually do first in the morning? I tell Key good morning and then use the bathroom. 
57: Do you think two people can last forever? Key and I are going to so yea of course. 
58: Think back to January 2007, were you single? Lmao I have been until like almost year ago. 
59: Green or purple grapes? Purple are the best. 
60: When’s the next time you will give someone a BIG hug? As soon as I see Key!
61: Do you wish you were somewhere else right now? Right next to Key
62: What did your father teach you? How to treat women correctly. 
63: Where will you be 5 hours from now? Probably asleep or waking up randomly. 64: What were you doing at 8 this morning. Trying to go back to sleep while waiting for Key to wake up. 65: This time last year, can you remember who you liked? The same person I liked for like 3 years and I love now and am gonna marry!
66: Is there one person in your life that can always make you smile? Key!!!
67: Did you kiss or hug anyone today? I wish I did to Key but no unfortunately. 
68: What was your last thought before you went to bed last night? I hope Key sleeps amazingly tonight!
69: Have you ever tried your hardest and then gotten disappointed in the end? Oh yea but I’m pretty sure everyone has. 
70: How many windows are open on your computer? Only one and that’s this site called rabb.it key and I use!71: If you won 100 million dollars, what would you buy first? Anything and everything Key wanted and spend like maybe $100 on a new recording Device so I could lmao. 
72: What is your ringtone? Why don’t you get a job- the offsprings 
73: How old will you be in 5 months? I’ll be 19!
74: Where is your Mum right now? Asleep like I should be lmao. 
75: Why aren’t you with the person you were first in love with or almost in love? I am tho???
76: Have you held hands with somebody in the past three days? I hold Keys hand everyday that we see each other, which is like every other day, so yea I have. 
77: Are you friends with the people you were friends with two years ago? Lmao nope they all dropped me it I dropped them with the exception of Key. 
78: Do you remember who you had a crush on in year 7? I didn’t really start crushing on people until like the end of grade 8. 
79: Is there anyone you know with the name Mike? Lmao my dad goes by mike. 
80: Have you ever fallen asleep in someones arms? Every other day I do in Keys!
81: How many people have you liked in the past three months? Um let’s see here: key, KeY,Keeeeeey, and lastly keywi!
82: Has anyone seen you in your underwear in the last 3 days? Lmao I sleep pants less so yea. 
83: Will you talk to the person you like tonight? I get to talk to him every night!
84: You’re drunk and yelling at hot guys/girls out of your car window, you’re with? Well first of all I’m not drunk ever so this question is already invalid. 
85: If your BF/GF was into drugs would you care? Well once again we’re straight edge so invalid question. 
86: What was the most eventful thing that happened last time you went to see a movie? Well I went with Key and I got to snuggle up next to him so there’s that. 
87: Who was your last received call from? KEEEEY
88: If someone gave you $1,000 to burn a butterfly over a candle, would you? Um no satin I wouldn’t. 
89: What is something you wish you had more of? Key and money to spend on key. 
90: Have you ever trusted someone too much? I used to trust everyone too much until I got bullied as a child lmao. 
91: Do you sleep with your window open?
 Um no I’m not dumb and don’t appreciate losing my goods. 92: Do you get along with girls? Lmao almost all of my current friends RN are girls so yea. Males are usually douches. 
93: Are you keeping a secret from someone who needs to know the truth?
 No I tell the truth as soon as I know it. 94: Does sex mean love? To me if I have sex with someone aka Key, then it means love, but in a hypothetical world that I don’t wanna live in where Key doesn’t exist and I just have sex with random people not necessarily. 
95: You’re locked in a room with the last person you kissed, is that a problem? I’m sorry did you mean the only person I want to spend forever with, Key???
96: Have you ever kissed anyone with a lip ring? Oh no I’ve only kissed one person. 
97: Did you sleep alone this week? Na I slept with my baby Key every night!
98: Everybody has somebody that makes them happy, do you? I definitely do his name is john cena jk it’s key. 
99: Do you believe in love at first sight? I believe you can want to be friends with someone as soon as you see them but you can’t love them until you know them. 
100: Who was the last person that you pinky promise? Every night I pinky promise Key something.

#my lover dearest #asks #send me asks #ask me anything