#plus i can mentally frame it as prep for the 50s summer stuff

[starship-squidlet]

we now return to our regularly scheduled mental breakdown, except apparently this one gets to happen at the beach.

#aka jack was having a bad time and decided to book an air bnb for the rest of the week #it was only $35 a night so that’s not going to destroy my finances #plus i can mentally frame it as prep for the 50s summer stuff #except i’m going to oc md not oc nj #I HAVEN’T BEEN TO THE BEACH SINCE I GRADUATED COLLEGE I’M SO EXCITED #i mean it’s literally just going to be me doing exactly what i do at home except in someone else’s bedroom instead of mine #and only .5 miles from a beach instead of... over 160 #fun fact: i never really liked the beach that much until i went to college a mile from the MA coast #and even then not really until my senior year when i had a car and went to the beach all the time #ironically the reason i spent so much time at the beach senior year was because i was having a mental breakdown #because my roommates kicked me out and spread rumors about me around campus and a bunch of other stuff #i did not have a good time #so i went to the beach as often as i could #maybe that means that now my brain just goes ‘mental breakdown? time to beach!’ #but i’m also very much a ‘i hate sand it’s coarse and rough and it gets everywhere’ type of person #channeling my inner anakin skywalker #anyways hopefully this helps the extremely damaging mental state i’ve been in lately #the only thing is that i won’t be able to continue binge-watching the classic hawaii 5-o because that’s on prime which isn’t on my ipad #but i guess that just means i’ll have to spend all my time outside #except that it’s supposed to rain one day so that day i might go to the mall #even tho i can’t spend more money #but still #maryland malls are the best #i love maryland malls #idk what makes them so cool they just are #i love tumblr tags i couldn’t ramble like this anywhere else #but this week seems like a good time to start writing either midsummer night’s dream #or get a big headstart on 50s summer stuff #so we’ll see #i probably also won’t really be online much (but i say that and probably the first thing i do when i get there will be check tumblr)