im not dead!!! (just mostly)
barely writing at all these days sadly, but in the meantime i have taken up crochet and gotten into a wonderful relationship !!
also, going to see boys from the blackstuff and probably going to meet barry again (and on my birthday too), so im v excited.
i might get back to my cod writings and wrapping up my reaper series eventually, but my writing well is dry and tbh, the competitive spirit/imposter syndrome/general negative thoughts just got a bit too much for me...
what did i miss?
hope everyone is well!! love and miss yall ❤️
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music monday
rules: post songs that you relate to ls/characters from ls
thanks so much for the tags @sznofthesticks @americansrequiems @eclectic-sassycoweyes @sugdenlovesdingle @literateowl & to @tellmegoodbye for starting this off
here are songs for nancy, nancymarjan, tk, carlos & tarlos. songs under the cut for tidyness. fair warning most of these are depressing i am a depressing music kinda person so
tk:
Why's pain so damn impatient? Ain't like it's got a place to be
Keeps rushing me
But I ignore things, and I move sideways
Until I forget what I felt in the first place
At the end of the day I know there are worse ways
To stay alive
'Cause everyone's growing and everyone's healthy
I'm terrified that I might never have met me
this is a song about struggling with your mental health and avoiding recovery, and this to me is very much a season 1 TK song, from when he's numb to the world and still finding his footing in his recovery and his new life in austin, before he's able to let carlos in.
carlos:
If you really wanted, I could let you inside
It's been so long and I've got nothing left to hide
Would you believe me if I told you that I've got flaws
Now it's time to let the curtains unfold
And tell all the stories that I didn't want told
I let it out so I unburden my soul, I won't stop
'Cause I don't know
The perfect road to go down
this song just screamed carlos to me the first time I heard it. it really conveys that complicated closed off nature he has of always trying to be who everyone else wants and show that he's got it together, and how hesitant he's been to open up, even to TK.
tarlos:
Waking up beside you brings a kind of refuge
It's the armor that I need to face the day
For a second I forgot that you were leaving soon
Then the armor falls away
This time there's no broken hearts
And no one ran 'cause it got hard
This missing you is temporary pain
I'm happy to be sad
I'm sad that you are gone
If I was feeling nothing
I would feel like something's wrong
a song about loving someone so deeply that it hurts to be apart, does this not just scream tarlos?? they're both shift workers, their shifts and time off isn't always going to align, and they're going to be sad to be apart at times but that isn't always a bad thing, just a sign of how deep their love is.
nancy:
Can't stay here, it's hard to face and it feels too ugly
Light a fire inside yourself, let it burn
Stare up at a starless sky and you say
It's like I'm still here with you
It's like I'm still here with you
I don't, I don't, I don't wanna say goodbye
to me this song represents nancy after tim's death, the feelings of grief and loss and loneliness and not wanting to hire a new paramedic or move on and 'replace' her best friend.
nancymarjan:
Am I allowed to look at her like that
Could it be wrong when she's just so nice to look at
And she smells like lemongrass and sleep
She tastes like apple juice and peach
Oh, you would find her in a polaroid picture
And she means everything to me
(Oh)
I'd never tell
No I'd never say a word
unrequited sapphic pining? need i say more? what could be more nancymarjan than that?
late to this so open tag + no pressure tagging @fallout-mars
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Listen….listennnn
Johnny in these.
He is so unbelievably Barbie doll to me—I play with his character like one lol. I see everyone saying he’s Ken (which is somewhat because CK decided to dumb him down (a lot) so now everyone associates him with ditsness), and I think there are a good amount of similarities as well—the headband, for example—but to me he’s a mix, taking the og TKK Johnny into account. Irl, Barbie would have been a bit prissy and probably even a little mean—but she is Barbie and rules don’t apply to her, so Johnny is kind of Rockelle-like in attitude but Barbie-like in looks.
And on the doll clothes note. I am so so obsessed with the fashion. After seeing the Barbie movie, I am BACK on my doll loving bullshit.
⬇️
There is a single Monster High outfit and that is because even as an older kid I looooved Clawdeen and Draculara and their outfits. I’d turn it red or blue for Johnny though. And the rest….need to explanation. Just picture it, he’d look amazing.
Obviously he’d still wear his band shirts and wrangler jeans cause he looks great in them, but he can wear these too.
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