#pia rambles

[shedevours]

Okay the thing about Dostoyevsky is that you have „the idiot“ which is like the saddest thing you‘ll ever read and all good and kindness is in vain in this world but you also have „Crime and Punishment“ which is like „oh, maybe, redemption is possible“

#dark academia #dostoevsky #help #Pia rambles #the idiot #crime and punishment

[encrucijada]

PÍA RAMBLES #8

you might have seen this post or this wip intro. i'm here to talk about this book because i think it's really cool @teddywriting and i wrote almost 40k words by simply playing dolls with our ocs.

(yes i will be using screencaps of before sunrise, 1995 for any and all subsequent updates regarding this project thank you very much)

what's weird about this book in particular is that, despite maripaz and theo taking up way too much space in my brain, it's also incredibly hard to talk about them?? i know every single detail about them down to what they might order to eat at a mcdonald's, and yet i feel no one outside from teddy and i really knows these characters. their lore is weird and a bit convoluted and explaining it feels like i'm trying to explain the plot of a television show with like 18 seasons of character development you just had to be there to witness to understand even a fraction of it.

but first some basics about the actual book

title: babylon boy (book 1 of the home habitat duology)

genre: literary fiction

category: i say adult because there will be no censoring of topics but in this first installment our protagonists are around eighteen years old. you might consider that ya but i wouldn't

a small summary: having independently run away from home for their own reasons, theo and maripaz meet while homeless on the streets and form an alliance of convenience to survive. while theo vehemently denies the drug addiction he’s nursing, maripaz tries to deal with the way both want and revulsion seem to exist in her at the same time. falling in love is probably the easiest thing they do.

teddy and i are co-authoring, as in we both write the words. they will be primarily working on theo's chapters and i will be primarily working on maripaz's chapters but we'll both be involved in fully crafting this story.

talking about your book is hard when all that happens in it is character work so even whether someone gets sick at one point feels like a spoiler you want people to be surprised by.

we created mari and theo in 2020 on a whim. i can't even remember what prompted it exactly. we wanted a new pair of characters to play with and we decided to make two assholes to bicker and be mean to each other. this iteration saw three reincarnations before we put the characters on the shelf and almost resigned ourselves to them being a miss... if not for one important detail... i really, really believed they should have kissed. this first version of them would eventually be known as the homeless au.

looking back it's Wild thinking about how different mari and theo used to be. we moved onto new aus to play around with, landing on a superhero-type beat that became their new canon for a while. we had fantasy and sci-fi and musicians and hadestown and the raven cycle (that last one did so much for us it's insane). every new thing we tried shaped them more and more until they were unrecognisable from their original versions. one day i really want to go through their threads from start to finish and look at that change in real time.

there was a new thesis to their characters and it was no longer "what if two awful guys with issues were forced together and tried to bite each other's heads off". instead we were looking at two characters that through every new incarnation became more sincere and gentle. they had meta-narrative character development.

(every new au also gave us more characters to populate the world including but not limited to theo's twin sister, maripaz's seven siblings, alex, philip, a whole lot of parental figures, a quirky cast of friends... but i'll talk about them some other time)

then i did it again. in the 2.0 version of the homeless au there was one scene i loved beyond words where an argument between our two protagonists resulted in maripaz punching theo right on the mouth. when she tried to swing a second time he stopped her hand and warned her that if she wanted to hit him he would hit back. they fought and the scene ended. i said to teddy: they should have kissed. we laughed and imagined how homeless au would go now that their characters had changed so much. we started thinking about it more and more until we were moving the pieces of their cinematic universe around to fit this new idea... and suddenly we had plot for a book that would revamp that original homeless au... and a sequel too! (but more on that second one another time)

teddy started a rp thread of what came right after the opening scene of babylon boy, where theo and maripaz would shoplift and he would steal the angel necklace she wore (<- this is important)... and we just kept going... and going. we'd already had a few keys scenes to work towards, one those being that punching scene that started it all, as well as the ending. teddy added two new scenes we began calling the halo scene and the church scene, and we moved something we called the pool scene into this book from another au. we just had to fill in the blanks... fill in the blanks we did.

these right here are the names i gave each individual thread of the roleplay-ification of babylon boy. their purpose is not so much to be chapter titles but to make specific scenes easy to find for future reference. though obviously i had to be a bit artistic about it.

i don't know if babylon boy will have chapter titles, and if they will have some sort of theme going on (usually i like just putting two words together to create some imagery). "angel face" is probably what i would title chapter 1, but i also hesitate on that decision because i think i would like to save angel for later.

these threads are less of a draft and more the skeleton of a draft, that's why i called it a draft 0. its purpose is to give teddy and i direction and reading through them i already know how i want to shift the timeline and how i'd rewrite some of the scenes to make them a lot better, but it did give us a great cause and effect look of things. the way teddy and i approach our roleplay threads is more loose than what i do with @on-the-river-lethe (with whom i'm currently roleplaying draft 1 of our book lupine trail and also a giant hunger games au). fluffy and i write responses between 1k-4k words, they are basically chapters. teddy and i instead do a quick call and response, mostly focused on dialogue, we build on top of each other and neither of us really knows where a thread will go when we start.

there are no actual non-roleplay words written for babylon boy thus far. teddy is in charge of chapter 1 as we open with theo's pov but we are both busy or focused on other things. right now we're enjoying the playing around stage of the process (which i don't see going away even once we start seriously writing, i know for a fact we'll probably do various roleplay-type passes to babylon boy).

you've probably noticed the christian imagery is rampant here. it happened kind of by accident and the already mentioned halo scene is entirely to blame for it. like i said, teddy and i have this very "yes, and," approach to storytelling together where we kinda build on top of what the other puts down. teddy gave me the description of one (1) scene where theo sees a halo of light around maripaz's head and i decided "well, this is now i thing that is here to stay". church scene really brought it all together and there is a scene in book 2 adeptly nicknamed the angel scene that is kind of the culmination of this.

the imagery is almost exclusive to theo's pov as mari is more the subject of the imagery than the one pushing it forward. teddy and i will be doing our most to fill this book with visuals: characters lined with stained glass windows, lights shaped like hearts, signs and graffiti that say meaningful stuff.

babylon boy, as the title suggests, is more theo's book. both he and maripaz have meaningful arcs but theo's is really at the core of it, mari takes centre stage in book 2 (titled gossamer girl). i think i talked about this somewhere before but the titles just kind of... happened. gossamer was relevant for that superhero au and it's just a word i really adore so i wanted to use it on the title. you can't go wrong with alliteration so gossamer girl it is. and because i love when books in a series match i had to do something with boy. like gossamer i adore babylon for some reason, and so we got babylon boy. i wasn't sure about that one because while gossamer girl made sense with the theme, what did "babylon boy" even mean, exactly? teddy came in clutch and analysed the title for me. they connected it to theo's drug addiction and now i can't think of any two titles that are more perfect for this series.

like i said, there are no actual words written for this book so sadly i cannot share any excerpts. but i will share

Festival was very much the result of teddy and i having just watched before sunrise, 1995

we watched before sunrise, 1995 because the mannerisms of the two leads reek of maripaz and theo

"until a miracle happens" became a recurring thing said in the draft and it wrecked me

Our Fears is probably my favourite thread both thematically and visually. followed closely by Church Angels, though that one is mostly visually

The Pool is the longest thread with about 90 responses and all of it is beautiful. i would probably consider it the companion to Our Fears

"mutual pining they're both just idiots"

the closing image is probably my favourite one of the book

the core themes are very much trust, love, and communal help. we've got such an array of npcs who simply... help. i love the human race.

i'll probably do another update before we start properly writing talking about maripaz and theo as characters specifically. a bit of a crash course on who they are, really.

anyway. i'm giving you a golden star if you read all of that ⭐ do ask me or teddy about this story!! we'd be happy to talk about it. or even just about the characters.

cheers, pía

#pia rambles #( wip ) bb&gg

[pia-is-a-business-major-now]

Anyway my blog is back to being a studyblr because I am back in university. Stay to follow my stress induced mental breakdowns over studying business administration on top of working full time in real time I guess

#studyblr #business administration #studying #me #own post #Pia rambles #i am in business school so I‘m gonna need lots of help

[juliaandthephantoms]

Spatort x BestOfKleinanzeigen

Und zu guter Letzt:

Wobei die Preisvorstellung da vllt ein bisschen utopisch ist

#spatort #tatort saarbrücken #julia rambles #danke an bestofkleinanzeigen1 auf insta #very inspiring #und danke an nat für pia mit nutella screenshot und cookie für den hinweis in welchem film das is weil gehirn didn't want to brain today #und ja ich weiß dass adam eigentlich nen skoda fährt und leo den peugeot hat #aber das maggi und das fluchen und das auto schlecht behandeln war einfach mehr adam #lets pretend adam und leo teilen sich ein auto oder so

[cethvalier]

Pia Douwes performing 'Ich gehör nur mir', probably 2001

this is the last gif from this performance for now... just going crazy over how gorg she is in this?!?!

#pia douwes #elisabeth das musical #elisabeth #also need to stop just posting gifs too LOL #i could do what i do on twitter and ramble about elisabeth in pointless ways... such as #“this guy just broke into my house” caption for der tod drawing #“pia just looks so gorg she is mother with a capital M” #and mourning the loss of the harsh blue lighting of 1992 proshot in particular for some reason? #0 likes across the board btw #what is the population of the elisabeth tumblr fandom anyways

[pia-writes-things]

I was today years hold when I discovered that you can change the orders of tags on mobile if you press and hold on them. This is life changing

#i can ramble and reorganise them so it makes more sense now if i want to #or retype a typo two or three tags before without having to erase all the tags in between #i feel like i discovered one of lifews cheatcode #i love it #pia's oversharing

[calibabii21]

coolest interview.

networking is so HDIFHRJHFJDHDHH.

I made some new friends and I've been wanting to be friends with them for like two years now and we were already IG moots😭

#z rambles #z's thoughts #z's odd girl tingz :p #pia and mercedes #pia & mercedes #youtubers

[like-the-rest-of-la]

HAPPY BIRTHDAY I LOVE THAT UR SEEING NOAH KAHAN TONIGHT I HOPE ITS THE BEST SHOW EVER 💖💞💖💞💖💞

Ajsjdj Thank youuuuuuuuuu!!!! I'M SO fucking EXCITED MEG!!! I can't wait to see him 🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰

#I'm meeting up with Pia in half an hour and i cannooooot waaait #lisa rambles #❤️❤️❤️

[mangk0]

why are robots so hard to draw.

#pia how do u do this help me #ramblings #not mil

[abovethesmokestacks]

J and I have celebrated Midsummer with our group of friends for the past... ten years? At least. And every year, some variation of this exchange happens:

"Okay, we'll celebrate here on Friday at approximately this time."

"Sound off in the comments what you'll bring."

"Barbecue, salad, smoked fish etc, the Dunderheads will bring dessert."

(Okay, so they don't call us Dunderheads, but for simplicity's sake)

I have established myself as a baker to the point where it's not even a question anymore over who will bring dessert.

That's what I call achievment unlocked.

#random ramblings #Pia bakes #apparently to the point where it becomes A Thing #dunderheads extraordinaire

[shedevours]

Not to be dramatic but when will I become so obsessed with a subject matter that it consumes all of my waking hours and haunts me in my dreams and maybe makes me a little murderous?

#dark academia #help #pia rambles

[encrucijada]

PÍA RAMBLES #7

if you've been around then you know about my walking disaster character adam rubio and his (ex)girlfriend piedad narváez. they're from a pjo rp i share with @chaoticdecember. it just so happens i love the characters so much i decided i needed to create an original ip for them to exist in, something that was mine (and fluffy's) because i cannot let these characters stay just as pjo ocs.

not that i hate them for being pjo ocs. in fact they're some of my favourite. they are well-rounded characters inside the pjo universe, they play with the formula. they show a side we barely get to see in the books (the titan army, the demigods luke's age). their powers that abide by the rules of pjo are cool, the conflicts that abide by the rules of pjo are cool... i just wanted something that was mine. and that wouldn't require people read all of pjo to understand.

enter: KEEP STARING AND I'LL NEVER FALL ASLEEP.

you will also find this referred to as greek tragedy! yes, with the exclamation mark.

i have done no writing prior to posting this! unless you count the thousand of words worth of fanfic of my own ocs in the pjo version of them (if you're reading this you probably know about pointed north, aka all those snippets of adam being a wet cat of a man because his ex won't give him the time of day... this is like 10k words alone).

so i'm gonna tell you about the worldbuilding and the character setup because i'm so excited about it!!!

genre & category: urban fantasy, adult

here's the short summary: people wear animal masks to ward off the monsters prowling the city, there are eyes painted on the faces of buildings, and the dreamers are on tv... not malcolm and adam though. after failing to stop their old team members from killing one of the oneiroi, the dreams walking among the regular people, they take less glamorous jobs and stew in anger (or at least adam does, malcolm says he's moving on). when adam's patron gives him instructions on where to find their old team members they find with them a bomb waiting to go off: a dreamer kid with the ability to kill people in their sleep.

and here's the long summary:

welcome to a world just like our own! if nightmares prowled through the cities and everyone had to wear an animal mask for the chance of warding them off. in this world dreams walk among the people and dreamers are what you call the people whose lives belong one half to wakefulness and one half to sleep. they are the only ones who can enter the domains of other dreams and take special artefacts, and for this reason dreams — or oneiroi — seek them out and make the agency known of their existence. with nowhere else to go that would teach them how to navigate this double life safely, the dreamers stay and they respond to the call of the oneiroi. in return, they get a good helping of recognition and a chance for their oddity to be seen as the perks of a celebrity.

luke's* team was the best in the business. teamed up less as a necessity and just as a matter of friendship. despite of what it seems like, being a dreamer isn't all that glamorous, you get tired of hearing you're fated for greatness without seeing the results. mutiny stirs within the agency, with luke and three others going rouge. culminating in the biggest sin of all: luke traps an oneiros within himself. their remaining still loyal team members, malcolm and adam, are set on their trail with clear instructions of not letting the oneiros come to harm. the only witnesses of what happened that day are their three remaining disgraced team members, luke is dead and so is the oneiros within him.

now, adam and malcolm are demoted. no longer the darlings of the agency they take less glamorous jobs. until adam's patron oneiros contacts him in dreams and directs him to the hiding place of their old friends. there they find they're hiding more than just themselves. they have with them a boy with a unique and deadly ability, that of killing people in their dreams.

woah, okay, so that's the setup! it was a lot, i know, but... worldbuilding.

what are the nightmares? the nightmares are me reusing the same monster concept for all of my wips because i find eldritch animals to be very cool. they're lovecraftian horror type animals that populate the world and are basically my excuse to why the characters are good with weapons because everyone is armed and knows how to defend themselves in case they're attacked. i also just adore the animal masks aesthetic so i wanted to use that here, and yes this also recycled from like 4 other wips don't even @ me. the masks' purpose is to sorta repel the monsters, as it gives you an uncanny appearance — sort of like theirs! so they won't attack on sight. the "eyes painted on the faces of buildings" are meant to help out with warding the nightmares, keeping them from overpopulating. sort of like the eyes on moth wings.

what are the dreams (oneiroi)? the well-adjusted cousins of the nightmares. they are my stand-in for the gods in pjo. they abide by their own laws and as part of these laws it dictates they can never cross paths with one another or grab each other's stuff. they don't affect the world around them, at least not the waking world, and a slight change in one of them would affect all of them. for example, if there was a gravity oneiros and they were killed, all the oneiroi would start floating. their appearance is very optic illusion-based. are they human? animal? something else? yes. the main thing people notice is they don't have to wear masks when walking around outside.

what are the dreamers and how do they work? with the oneiroi being unable of meddling with each other, that's where they dreamers come in. dreamers touch oneiroi artefacts, enter their domains, etc. just like demigods they are affected by both worlds, responding to human logic and dream logic. the core aspect of a dreamer is their ability of bringing things from their dreams (oneiric creation), though not everyone does it the same or is even capable of it... okay let me explain. most dreamers can bring things from their dreams, when they do they create dreamwaste, which'll usually correspond to their patron oneiroi (which is the oneiroi who found them and took them to the agency). it could be raw light, could be plants, could be cotton, feathers, paint, whatever. other dreamers have more niche abilities, such as dreamwalking, or they can only bring back one type of object but they create no dreamwaste.

and finally, what is the agency? i'm not exactly sure yet. i knew i didn't want an "academy of superpowered kids" type thing, but i still needed a central hub where the main cast met because it is essential that they know each other since they were kids. the agency, at least rn in the early stages of writing, is little more than an office where dreamers are taken to after being picked by a patron and it's a place where they can hone their abilities and eventually get picked for errands and jobs by the oneiroi. being a dreamer is kind of a big deal in this world. there is no veil between the fantastical world and the known world in this story, like pjo with the mist, no the fantasy world is everyday life. normal people know of the oneiroi, they live with the nightmares in their backyards, and dreamers for them are like small celebrities. the agency also takes care of the image.

let's talk characters! bullet point style

luke*. getting him out of the way rn. yes, this is luke castellan from pjo except he's my oc now. i'm probably gonna keep using luke as his name all through drafting and then find something new later to claim originality. if i wanted to explain him i would have to sit down and talk how he relates or doesn't relate with his pjo self... so i won't. instead i'll tell you his mask is shaped like a serpent (hermes). and he's a very special type of dreamer because he can bring anything from his dreams without creating any dreamwaste, making him the golden boy of the agency.

hudson moretti. fluffy's oc and originally a son of hypnos, so he fits pretty cosy here. his mask is the bear which just felt right as fluffy and i call him a big teddy bear all the time. his dreaming niche is dreamwalking! he can't bring anything from his dreams but he can visit anyone's dreams. he can also "discard" dreams, which essentially means taking dreams from others and getting rid of them. he does this a lot with his friends when they're having nightmares. as he doesn't bring anything out, he creates no dreamwaste.

piedad narváez. my girl! originally a daughter of urania which is why i have given her the rabbit mask, moon symbolism. another one with a particular niche. i'm sure you all know piedad's thing(tm) is she has premonition abilities which is essential to her character. when translating that into this story the obvious change was that she now receives those premonitions from her dreams, but this limits what she can bring back which always relates to those premonitions. her dreamwaste is glitter.

ericka mulligan. she belongs to royalbookblog and was originally a daughter of demeter. her mask is that of an antlered deer. she is a typical dreamer, capable of bringing anything she wants. her dreamwaste is plant life. probably the one most loyal to luke and would put her hands in the fire for him. makes up for her lack of niche by being the one making sure everything is running smoothly around here.

adam rubio. the previously mentioned wet cat of a man. originally a son of apollo, he wears the hawk mask. another typical dreamer, his dreamwaste is light. has a strained relationship with his mother, walking bisexual disaster, stands out in that he spent most of his time in the agency as a child as his mum tended to leave him there like it was a babysitting service.

malcolm*. oops we stole another canon character. malcolm pace is a son of athena we aged up and who became hudson's love interest. now thanks to pointed north he's also adam's best friend. he wears the owl mask and he's a typical dreamer, his dreamwaste is ink. unlike luke his name will stay as malcolm, i will only be changing his lastname.

nico*. OOPS ANOTHER ONE. i'm sure you all know who nico is, he's the son of hades. he wears the goat max and he's the kid with the ability to kill people in their dreams. he's a hudson type where he can dreamwalk but instead of being able to discard dreams, he can... well, kill people in their sleep. his name is definitely going to be changed don't worry. nothing will remain the same about him, no backstory or anything, aside from him being an orphan.

the story itself takes place after luke's mess has mostly fizzled out. it's been little over a year. piedad, hudson and ericka are missing in action. adam and malcolm are getting booed by tweens on the street because they're no longer the cool dreamers on the block. killing that oneiros had lasting consequences, remember what i said about them abiding by their own laws? and the hypothetical case of a gravity oneiros? there is no gravity oneiros but you catch my drift.

we have some carried over conflict from everything fluffy and i have developed about these characters in the pjo version. luke being a classical tragic hero who is taken down by his own fatal flaw. his friends believing in him to their own detriment in the end. piedad receiving a premonition of his fate but keeping it to herself. the rift between hudson-luke-piedad-ericka and malcolm-adam. piedad almost killing adam on purpose. ericka being in love with luke but luke never fully returning that affection. adam's patron (stand-in for apollo from the pjo version) telling him where to find the deserters. also apollo having a sorta thing with piedad (she has two hands).

i don't know what else to say! so i'll leave you with the opening line (this is from the prologue which will be a rewritten one-shot from the pjo version)

Piedad watched the dream and waited to wake up.

cheers,

pía

#pia rambles #pia.docx #( wip ) greek tragedy!

[apfelhalm]

Fun fact zum Spatort Inception AU: Eigentlich wollte ich noch eine Szene zwischen Pia und Esther unterbringen, die es leider nicht reingeschafft hat. Beide sind in einem Traum, irgendetwas läuft nicht so, wie es soll, und Esther meint so beiläufig: "Was würde ich jetzt für einen Kaffee geben." Pia schmunzelt nur und meint: "Wir sollten keine Angst haben, von Größerem zu träumen, Spätzchen." Und dann zaubert sie mit einer Handbewegung nicht nur zwei perfekt gebrühte Cappuchinos her, sondern auch noch eine Tüte voller Hörnchen und süßer Teilchen vom besten Bäcker aus ihrer Erinnerung.

#tess is rambling #esther und pia sind hier arthur und eames

[juliaandthephantoms]

Spatort + Postillon Artikel (Teil 6)

Teil 1 || Teil 5 | Teil 7

#spatort #tatort saarbrücken #leo hölzer #adam schürk #pia heinrich #der postillon #julia rambles

[theydoctor]

Bones and fren shaped <3

thank youuu <3333

#pia-writes-things #asks #charlie rambles

[pia-writes-things]

For the writing ask!!!

6, 10, 13, 34, 35

(I'm stopping there but I had like 23435527 more questions)

Aaaaah, merci, merci, merci !!

6. What is your darkest fear about writing?

I have to only list ONE fear?? I have so many, I write in fear lmao

But if I had to say only one, I'd say it's not get the characters right, both in fan and original fiction. I'm a "characters-reader", what most attract me and addict me to any piece of fiction are the characters, so it's something I always want to get right and always fear I won't ^^

10. Has a piece of writing ever “haunted” you? Has your own writing haunted you? What does that mean to you?

I think so ? Like, to me, I feel haunted by a piece of writing when I think about it constantly but not in a "hyperfixation" way. I think about it but it doesn't feel like I need to think about it, or that it overstimulates me. It's more of a contemplative way, a day-dreaming type of thing, and it also more analytical and self-reflective. And it keeps coming back, even when I think I'm over it, like a ghost. So, in that sense, I'd say that Les Petites Reines, His dark materials or La Passe-miroir haunt me. In fanfiction, @silverinia's Everything gonna be alright or @bwayfan25's matriarch have haunted me as well. I don't think my own writing haunts me? I'm not that good of a writer ^^

13. What is a subject matter that is incredibly difficult for you write about? What is easy?

I don't really know yet, because I haven't written enough, but I don't think I could write about really dark subjects like incest or domestic violence or things like that? And also, I seem to struggle a lot to write mundane stuff, or fluff ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

However, it's really easy (as in it comes to me easily, not as in it's nice for me to write about) to write about mental health struggles or family and friends dynamics, which if you've read just two of my fics, you already know haha

34. Thoughts on the Oxford comma, Go:

I love it, I will die on the Oxford comma hill! I use it all the time, I find it makes it easier to read and understand a sentence, and it also allows more breathing space in a text. I'm part of the Oxford comma fanclub <3

35. What’s your favorite writing rule to smash into smithereens?

Umm... I don't think I know enough about writing rules to know which I break and which I don't but I know that I use "said" quite a lot because sometimes it just doesn't make sense to use another verb. And I hate the feeling that you went through a synonym list of "said" to write your dialogue + words have a meaning and "muttering" is not the same as "saying". Also, circulating back to your first question, dialogue and the way characters speak is a HUGE part of characterization, so I'm extra-careful about how I write dialogue, and I try to always imagine the characters acting the scene and choose the appropriate verb to portray the right emotion, and sometimes, "said" is the only right way ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

If you wish to ask me your "23435527" other questions, feel free, I loved answering these <3 And once again, thanks for the ask ❤️

#ask #hemerae-ramblings #writing #pia's oversharing