#otherwise I have seen nothing

[twilight-deviant]

Telling content creators it's wrong to explore artistic freedom and be independently funded by fans, and they should instead continue taking advertisement revenue from google* is

NOT

the anti-capitalism stance actually.

*(Yes, google owns youtube.)

#Watcher #This post is specifically and exclusively about the people who seem to have the capitalism bit wrong #It's almost fascinating how no one is hearing themselves speak #I feel like some of you don't understand WHY we support small businesses and are anti-monopoly #I've seen multiple posts saying “Shane is so anti-capitalism there's no way this was his idea.” #So... you think it's pro-capitalism to start your own business instead of relying on pennies from the exploitative mega-corporation? #Guys... we support small businesses KNOWING it will cost the consumer more #Stop thinking you're entitled to someone's product #That's what got us in this mess #I understand $6 is a lot for many many people but that is what makes certain things a luxury #Nothing used to be this way #Nothing used to be “free” so you can be monitored for your viewing habits and sold to advertisers #If you see a little guy trying to leave youtube/google and you paint them as the capitalist??? You. have. taken. a. wrong. turn. #I don't know how many more ways I can say it #It is better to support someone (if you can) than to pressure them into taking money from the trillion-dollar corporation #so that you can have what they put all their blood/sweat/tears into for free #If you want something badly enough you're going to have to pay for it #Them's the breaks #If you don't want it that badly then maybe it didn't mean enough to you personally #Thinking otherwise is how corporations like youtube take over and squeeze out small competitors #btw on monopolies: having almost every single video content creator (outside of tiktoks and video game streams) on youtube is BAD #You understand that's bad yes? #How tf are we going to diversify unless SOME CREATORS leave youtube??? #It's almost the responsibility of larger creators to do so #Ironically what I said is backwards #In its ideal state‚ capitalism is supposed to inspire innovation and new business‚ giving every person a chance to succeed #But I think we all know that's not the reality we're experiencing #I just went with what everyone means when they say it

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

So Howdy is basically that one annoying ass kid in high school who’d call everyone around him ‘queer’ as an insult when it’s pretty obvious that he was gay himself and self projecting? Lmaooo i love it and it really does explain a lot!

Ngl though and I’m not trying to bash on laughingstock but i think it’s EDDIE that Howdy might be crushing on since in the banner on the previous update, Howdy’s icon is looking at Eddie’s.

I think he treats him hostilely is because he has feelings for him and he doesn’t know how to process them and so it comes out as anger and passive aggressive resentment.

Ofc I don’t think he’d be the best partner for Eddie due to this… I do think though that when it’s revealed that Eddie and Frank are madly in love that it’s going to cause Howdy to feel more anger and maybe even hatred towards the two.

ehhhh.... not buying it, sorry!

i'd be willing to hear this theory out if there was any evidence other than "Howdy is looking at him in the banner" (and Home is looking at Howdy, and Barn is looking at Wally, and Wally is looking at Us, and Julie is looking at Frank - it doesn't necessarily connotate romance) and the idea of Howdy's treatment of Eddie being a "get out of my school" type of thing.

but if that were the case, wouldn't we have seen more evidence by now? like... Any?? Howdy and Eddie have had minimal interaction, and in each one Howdy was fully disinterested and dismissive of Eddie. there is literally nothing in his behavior or dialogue that implies romantic feelings, repressed or otherwise. you'd think that Howdy would at least get a little flustered or defensive, but he doesn't! all he expresses is disinterest and slight annoyance.

and this just... doesn't feel like a story where a major plot point is "character A is jealous of the established relationship because A is in love with one of them". it's a bit... how do i say? Tacky, perhaps? a touch basic? a teeny bit uninspired...

and character-wise, Howdy having feelings for Eddie doesn't make much sense (the thought that Howdy's treatment of him stems from romantic feelings Definitely doesn't). it doesn't really fit him and what we know about him? there's a reason Howdy views Eddie as a rival, i think.

#nothing adds up to it as the conclusion! #i enjoy it as a fun little pairing but it just Does Not Have Canon Merit to our present knowledge. sorry! #and i doubt it ever will! #also its so funny to me when people say 'not to bash on / hate on [x]' because like #well. now i certainly think that you Are! why would it be brought up otherwise! #and i have made sure over the years that i am Very good at separating personal hopes & dreams from my media analyses #so when i say that Laughingstock does have merit. well. i would gladly provide the receipts upon query! #homebogging #wh speculation #welcome home speculation #eddie/howdy simply has nothing substantial backing it up #it just feels like an unnecessary level of convoluted nonsense #it... doesnt really fit with any of the themes or the story style that we've seen so far #we're putting a puzzle together and this is a marble from mancala! #pretty and shiny but. wrong game!

[pickapea]

my job is reactivating and rehabilitating patients in post surgery care and one of the first things i tell them once they've tried to drink some juice and stand on their legs without throwing up is "every bite is a good bite" and i think that's a good sentiment for everyone

#i tell them “if you have to eat 5 panacottas and nothing else today then that's a win” and then i give them panacottas #actually it's not a win bc they need way more than that #5 panacottas and a few supplementary nutritional drinks and then we're all set #caramel flavoured chocolate pudding is also a good option #an option anyone outside a hospital would discourage to be the only thing you eat in a day. but we will nag and bug you until you eat 2 #ive seen a lot of people here on tumblr talk about the need for a neutral food view #that morals don't exist in food #and it's true #to become healthy after your body has kind of been under the greatest toll ever (stomach open wide) there is no such thing as bad food #pickapost #tho of course you will develop some health issues if you don't have a proper diet #like scurvy or kidney stones #that's no good #or blood fats that will lead to health issues later in life #but compared to malnutrition those are irrelevant #nutrition comes first otherwise you cannot live #and when it comes to nutrition every bite is a good bite

[thecomet-and-themeteor]

The more I think about Lance being transgender the funnier it gets. The entirety of Shape of My Heart is a miscommunication. Frankie thinks Lance wouldn't like May because they're an enby and Lance is apologizing because he thinks Frankie was hiding May being non-noblety/royalty because he made it seem like something Frankie should be ashamed of and he wouldn't approve of until he gave him the speech about fighting for Angelique.

#also frankie girly lance did literally nothing to imply that he cares about mays gender #like yeah him only getting girls for you to court might have been close minded but its not like you SAID ANYTHING #we live in a heteronormative society what else would you expect #honestly im a trans girl or nonbinary frankie truther i think him being scared of lance's reaction to may was some internalized shit #the call was coming from inside the house ykwim #lance du bois #lance du bois & juliet #lance dubois #francois dubois #francois du bois #& juliet #&j #and juliet #i hate overtagging these things but it feels like they wont be seen otherwise #why must this fandom be so small #le sigh

[lhrry]

x

#aotv spoilers #ok you’re asking for my opinions let’s do it #i love louis!!!! im so proud of him and im so happy i got to watch him on his journey for so long and can’t wait for what’s to come for him #and i think my love for him and for his music and for my time in the fandím and for one d etc is what makes this a good watch and why i #liked it because otherwise i have my reservations to the movie and im not going to get into the babygate stuff #apart from the fact that louis trying to get freddie to hug him was extremely awkward and ive never seen less organic thing than the beach #scene and i find it funny they tried to push that as organic so hard #my issue is that it just had a potential to be a much better film is all sksmsk #it is good but it feels a bit rushed and kind of cheap in some ways and i get that’s the style of these biopics sometimes but #like it was such a shame the bg music was not really gold and was always exaggeratedly emotional because it made it cheesy and cheap and #kind of forced #i think it would have a great potential to get many people to say wow this is a strong talented guy and i think it is a great intro but i #think they undersold the movie so it’s not going to have a chance to reach an audience much wider than his current fanbase which is a shame #for his current fanbase it is a solidification and reiteration of his promo season and it is very clear where they want louis to stand and #what they want his image to be like and i think it’s absolutely amazing how they managed to show his growth as an artist and as a human and #and place him in a position where he’s now confident and secure and ready to embark on a new journey etc. although for the fans there’s #nothing new there and i think it’s worth considering how exactly they’re portraying and that they completely left out his relationships #aside from his family and the band #i think it’s important that it was noted he was undersestimated and pushed down and i think they made obvious how much he’s worked on #himself #i think it’s kinda clear they’re using it as a faith in the future promo with the new songs even though the doc ends with the end of the #tour #i think it’s interesting how many rainbow flags they chose to include without addressing the way his shows and fanbase look at all because #if i were from Gp id wonder what’s up with that esp when he only acknowledged the kmm project again #generally i think it’s a good watch that’s very transparent in what it’s trying to do for louis promo and image wise and it doesn’t tell #you anything new but it reminds you why you love this man so much while also leaving you a bit disappointed because this had a much #greater cinematic potential and a lot of it feels either rushed or underfinanced or forced and that’s a shame

[fantasy-costco]

Okay I'm gonna say it. I rewatched an episode of doctor who last night so I feel comfortable saying it. Everyone saying that there's gonna be a better kiss is season three is putting way to much faith in David Tennants stage kissing ability I am NOT getting my hopes up for that one

#There will be MORE kissing but I'm not expecting them to be better #Nothing against David Tennant I adore his acting he's. Not the best at stage kissing and I have to accept that #Feel free to prove me wrong ig I'm drawing mostly from doctor who #I haven't seen much ado recently enough to even remember if he kisses Catherine tate in that production #He just always seems so stiff which is hilarious considering how physical his acting is otherwise #gomens spoilers #Good omens spoilers #Me age 13 comphet crushing on David Tennant #Me age 22 telling tumblr dot com that I simply don't think he's very good at kissing

[twistedappletree]

i’ve been at the emergency vet for 3hrs and it’s a 1hr drive here and back and it’s 5am now and i’m so fucking tired omfg there’s no way i’m gonna be able to sleep for work today 😭

#i hate that my town doesn’t have a goddamn ER vet #literally no access to a nearby ER vet is actually why one of my past dogs died #bc the hour long drive was too long for him even tho i sped like a bat out of hell #thankfully my baby’s getting seen but ffffffff #i couldn’t have even go a to her reg vet anyway #bc they’re only open when working class people are at their jobs lmao #like the only way you can get fucking vet care during the day #is you’re retired and have NOTHING to do ever and don’t have to worry about fucking anything #tf kind of hours are 11AM TO 2PM FUCK OFF #😒😒😒 #anyway #$600 for everything which actually isn’t that bad considering #my reg vet would’ve been more expensive actually #just wish priya’s insurance didn’t have a wait period otherwise it would’ve been way less #but i had to bring her immediately my poor girl was vomiting and had bloody stool and was so lethargic 😭 #apple babble 🍎 #non fandom

[rainyjackalope]

btw i will make a sona for myself based on your favorite animal but you have to draw yourself as a jackalope in return

im dead serious

you can be a bunny or a hare, doesn't matter. look up different breeds and species and colors if you want and then give them some kind of horns or antlers (wolpertingers are also fine but they have to be rabbit/hare based it's the rules.) it can also be a hybrid in general and not have strictly rabbit features, i dont wanna limit people too much

my conditions are i wont do bugs for mine (unless its a moth!) i like bugs but i rly dont like looking at photos of some kinds too much and some bugs are too intricate for me to do justice for comfortably in anthro form. i havent practiced that enough also: no open species type things. actual animals or general cryptids please i don't get into open species stuff at all

#fish are totally fine tho i love fish anthros and want to draw them more #im SO SERIOUS reply with an animal and ill start scheming #i love making 50000 sonas #i already have fursonas of: jackalope bunny chicken dragon(x2) lion #so i wont do those again #you havent seen my lion sona because hes in design hell and im taking him very seriously but he exists and i dont want a second one asdjhgd #i will not be hounding you for your “half” its not a concrete agreement as much as “if you do it I'd LOVE to see and think it was cool” #mine might take a while bc I get hung up on designs and have a lot of work to do otherwise so art isnt being done a lot but- #-i promise to think on it and give it a few rough sketches if nothing else unless I somehow get attacked with 100 ideas (but I doubt that) #and if you do make a jackalope even if you never use it again/pass the design on to someone else you should tag me or send it to me #I love seeing them :) #rainy rambles #if nobunny takes me up on this thats ok i just thought it was a fun idea

[pixelkip]

Most important thing in the new upd8: Vriska is really just more vriska than ever. She puts a child in danger for funsies. She "tests" vrissy by making her break out of a fucking jail cell. It works. She is projecting so hard onto vrissy to the point of assuming she has the same class as her (when if I recall that is not At All how descendant classpects work, your own ancestor wasnt even a theif either numbnuts) and then assigns vrissy a flarp-y title based on the ancestor that mindfang, the same name she's giving to herself (again) FUCKING MURDERED. and then basically tells vrissy she sort of isn't real. Sburb has screwed her perception of things so badly that she immediately assumes vrissy can use classpect-related powers and assumes the idea of this universe being not real is just something vrissy will understand. She doesn't even have any dialogue. Vriska/vriska would vriska again.

Oh also going back to having pages with short and sweet 2nd person narration like classic hs instead of huge walls of text and detatched 3rd person narration is nice. More of that please.

#upd8 spoilers #hs:bc spoilers #hs:bc #homestuck beyond canon #homestuck #ramble post #otherwise i havent really seen other peoples thoughts yet but the update was.. alright. #nothing too exciting yet but like its far from being as bad as hs2 could get before #and i definitely liked not having to read any ultdirk

[hella1975]

by pure evil accident taob zuko's current mental state is the exact same as the one ive been stuck in for the past few weeks and that's a bit funny to me. like i started writing this chapter months ago and knew what i was doing with it even longer ago and suddenly ive manifested it into reality. we are both facing the horrors rn

#when the angry character finally learns to acknowledge their rage not as its own problem but as a coping mechanism to the problem #& faces at once the relief of finding the source of all this anger & the horror of realising that the anger itself was never the final boss #and it leaves them in a depressive state where they actually MISS the anger because at least that was active and - in a sense - dignified #whereas this just feels stilted and mopey and like each day is passing and you're losing time doing nothing #but you cant shake it anyway and wow im no longer talking about zuko!!!! we stay embarassing ourselves over taob!!!! #like i realised just now while staring off into space stirring my tea that the reason this particular depressive episode has hit me so hard #(aside the fact it's been a pretty extreme one and my paranoia has rlly flared up to the point ive felt honest to god CRAZY lately haha) #is because it's so DIFFERENT to how i usually respond to feeling like this #like normally my temper gets very quick and i completely isolate and i get mean and sharp #and i convince myself that everyone is out to get me and/or hates me and therefore i must manipulate everyone in my life #and ofc NONE OF THOSE THINGS ARE A GOOD RESPONSE. I AM NOT PROUD OF THEM #THEY ARE ALSO NOT NEARLY AS BAD AS HOW I USED TO BE HENCE I KNOW I AM GETTING BETTER #SLOWLY PAINFULLY WITH MY NAILS DIGGING IN THE DIRT BUT I AM GETTING BETTER ALL THE SAME #but STILL despite how awful those things are they're also very external. like i hurt the people around me in order to protect myself #and there's a dignity to that. there's more control there even if ultimately it's a lack of control causing it #like i have some fucked opinions from my upbringing and ik that like im quite a selfish person and it's bc i was raised to truly believe #that hurting others is always optimal over letting myself be seen as weak. like if my options are to hurt someone even someone i love #or let myself be vulnerable then sometimes i STILL will pick the former (it used to be all the time though <3 progress is progress) #and anger has always been sold to me as a very dignified STRONG emotion and it's how you're SUPPOSED to respond to badness #otherwise you're weak and a baby and pathetic etc etc #and just bc you know something is wrong doesnt mean you didnt internalise the fuck out of it anyway #like i will always see anger as the 'dignified' emotion and unlearning it regardless of that has been one of the hardest things ive done #('wow hella your own journey with mental illness is the literal exact same as taob zuko's-' i will hospitalise the both of us) #whereas currently ive just been sad and pathetic and oversharing to anyone who will listen and desperate for someone to look at me #and be like 'you're not okay' and to fix it FOR ME. like im not ANGRY im SAD and im not used to that response #AND GUESS WHAT THE FUCK HAPPENS THIS CHAPTER BY PURE FUCKING COINCIDENCE?? LITERALLY WHAT #like it's been happening for a few chapters that we're finally moving from anger to sadness on my unofficial healing chart #ever since zuko's outburst with hakoda when zi se had that tantrum #but this is the first time we see Sad Coping Mechanism as a response to a problem instead of Angry Coping Mechanism #taob updates

[roseverie]

hollywood really needs to go back to creating movies that are fictional :)

#first the marilyn movie— #now I’m seeing they are making a gabby petito movie also a depp v heard movie also the dahmer tv series #…… we are in cinema hell #like what goes through peoples heads to think any of this is a good idea #we have already seen everything via the news I don’t need to ingest it in a cinematic way ??? #it provides nothing other than exploitation of peoples suffering #added: also fully aware that the Marilyn movie is marketed as ‘fiction’ #but they are still using a real person. who has suffered enough— #biopics/based on true events type movies should be consensual otherwise don’t make it at all #cause even the whole Pamela Anderson tv series and how NONE of that was consensual

[eatyourdamnpears]

“elevated ANA levels are usually markers for an autoimmune health condition!”

well, not when the rheumatologist you see is completely invalidating about it and your rheumatology blood panel comes back negative for anything!

#I can accept that maybe I don’t have a disorder like lupus or ra that they were testing for but like #the fact that out the gate he was just like ‘‘yeah some people just have naturally elevated ANA levels it’s usually nothing’’ #like SIR???? #I’m sitting in your office because I’ve had elevated ANA levels for over a year now and I cannot function in society due to my health issues #it probably IS something #I don’t know I wanna see if I can see another rheumatologist about it but what would even be the point? #no one wants to see me anyways because of my chronic Lyme diagnosis it took FOREVER for this guy to just see me #it’s at a point where when my doctor needs to refer me to places she leaves that off whatever she sends to them because otherwise #they won’t see me #like the only reason I haven’t seen a neurologist yet is because the ones I get referred to all refuse to see me #they can’t outright SAY that #but I remember my mom constantly checking to see about the referral and the receptionist basically said it in a way so it wouldn’t be #like grounds to sue for discrimination or whatever #even my mom tells me in appointments like this that I shouldn’t bring the Lyme up unless absolutely necessary #and every time it does come up the vibe instantly changes #like I don’t get it??? why do doctors hate me??? #anyways yeah and I don’t know if it’d be a waste of time to see another rheumatologist because of the results I’ve already gotten #but I also can’t find them anywhere in the MyHealth app when I swear to god I had access to them before so?? #I don’t know. I’m sorry I’m complaining. I just remember the time my doctor first brought it up to me and how excited I was #to finally have a lead on what could be happening inside my body and how to treat it #and then I get crushed when I realize that it doesn’t mean shit to anyone #I’m just having a hard night tonight #and no one wants to see Ethel Cain with me either and I’m just sad about that #and my depression is all fucky lately #everything is so big and loud and overwhelming and I’m so tired of it #vent tw

[inwhichiramble]

ITS THE WAY THE TRAILER LOOKS LIKE THE ANIMATED MOVIE ACTUALLY CAME TO LIFE

IT ALL LOOKS SO REAL

#SCREAMINNGNGNGNGG #if I had seen this when I was eight years old I would have been fully convinced that mermaids were real and nothing would tell me otherwise #the way almost every frame was straight of the the animated movie 😭 #the little mermaid live action #the little mermaid #Disney #ariel #princess ariel #halle bailey

[jemmo]

i don’t know how else to describe eternal yesterday, and the profound affect watching it has had on me, other than it’s the most quietly heart-breaking show I’ve possibly ever seen. It presents its subject matter so simply and plainly in a way that makes it feel huge, overwhelmingly huge, painfully huge. It’s premise is not for supernatural drama, it isn’t played up, not laughed at or exaggerated or used to give things more unnecessary emotional weight, it simply gives physicality to the real experience of letting someone go, to having to let someone go, to having to let go, and the indescribable pain of it that you can’t truly know until you’ve experienced it. It’s a glimpse into this short period of time, less than a week, that is so private to them, and is so concentrated with emotion, that truly does feel like time stopped, holding on, the fear of the moment passing, so instead the pain of it is just dragged out. You think of course they should do this, fight for every last second they can have together, but then you come to realise this life after death, this impossible extension, its a curse just as much as it is a miracle. We always wish we could know when we are going to lose someone so we can take that chance to say goodbye, but is that easier or harder? how do we wrestle with the pain of holding on but the pain of letting go? its a situation we cannot win, its simply a situation that has to happen, and we have to let time tick on. 

there’s so many moments i want to bring attention to in this series but i’ll hold back and just talk on the 4 that feel the most special to me. first, a personal one, because in so many ways oumi reminds me of myself, and never has that been more true than the line “honestly, i feel comfortable when i’m alone. and i hate myself for being comfortable”. i cant think of another character that has embodied this anxiety i have in myself so much, and so simply, this ridiculous contradiction of being so at peace in your own company and despising that peace sometimes, wishing it wasn’t so peaceful, so maybe you wouldn’t be alone, maybe you’d do something, go out there, find people and things to do, and yet all that time maybe you’d be thinking “i’d like it so much better now if i was at home by myself”. its kind of ridiculous, and maybe people like us do need a koichi to be the company in our lonely peace, but yeah... i just have never felt so seen by a show before.

secondly, that final conversation oumi has with his father, because this whole time the situation feels so insular. even though other people know, and other people love koichi, and koichi loves other people, this is about oumi and koichi, and no one can truly understand the immensity of what those two are feeling in that moment. its like i said, you cant understand it unless you’re in it, unless you’ve experienced it. and yet, at the end, this minorly present, distant father comes in and says “what you’re going through, i went through that too”. and its the kind of conversation that doesn’t happen because they’ve both experienced this supernatural phenomenon of a love one existing after death, it happens because they’ve both lost people they’ve loved, and that something thats universal, and the people watching don’t need to have experienced anything supernatural to empathise with that. its when the audience truly realise that this story might be insular to them, but the story has also been told infinite times by countless people, and such the emotion of it is both theirs and everyones.

third, i think my heart actually crumbled to pieces when koichi said someone could have 2 number 1s. its his phrase, he loves mitchan the most, mitchan is his number 1. and its only given more weight when oumi says it back, and even more so when we hear his ending lines, about always wanting to be number 1 to someone, and that someone being his number 1 too, and how much of a miracle that is. for that same person, knowing he has to leave that person he loves the most, to say you can have 2 number 1s, saying to oumi its ok, you can move on, in the future you can have people that are precious to you, thats so fucking beautiful, and is an act of such love i cant even put it into words. you can feel so guilty sometimes for moving on from a loved one, for even feeling like you’re replacing them, so that gesture, that permission, that almost request, to not lose happiness and love because you’re losing them, to let yourself be happy again, because thats the biggest gift you could give to those you lose, thats just beautiful. 

and finally, the moments in episode 6 where koichi is starting to disappear, and when people start to walk into rooms and not see him, i don’t think i’ve ever seen such a good metaphor for what its like to have a same-sex partner and for them to never truly be seen as your partner. because when that nurse walked in and was just talking to oumi, like koichi wasn’t there and yet he was, and oumi got so mad because thats the most important person in his life how dare you not see him, how dare you ignore him. i think it was him saying ignore that connected it for me, because thats what its like when you walk in with a same sex partner and you’re not recognised or seen as a couple. I thought to myself if this nurse walked in and oumi was sat with a girl, how he’d instantly be asked if its his girlfriend, but no he’s sat with a boy so you dont even bother asking, either because you dont think to or dont want to. we get flashes of it throughout the show with people not knowing about their relationship or the relationship between the teachers, how the gay is hidden. and with koichi gone but not gone, he’s like a ghost in oumi’s world, and i feel like that’s what it can feel like sometimes, walking around with someone you feel like no one else can see when theyre all you can see. theyre there but no one draws attention to them, no one wants to acknowledge them or it, the relationship, the ghost in the room, to the point you want to scream they do exist, how dare you think they dont. and when oumi gets angry on koichi’s behalf, thats what happens, thats what it can sometimes feel like experiencing homophobia. its horrid and angering and you want to scream because how dare they do that to the most important person in the world but theyre at peace with it. koichi has accepted his fate much like someone learns to accept hate and harrasment, they become at peace with it. and you can get angry all you like but that doesn’t change anything, that doesnt stop it from happening, thats what it feels like. you get that when you lose someone, you get angry when other people have moved on when you cant, you wont, you dont want to, you think why dont people care anymore, how can they be so unfair and unkind and unfeeling, which is why its shocking that themes of loss can mirror these queer experiences, where a partner can feel invisible to everyone even when their heart is beating. thats why i think this blending of actual loss and actual invisibility with queerness being hidden and unseen is just heart-breaking genius.

this show is heavy, and has honestly brought out in me one of the most condensed visceral reactions to media ive ever had. i feel sad, i feel drained, i feel broken. ive cried so much, and my sadness is physical, my heart hurts, it feels heavy. and yet... i do feel at peace. i feel at peace with this sadness because its something you have to learn to do in life. these experiences are inevitable and ive always tried to avoid these heavier shows, things i know will hurt and make me sad and feel things, where there isn’t a core of happiness, a good ending to keep you together. but sometimes it has to be embraced to see the beauty in it, because as koichi said, despite what happens, despite the tragedy and sadness and loss, at the core of the story if two people meeting and falling in love, and how that simple, human connection, that we all have, is a miracle, so treasure it. 

#jemmo sad hours #im literally writing this through tears #i just needed to rant otherwise the sadness would eat me up and id become a ball of depression for a week #this show is just stunning #and such incredible performances by the leads #that scene in the last ep of them holding each other and koichi sobbing #honestly ive never seen anything so intimate and touching and heartbreaking that was just phenomenal #im so grateful for this show and its message and the love and care everyone involved put into it #these plots can so often be overdone or cliche or sad just for sadness sake #but this felt simple and pure and raw in a way that trusted the story and characters and performers to covey the emotional weight with #understated sincerity and i adore that #nothing extra nothing unnecessary just how it feels to be in love and lose that person #they know they dont have to overplay that #they know if its acted and put together and produced well that it will say everything it needs to #im in love #and ill never rewatch this show again bc i cant take the heartbreak but ill treasure it forever #eternal yesterday #made by jemmo

[thecindercrow]

I finished Ghost Trick

#I liked it! #I didn't know much going into the game but I'd seen small context-less things at some point or another beforehand #nothing that outright spoiled anything but enough to make me start suspecting certain things way sooner than I otherwise might have #in a way that just added to the fun #good game good music good characters #the BEST boy