#one of my worst recent hyperfixations i'll admit

[evilmagician430]

who up sinning their fest

#one of my worst recent hyperfixations i'll admit #and i dont even have an excuse like ohhh i used to read this back in the late 2000s before all the terf shit #no i got into it in late 2023 this school year cause i stumbled across the tvtropes page #and i was like 'sinfest'? isnt that the name of that terf Twitter comic? but the cover image showed a sick ass artstyle so i read it #and im just obsessed with it now its such a strange spectacle. its like a political cartoon and a newspaper comic at the same time #my fav era has gotta be late 2000s maybe early 2010s sinfest... hell maybe even mid 2010s sinfest if i ignore the sisterhood #now every strip is just about jewish people or calling trans women groomers #and almost every once-likable character is now canonically a terf and/or racist and/or antivaxxer etc #or theyre just not in the comic at all anymore like my dear criminy and fuschia #i hope we never get another appearance from them godbless #cause last time we saw criminy he was helping squig and slick break a terf out of she/her penitentiary. with fuschia's permission #theyre definitely the best part of 2010s sinfest. a bygone era #the best part of 2000s sinfest is the sharp artstyle and lil e just being evil #and the best part of 2020s sinfest seems to be. um. laughing at how ridiculous it is? its kind of hard to enjoy though. #i intend to stay updated on it because i like being able to say i've read all of sinfest start to finish #but man i gotta get an adblocker soon cause i read it on the official website cause idk how else to read it online and the ads are constant #really funny when ur reading a strip criticizing the prevalence of ads in our day to day life #not as funny when you remember tatsuya is probably making money off of them. so yeah im gonna install ublock #but the problem is i usually read it on my school computer to pass time. and that technically isnt my computer so i cant download ublock #anyways. i could ramble on about how much i love and hate and am obsessed w sinfest all day but heres some fanart of the characters. #id like to make my own headcanon version of sinfest aka sinfest if it was good #but headcanons arent enough... i need to kill tatsuya ishida #sinfest #squigley sinfest #monique sinfest #lil e sinfest #the devil sinfest #tangerine sinfest #images that are horrid to see and look at #mspaint

[sqvaredpaper]

hello

Long time no see

This isn't going to be a normal post, with the date, and a fun little summary of my day

It's going to be a bit of a rant about my life recently

Nothing too triggering, just me explaining something that happened recently and how I feel about it!

content I will be covering: depression, grieving, neurodivergency

I've been feeling a bit depressed recently, which I thought was weird until i realised one of the reasons was hormonal, and then realised the other reasons. This week was the anniversary of the death of a loved one, and another loved one is starting chemotherapy and I'm at university and won't be there.

Realising why I felt so shitty has helped me feel a bit less shitty, but when the depression was worst I really struggled to keep up with university work. I did my assignments and submitted them on time, early even, but lecture content went over my head and I was zoned out for pretty much all of them

To make matters worse, I have a new hyperfixation that has hit harder than other recent ones for whatever reason, and that has meant what energy I do have has been spent engaging in that - serotonin and dopamine boosts and whatever.

Plus! I've not been sleeping well! Probably due to my flatmates (and their friends) deciding our kitchen is the best one to be in, talking and laughing loudly until 3am.

Anyway, the main reason I made this post was to talk about how I struggled asking for help with my situation. Yes, I complained about it to people, but I always ended it with "I'll be fine".

Today, I admitted my friend how it really helped when he explained the lecture content to me - he was doing it as a revision technique for himself but when I actually focused on it he made much more sense than the lecturer.

So we decided that once a week we will spend a couple hours going over the lecture content in a much more informal fashion, so that we both understand it.

I've also decided I will go to bed earlier and wear my Loop earplugs to sleep better.

We will see how this pans out, but hopefully these small steps will help me get closer to fully understanding my course.

#student life #study aesthetic #study blog #study notes #studyblr #studyspo #study motivation #studying #stemblr #chemistry #burnt out #ask for help #you might just get it #I'm honestly so grateful for my friend #he understands that i don't always feel comfortable asking for help #hence why he offered it instead of waiting for me to ask #he's so great