#older sibling had to take care of younger sibling

[lalunalando]

Ruins - CS55

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warnings: 18+! minors dni! smut, fluff, teasing, car sex, unprotected sex (wrap before you tap)

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Mallorca was a place that unless you had been there to see it with your own eyes, you wouldn’t believe such a place could be real.

Yet here you were, laughing along with your boyfriends family, glass of wine in one hand and his hand in the other, enjoying the beautiful weather at his family’s holiday home on the beautiful island.

Looking beside you, you couldn’t help the genuine smile planted peacefully on your face as Carlos joked around with his cousins, looking carefree amongst the people who made him the happiest in this world, which for the past few years has included you.

“So how are you enjoying mallorca so far?” His mother asks from across the table, bringing your attention back to the conversation amongst the women.

“I have never seen a place more beautiful, it’s like you take a breath in and you’re instantly at peace” you respond with a smile, feeling Carlos squeeze your hand to remind you he’s still there.

“We’re so glad you were able to make it this time, Carlos was so insufferable last holidays, always sulking about how much he misses you” his younger sibling Ana teases from the end of the table, earning a grape thrown at her by the embarrassed man to your right.

“I wasn't sulking!” he argues back with a pout.

“cabron, you spent more time pouting at her social medias than actually having a conversation with us” his best friend Roberto shot back from his other side, earning him a sharp elbow to the side.

“aww, obsessed much? i might have to tell my boyfriend i have a stalker” you jokingly teased, making his family burst out laughing around the table.

The Sainz family had been nothing but warm and welcoming since the first time you had met them, instantly accepting you into the family and making you comfortable.

Not having such a close relationship with your own family, this had meant the world to you that without a second thought they had welcomed you into theirs with open arms, Ana and Blanca instantly swapping secrets and clothes with you, Reyes showing you how to cook Carlos’ favorite meals for every mood, Carlos Sr teaching you everything motorsports related he could (excited when he learnt you were already a fan of it before and eager to learn the ins and outs of the industry), Caco making sure you were always safe on race weekends and taken as care of as Carlos was by the team, and even Teto who became a like an older brother figure to you (bullying included.)

You felt safe, you felt home, and you could never love anyone more than the man beside you.

The only downside you had found to this beautiful family trip, was the lack of alone time you and Carlos had been granted.

It had been a bit of a rough season so far, with his contract with Ferrari being announced to be ending at the end of the season, meaning while he was having an extremely impressive year on track, he spent every other moment off track in talks with other teams for a contract for the next season.

Luckily, he was in high demand so there was no issue with obtaining one, it was just about choosing who would be the best fit for him, and it had to be decided by the end of this summer holiday.

All you wanted was a little alone time, starting to grow needy by the day and constantly reminded by the teasing touches your boyfriend would leave you with, like right now as he ran his fingers along your thigh under the table.

It was frustrating, any time something was about to happen between the two of you, someone would pop up.

Like this morning, a heavy make out session brought on by his morning wood poking into your back when you woke up? Interrupted by his mother knocking on the bedroom door letting you know breakfast would be ready in 5 minutes.

Last night in the pool, thinking everyone else had well and truly gone to bed? Roberto cannonballing into the pool after noticing you two were still up to annoy.

You loved them all, and you couldn’t be more grateful, but you were getting needy and desperate for your boyfriend.

”Caro, are you feeling okay? you zoned out on us…” Reyes asks with concern, nodding for Ana beside you to top up your water for you.

“Oh i’m so sorry, must have just had a little too much wine before properly eating, i’m okay!” you assure her, gulping as Carlos’ hand trails further up your thigh.

She just nods with a smile before resuming conversation around the table

“Carlos behave, we are at lunch with your family.” you hiss quietly at him, leaning over to him so no one else could hear the conversation you two were having.

“but conejita, i can’t stop thinking about this morning, you looked so pretty all flushed just from a few kisses, so desperate for me” he responded, his breath tickling your neck and making you almost choke on the sip of wine you were taking.

“Please excuse me, i just need to go make a quick call home before it gets too late over there” you quickly stood up and made an excuse to step away for a second, unable to endure Carlos right now.

Stepping into the kitchen once inside, you braced yourself against the marble countertop and focused on calming yourself down again.

You could feel your skin burning from his touch and the wetness pooling in your panties from all the teasing he was doing, torturing you endlessly.

So focused on trying to regain your composure, you hadn't noticed Carlos come in behind you until he was winding his arms around your waist and pulling you against his chest, making sure you felt just how much he was also suffering with his jeans feeling especially tight against his crotch right now.

“Amor, are you okay? you look a little flushed” he smirks as he kisses down your neck.

“are you okay” you respond in a mocking tone, “of course i’m not okay Carlos, you can’t keep your hands to yourself and we haven’t had a moment alone in a week now!”

“aww, is my pretty baby getting needy?” he teases in response, hands starting to wander down to the hem of the short sundress you had opted to wear today.

You turned around quickly, placing your hands on his chest and pushing him away lightly to stop his torment.

“don’t act like it’s just me struggling, your zip looks like it might burst any minute now, might want to go take care of that mi amor” Placing a light kiss on his lips before returning to the group outside before he could react.

“So do you guys have anything planned for the rest of the evening?” Blanca asks as you settle back into the group, Carlos following right behind you.

“I was thinking about taking her down to the ruins for the sunset and a beach walk” Carlos responds quickly, grabbing your hand on top of the table as you tilt your head in confusion at him.

“Oh that sounds wonderful hijo, i’m sure she’s going to love that!” Reyes smiles at you both

“the ruins? there’s ruins here?” you ask excitedly, being a known nerd for that sort of thing.

“si, Necropolis de Son Real, it´s an old cemetery from the roman era and before” he smiles as he squeezes your hand, seeing your eyes light up in excitement.

Suddenly you hear an exaggerated sigh from beside carlos, before Teto speaks up

“So you're both abandoning me for the evening to look at nerd shit? Why do you hate me?” sending the table into a fit of laughter as he fake cried.

An hour later, you and Carlos were loading into his Ferrari to head down to the coastal ruins.

A 30 minute drive, but it was uninterrupted time together that you were looking forward to just spending in the presence of your boyfriend.

The smooth Ferrari 812 Competizione roaring to life under you, Carlos gives you a sweet smile as you set off, letting you have control of the radio as per your usual passenger princess duties.

Carlos couldn’t help but look at you lovingly while you sang along to “i like the way you kiss me” by Artemas, dancing in the little ways you could while remaining seated.

“i like the way you kiss me, i can tell you miss me

i can tell it hits, hits, hits, hits

not tryna be romantic, i’ll hit it from the back

just so you don’t get attached”

“mi amor, hitting it from the back is what got me attached, have you seen your ass?” he smirks as you swat his arm.

“i should have known you were just with me for my ass” you sigh.

“of course not conejita” he says as he squeezes your thigh before laughing, “you have a nice set of tits too”

Reaching the Santa Margalida coast, you were stunned by the beautiful coastline that awaited you. Getting to the ruins was going to be a bit of a walk but you were too excited to care.

Carlos watched in awe as you skipped up the trail, hair flowing behind you as a breeze moved your dress around your legs, he couldn’t believe he had been so lucky to find someone so beautiful and supportive, someone his family adored, someone he couldn’t wait to spend forever with.

“Carlitos look! look at the cool tomb remains” you exclaim as you finally reach the site

“thankyou so much for bringing me here, i love it so much, this is the coolest thing ever!”

”Mi cariño, i would do anything to make you as happy as you make me by just existing” he responds as he wraps you in his arms and places a kiss to your hair

You spent the next hour exploring around and taking pictures of the site, as Carlos secretly took pictures of you in your element.

Once you had explored it all, he held his hand out for you to take as you started the long trek back to the car.

“so, what has been your favorite thing about this trip so far?” he asks genuinely as you walk down the coastal beach.

“hmmm i’d love to say it was definitely the ruins, but my real favorite thing has been spending time with you and your family. Seeing how happy and carefree you are, i couldn’t love it more” you smile back.

“even though we’ve had no time alone until now?” he says as he pulls you in to wrap his arm around your shoulder.

“don’t get me wrong, i can’t wait to have you to myself in our apartment again” you laugh in response.

As you’re about 10 minutes away from the car, a summer shower starts as the sun goes down, making you and Carlos laugh as you run the rest of the way back to the car hand in hand, clothes sticking to you both the wetter they got.

Jumping back into the car, you couldn’t stop laughing about the unexpected turn of events as Carlos just admired the carefree attitude you showed towards it.

His exes before you would have cursed him out, probably blamed him for the weather shift or at the very least for not warning them (like he knew it was going to happen).

It would have led to fights that lasted days, him eventuality having to be the one to apologize even though he had done nothing wrong.

But you? you were sat in the passenger seat, laughing as you tried to unstick your dress from your skin, not phased at all that it had happened.

Without a second thought, Carlos reached over and grabbed your face, smashing his lips to yours like he needed the air in your lungs to breathe.

As you both pulled away for air, you gave him a confused look.

“not that i'm complaining, but what was that for? are you okay” you ask.

“i couldn’t be happier, just looking at you makes me realize how lucky i am to have you, i really do love you” he answers sincerely.

You smile and bring him into another kiss, enjoying this peaceful moment shared by just the two of you.

The sun having now set, no one around, just you and your lover.

The peace doesn’t last long though, as Carlos is getting hungrier for you as the kisses deepen.

Before long, he’s moving his seat back as far as it will go and pulling you over the center and onto his lap, making you straddle his thighs as one of his hands grips your waist and the other is tangled in your hair, holding you against him.

You can’t help but whimper as you grind down on his hard cock, the tight material of his jeans not making it easy for him and you could feel it all in the lace panties you wore that barely covered anything as is.

“the sounds coming out of you right now conejita are enough to make me cum at this point if you’re not careful, you’ve left me suffering too many times this week” Carlos groans into your ear before kissing down your neck.

“it hasn’t been any easier for me you know, i can’t do the same things you can when i’ve been in the shower” you tease back, grinding down harder onto him as he hisses.

“you’ve been greedy mi amor? touching yourself without me in the shower?” he growls, almost animalistic.

“don’t act like you haven’t done the same” you smirk back.

Carlos' hand that was tangled in your hair slowly trails down your figure, running lightly over your collarbones and nipples, before settling on your thigh.

He rubs his thumb on your inner thigh, slowly lifting the hem of your dress up your thighs until he can get a peak of your panties.

Seeing the barely-there black lace, he throws his head back and groans at the sight, feeling his dick twitch in his jeans.

“Were you trying to kill me today? what is this?” he asks as he brushes his thumb over your clit through the lace, making you whimper in response as he feels just how wet they are.

“Joder, eres tan guapa” he groans as he leans back a little to look, moving the lace to the side as he runs his thumb over the sensitive bud again.

“Carlos please, i-“

“i know pretty girl, i’ll give you what you need in a second, just let me admire” he drools, slipping his fingers through your folds at a teasing pace.

Without warning, he slips two fingers in to stretch you out for what's to come, making you almost scream in pleasure at the feeling.

“what a good girl, taking two so well for me, think you can ride my fingers pretty girl?” he whispers in your ear, biting and sucking at the skin of your neck, openly leaving marks his family will undoubtedly ask about later.

As you rock back and forth on his lap, his fingers curling inside you to hit the right spots as his thumb continues work on your clit, your nails are digging into his shoulders as you try to focus on keeping your pace.

With all the pent up tension from the past week, it doesn’t take long for you to feel your first orgasm approaching.

Carlos feels it too, knowing the all too familiar clench of your walls around his fingers, he’s desperate to bring you over the edge, using the hand on your hip to increase your pace as his fingers work you harder from the inside.

Your hand flies to the now fogged up window, leaving a hand mark on it as you scream his name and cum around his fingers, your hips stuttering in movement as you become overly sensitive.

He draws his fingers out once he knows you're done, looking you dead in the eye as he places them in his mouth and sucks them clean, making your pussy clench at the sight.

You decide to tease him back as he pulls them out, grabbing his hand and putting his fingers in your own mouth before sucking and twirling your tongue around them, making him growl.

He wastes no time in lifting you just enough to free himself from his jeans and boxers, before lining himself up with your entrance.

“do you think you have another one in you, mi tesoro?” he asks, slapping his tip against your clit and making you whimper as you nod, unable to speak actual words right now.

“good girl, that’s my pretty angel” he praises as he lowers you onto his cock, stretching you out even more at his size.

It didn’t matter how many times you’d done this, you’d never be used to his size.

It made sense that he was as big and thick as he was, the man himself being broad and muscular, but you could never truly expect JUST how big he was down there.

The first time you’d slept together, you’d been sure he was going to break you in half.

His hand had not been anywhere near enough over the last week, once he had had a taste of you he could never go back to anything or anyone else, the only way Carlos could describe how you felt around him is “made by god specifically for him” and he made sure it was known.

“fuck amorcita, you take me so well” he groans, his grip on your hip bruising as he settles you into a pace that drives you both absolutely wild.

“Carlos i’m not going to last” you moan, already starting to see the little white dots in your vision again.

“that’s okay princesa, either am i after the week without feeling you, but when we get back to madrid you better be prepared for an entire day of being used” he growls as he fucks up into you, making you yelp at the further sensation.

A few minutes later and you couldn’t hold on any longer, begging for him to let you finish.

“Carlos please, please, i can't hold on any longer can i please cum” you beg, tears lining your eyes as you crumble.

“let go amorcita, cum with me” he groans as he bruises your cervix from the final few thrusts he fucks up into you, feeling you squeezing his cock like a vice.

With his words, you’re screaming out his name over and over, leaving more handprints on the glass as his hand joins yours and squeezes, rain still falling around the car as it’s cloaked in complete darkness now the sun has fully set.

Carlos feels you let go and does the same, filling you completely to the point you can feel it coming out as he slowly thrusts a few more times, getting you both through your highs.

Finally lifting your head off his shoulder from where you rested while regaining your breath and balance, you give him a few light kisses before trying to slide off of his dick without making too much of a mess, unsuccessfully.

He quickly places your panties back into place over your pussy, making sure to give it a light tap for good measure as he chuckles.

All you can do is roll your eyes as you readjust your dress again, before climbing back over to your seat and getting comfortable for the long drive back.

“Well that will tide me over for about… 5 hours i think?” Carlos jokes as he starts the car up and pulls out of the parking lot.

“Try 7 days my love, we still have another week here” you remind him sweetly, a hint of teasing in your voice.

“Nope, i don’t care if my family hears anymore, i’m not going that long without you again” he states, kissing your hand before an evil smile places itself over his face.

“Besides, once Teto gets sight of the bruises i’ve left on your skin, there’s no way we’re hiding what happened today anyway.”

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[bunn-iiii]

yeah yeah jetkobra is cool because cool people with sunglasses or whatever and all but I think jetpoison is way cooler because in my mind they are both the parents. they are mother and father. except it's more like parental person and momdad. do you understand. also they're cool too, they're super cool. Jet is the cooler one and party lies to themself but I swear they're a little bit cool too. Jet is a momdad in a way of ''as long as you don't get ghosted or you don't get anyone else ghosted, whatever" and Party is the parental person as in "oh my fucking Witch I swear if you get in another fight I'm throwing you out of the moving trans am while I red line it." AM I MAKING ANY SENSE

#i want to play poison to be much more caretaker esc in my AU thingy yes this is because they grew up taking care of kobra #they got the older sibling instincts #and not like the terrible ''i don't care'' older sibling #like the ''i had to raise my younger siblings in place of my parents'' kind of older sibling #ttlotfk #danger days #jet star #party poison #sorry I'm lame-ifying your party poison it's part of my nature because i love them

[fruixtii]

no one except me should be allowed to touch childhood friends to lovers tropes ever

#this is really only about twst #theres not really a problem with riddle and trey but it’s just so off putting to me for some reason it doesn’t feel right #they’re relationship seems so strictly platonic to me. like as a kid trey had this friend who didn’t get to have actual fun #their* #and he allowed him to actually have those experiences #but then everything went wrong because he did and you see him suffering and you just want to help!!! #you want the best for him you want to see him happy. i cannot see anything romantic in their relationship #for kalim and jamil it isn’t even about them being childhood friends it’s about how jamil feels towards kalim #maybe in the future after they graduate they’ll be friends but i don’t think jamil will ever actually feel comfortable around kalim #they don’t even have any chemistry like riddle and trey sort of do #and i don’t know how silver and sebek isn’t obvious #they read as brothers through and through. silver literally said sebek is a brother to him. #i cant even comprehend seeing their relationship as romantic ever in any universe #they seem more like brothers than jade and floyd do #idk. my brain is just so wired to seeing them as brothers that whenever i see people ship them i feel sick #oh and theres also the fact that i feel like silver is so much more mature than sebek. i think thats also a really big factor. #it really affects their dynamic #silver has such older sibling who takes care of their younger sibling alone #like if both of them didn’t have parents silver would totally take up the parental mentality and he would always make sure sebek had someone #to rely on #ok that’s enough hate posting for now

[amethysttribble]

You know, I kind of feel like wider fandom trends (tho not only fandom; this is very very present in mainstream media and has bothered me for a long time) has pushed this… preoccupation with oddly strict older&younger sibling dynamics, wherein the older takes care of the younger, and the younger exists as a vessel for the older’s suffering and sacrifice

There’s this weird dynamic of debt, actually? Like, poor put upon Eldest Daughter Syndrome Character #1,348 has done so much for the younger one(s) they should be grateful. And if that younger sibling character is not appropriately Grateful, they are a horrible annoying brat that our sainted eldest must suffer through

In fact, the only way in general to make up for the sin of being the Younger Sibling (implied to be an inherent burden to our theoretical blorbo eldest) is to either be uwu soft and grateful, and/or Step-Up and Take On responsibility for the eldest and provide some comfort to this hurt

It’s all very *waves hand to gesture in Crazy-ex Girlfriend musical number*:

“After everything I’ve done for you-“ “-that I didn’t ask for!”

That younger sibling character is still a character, you know? Not a prop to make the eldest look good or put-upon.

#AT is annoyed by common familial dynamics in fandom post number a thousand #if this breaks containment #I can already see the Farquad ‘younger sibling’ Mem #thing again bitch! #I’m the fucking eldest and was also always eldest in charge of friends and cousins! #I just happen to treat my younger sister as an independent person capable of taking care of herself #also there’s something to be said about a good older sibling not keeping score against a younger but that goes against #the internets preoccupation with ‘fair’ as a system of checks and balances which… touch grass #it’s just sooooo… I want compensation for my suffering! #provided we are talking about a situation where an older sibling had to take on too much- #(which isn’t always the case people will apply this dynamic to the most mundane relationships) #the younger still doesn’t owe you compensation! or gratitude! or just being a vessel for your martyrdom! #that’s a character unto themself do something interesting rather than make them an accessory #and yes. this is in part about Maedhros. #but mostly it’s about supernatural ❤️ #Tribble post

[deiscension]

Did you guys know I love taking emotional damage

#tbd #ueueueue........ shi siblings...... out here relishing meru90 art like a fatass koi being handfed pellets #i was babbling to tsun a day or two ago about the sibs. swd specifically but sib dynamic... so many thoughts about it #swd. what a guy (derogatory) (affectionate) (repulsed) (awed) (said like a scientist inspecting a specimen) #the problem is he would do everything for her and she's not worth it. the problem is she's worth it to him so what the fuck else matters #the problem is he did everything for them and she understood she wasn't worth it. #the problem is he was capable of anything but decency or remorse. the problem is those are the only to things she was capable of in the end #the problem is the older takes care of the younger. #the problem is she was born. essentially. #the solution to the problem never should've been what came of that. yet here we are! #swd belovedloathed. ur swag really was too different. ur smoke too tough. u had no bitches but they would've been too bad. #am i making sense. is this anything. anyway. anyway. #my brain's cooked after the events of this weekend but by god i will write even if it kills me

[rainybraindays]

No but the obsession with Colin's theoretical sex life is crazy to me.

Like people are genuinely upset that he could have potentially had sex?? Shaming him for doing something we know hes been mocked about for not doing? Like we see Anthony accuse him of only trying to marry because hes a virgin, you all remember that right? His older brother sees him pursuing a relationship, something he would have noticed earlier if he hadn't been so single minded the entire time, and instead of offering any like useful advice immediately goes and throws that in his face.

If he wanted to have sex just so it couldn't be used against him ever again I wouldn't be surprised. If he did that's fine, and if he doesn't thats literally also fine.

Like maybe its the fact that I also see a lot of people who talk about him needing to be a virgin talk about him being nerodivergent, so it seems kinda infantlizing to me, especially mixed in with the need to portray him like hes stupid but this rubs me so wrong.

Its literally a non-issue why are some of you so hard up on this.

#rainy talks #not tagging because i simply do not care too #you can take or leave this post but I just cannot stop thinking about this #like hes in his early 20s hes a grown up and is allowed to experiment in his sex life prior to settling down #there is no need to be SO upset about this. #like idk maybe its just the insecure younger sibling in me #but if I had been trying to lock down a relationship and it blew up in my face #and beforehand my older sibling had thrown my virginity in my face #I'd kinda wanna get rid of it #just as a fuckin defense mechanism so if i decided to try for another relationship it couldn't be used to humiliate me?? #i dunno just a thought #but hey what do I know this literally isn't a situation I've ever found myself in because my older siblings treat me like an adult #but thats a conversation for a different time.

[sunglassesmish]

thinking about how dean was so natural with kids and able to bond with them easily… as if he had been doing it his whole life. he knew how to deal with children, because even when he himself was a child, as young as 4, he’d had to take care of a baby. he had helped sam go through every single stage of childhood, all the way through to his late teens. he had to do so much of it without help from others.

#i am so similar to dean #i had to take care of my younger brother since i was a kid #and im the older sibling by 4 years too

[ibyul]

Not to be obsessed with sibling order dynamics but *is obsessed with sibling order dynamics*

#should be a branch of behavioral analysis tbh #i feel like it is so accurate in terms of explaining behavior so often #and also things that disrupt sibling order dynamics… are so fascinating to me #like for example if the older siblings move away… or one of the siblings has a childhood illness and gets taken care of by the parent #like i noticed in my circle of ppl that it’s often younger siblings who grow up to really want children so bad #whereas older kids who actually had to take care of their younger siblings tend to be like oh I think I’ll take my time with children #either that or ‘as the firstborn I have a duty to make sure my kids meet their grandparents’ #but they def get more of the pressure i guess to have kids #idk. it’s just interesting #obviously it doesn’t always apply lol but #it’s interesting #💭.txt

[riodoesstuff]

i keep getting ads about job opportunities on daycares around town and like, ik im obsessing over a robot who works at a daycare but that doesn't mean I would like to work there 💀 im barely that good with kids

#i dont have that big patience to deal with kids #<- it ran out ages ago after i had to help take care of two of my siblings and also my younger sister (I'm the oldest cousin) #i still know how to somewhat take care of them since the “parental instict: protect baby so thry won't get hurt” is deep rooted in my brain #but actually sociallizing? taking care of kids older than 6/7? probably not #riosaysstuff

[chimchiri]

"X is the mom of the group and Y is the da-"

Jesus fucking christ No. Shut up and get off with these damn takes. Just because someone is older and looking out for others (or a specific person) doesn't make them a """"parent"""". It means they're a good person because it's usually fucking logical you will look out or care for younger people.

And don't get me started if the """"""parents"""""" are the same fucking age as the """"""kids""""""

#'but chim it's just a joke' #I don't care! if it's goddamn everywhere in the fandom it's more than a simple joke #i hate this trope so goddamn much #yea this is specifically about Eddie (and Steve) #but I see this in most fandoms and it GRINDS MY GEARS #it's not cute or endearing it's plain annoying #I MAY like a take like 'they're kinda like an older sibling' or a sibling character A never had #but even that... #No your honor they're not parents they're all just stupid and having fun #of fucking course older characters may look after younger ones????? #that doesn't make them a parent it makes them a good friend and person #GAH #rambling: fandom #vent

[jam-blue]

On one hand I’m excited this semester is almost over with, on the other I am not prepared for the stress of summer

#jam rambles #i might actually learn how to drive so I don’t have to be the one to be with my younger siblings #it’ll be funny because my older sister has never once had to take care of them. that job was mine #for some fucking reason

[rogersstevie]

it’s so funny how much kids seem to like me when i struggle so much understanding the words they’re saying if they’re really little and i’m BETTER at interacting with them than i used to be after all these years with my nephew and nieces but still like. kinda awkward

i like them too, to be clear, kids are the fucking BEST even if i don’t want them for myself. but i’m always just kind of stunned when kids attach themselves to me seemingly so easily

#and it's just like?? most of the kids i interact with? #started with my nephew when he was much younger i'd guess not long after we met and started spending time together #and my older niece is much the same way when she comes over she wants to take me around with her #their younger sister not so much but she's still p exclusively attached to her parents it seems #so maybe in a year or two for her #and then my godson sure bc i've gone theirs a couple times a year every year for giving him birthday and christmas presents #but his siblings all get excited to see me too (sidebar his younger sister was dressed so cute today and i'm like #it was not like that when i was 10 oh my god) #and the youngest is more shy in general i think but he was v shy of me when i was over just a few months ago #and today we played tossing coins back and forth to each other and he had the biggest smile on his face #and he wanted to show me some toys in his room #and then he had one of those blankets that's also like a sort of lil costume of a monster #and he asked me to put it on him and then i did the whole pretending he's the monster that's gonna get me #but i was just like omg where did this turnaround come from you didn't wanna interact with me a few months ago #anyway kids are fascinating and also so fun and i love them i love them #i just wish i was better at the play stuff my brother apparently loves doing the make believe stuff with his daughter #which doesn't surprise me he's got a good imagination but yeah i'm always just like. idk how to do this #tbf i don't think kids really notice/care as long as you're engaging with them and all but still i just wish i was better at it #especially bc like if i WERE...working with kids might be fun but idk #personal

[kittlyns]

One day I am gonna start journaling again and then I won't post all this sad shit on here but until then! *posts another sad post*

#it's dark and I'm tired so this means NOTHING. but. #there's no heartbreak like raising your younger siblings and them growing up to side against you #I lost my childhood to playing parent and trying to distance my siblings from the fighting and verbal abuse I witnessed and endured #I learned to read the room early on so I could get them out of situations before they turned bad #I knew I had to be perfect so I could take the fall for shit I'd never do and get a lighter punishment than the 'problem children' #I understand the younger kids. I was older so I could shield them better until they were old enough for our parents to mellow out a bit #of course they would choose the parents who don't care enough to parent them over the bitch who had multiple public breakdowns over them #but my brother. I don't understand that. it was our war. we had to figure it out together #of course he didn't though. he'd hit every landmine and it was up to me to pick up the pieces and salvage what I could. #instead of there being a solidarity between us as survivors of a pitiful childhood he's taken to blaming me for it all #I'm the reason he's depressed. suicidal. can't get a job. can't drive. never leaves the house. it's all because of me. #he'll joke around and egg on the man who used to corner and scream and threaten and insult him. #he'll wax poetic about how he has our bio father's blood. how he shares so many traits with a man who never wanted him. will never care. #I won't say I was perfect or that I did right by him in every way. I was a child trying to survive and I lashed out plenty of times. #I never understood why he couldn't just shut up. couldn't just let words be said and meekly take them. always had to get the last word in. #couldn't just curse the man in his heart with his head bowed and a 'yes sir. sorry sir.' #I blamed him for that at the time. I was wrong for that. #so yeah. I can accept my part of making things worse for him. I should've tried harder to understand him. #what I can't accept is that the blame falls solely on me. not our bio father who beat our mom and abandoned us. #not our stepfather who made every day a walk on eggshells. not our complacent mother. not the external family who only ever made it worse. #just me. I'm the only thing that ruined his life. #and sure. he can believe whatever he wants. if that's how he feels then so be it. #but he has to tell everyone. yeah my sister ruined my life. yeah she's the reason I want to kill myself. #over and over and over. all the family believes him. #my mom tells me to be nicer to him. my grandma asks me what I've done to hurt him so badly. he tells our siblings I'm a bitch and a liar. #I haven't even spoken to him in years. but every time he has a mental health crisis it's my fault. #in what way? who fucking knows. he talks in circles and the only thing he says for certain is it's my fault. and that's all my family needs #it truly got to the point I had to stop speaking to him cuz no matter what I said he decided it was an attack on him. #so. I've dealt w a lot. sacrificed an entire life stage. got nothing to show for it #except mental illness and a creeping sense that it was all for nothing

[spoopy-fish-writes]

I got a mad and blunt with my little sister for only talking to me whenever she wants me to do something for her and now she's crying and I don't know what to do

#im aware that im the one thats mostly at fault for this but its just been getting in my nerves and someone was bound to tell her eventually #if not me then it was going to be my younger brother who would have been a lot harsher about it #but i still feel bad because shes a kid and i know its not her fault that shes used to always getting her way without repercussions #but idk its just #i hate having to be the bigger person every time when she does need to eventually be told that shes not always going to be able to get #away with treating people like her personal transportation #but im just pushing her away because of it because i keep assuming that she only wants to talk to me becasue she wants soemthing #and i dotn know what to do #i know i bitch about my family a lot and shes no exception but shes still just a kid and i dont want her to think i hate her #i dont want her to go through that like me and my older siblings did but i dont know how yo fix it #my younger brother isnt any help because he hates our guts and he hates my little sister even more but i want to fix it #i want to fix it but i dont know how #i dont even know if its possible at this point #and i know its late to feel this guilty about it but i cant help it #i get so mad at the fact that my parents alienated me from my siblings while i was growing up and i feel like im just doing the same thing #to her now and as much as I want to teach her how to treat people well i dont want to push her away at the same #she doesnt deserve it #im going to try to fix this but i dont know if it'll work #i want to be close with her but ive never had the chance in the 10 years that shes been alive becayse of my parents #i take care of her but its not the same #i just want #i just want to have my siblings again. i dont want them to hate me or each other #and maybe its stupid that im crying over this but i just want it back #i miss my family #i miss before this all went to shit #i miss how we could be around each othwr and have fun even if we werent close #i miss it #spoopy fish rambles #tw vent

[fishy-lava]

rich people are so weird about things like i cannot tell you the amount of times ive seen people at school be like “i want a new phone” so they destroy their current fully functional phone right there for no reason and be like “my parents will buy me a new one” like what is wrong with you your phone was fine why did you do that why do rich people think everything is disposable when they get bored of it

#my siblings have never done stuff like that but they also just like dont take care of their stuff at all #the amount of phones and laptops all 3 of my siblings have collectively broken because they just refuse to take care of their things is #ridiculous and at least with my younger brother he can sometimes fix it because he's a giant nerd but ive had the same phone for like 5 #years now and i got it used and it still works and im going to keep it until it is no longer funtional but i think my older brother has gon #through at least 3 or 4 phones in the time ive had this #like dude what the hell #just take care of your stuff its not that hard

[ozzgin]

Yandere! Monster x Reader Headcanons

You find yourself kidnapped into a half-breed family of monsters and humans, for the purpose of an arranged marriage. Luckily for you, the groom is their only pure human, terribly handsome and charming. You'd perhaps appreciate him more if your eyes weren't glued to his monstrous older sibling...

Content: female reader, monster smut, reader is a shameless monster hoe

[Part 2]

You always imagined such kidnappings to be of theatrical intensity, being scooped up against your will as you scream and flail your arms, longing for a savior. The affair itself felt more like a formal summoning. Mysterious men appeared before you and merely announced that your presence is required, unfortunately without the choice of refusal. Might as well. You packed necessities under their polite supervision and now you're sitting at the table, facing multiple strangers who are casually enjoying their lunch. One of them, the head of the family apparently, explains that half-breeds are in a rather sensitive place when one considers human and monster politics. Thus, every now and then, they will do whatever it takes to strengthen their bonds and show good intent towards both species. This time it's an arranged marriage with a fellow human.

Why you, in particular? No need to concern yourself with intricate details. What matters now is that you are to be married soon and your groom is right here, enthusiastically waving in a welcoming greeting. You scan his features and can't help but agree with the family: he is, by all definitions, a conventionally handsome man. His face is carefully chiseled in most elegant, yet masculine features. His voice is confident but warm, and you can tell by the flock of servants hovering around that he's rather popular. After the luxurious meal he guides you around the imposing home, showing you to your room and briefing you on future responsibilities. Caring, attentive, and several other checks that you can easily mark in his favor.

Yet one vital aspect has been omitted. The prince's mesmerizing beauty was rather swiftly discarded once you realized the presence of his older sibling, a pure monster blood towering above everyone else and idly eating his food, uninterested. You managed to hide your blush in time, but you couldn't help throwing curious glances. Might've been easier for everyone involved if they handed out 'monster lover' badges. Alas, you weren't prepared to ever be faced with the choice.

The next day you're awoken by the murmur of diligent work, as both servants and family pace back and forth about their plans. You sneak your way out - since nothing is yet expected of you - and wander until you find your intended target: the beastly sibling is polishing a bizarre weapon you don't recognize in what seems to be a storage room littered with battle memorabilia. He notices your presence and acknowledges you with a bored nod. You ask whether you may observe his current activity and he looks up at you, raising an eyebrow suspiciously before agreeing. Why would you care? Certainly there's more entertaining things for you to do as a soon-to-be bride.

As you listen to his little stories from the battleground (hardy monsters like him are better off fighting, not socializing), you have to pat your cheeks in desperate attempts to cool down your burning blush. "H-how comes you don't have a partner?" You mutter, almost feverish. "Not interested. Plus, who would dare to marry me?" he jokes, focused on the sharp item in his clawed hands. There it is. Hesitation and diplomacy out the window, you rearrange yourself, smoothening your clothing, and whisper: "Well, if I had to choose, I would've preferred you as my husband..."

Once again he stares at you bewildered. Have you come here to mock him or something? A frail, pretty human like you, about to tie the knot with his stunning younger brother, showing up here and behind everyone's backs to openly flirt with him. Ridiculous beyond comprehension. His skin is thick enough to not mind such twisted humor, so if anything he's impressed by your audacity. Alright, if you've come for jokes, he'll comply. He places his weapon down and fully turns to you. A little scare might teach you to be more respectful with your in-laws next time.

With a speedy movement that's barely registered by your eyes, he pushes you on the floor and pins you by the wrists, lowering himself uncomfortably close to your face. "If you tease me like this, I might not be able to hold back." He says as he forces himself to smile extra hard, revealing the multiple rows of fangs. "In fact, I can't guarantee you'd make it out of here alive." Hopefully he isn't going too far with his tactics. He senses your frantic breathing and is about to apologize for continuing your prank, but you blurt out in a daze: "Yes, please! I've been thinking about it ever since I saw you." You're panting for dear life as your face is turning a deep shade of red.

Uh oh. Now this is awkward. You weren't...you weren't kidding. For a moment, he freezes in place, trying to recollect himself to no avail. Fucking your brother's future wife in a storage room in the middle of the day feels like poorly written erotic romance. Then again, he can't deny the sudden urge overwhelming him at the mere thought of it. You're squirming underneath him, gliding your legs across his now obvious bulge. His common sense is hanging by a comically thin thread and he can almost hear the instant when it snaps. Thankfully some leftovers of sanity must have remained in the back of his mind and his lustful grunts while pounding you are kept low enough that no one is notified of your horny deeds. Shutting you up was the bigger challenge.

"Is this too tight, miss?" You spin in front of the mirror and the servant readjusts the lace corset adorning your wedding dress. You have to hold back your yawn. Downright shameless and perverted of you to daydream about your monster boyfriend while trying on bridal gowns, but it's not like you agreed to it to begin with. You were kind of hoping to discuss future dating prospects post-intercourse, but someone had been looking for you shortly afterwards and you struggled to regain your composure. Your scary-looking suitor shooed you away with the promise of a reunion.

Before the servant can reach for the next dress, you both jump, startled by angry shouts coming from the hall. You rush outside to witness the older sibling standing before the head of the family. The wrathful threats were coming from the much smaller half-human. "Y-you can't just decide like that!" He screams. "Of course I can. You're welcome to fight me for it." The monster sibling flashes a smug grin. "Can anyone here defeat me?" His question is met with silence. He spots you and gestures you to come towards him. "I'll say it one more time. Find another human for my brother if you have to. This one is mine." He ends his sentence in a low growl and you shiver underneath his heavy arm. Boy, what a time to be alive.

#this feels more like a parody but I randomly thought of it last night sorry #yandere #yandere x reader #yandere x darling #yandere monster #yandere monster x reader #monster x reader #monster smut #monster fucker #terato #teratophillia #yandere headcanons #monster boyfriend #monster x human #female reader #monster imagine #monster headcanons