#i miss before this all went to shit

[marchsage]

world's most well-adjusted daughter

#mizuki okiura #okiura mizuki #aitsf #ok now spoilies for that game in the next tags. if u do not tag aini spoilers and aitsf i guess then thats on u #aitsf spoilers #aini spoilers #ai the somnium files #aini #mizuki date #u ever think abt how little time mizuki got to be mizuki date with her dad before everything in aini went to shit #i can acknowledge it follows the res route without being happy that its like BAM ok now mizuki's lost her parent AGAIN #anyways thinking abt how messed up itd feel to lose the same eye date lost but now ofc he's lost so like. salt in the wound #and ik u/ch/////iko///shi said she stays w others who help her get back on her feet but like god i imagine she's resentful that it ended up #that shes stuck in a situation like this #maybe take it as a redesign too idk i have so many overwhelming thoughts abt a mizuki that did Not cope with it as 'well' as she did in ain #hence covering her eye. a more date inspired look still mixed w her old design too #my art #yea nvm the more i think abt it the more this is less redesign and more post-explosion route in aini #shes got her backpack..... her missing eye......... girls gone thru it all

[boyfriaends]

what if you could date a ghost?

#𓆩 ♡ 𓆪 ⊹ ˚˖⋆｡ blossom is speaking. › ooc tag. #// OKAY SO HE WAS KILLED IN A SITUATION OF /if i cant have you all to myself then nobody else can/ #// like he went on ONE date with someone. got not good vibes. put that person on his block list and that person did NOT take that well. #// he wasn't on a date the night he was killed. he was just on the way home from running errands. #// he fell off the face of the earth. labeled missing then found out to be dead. taken off the roster except #// his name pops back into the boyfriend for hire booking app for certain people but the app never keeps record of it #// he's haunting the app. he's appearing before certain people. HE'S DEAD yet you can touch him. he's FREEZING to the touch #// only certain people can he appear before. #// there's no leads in his case by the way. IT'S ALMOST LIKE NOBODY CARES #// which is fucking sad if you think about it. #// his eyes were brown but after his death they've lost all the life. there's NO LIGHT in them #// i had to have one supernatural kind of oc here you need to understand #// i also blame rue for this idea because rue said ghost and I RAN WITH THE IDEA SO FAST #// anyways im rambling holy shit

[mastersoftheair]

Sorry but am I the only one that thought that episode…sucked? Like it was straight up bad. Horrible pacing, no wrap up of all the random characters and plot lines they’ve thrown around all season (the tuskegee airmen, Westgates spying, literally all the guys beside like the main 4). (Seriously it makes me so mad that the three redtails got all of 5 seconds of screen time, almost no lines. Literally what was the point of introducing them other than to pretend the show was iNcLuSiVe) Even at the end of BoB and the Pacific you get a much better idea of what happened to all the remaining guys. In this they’re like what happened to DeMarco or Hambone or Brady or (insert character here) we don’t know! ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ The concentration camp scene felt shoehorned in compared to how it was done in BoB. Unless that actually happened to Rosie (which i haven’t heard anything about) but it was just like.. ok? It all felt so rushed and emotionless to me. Maybe I’ve just fallen out of love with MoTA but it’s been downhill for me since episode 6 or so.

i already made a little (read: long) post-finale write-up here, where i talk about the use of the tuskegee airmen, l'sandra, and overall editing/pacing issues i felt the show had. but i don't agree with the notion that adding the redtails was in any way insincere or trying to halfass being "iNcLuSiVe", i just think they suffer from this show's obvious time constraints. and to summarize what i wrote in my linked post, there's a limit to what white writers/directors/producers can do when creating a story about black people. there are some stories i'd feel uncomfortable with them telling on their own, truth be told. dee rees wasn't the sole nonwhite director, but she Was the only black one. i think she did her job well given the limitations and i appreciate that they let her direct those episodes, rather than leaving it up to a team of white people trying their best to tell a black story.

the worst i can say about the finale is that it didn't feel like That strong of finale, tho i wouldn't go as far to say it "sucked" or call it "straight up bad". i liked it plenty, it's just the weakest of the hbo war finales imo.

as for the concentration camp scene, artistic license was taken with both shows. unlike what's seen in the BoB, easy company wasn't the first to arrive at kaufering, and there's 0 mention of the all-japanese american 552nd who helped them liberate it). similarly, rosie rosenthal did assist in liberating those camps, though it would've been after the events shown this episode. idk if he saw one in that up-close way seen in this episode, but he could've (i should research this when i have time). plus, it would've felt weird Not having him acknowledge them at all. "shoe-horned" is an odd term to use here imo, as both scenes more-or-less center a jewish character (BoB's liebgott and MotA's rosie). the former show has survivors the characters can help, the latter shows no one left to help. the former has all of easy company there, the latter has rosie there all alone. rosie's scene felt deeply personal in that way. at the end of the day, both scenes are communicating different things. that doesn't make one better than the other when they aren't trying to be identical. (disclaimer, i'm not jewish, so i'd be interesting hearing from the perspective of someone who wrt whether or not they felt it was "shoe-horned")

i can understand if you've disliked the show post-episode 6 (and episode 6 was a very strong episode i'm ngl). eps 7 and 8 were weaker in many ways, even to me, so i get it. everyone's entitled to their own opinion (i'd be a hypocrite saying otherwise). just understand that this blog is run by someone who overall enjoys this show despite its flaws! basically, i encourage you to take this energy and make your own posts.

#masters of the air #hbo war #e9 #asks #long post #masters of the air spoilers #mota spoilers #all the hbo war finales are different. i don't think MotA's is as strong but like #my fav hbo war show is still BoB and even Then i don't think it has a better finale than TP. and i dislike a lot of TP! like A Lot! #and Even Then we don't get a good idea about what happens to a lot of the minor-er characters in TP once they leave #anyone who isn't sledge or leckie (rip basilone) is hand-waved-'they went home'-away #not every show needs a sandlot ending w/ a voiceover going: #'[NAME] got really into the [INSERT DECADE] and no one ever saw him again' like they did to webster (rip webster) #and again! i'm mixed about the redtails. but i can Very Clearly See this show getting released without including them #which wouldve left many people (justifiably!) upset that they weren't shown when they were Literally there in the same pow camp #i'll give the hbo war team a lot of shit about a lot of things (despite the enduringly positive energy i try to keep up here) #but i Have to give MotA props for Trying. i don't see faux inclusion i just see it as not quite hitting the mark but an attempt was made #and i think that's worth Something given neither BoB or TP bothered trying #(like i think there was a missed opportunity in TP not mentioning what's happening to japanese americans on the home front) #this got away from me (i'm also opinionated) but while i can agree with you about how the show feels rushed #i do take issue with the idea that they were pretending to be inclusive. i'll blame money time and covid19 before i blame bad intention #maybe that's controversial here but it Is my blog. so.

[aaronwhorechner]

huff | 1.11

#i'm rewatching huff how shocking #i miss them before it all Went To Shit :( #tvedit #huff series #beth huffstodt #paget brewster #huff 1x11 #hank azaria #*mine #not cm

[bizlybebo]

thought about jrwi pd s2 eps 12-14 again. dies

#that sequence of episodes is like my comfort media ever #its just so. them #nothings ok but they loved each other and they were working through it together. #vyncent knew he found his home on prime and so many new characters showed up #and jade xavier and alan were there and lightspeed showed up and william was going thru it but he had his friends and #and augh that was just. before it all truly went to shit #i miss them soso bad #id kill god to listen to those episdoes for the first time again #vixen rambles

[strawberrycircuits]

my general opinion of totk is that the gameplay is definitely more fun than botw and while some of the story elements are certainly Compelling its definitely the weaker of the two story wise. everything you do in botw carries the games theme of finding healing and purpose after failure and being more than whatever your supposed failures are. What is tears of the kingdom about. what is the thematic purpose of exploring in game. why should i care about the sages enough to justify the champions being erased entirely.

#'its about renewal and moving past--' then why is zelda in the same damn situation she was before. Why do we have sages instead of new- #champions beyond just Doing The Thing OoT Did. why give link that arm and then immediately take it away as soon as the games over. #botw felt thought out in terms of story (if at the expense of the gameplay) and totk felt like LOOK AT ALL THE COOL SHIT YOU CAN BUILD #LOOK AT THESE COOL NEW ABILITIES! YOU CAN STRIKE PEOPLE WITH LIGHTNING! dont worry about zelda we got rid of her again lmao #dont worry about link hes just as blank of a slate as they were pre-sksw. dont worry about where the champions went we're done w that lol. #it couldve been so good man. i miss all the sksw / good ganondorf theories from before the game came out

[widevibratobitch]

my god. skinny people really just have like. No Idea huh just absolutely not a single clue lmao it's almost funny to watch fr but then id lie if i said i wouldn't fucking kill to be able to be that ignorant

#girl i am SO sorry people react with surprise when you say you're studying to be an opera singer because you're #*checks notes* skinny and attractive. so so sorry that must be literal hell for you huh how will you ever recover :(((( #no no please keep talking about how equally bad that is to the brutal fucking fatshaming and ED glorifying #in the industry that me and the only other fat girl in the room were talking about before you interrupted us <3 #anyway. we were talking about this one review of a quite famous professional music critic whose only comment about a fat mezzo in the cast #was 'miss xyz.... lose some weight'. not a single word about her singing/acting/whatever. but yeah no you're too sexy for an opera singer #and THAT is the real problem here girl i totally understand yeah <3 thoughts and prayers dearest. #earlier that same day this same girl was standing next to me in her bodycon dress and went #*pointing at her stomach that's so flat its almost concave* 'ughhhh what do i have to do to not look pregnant in this dress 😩😫' #and i said 'girl' and just looked at her and like the sudden horrified realisation on her face was lowkey hysterical #like omg you really did forget you're not talking to your other skinny friends with whom you can pat each other on the backs #and reassure each other that 'dw girl ur not fat at all ur so so sexy!' huh sjshsjshsjs #but yeah i dont like making people uncomfortable irl so i did reassure her she looks hot and pretty and skinny as all shit #let at least one of us have a nice evening and not feel Absolutely Fucking Disgusting ig <3 #and the day before that after i saw our (last ever btw never photographing myself with them ever again <3) picture and had a mini break down #the other even skinnier and smaller and petite-er crouched down next to me with the most guilty fucking expression and quietly asked me #if im alright and do i want her to delete those pictures (that she posted on two separate social media pages) and like #the look of immense fucking pity on her was even worse than seeing those pictures #like i know she meant well and was trying to be nice but my god. this really is how you all see me huh #like looking like me would be fate worse than death for yall #not even gonna mention the thing i just learned this friday that the retired ballerina who leads our ballet classes said about me #trying to cheer up the other fat girl who happened to have a bit of an emotional breakdown in the middle of the class :))))))) #like i am sooooooo so glad and honoured to be an inspiration to you. really. always happy to help. the exemplary Fat Girl Who Fucking Sucks #But Doesnt Let It Bother Her <333333 #like on one hand. yeah it really does make me wanna jump off a cliff. but on the other. its just hilarious sjdgsjsgsj #you sure are right miss ma'am. i sure don't let this bother me at all. i am famous for my uncanny ability to Not Be Bothered by all this <33 #but shes new. its ok. how could she know about the last two years when i was getting panic attacks and sobbing myself to sleep every tuesday #but yeah no. [lauren cooper voice] am i bovvered? am i bovvered tho? i aint even bovvered!

[sudokuplayer]

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#boris was attacked by my neighbor's dog and i've been crying so much. i'm so scared #it's 9pm so my sister is driving him to a vet 1 hour away cause the vets near close at 7pm #idk why bad things keep happening to him i'm so heartbroken idk what i'll do if he dies #my neighbor is a cruel bitch cause this happened around 1 pm and she didn't tell us. she hid him in a room #she was gonna let him die like that #my sister was supposed to take me somewhere tomorrow so she came home one day earlier #i'd been crying all afternoon and i told her to please ask around and then they (w mom and brother) went to my neighbor's house #they brought him back and he looked very weak and with blood all over #my sister called a friend of hers who's a vet and she came to see him and adviced to take him to a vet clinic #cause he was bloated and there was air(?) and her face was worried when she said that cause.. where does air come from #plus he was breathing weird #i had the worst panic attack the whole time since they brought him from the neighbor's house until they left with him #i couldn't even speak cause i couldn't stop crying #now i'm calm but i'm so worried #if my sister hadn't come home today boris would be still hurt and locked in my bitch neighbor's house #cause my mom thought i was being paranoid :( she wasn't going to ask around #cause she thought boris would come back since he's been missing before #also my sister's the only one who can drive #:( #i'm so angry cause that bitch next door heard me calling boris name all afternoon and didn't say shit #i hate her. not only bc of this but she's suck a snake in general. she's always gossiping shit about everyone #she didn't do anything and locked him in a room for like 7 hours. maybe those hours were crucial #idk. if boris dies i'm gonna do some crazy shit to this bitch so she'll have a reason to call me crazy

[milkweedman]

I want to apologise in case you already tried it. But I've seen many people with ehler danlos say that shapewear helps. Do you think it's something you could use?

Ive tried pretty much every otc method of keeping my joints in place including shapewear, with the execption of like 1 or 2 that has slightly too many steps for me to muscle thru the executive dysfunction and do (ring splints -_-). I dont actually know if there is a way to keep my joints from subluxating or dislocating with almost every movement but if there is its gonna have to be like. Complete imobilization except in the direction that said joints are actually supposed to move.

#compression (which is part of what shapewear does right ?) helps a ton for my wrists specifically but not for anything else #i remember reading something written by a wheelchair user with eds as a teenager right before it all went to shit for me #they were talking about how technically they could get up and walk its just that their hips literally dislocated with every step #which was agonizing and painful #and i remember thinking holy shit that person lost the universal lottery to an insane degree #:/ #indeed. #indeed they did. #eds #chronically ill #sorry ive not posted on here lately #i havent rly done any crafting lately bc 1) too insane to find any comfort in it n 2) i think ive actually found migraine meds that work ? #trying not to get my hopes up because if i go back to 25 migraines a month i will die from despair but i havent had a single one in WEEKS #and thus have been playing minecraft nonstop #sorry guys. havent dumped you for minecraft i just really missed being able to play it without my brain eating itself alive #cherrynika

[ilonacho]

i miss having time for fandom😔

#btw i forgot to mention i went to see saw x recently #i went to a dead mall after work and i was COMPLETELY by myself in the theater it was the best ever #movie was also the best!! no spoilers but def up there w/ saw n saw vi #but anyway. kinda on that note watching saw has p much been the only halloweeny thing ive had time for this month. sigh #i hate how much of my time work takes like when i come home i have to take care of shit n shower n eat and then its already 8pm #so i only have a couple hours before i gotta go to bed to do it all over again #even if i have a couple hours its not enough to draw :( i miss drawing #ive been working on some oc stuff at work and by that i mean thinking of lore and drawing quick doodles on receipt paper #but thats abt it lol #weve been catching up w/ the great north (god its so good. i forgot how damn good it is) #n bobs burgers n the simpsons. and theres still more were behind on #but i miss it!!! i miss drawing fanart and my faves n my sonas lmao!! #especially my simpsona😔 2020 was something id never had that much lore for a sona #AND I MISS IT!!!!!! #ughh dont mind me just been on my mind a lot #stupid capitalist hellscape

[roadimusprime]

trying not to believe they turnt the Internet off before they left for work. 😒

#Absolutely something my dad's wife would demand. #Keep in mind this is the same woman who took away my laptop in highschool after I missed one work assignment. #Whatever. I am using 4G. #I noticed it was off before they left and then I woke up to see I had a text from my dad telling me the Internet is off at 6 am. #Y'all I could literally just use my phone (as I am now) or play the sims 2 all day or read or #Like. It's not the Internet that kept me from going to work #Or kept me awake for to long that made me ''tired'' (I even got the correct amount of sleep) #My mental health is just shit. #And yes I already planned on going to work today. #So it's not like I was going to stay home to begin with? #When I call out it is for a day. #And yeah. I already called out earlier this month after Covid #But that's cause I was still feeling the effects of Covid. #Do cameras need a wifi connection? #If so. Maybe one of them went to check the cameras #And they actually didn't turn the wi-fi off at all. #Loon.txt

[bisaster-energy]

sometimes you have to kill your dad because as long as he's alive you can't breathe

#im not in danger i just need to bloody my knuckles with his face #i wasn't given the privilege of teenage rebellion. all my older sisters got to do it #break away from our parents' control and tbh neglect and verbal abuse and do their own thing #and now they can talk to them more normally. they dont just bend to our dad's will #if they dont like something he's saying they can just leave bc while they were away from home they learned how to do that #i missed my chance i guess #i went from obedient child to obedient teen to obedient adult and i can never leave #because im the only one that can fucking deal with his shit by suppressing every negative emotion i have around him #even then it's not enough. i have to agree with him not just listen to what he has to say. im sick with rage #but he's only ever seen me smile because other emotions would just prove to him that women are overly emotional and illogical #i was kept on a leash maybe a little tighter than the others because the ones that came before left when the door was left open #ive never felt more like a dog than when im with my father

[catofoldstones]

one day I will miss this too. rotting in my bed. not knowing where my life is going. these shitty, shitty past couple of years. how nothing has felt real since 2020. one day i will see life in these deadbeat days and miss them.

#like i miss reading shitty novels like divergent & getting hooked on to fictional teenage boys and secretly reading the books only for them #like I miss being 16 even though that was the worst year of my entire goddamned life #like i miss being 17 & reading drarry fanfiction & scrolling through tumblr at 2 am on a school night #like i miss that one good winter i had #before it all went to shit and never recovered #my only regret is that i should’ve lived where i could #felt whatever I was feeling #and not treated it like a transition period #that was not a bad phase #that was life #and all the lessons I learned through that period are important and have & will help me later in life #even now #this is not a transition period that I have to grit my teeth through #this is life #and I have to live it #transition periods #and such #this pain will find its place #life #connection #and disconnection #nostalgia #but not really #just life

[mwagneto]

okay google how do i move out of eastern europe but stay in the eu but go somewhere i speak the language but somewhere that has healthcare and somewhere where i dont need to become a construction worker and also somewhere that is not germany. thanks

#i wanna go to aotearoa I've always wanted to but it's so FAR AWAY. also i need somewhere cold also i #love authentic gothic buildings too much to leave europe. but omfggggg #like it's truly so. i dont want to move somewhere where english isnt a main language but the #uk is out and ireland is unlikely and canada is just somewhat nicer french usa and nz is 4 days travel away. blows up #whatever i have 4 semesters of uni left to think about it. it just feels like im #hurtling full speed at the inevitability of living the rest of my life in Germany #i dont want to live in germany idek why but im sooo. like omg nooo 😭😭😭 #partly because it's such a cliché but also coz it's such a vacation country for me like we #went there for vacation like. unironically at least 3 times every single year #insert joke abt *getting back at the 10000000000 german tourists that come to hungary every day* that I'm too sleepy to make #it's so . like i used to have a specific goal in mind (uk ☹️) but then SOMEONE had to go and leave the eu #and also the uk sucks fat shit like csöbörből vödörbe omg. but now i have no #real goal so im just drifting w the vague knowledge that any second now I'll have to pack all my #shit up and escape before it's too late. but where 😀😀😀 #i have no qualms abt leaving my f*mily behind but I'll miss budapest #and if i left Europe I'd miss it too especially coz even canada feels really far let alone nz which yknow. 3-4 days of travel #it's the lack of goals that's killing me like OMFGG HOW AM I SUPPOSED TO WORK HARD AND #STRIVE FOR SMTG WHEN I HAVE NOTHING SPECIFIC IN MIND... #i mean ''get the fuck out'' is something but it's not Enough. i need to be insane about a #place that's accessible. all the cities/locations im crazy about are inaccessible for one reason or another #bristol and wales are in the uk. nz is on the exact opposite side of the planet. life so sad. #canada is the most likely one honestly but like omgggg. godddddjfdnffnfjfmmf #they should invent a budapest that's not in hungary. they should invent a hungary that isn't comically awful #barking #ok to rb #eastern europe #like im fluent in 3 languages and i can get by in like 10 other ones i Could brush up on any language relatively quickly if it came to that #but it's like. 1. I'd have to pick a location 2. learning a new language also means #getting an entire new personality as well which yknow. idk if i have the capacity for another one rn #i should just become fluent in the ones im somewhat good at but idk which to pick

[swagferret]

*me the other day, casually scrolling through my dash* huh, what a seriously written post about abuse apologism from a mcyt blog i follow, with no names attached. i haven't heard about a new situation since the shit with forever. do i want to go digging? if it's a big enough situation, i'll probably hear about it from more than a vague textpost.

*me earlier today, reading a comment thread under the youtube upload of msr* oh. well fuck. definitely going to look into this now.

*me watching the VOD* what the FUCK i am so unbelievably sorry shelby, you deserved none of that omfg

#in case you missed it like i did: shubble went live last week talking about an abusive ex of hers. people are speculating that it's wilbur. #i'm definitely gonna have to keep doing my own research and wait before i make any final conclusions/judgements #because we all know how quick people in this fandom space can be to jump on bandwagons and i don't fuck with that mindset #but. if the speculation is right (and in my honest opinion it very well could be right)? holy SHIT i'm horrified and disgusted. #and even if the speculation isn't right shelby DID NOT deserve ANY of what happened & we need to support her #just in case though? i'm not fucking with lovejoy until i learn more. #blah #cw abuse discussion

[nsfwitchy2]

Filling out my “An interesting thing that happened this week” section in my planner for the last two weeks and realizing how bonkers they were

#nsfwitchytalks #old woman yells at cloud #there was the huge blizzard #and the day I got swapped to the other salon but not before our water went out #then the lady who got stranded for like 4 hours and kept using our phone #and how her neighbor reported her missing and said cops were out looking for her #which btw they were doing a shit job of since I hadn’t seen a single cop #and then I met the salon owners niece #and no one introduced us or anything #she just came in and started bathing her own dog #and all the groomers acted like that was normal so I just played along #been a strange two weeks huh