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ff2-soda-pop · 2 months

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I'm starting to question if I should even bother with the stupid paper.... I'm probably just gonna fail anyways lmao

#ive been running around stuck on Babysitter Duty for the past three days and the teacher only gave us any instructions on thursday yet #somehow expected a full paper done and edited by sunday. even if i wasnt stuck on babysitter duty she'd get a shitty paper just due to how #little TIME that is to get things done. but because i am on babysitter duty uhhh..... well so far there's no paper #ive been spending practically full days having to take care of my sister and i cant just Ignore Her so i havent done my paper while watchin #her because again: my focus needs to be on Her. and shes incredibly loud which makes it super hard to focus. fun combo /s #so i was like 'i'll just stay up Really Late and do it then' but that hasn't worked because my sister WONT GO TO BED if im awake. i was up #until 4am last night hoping she'd fall asleep and shut up and i could work but Nope!#and then i got too tired to even care anymore #i've tried explaining this to others and they're just like 'ok well you just need to find a way to make it work :/' which is very much #easier said than done! and im scared about this paper because this teacher doesnt accept late work at all for pretty much any reason #and im sure she wont understand my situation. because shes also the teacher that didnt understand that i didnt have the textbook on time #because it was still being shipped and i dont control the rate at which book ships and she was like #'..........okay well you still need to have the book by tomorrow at least <3' when i told her the book had Just shipped and idk when i'd ge #the dumb thing. so yknow i dont have high hopes about this #also just as extra 'make stuff more difficult' i have zero accommodations because my mom cant keep track of my fucking IEPs and they wont #let me have accommodations unless i have that and idk how to get a copy anymore. so i've also been running around with no help in that area #and it's not great </3 #idk im just stressed out and frustrated and i Want To Cry :)#vent

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the-yearning-astronaut · 6 months

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#☉#already getting stress induced nose bleeds again lmao #bro's not even back in the house yet but him and dad were going at it tonight #yelling at each other in the kitchen and i could hear them from my room in the basement #im so tired of it all #especially since my mom and i get to listen to them bitch about each other afterwards #before he moves back in im setting a firm boundary: unless i ask about something specifically *i don't want to hear about it*#ive hit minute 22 with this nose bleed now #i thought it was gonna be a short one (10-15 mins) but nooooo #i can feel it getting worse #based off my experience last summer im pretty sure that if i could just....#get out of this fuckin house #80% of my health problems will improve on their own #since all of them are triggered/aggravated by stress #too bad im fuckin stuck here for the foreseeable future #tbd #edit: 25 mins in and i think it's stopped for the time being...#i can hear my dad bitching about my brother to my mom rn while she's trying to get ready for bed #because she just got home with working her second job #and has to be up in 7hrs for her first one 😭#i want to yell at him to shut up or yell at my mom to tell him to shut up #neither of us will do such things tho #and so it goes

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wilsonthemoose · 5 months

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Someone stop me sending a passive-aggressive thank you for considering it message to the lecturer who said she wouldn't let me take a quiz at a later date despite my being like. actually pretty sick.

#Sighhhhh #Id skip it but the developmental psych lecturer hates me and is determined to sink my gpa #So i might as well do well in this course #When asked about low marks on the midterm. (which went really well actually. I knew all the answers /and/justified them.) she said content #Was good but the writing was really bad #Huh? T.T #Like it's totally legible. Not cutesy yes. But legible...#ANYWAY. im gonna loudly drag a chair off to the side tomorrow. 'sorry. Just making sure i dont get anyone else sick. Continue please :)'#Also sneezing every few minutes today so that should be fun in class tomorrow :)#:)#(ok im kidding but also am i really dragging myself out of bed tomorrow? T.T everything hurts and my throat itches and my body has yet to #Decide if it wants a fever or not because im alternating between feverish and then the hated fever-breaking state #:(#I attend every class. I stay awake. I answer questions. I do well in exams/quizes/assignments. Ive earnt a sick day :(

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harmonizewithechoes · 2 months

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It’s my middle child’s 3rd birthday today 🥺

3 years ago my partner was deployed overseas and couldn’t come home for the birth because the military didn’t want to spend so much time quarantining their soldiers. Fortunately I had help as my parents were watching my son (at the time just a month shy of 2) for a few days before my due date and we had moved across the street from my partner’s parents when we found out about the deployment. So I had his mom with me at the hospital holding up her phone while we got to have a rare video call with my partner as we welcomed our daughter into the world after a very quick labor. I then had two months with our two very little kids by myself before he came home. It was an incredibly hectic time and I’m still not quite sure how I was able to get through all of that but here we are with the sweetest little 3 year old (let’s call her C) we could have asked for 🥰

C loves to play dress up and she has specific characters she’ll play as where you can’t refer to her as her name or she’ll get mad. She’s not C she’s Dr C or Baby or Baby Kitty or Princess Bucket (this was her first character and yes she does put a bucket on her head as a crown). Her favorite game to play is hide and seek and she loves dance parties and drawing and she’s obsessed with her 1 year old sister. We love C so much and I’m so excited to see how she grows and changes and learns over this next year ❤️

#personal #tonight her and her little sister are sleeping in their beds in their very own room for the first time #they’ve had their beds in my bedroom since we moved in and very often just ended up in our bed #but I’ve spent the past few days getting the room we’ve used for storage ready for them #and they’re doing really well so far #I’m sure they’ll end up in my bed again at some point but this is at least a step in the right direction #our crib that we’ve used for all 3 babies turns into a toddler bed and as I was taking it apart and putting it back together in the new room #my son started crying because he didn’t want his sisters to be big girls in their own room #he wanted me to put everything back and make the 1 year old 0 again so she could keep being a baby #I should point out that he is also obsessed with his baby sister #I told him that’s not quite how it works and kids are meant to grow up #and then he asked yet again for a baby brother because he loves babies so much and then he’d have a brother just like him 😅#he’s very sweet but also…. that’s not happening lol #I’m slowly becoming a person again and being able to focus more time on hobbies #and my partner and I now have our room back #all of that would be reset again with another baby not to mention another year of nursing and diapers and sleepless nights…. pass lol #I’m emotional about my babies growing up but I’m also so excited to learn who they’ll become as time goes on #sorry for rambling I get sappy on their birthdays

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k66-official · 1 year

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Greetings, Pekoponians, and welcome to the official web log of the Keroro Platoon, yessir! I'm the amazing and awesome Sergeant Keroro, and I'm sure I could do a better job introducing myself, but I'm just so, so excited to meet you all that I just couldn't wait to open up shop! As your friendly neighborhood alien invaders, we've opened up our "ask box" so you can communicate with your future overlords, yessir! So, please, drop by and say hello, yes, yes!

#sgt frog #keroro gunso #keropost #kerrooo i'm so excited!!!#we'll try to post pictures if we can! don't you want to see our fearsome yet adorable faces?#don't lie i know you do kero :)#me and tamama are excited anyway #i haven't told the others yet but i'm sure they'll have fun too yessir!#thank you tamama for helping me with this social media stuff btw #couldn't have done it without you private <3 #-k66 #and now a word from our host:#hi guess who it is :)#thats right its gem! from neardaily frogposting! yippee!#ive never run an askblog before so im jus. im doing my best here #i tried to run one once before for my fantroll it never went anywhere #but keroro is an existing character and literally me so i should get at least a little more out of this yippee #im too adhd to organize this properly from the start which is why keroro is the perfect host heehee #anyway im going to bed goodnight. keroro hopes he will have fun asks to answer in the morning :)#sorry i didnt really give you much to work with. just go nuts in the askbox doesnt matter if its silly or simple #uhh okay signing off

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theflyingfeeling · 8 months

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still sick but alive, unfortunately 🤧

#last morning when i got up i wasn't at all sure i'd live to see the release of deadzone lol #since then i've been able to walk and stand up somewhat normally without wanting to cry and/or die #last night i slept more than the two previous nights combined. which still isn't that much but at least i did sleep #i did also wake up so completely drenched in my own sweat (from mild fever going down after i had taken a painkiller for a headache)-#-that i had to get up and dry myself with a towel 😂#and there was a huge wet spot (of sweat) on my bed where i had lied 🙂#i have lost three fourths of my vocal range so i can't e.g. laugh #(not that i've had a whole lot to giggle about these past few days 💀)#i'm bummed out i can't do preparations for my new job #i definitely should've started earlier but i would've had plenty of time this week had i not caught the cold at the stupid festival 🤧#i did not plan this! besides i'm not gonna start working weeks ahead for a job i'm not even getting paid for yet #for the same reason no one can expect me to work while sick for a job i haven't gotten a single penny from #hell even if i WAS paid no one could expecte me to work while sick #so i shouldn't feel guilty for wanting to work on my fic instead of the course plans #which btw i already sort of have because my predecessors gave me practically ALL the material i might need #so all i reallly need to do is change the dates of the course plans and bob's your uncle #but i'd like to also study the material a bit before teaching it so that i'll at least seem like i know what i'm talking about 💀#mom said on the phone that i've managed situations like this before so i will manage this too and she's right i guess but 😭😭😭#but yeah i guess this is some sort of developement from last year when i had the 'rona-#-and felt awful about ordering food/groceries in because ''i don't want to be a bother'' 😂

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minthara · 1 year

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Girlies we are continuing to drain my bank account

#none of the above is ordered yet I wanna get closet and bed done #to see how it looks in the space #and I have to measure the bathroom better for the set in the middle First row #but I'm p sure it fits #I'm kinda scared my room will be cramped with the desk but I need one ooof #dashed my dreams of a bar table I really wanted today when I measured the kitchen isr just a little too big #but my bf said he might build one for my bday yaaay #the flooring is for the balcony btw!! there's ugly green carpet out there rn #I'm also bringing a lot of decoration stuff from the old apartment but most of the furniture belongs to my bf lmao #or we built it custom for the apartment

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sk3l3t0n444 · 7 months

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#yay im still not okkkkkkkkk #i have legit resorted to playing solitaire #thats how fucking bored and unmotivated i am #i cant even get out of bed most days...i just sit in my room and rot away...#yk its been like 7 months already...and im still not over it #like it still hurts...it hurts so badly...#id it bad that im still not over it yet? that i still think about them every day #i cant listen to some songs anymore...that was our song...that was our song...that was our song...i cant go to some places anymore...#i cant look at some things the same way anymore...sometimes i wonder if it was for the best...i wonder what life would be like...#i wonder a lot about if they even remember me...if they think of me as much as i think of them...#i just want things to go back to how they were...i was happy then...why does everything go to shit for me...did i do something wrong...?#is this my punishment for whatever sins ive commited? is there even a god out there? and if there is why do they want me to fucking suffer?!#i miss so many people that i cant have back cuz whatever higher power if there is one fucking hates me...what did i do wrong? what did i do?#am i just doomed to fail at everything? cuz it sure as hell seems that way...#idfk...#i just want to be ok again

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miscellaneous--bones · 9 months

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lorelei has the ability to feel/see someone's innermost self, their very being, sometimes even their thoughts and desires, through touch. this is mostly because their a mushroom, its part of their innate ability to create ''hive minds'' (like mother mushroom, kind of) and connect with other beings. they can do this with about any living thing, which is why they tend to wear very modest clothing. it does require a fair amount of focus but even a simple handshake can at least give them a sense of intention.

when they officially met fern it was in the middle of him trying to detach himself from finn, and define himself as fern. he didn't originally know about lorelei's power, as they tend to try and keep such a thing to themself, and otherwise are less publicly known then their older siblings. its at a party the mushroom kingdom threw celebrating the birth of the newest princess that they meet and spend a bit of the night together.

of course Fern is Strange. being half demon half pure hero is a very mixed message, along with all of the inner turmoil was.. an interesting (2nd?) impression.

i cant think of much of in between here. i know for a moment in the confusion, fern thinks this is another rejection- he'd just made a fool of himself in front of royalty- now they thing hes an idiot, yada yada yada. lorelei on the other hand is embarrassed they got caught up in the confusing little mess that is Fern the Human, completely without his permission or knowledge. big no no, y'kno?

within their powers, fern can see an opportunity to learn more about who he is, a way to get help piece together who he is now.

fern and lorelei agree to meet a couple days after the party, so that lorelei can work their magic and tell fern what they see.

"you can start by relaxing," Lorelei peaked an eye open, a comforting smile tugging on their cheeks. Fern relaxes his shoulders, releasing the tension in his jaw. he mutters an apology as the prince closes his eyes again and seems to focus more. their hands tighten their grip on his own. "You are... struggling to except yourself. Mourning a life you can't get back," they trailed off. their words are halting as they read more into who Fern is, trying to piece together the stranger's history. "There are two sides of you, struggling to work together. This feels like a demon." Lorelei opens their eyes. "-do you know anything of your parents? or- the circumstance of your creation?" Fern glances to the distance. he can't pick out if their gaze is accusatory, or just confused. The prince had been kind to him so far, and he came to them for answers. "its a long story. The grass wizard made me because of a pun, but I'm also from the Finn Sword... I don't really get it either." "So.. you come from both of them. There is a demon here, a curse. it is.. violent, parasitic in nature." Fern's grip tightened in the prince's hold. "But there is a force of good, too. the heart of a hero. loyal and true, pure. and.. angry. You want to be good. You want your life back. You are frustrated with what you've lost, and frustrated that you can't " the prince paused. "You tell the story of a very complicated creation, I hope you know."

as their friendship grows, Lorelei goes deeper into trying to figure out Fern's existence. they call it a personal project, and say it is good for Fern to know the nature of his creation and what it means for who he is. acknowledging and accepting the different parts of himself are the first steps to building his new identity, and building a life as himself. he struggles, with getting used to who he is, with dealing with his bouts of anger and other such amplified emotions, with the idea that he can never go back to the life he remembers. he mourns himself and his friends. Lorelei tries to find food he could eat (fertilizers, various soils, and other such plant food) but it never is the same as his memory. his relationship with his Grass Demon almost improves, but he struggles to find harmony within himself.

L: There's a duality to this. differing relationships between your mind and body. do you see yourself as only Finn, with the Grass Demon as a different entity, or are you a product of both? F: what does that mean? L: You see yourself as your memories, as Finn. This is default because you are human and you see yourself as your conscious. But that doesn't mean your mind is all you are. Finn makes up your head, but the Grass Demon makes up your body, so are you only your brain or do you see yourself as all of your parts in a culmination? F: I don't know, what do you see me as? L: Thats not up to me to decide. It's for you to figure out, to define who you are. To define Fern. L: I feel like most of the answer is in that vault of yours, and I encourage you to try and look through it. F: The vault is where all the stuff I can't handle goes. Looking through it would like, defeat the purpose of the vault. L: I guess I dont get it because I dont have a vault. if I really can't handle something i shove it in a closet... F: How do you get anything done that way? I'd have to board it up. L: keeps away the clutter. I don't know how you get anything done with everything in an inaccessible vault.

#i have a lot of feelings about these two #i want to keep it roughly canon compliant #eventually Lorelei also goes to Prismo #and brings Fern with them #''for closure' if not answers. He is where your brother is' and the reason you got turned into a sword. maybe he has insight''#im not sure how that visit goes quite yet though #sorry this is long and dialogue heavy i tried to draw what i could but tbh it was a lot #so i shortened a lot of it lol #this was fun though. good way to get my thoughts out #anyway its 4 am i gotta go to bed #art #prince lorelei #the amount of shit i had to go and look up for this was stupid #both abt lorelei and abt adventure time lore #who knows if this will end up in main tags idec at this point #adventure time oc #long post

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onocleqs · 1 year

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can't fucking believe vent is still down. where else am i gonna yell about being ill

#anyway it is Day Two and. i feel better in some ways but worse in others #had the worlds most disrupted night of sleep and now i'm coughing a lot more than yesterday and it sucks #but my throat feels less sore for sure. feels like my body is fighting this thing off super hard 💪💪💪💪 shame about the full body aching #and overall lack of energy. ooouugghhh and the lost voice of course. but this always fucking happens #i'm gonna have to pass on games night tonight if i'm still coughing a lot and/or still missing my voice #but aaaauugghhh the love of my friends will surely heal me like nothing else. unless they make me laugh and send me into a coughing fit #rambling #my god yeah thats one of the worst parts of being ill. cant watch anything that makes me laugh. im fucking dying of boredom here #sure there's other stuff to watch but no funnies and no video games when that's all i want rn. havent watched any more flapjack in DAYS #it's nowhere near as bad as covid so this is entirely unnecessary but i am once again getting thr urge to document my symptoms #with a god damn spreadsheet. but it's not as complex at all so eh.#i can't say too much about how much better i'm feeling just yet tbh bc i'm still back in bed hfkdhgkdh i can walk sure #but i need to go downstairs and make breakfast soon which is the REAL first hurdle #also the question of am i ready for toast again or do i need to stick to porridge just to be safe #not gonna lie. i didn't love the noodles i had yesterday so i'm wondering if i'll have the appetite for something else #i want a sandwich so fucking bad but i don't want to eat dry bread at the same time. aaauuggghhh #my sibling offered me a hot chocolate last night and i had to turn that down bc chocolate plus cold for me is a big no #but aaauugghhh a nice warm drink probably would’ve been rlly nice #i return once again to announce that got damn! i feel notivesbly better than i didn an hour ago and my voice is like 30% back!#which means that by tonight i might very well be at a functional enough level to hang out with friends after all #i can always dip if my energy levels tank again or whatever but like honestly hanging out with them is like. i need that #the last two days havent been great and i miss them and we have a lot to talk about so yeah i will do everything in my power #to be there tonight. but i will not force myself or push myself too far. bc i am the king of self care 💪💪💪#god sorry back again but. it continues to fascinate me how any kind of illness affects me in the same ways consistently regardless of what #kind of illness it is??? right now i have whats mainly a cough which is honestly rare for me when i get ill #it's usually more in the nose department and sometimes the throat but rarely the chest #and yet 9 out of 10 times i lose my voice. i Always struggle with low energy (altho thats a problem outside of being ill too jfdjgdhfhd)#have a hard time falling or staying asleep and i get nauseous if i sleep laying down enough #but also i am the king of hard and fast aka i get like 24 terrible hours and then recovery is super quick. i'll be back to 100% health in #less than a week. my poor fucking step dad has been in stage one for a WEEK it's really awful. but i have the power of youth on my side 💪

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tkbrokkoli · 1 year

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a colleague of mine used to be a professional athlete in the 80s and today she showed me and another colleague photographs from back then and she casually mentioned that two of her team mates outed themselves as trans men and two as lesbians later in life and i was like !!!!!! im

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faerociousbeast · 1 year

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watched the first two episodes of buddy daddies with my sister. i wish gay people were real

#fae watches stuff #HELPPPP ME THERYRE PUSHING THE 'BUDDY' PART SO HARD ITS SO FUNNY #still altogether enjoyable i had a very good time #in the first scene you know how rei grips onto the roof of the car?#i made a joke on how haha only gamers have that sort of grip and then i realized like.#wait it was probably The Gamer under that helmet #interesting song for the opening/outro though i liked that as well but wooo love song. hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm #AND I LIKE KYU-CHAN he also wears glasses and works as a cafe barista while being the leader of Other Things handshaking fr #also REI owns the apartment.#but KAZUKI gets the room ??? the apartments pretty big too #and yet hes also called a couch crasher but hes around cooking and cleaning and bossing rei around #in his supposedly Own House #i want to say like oh he sleeps on the couch maybe but it was taken (which is still like.#you gave the bed to your Buddy who cooks and cleans for you but say hes just Crashing.)#(if HES the couch crasher in YOUR APARTMENT why do YOU STAY ON THE COUCH)#but kazuki was so unsurprised when he came out of the bathroom like that that..... im honestly not sure #and we dont have enough episodes yet to be certain #maybe its a deal or something. be my malewife and you get the bedroom #and all those parents were wrong.... its not fps that make kids go out and shoot #its kids that go out and shoot that play video games

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orcelito · 1 year

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Ugh

#speculation nation #probs gonna skip class tomorrow morning bc lmao #im clocked out but i havent left yet. and id have to be in bed in two hours :)#i want to make my pizza tonight. i deserve something nice.#i am going to be. peaceful. peace and love on planet earth.#i say through gritted teeth as i keep. getting. messages.#i need the world to shut the fuck UP for one GOD DAMNED MOMENT #...but peace and love on planet earth 😊#negative/#yea im probably bitching enough for it #ok real talk if they dont stop fucking texting me im going to break something #im in a group chat about catering stuff and it sure is popping off. fuck my fucking life.

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sluttyten · 2 years

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#I woke up with a pit of anxiety in my belly and I was so confused about what had me feeling this way #just like dreading getting up out of bed and going into work #like I didn’t know what I had so much anxiety over #and then I remembered my boss offered for me to go work at a different location in a different city for a week and I didn’t actually give #him an answer yet #I’m a huge homebody like if I have the choice of being at home or anywhere else I am most likely going to choose being home #plus I would be going to a city where I know no one and staying in a hotel alone for a week and driving to this place by myself and I’m just #so unsure about all of that. I think I should do it because it’ll probably be fine but at the same time I’m just incredibly like anxious and #because* of the thought of having to stay alone in a hotel room for a week #staying home alone for a week is bad enough #and when I asked my mom for her advice she didn’t really help me much but I think that’s because I wanted her to give me a yes or a no #and then my best friend was literally exactly 0 percent helpful because I vented all this too her and her response was ‘oof’ like??? you #don’t have anything maybe a little more helpful to at to me?#anyway my boss works today so I might have to give him an answer today #but I’ve been feeling sick to my stomach since he gave me this offer which lol is exactly how I felt when he offered me a promotion like 9 #months ago and I worried about it for a week before agreeing to fill the position for a month (which gave me anxiety every day literally the #day he told me he had someone else to fill the position if I was sure I didn’t want to stay in it I felt a wave of relief literally so much #tension left my body immediately upon hearing those words)#anyway though that’s why I was so inactive yesterday bc I was sitting in my house in like an anxious stupor just watching Netflix and trying #to avoid thinking about this because it made my heart pound uncomfortably but also it was all I could think of #but also I was kinda in a weird mood before that yesterday #ALSO the week he told me he wants to go do that I’m like?? bc recently he also told me he needs me to fill in for a week for the girl who #filled the position I stepped back down from and I’m like? so you’re gonna have me go work in a different store then come back the next week #and do a different job that I don’t want to do in our store? all the while I really want to just take a few days off but I haven’t been able #to because there’s no one who can cover for me to take off and I don’t want to leave us shortstaffed and now it’s summer and we finally have #more people he keeps telling me he needs me to do/wants me to do things that make it impossible to take a few days off #but also my family is planning to go on a trip probably in the fall we don’t know where to yet and we have zero plans made but I probably do #need to save up my PTO hours for that instead of just a few random days off but ugh #also more and more lately I’m like I should really just find a new job. but this one gives me good hours like 40 a week and the hours I want #sorry for this rambling rant

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wabblebees · 2 years

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#rant incoming! tldr: im just complainin' bc im a dumbass playing with the new blorbos from my head but i SHOULD be asleep. oops #had brain fog + migraine + joint pain BAD all mcfucken day #to the point where i spent the last 11 hours just laying in bed being adhd miserable bc it Hurt to be awake but the understimulation had me #fuckt UP. i couldnt sleep to escape it bc i couldnt fucken relax my FACE enough to make my head stop hurting but i felt like i was going #full yellow-wallpaper lady in my own head bc through the brain fog + the headache i couldnt focus on anything stimulating or fun enough #and now. NOW. now that its 2am and the ibuprofen is FINALLY working. i cant sleep bc i have dnd brainrot #ive got all these fun ideas that i dont wanna forget so ive been scrambling to get them all down before i can #but also i SHOULD be SLEEPING. yet every time i lay down my brain's silly little lightbulb ''bing!''s Back On and im!! hoough!!#sooo fun thinkin abt it all but also... dude. u dont have a campaign or table or a party or ANYTHING. so W H Y do u gotta do this rn #whyyyy rn. all day i wanted this or sleep and got NEITHER. but!! oh sure nOw the brain worms are active.#i have WORK in the morning little brainworms. its 2am!! where were u at 6o'clock!! we coulda done all this t h e n #But Also. i am rotating these new lil fuckers in my head at mach speeds #im so fucken psyched for smth to happen with these ideas even though ik theres like. literally no way in hell for them to go anywhere lmao.#ive never dm'ed in my gd life hgkfshfkgk idk wtf im doing here. ive played in like. 2 canpaigns total. wtf is going ON lmao #goddamn. adhd my beloathed. ah well #also just realised the phrase 'blorbos from my head' probably sounds.... very very silly lmao #im typing this out bc im hoping doing smth slightly Different will break the brain cycle enough to let me Go Tf To Bed lmao #wish me luck lmaooo #bee speaks

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yilingbee · 2 years

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since apparently my mind can't shut up about it but i need a scene where we see kinn teaching porsche how it is to be with a man intimately, like this is the first time he's ever been with a man sexually and tbh porsche doesn't strike me as a guy that knows that much about how gay sex works, so he's entirely clueless when he begins his relationship with kinn and only has his experience with women to guide him (which isn't much help)

and i need to see that clumsiness and inexperience reflected in their relationship (like you're telling me porsche gave a perfect blowjob in that helicopter??? nah, i don't buy it, they've been together too short of a time for that to be believable)

like i need a scene where kinn has to guide him and tell him what to do next, have that vulnerability shown, and look it doesn't have to be in the middle of sex, they can just talk about it, maybe kinn brings up the posibility of bottoming and they talk how that would work, what kinn likes and what porsche would do in that position to take care of him, i just need something

#kinnporsche #like it's not even 10am yet and this is what's on my mind 😭#like hell they can even air it as a sidestory #like it can even be just a conversation they have in bed before going to sleep #porsche's insecurities coming out and asking kinn if he's doing alright cause maybe they HAVEN'T talked about it bc so far it's been good #but now the more they grow comfortable around each other and the more they trust and love each other #all those vulnerabilities will start to come to the surface bc they're ready to face them #and kinn will reassure porsche he's amazing and will ask where this is coming from and porsche will say 'youre the only man ive been with'#'idk if what im doing is right or frankly idk anything of what im doing #and kinn will be all 'okay ask me anything what do you want to know'#and at first it will be awkward bc ofc it is but slowly but surely porsche's questions won't be stuttered #and with each question and answer he gets he will grow more comfortable and confident to ask kinn all these thoughts he has #bc u can bet my man has questions like a shitton of them he's a himbo for god's sake #(maybe there's even an anatomy lesson in there as well bc porsche might still be fighting some feelings over how much he likes being fucked #like there are SOOOOOOO many possibilities and i just want every single one #i'm a greedy bitch alright 😭

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