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neeterloveschenford · 1 year

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So a little fact about me is that whenever my life is chaotic, I get fixated on a show and a ship. When the pandemic started I got hooked on Roswell New Mexico and became obsessed with all things Malex. I worked at a Walmart Neighborhood Market for the first year and a half of covid, so Malex gave me something to focus on instead of god awful people who refused to wear masks and would use the meat department as a place to hang out and visit because the bars and restaurants were closed. (We had a group of ladies who would stand in front of the ground beef for an hour catching up every Sunday afternoon since they couldn't go out and have drinks on Saturday nights. I kid you not!) This year I have become obsessed with The Rookie and completely besotted with Chenford. This year has been an extremely rough year health wise. I found out I have cancer in September. After that I became an almost exclusive Chenford blog. They have gotten me through some of the most difficult weeks in my life. My emotions have been all over the place. But I have been able to put all of my fears on the back burner whenever I get lost in my emotional comfort show. This Sunday is a big one for all of us. I am anxiously awaiting it because I can't wait for the next step in their journey. But I am so incredibly thankful that the winter finale is happening this particular weekend. Monday morning at 7:15, I will be having surgery to remove part of my kidney. The Chenford tag here and on twitter has been the one thing I can focus on to keep me from spiraling. So I would like to thank all of you in the fandom for creating so many wonderful posts that have helped distract me and given me something positive to focus on. Y'all are all great and I hope that we are fed so incredibly well Sunday night!

#chenford #personal #neeter gets real #thanks for helping me get through on the hardest periods of my life

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neeterloveschenford · 2 years

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I'm going to go on a little rant here because none of you actually know me and I just need to get things out. I don't want to upset the people in my life, so that leaves out Facebook, Twitter and Instagram. If you follow me for fandom stuff and don't want to read real life stuff, I put the rest under the cut. Feel free to scroll on. This is basically just me needing to vent.

Back in August, I caught the stomach flu from hell. I couldn't eat or drink anything for about 5 days. I got REALLY dehydrated and ended up in the ER. Since my white blood cell count was so high, the Dr decided to order a CT scan to make sure I didn't have an infection. I was infection free, but they noticed a large mass on one of my kidneys and wanted me to see an Urologist asap. The Urologist wanted a biopsy to make sure it wasn't cancer. It is. Now this vent session isn't about me having cancer. It's stage 1 and all of my Dr's are confident that I have excellent odds of a full recovery. We've scheduled surgery for Dec 5th to remove part of my kidney. Since it has not spread, they don't think I'll have to go through radiation or chemo. So this rant isn't a woe is me I have cancer rant. The thing that has me upset is a certain person at work. I am part of a small team at work. There are 5 of us and our boss. We're a pretty tight knit group and they have all been very supportive. It's just that one of the ladies on my team is a little TOO supportive. When I found out the results of the biopsy (I really did not like finding out on my hospital networks patient portal. Some things need to come from the Dr, ya know?) the Dr's office wanted me to come in that day. My parents are currently out of the country, so the only family I have close by is my sister and her family. I really wanted someone to go with me. And I really wanted it to be someone I'm close with, like my sister. This person at work told me that she would go with me if my sister couldn't. That was fine. I appreciated that. She then tried to talk me out of calling my sister. I did not listen to her and my sister went with me. I found out later that the "friend" had even put in for time off that day since she thought she should go with me. Over the next few days we noticed that she suddenly started having all kinds of medical issues. She was suddenly tired all the time and thought she might have a Vitamin D deficiency. I have a Vitamin D deficiency and have been taking a Rx for it for several months now. Then she started talking about how she was going to have the Dr check her A1C at her next visit. She wanted him to prescribe her a Rx that would help her lose weight, but you have to have a type 2 diabetes diagnosis to be prescribed. (Three guesses what I have. Yep type 2 diabetes.) Then she said she was going to ask the Dr to order a PET scan to make sure she doesn't have cancer anywhere in her body. I am not the only one who has noticed this. She had a Dr's appointment and guess what. Her A1C is normal and so is her Vitamin D levels. And the Dr refused to order a PET scan. So then she decided to pivot her attention back to me. The reason my surgery is so far out is because of the parents being out of the country. I live alone so I would not have anyone to take care of me after the surgery. (My sister has two toddlers whose favorite game is let's crawl all over Aunt Dawnita.) My "friend" has decided that I need to move up my surgery and just stay with her while I recover. No thank you. I'm just exhausted with her nonsense. I sit by her five days a week, so I can't really say "Shut up and stop inserting yourself into my misery!" like I want to. It's draining. I'm sorry that I'm getting all of the attention right now. Trust me, I would gladly not have cancer. I'm sorry that you don't. And now I've tuckered myself out with my venting. I just needed to get this off my chest. And like I said, all my other social media is out since all my friends and family are on there. I've stressed them out enough. So rant over.

#real life #neeter gets real #rant rant rant

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