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LETS GOOOO BABY!!!!

#the rookie #Season 7 #chenford #never had a doubt #bring on the angst

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Hey Chenford fans, is there anyone out there that there that was also a RNM/Malex fan? I gotta know. Do you also read rants about how horrible Alexi Hawley is, think of Carina and start laughing? If she were running the show Chenford would be looking forward to a foursome with Chris and Ashley. Y'all just don't know the level of horrific relationship drama actual horrible show runners can achieve. I still have nightmares.

#chenford #the rookie #malex #roswell new mexico #I survived season 2 of RNM y'all #trust me #we can survive this

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People always want complex and flawed characters. And yet, when these characters behave in a complex or flawed way, they get eviscerated for not being perfect.

#chenford #the rookie #tim bradford #lucy chen #all of this

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Guys,

I know everyone is feeling sad and that's okay. What's not okay is spreading hate or wishing bad things. If you're crossing that line, stop, step away from social media, go do something you enjoy to clear your mind. Don't let this poison your heart. That's not okay.

#y'all simmer down #it's just a tv show

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More Thoughts on Tim Bradford

Woo boy! Are we going through it right now fam! I know that there has been a lot of discourse and negativity about Tim breaking up with Lucy last night. And while I truly believe that everyone's thoughts and feelings are valid, I'd like to put mine out there into the void on why I'm going to stand by both my boos even if I feel like the rug got pulled out from under me last night. So here we go......

The thing is, I get where Tim is coming from. Real talk here, my late teens and early twenties I was a mess. While I never went through what Tim went through when he was in the military, I understand that self-loathing he has struggled with for so long. I came from an abusive and neglectful family and still bear those emotional scars. I acted out and rebelled and did things I am not proud of. My family ended up intervening and my aunt and uncle took me to Arkansas to live with them. And then spent over a decade reminding me at every turn how big of a screw up I was. I remember thinking that I would never become a better person and that I was tainted for the rest of my life. Several years after I moved there I decided I wanted to get involved with the girl's ministry at my church and went to my pastor. I told him that despite all of the missteps I had made in the past, I wanted to become more involved with the program and hoped that he could look past the things I had done. My pastor was floored that I thought those things about me. He had actually been thinking about asking me if I was willing to become the director of the program. I had never had anyone make me feel like I was a good person before. It was life-changing. I began to believe that maybe I wasn't an epic failure. I ran that program for two years and during that time I re-connected with my family in Oklahoma. My mother and I had never had a real relationship and after we re-connected she told me she was proud of me. I eventually moved back home and now am quite happy with my life. But it took a really long time and a lot of self-reflection before I got to this point. And honestly I still have my days where I just feel like I'm still that messed up girl. But I have a support system with my mom, my step-dad, and my sisters that reminds me that I am worth it and that I am loved.

So I totally get where Tim is coming from. I don't know how many romantic relationships and friendships I tanked because I thought the other person was too good for me. Tim hates himself for putting his pride in his career first. He believes that his men died because of him. Because he wanted to protect his career and his reputation as a leader. He feels like Lucy is this good and honest person who would never put anyone else at risk to further something as small as a career. I mean she put her own career at risk just to help his. He thinks that her love for him will be her undoing because Tim doesn't believe he is worth the effort. God, it's breaking my heart just thinking about it. Of course, he's wrong. Lucy loves him so much that I think this will almost break her. But he has to realize his own value and worth. He will never get there unless he pushes forward and realizes how much the people in his life love and respect him.

And Lucy's not wrong to be angry at him. He is supposed to be her partner and he is, once again, making all the big decisions in the relationship. He decided that he's not what she needs in her life. While we have seen time after time that he is all that she needs. Tim needs to realize that Lucy's love is different from every other person that has ever loved him. It's unconditional. She doesn't care about his past mistakes. She loves him no matter what and believes he is the best man she knows. I know that one day he's going to have that ah ha moment like I did and see that his past doesn't define his future and he doesn't have to pay for his mistakes for the rest of his life.

Tim also reminds me of two of my all-time favorite characters from the last two fandoms I participated in on Tumblr. Oliver Queen from Arrow and Michael Guerin from Roswell New Mexico. They were both extremely flawed men that finally realized that they deserved their happily ever afters with the loves of their lives. But the people they loved helped them realize just how precious their lives really were. And guess what? Both Oliver and Felicity and Michael and Alex broke up. But they found their way back to each other and got their happily ever afters. So don't give up the faith my friends. Chenford is going to find their way back to each other. I refuse to believe they are any thing other than endgame.

#chenford #the rookie #tim bradford #lucy chen #olicity #malex #i love them your honor #it's only my opinion

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I have a lot of things to say about Chenford, and will do so later today, but I am so disappointed with the whole Bailan baby storyline. As a woman who has happily never married or had kids it was refreshing to see a couple who were happy to not have kids. Nathan is only 3 years older than me and I could not even imagine having a baby. On the daily I will hear someone say "It's never too late!" and it makes me want to vomit. I have two nieces and a nephew ages 4-7. They are the best and I adore them, but just being around them doesn't make me want to have any of my own. If anything were to happen to either one of my sisters I would most definitely step in to take care of them. They are family and I would lay down my life for them. But that doesn't mean I want to start a family in my 50's. I always found it refreshing that John was done. Been there, done that, ready to focus on his career. And to have Bailey never seem like she was baby crazy was the thing I liked most about her. I don't know, but this whole plot upsets me. I rarely feel like someone like me is represented in media. And when there is someone who is either not married or is married with no children they are rarely seen in a good light. I think they missed a huge opportunity, but then again, this is The Rookie. It's kind of their thing.

#the rooke #neeter rants #bailan #not chenford

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Damn it Timothy!!!

#chenford #the rookie #tim bradford #lucy chen

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Just had a thought. What if Tim is resigned to letting Lucy go when she confronts him next week because he doesn't think he's worth the effort? Ooof! Why do I have these thoughts and do things like this to myself. I'm going to go cry now.

#chenford #the rookie #tim bradford #lucy chen #brb crying

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Sometimes I go on Facebook or X and I remember why I love this ridiculous hellsite so much. As much as I may think folks have some wrong takes on things, 99.9% of the time it's about tv shows or movies. Today I saw someone on Facebook asking what the Nazis did that was so wrong. I was dumbfounded. So continue on my fellow Tumblrs. Have those takes that I (respectfully) disagree with. Just keep your weirdo misinformed politics to yourselves.

#people are so dumb #I just can't sometimes #dawnita rants

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nothing will ever amaze me the way fanfiction authors do. like, you wrote silly little stories about my favorite little guys? and i can read them?? for free??? that’s fucking wild.

you poured your heart and soul and very being into your writing and then put it out there for anyone to read? insane.

you spend a truly incredible amount of time writing novel-length, high quality stories, again, FOR FREE, that anyone can read, again, FOR FREE??

shoutout to every single fic author in existence, you guys are fucking incredible and i love all of you so much

#not gonna lie #fanfic gets me through most days #thanks for all you do #chenford #lanaeve #sterek #olicity #malex

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Thoughts on Tim Bradford

I was thinking about some of the things we've seen about Tim over the years and boy, is it now making so much more sense. I know a lot of this has already been meta'd and have been very eloquently said. But I just needed to put my two cents in.

Let's start with what Isabelle said to Tim in 1x12. She never felt like she measured up to Tim because he saw things so black and white. Tim had no idea that she felt that way and never thought that about her. And I've always thought she was wrong and was just projecting her own sense of failure onto him. But now I'm re-thinking that stance. We know from 4x19 and 4x20 that Tim was involved in black ops when he was in Afghanistan. His whole "Reaper" persona is obviously from that time in his service. We know from so many things that have come out in the last couple of decades that those involved in those types of operations often blurred the lines of legal and moral. I think that once he returned stateside that his rigid moral code was part of how he dealt with his PTSD. He probably didn't even realize he was going that far. Think about it, he went from black ops to being "Eagle-eye", the cop that took every order literally and got his shop tagged while standing there. Someone who was involved in off book missions wouldn't naturally be that rigid. I think it was easy to fall back into that type of mindset because of his childhood. I'm sure he needed to have every duck in a row when he was younger to make sure he never did anything to set his dad off. But having seen and done some bad things in the midst of war, Tim had to default back to this to be able to integrate back into society. He's often scorned psychology over the years. So I imagine he dealt with the trauma of war on his own by becoming that black and white guy that Isabelle was talking about. It was only after Lucy entered his life and started challenging him to be a better man that he started to see those shades of grey that life is all about. Remember in 5x17 when he showed mercy to the Make a Dream kid's dad? Season 1 Tim would never. He even admitted that Lucy was a good influence. Chances are he would have mellowed over time, but I believe he still would have had a certain amount of rigidity. That's why he told Isabelle in 5x20 that Lucy was different. She showed him that he had to readjust his mindset to be a better man.

Another thing that struck me is how he is basically treating Lucy like his boot or aide right now. If it was Angela that knew something was up I could totally see it. He could possibly blow up her life and it wouldn't be worth it. She is his best friend, but not his life partner. I could even see it if this had happened circa 5x6 or 5x7 when Chenford was trying to find their way back to friendship. But things have changed. I know that "fierce protector" Tim will do anything to protect the people he loves. I mean he offered to take the fall for falsifying those after action reports so that his friend with a family wouldn't be affected. But Lucy is not a friend, not an old Army buddy or his boot or aide. She is the most important person in his life. The reason he has begun to heal from all of the trauma he has had to face. He can't hide this from her. I am hoping that he realizes that next episode. Cause as juicy as this angst is, I'm ready for it to be over.

One last thing, as hard as it is to watch them fighting, it's what Chenford needs. I think this is going to bring so much to the surface that they need to face. Now Lucy is getting a taste of what being the person left at home feels like when their partner is UC. I think Lucy is going to take Tim to task for the whole going behind her back with Grey thing. And they both are going to have to deal with their communication issues. I feel like they are only going to come out of this stronger.

#chenford #the rookie #tim bradford #lucy chen #6x5 meta #it's only my opinion #i love them your honor

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So a couple of quick thoughts before I go to bed. Spoilers under the cut.

I'm not getting the impression that Tim actually did anything illegal. He just broke military code of conduct by not telling the truth about whatever that guy did so his widow would keep her benefits. But if that were to come out it could cause a trickle effect that could damage his career in the LAPD. So I don't think he is questioning his morals. In fact I think he is trying to take the guy down legally so that spares his friend and is the only one to take the blame when it all comes out.

I also see why he is keeping this from Lucy. I work in medical insurance and it is company policy that if you know someone did something that breaks HIPPA laws and don't say anything, then you are just as liable . So he doesn't want to put Lucy in the position of having her career ruined as well, since we know she wouldn't rat him out.

Finally, as a non-hater of Nolan's can I just say...... What the hell!?!?! First off, if Celina is still making those kinds of mistakes at this stage, maybe you are the worst TO ever. (Can you imagine the hell Tim, Angela, Nyla, or even Talia would have rained down on their boots over something like that?) And how is he making THAT diving shot to hit the guy in the leg. (SIGH)

I'm sure I'll have more to say tomorrow, but this old lady has to get up early in the morning. May you all dream of Chenford reunions tonight.

#chenford #the rookie #tim bradford #lucy chen #seriously nolan? #it's only my opinion

[neeterloveschenford]

Why do people always want to stir up trouble? I just don't get it. Real life is hard enough. Why would you want to bring hardship into something that is an escape from the real world nonsense for most of us? Leave people be. If you think this fandom is so toxic, then dip out. No one is keeping you here. I've been in some toxic fandoms. I've suffered through ship wars. I've had ships that never became canon. I know how disheartening it can be. But I've never experienced any of that in the Chenford/Rookie fandom. Even when I have an unpopular take, no one makes me feel like crap for disagreeing with them. And I'm not even one of the "popular" blogs. I say this as someone who usually lurks and occasionally spams everyone with my thoughts and feels before going back into my shell. You control your fandom experience. If you think you need to be better represented, then do something about it. Talk to people. Spam everyone with reblogs. If you're a fic writer, post links to your works like crazy or go on anon and submit quotes from your own works. Don't just sit there and expect people to come to you. It's like making friends in real life. If you just sit there and wait for people to come to you, they never will.

#chenford #the rookie #fandom discourse #stop dissing folks who are just doing the lord's work #it's only my opinion

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I've seen a few posts that refer to the shooter as a random gun nut. It was the original victim's brother. He went after the guy who killed his sister and killed the guy's wife. He had been tracking fake Pentagram Killer and that's why he was hiding when Nolan and Celina first found him.

#the rookie #sorry i'm not trying to be a know-it-all

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Reblog if you’re 30 or older

This is an experiment to see if there really are as few of us as people think.You can also use this to freak out your followers who think you’re 25 or something. Yay!

#49 #can't decide if i'm ready for 50 or not #but time marches on no matter what

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#I spent a lot of years living in a southern state #this is 100% true

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I absolutely love the man-punches-someone-to-protect-his-love trope 😘

#chenford #lanaeve #the rookie #the wheel of time #tim x lucy #lan x nynaeve #words cannot express how much i'm obsessed with these four people