#my two sad girlies :(

[chrollohearttags]

I keep seeing a lot of people saying that they’re tired of fluff/angst, etc. getting paid dust. Honestly, it’s super discouraging to write a well, fleshed out story and it receives little to no traction because the main focus isn’t smut. or people are harassing you to add sex to it. However, I write for me and me first above anybody else. I’ll post what the fuck I want and what I feel compelled to create at the moment. Anybody who does not like it knows how to leave the same way they came. I hope everybody else follows suit. You will burn out quick trying to write what appeases everybody else..especially a bunch of people who’ve never written a thing in their life or just love drama. Writing is about what fulfills you and that’s it. Trust me, the right audience will find it and love it as much as you do. Everybody else is irrelevant.

#imma add my two cents even when nobody asks #but yeah I keep seeing this and it makes me sad for all the talented writers #like I’m not a JJK girlie #probably never will be but it sucks bc it’s a lot of talent and it’s getting overshadowed #y’all just can’t say shit when ppl start to leave #cherry chats 🍒 #as a sometimes sex repulsed ace #I can’t stand even thinking about it #less known writing it #so if I wanna write fluff or angst #that’s what the fuck imma do and y’all can deal

[kaeyapilled]

god the kaebedo propaganda got me so bad. a couple of months ago i was like "eh im pretty neutral towards them i just think they're neat :)" nowadays i have SEVERE brainrot about the intricacies of their relationship and how their origins relate to each other and and and

#and they don't even interact that much in canon this is two thirds me being delulu #i need them to kiss and i need the kiss to be not just a kiss but also a metaphor #i need them to be cute and sweet and domestic and also tremendously sad and it needs to start tense and almost bitter #(what do you feel like when someone with such close ties to the past you're trying to escape shows up in your life?) #godddddddd im a kaebedo girlie fine you guys got me. im fully converted #kaebedo #my posts #kaeyaposting #albedo #kaeya

[napping-sapphic]

i am going to FIGHT indoor heating i just wanna wear one of my favorite sleep shirts to bed but it’s too HOT because it’s nice and long sleeved but instead i had to take it off because it’s too hot for all my blankets AND a shirt AND sweatpants ahhhhh screaming and crying

#i also had to take off my FUZZY SOCKS #pain and suffering on planet earth #how many time will i wake up to rip my shirt off and go back to sleep #HOW MANY TIMES #also get your MINDS out of the GUTTER i still have a bralette on #the sacrifices i make to use all four of my blankets😔 #jk i run so warm i usually end up pushing off at least two while i sleep #and even then i usually wake up unable to breathe because my sinuses HATE the heat🙃 #also hiii!! #i hope yall are having nice nights #nice COOL nights #im so sleepy but it’s so HOT #and im sad i cant wear my SHIRT #so i had to complain #lifes rough for us sleepy girlies

[mommyhorror]

😞thinking about Elliot page & Amanda bynes & Britney Spears & Shelley duvall & Jennette McCurdy

#sad that two of my favs from childhood / adolescence are dealing with major mental health issues #Amanda bynes #elliot page #like damn .. I’m just glad they’re alive you know #I’ll fight against transgender ideology but I’m not trying to fight e. page herself #Suffering through “Hollywood” (even saying it feels like Hollywood is the glamour #Like it’s the good thing when it’s not) Anyways it ruins u if ur tortured through it mentally #Which is obvious #Unfortunately much more obvious with famous women #How many have we semi-lost? How many were on the edge? #Self harm. Eating disorders. Loss of sanity. Inability to take care of themselves (conservatorships)loss of control #Idk it disturbs me a lot #Those were my girlies you know #Jennette is doing fine bc she QUIT #she quit early and will be ok imo. But it ate her alive too

[mikkouille]

hi bestie I had to go fetch my wallet for this n couldn't find the card so I must have misplaced it :((((((((((( nooooo where is it :((((( but I'll find the PSD later, and since it's a pair card with another one I made which!! I did find, until then have the replacement Devil of Savings, much less hieffort edit but very potent.

#its him on both given at least half my impulse spendings pertain to his fursona's merch. #my bank doesnt do custom card images which makes me so sad cuz id so put that on it fr fr #itd be a deterent for id have to beat the stare contest first and i fear thats out of my ability as an eye avoider #the other tho was much more high effort so im hoping im judt stupid since its late as jell n cant see it in plain sight #like i worked so hard on it editing a girlies face onyo a painting n added some lil framing like those church things ya know #having two the goal was that in case of impulse spending hits in the wild i could pull them both out shuffle pick one n itd tell me #wether or not to buy

[thatwasthenightthingschanged]

WHAT DO YOU MEAN I still got the emo text posts I made when I was 13/14 saved on my old blogspot blog askdhlsakd

#i mean girlie could write! but also #am i gonna end up cringing? probably #also i vaguely remember some of them being very sad sooo #i only just read the oldest two & those were from the time i had my first big crush on someone lmao

[krikeymate]

Scream AU with supernatural/magic elements.

Billy's murders functioned as a blood sacrifice, but he dies before he can claim his rewards. His mother taught him all he knew about the hidden world within their own, of magic and demons and the power of blood. She knows that when the enlightened die without redeeming their owed prize, it's granted to their next of kin. Mrs Loomis thinks this is her. She seeks to use it to take revenge, certain it will keep her safe in her quest, that it will protect her in the end. It doesn't.

Sam is born enlightened, blessed by the darkness, by the blood that coats her family line. Her father is mostly absent, an unwilling parent forced into the role. Her mother is a mess, too young to be a mother, sometimes too drunk to function. They learn about prayer on the tv, and one night she gets down on her knees and prays, she begs for a friend, for someone to love her, to not be alone.

It gives her a sister.

Her sister is hers, will love her like no other, will understand and accept her in ways that no others can. Her sister is a part of her, of her soul.

But to be blessed is also a curse. The enlightened are shunned, sought after, hunted and hated. Those who know know, and those that don't feel. Sam gets her wish, but in doing so damns her sister to a life of darkness as well. She never realised how much loving someone could hurt.

#/mp #Scream #Sam Carpenter #Tara Carpenter #my writing tag #AU: baptised in blood #the tags tag #gods are basically demons here #anyway there's so much blood in her family line and from the direct result of them that she is like a demon demigod #most people do a blood sacrifice they get a reward. but sam is like super blessed and she didn't even do anything! yet. she will. #and tara. tara's literally a part of sam's soul. so she's an enlightened too. #what i'm saying is i've given two sad girlies hated by those around them unlimited magic powers because it's what they deserve #they have no idea the power they wield #as children their ability to use their power is limited except for when their heart is most desperate #very few people know about magic and those that don't just have a bad feeling about people who are enlightened. #they just rub them the wrong way. they're trouble. and trouble does seem to find them a lot. #anyway i'm way too into this concept

[hiddenbeks]

ocs as types of suffering + tragic love archetypes

tagged by @hibernationsuit to do a couple quizzes for some ocs, thank u red!!

tagging @narrayya @grimhygge @famewolf @abetterbeginning to do one or both of the quizzes if u want to, no pressure! suffering quiz here, tragic love quiz here <3

did the first quiz for my da girls:

ANDRALE MAHARIEL - yearning

"the pain in your chest bubbles knowing that what you want may never be yours. You're lost in a fantasy world, or consumed by what you wish you were or had as opposed to what you do. it's hard to appreciate what's around you when you're appreciating the hope of what could be instead."

yknow i often consider andrale my most well adjusted oc. she had a relatively stable childhood with friends and loving family. and despite developing a resentment of the world that hates her people as she grows older and desiring a world where things are different she's still mostly satisfied with her life? but this all changes after she becomes a warden. the first months are especially difficult as she's still in denial about her fate and the fact that she's never going back to her old life and indeed yearns for all that she has lost. she eventually learns to live again and enjoy her new life as best she can but she will always carry that sadness and regret and longing with her i think. you may see her happy and content one moment and the next she's staring blankly at nothing, lost in her memories of simpler days.

FRIDA HAWKE - self inadequacy

"you crack under the weight of your own perceived inability. how can you be enough for anyone else when you're just barely enough for yourself? insecurity causes you to have little backbone, and so you fail to reach your full potential when it comes to what you're best at. you sabotage opportunities with fear you'll fail before you've begun. it hurts to never feel like your best is enough, but setting your standards too high or too low ensures it."

i was fully expecting to get 'the giver' as a result for frida but this is accurate too! she never believes she is enough as a daughter or big sister or stand-in parent to the twins or champion or. anything. poor gal believes it's her job to carry the weight of the world and blames herself for not being or doing enough when she inevitably fails. oof

CELYN SURANA - loneliness

"your heart feels full of the connection you feel you lack. no matter how many people are around, strangers or not... someone is missing. you don't know who, what, or if you'll ever find them. you're unsure if there's a person out there who'll really satisfy your life, so really what's the point of continuing to look?"

hmm! celyn was indeed lonely at the circle save for jowan but i have to wonder if it was her own doing. though to be fair i doubt the circle fosters an environment supportive of making friends and forming genuine connections. and obviously the fact that it's partly her own doing doesn't make it any less painful. anyway. celyn put friendships aside in favor of studying and being The Very Best, hoping that advancement in the circle would bring her at least a tiny bit of autonomy and respect. this all leads to a hopeless loop of "i'm lonely and want friends" "don't know how to make friends so i won't even try". she slowly gets better after leaving the circle when andrale and friends coax/force her out of her shell because they need to work togetheeerrr. there's no team-building exercise quite like the blight and the impending end of the world am i right haha

anyway next up some tragic love:

ISABEAU MONET - caníbales; devourer

"love's a knife to skin to you, a vein to woven muscle, blood puddle before you. you listened to all the promises of a stranger's relief and feel the drain of a shower head running it all down again. you committed another murder; kissed and bruised skin with a clench to a quivering wrist and went home in the deafening quiet of a taxi. there's mold covered rage within you. if to take a heart home with you, you'd bite your way through muscle and ribcage first. pleasure comes, but there will be no devouring past it. there is fear in settling down and being seen. there is a glass screen between these bodies and you. relax your tight jaw and feel the real canine fear beneath that scabbed up cavity. the sacrifice of opening up is needed if to be loved as you deeply wish inside. desire doesn't discriminate between hands and spoken word. why should you?"

wowie!! i rarely get serious about isabeau because she's mostly a fun and sexy menace and has convinced even me that that's all there is to her but like. i shouldn't forget that she too is damaged underneath it all 😔 what twenty years of emotional neglect and lack of support from parents does to a gal...

#tag games #ch: andrale #ch: frida #ch: celyn #ch: isabeau #decided to mash these two games together to avoid spamming ppl gfjhjkfg #anyway!! this was inch resting. thanks again for the tag red <3 #this was also so sad wow. love my haunted & tormented girlies <3

[perenlop]

havent read tbc but i think its so funny how shadowsight seems to be popular to the people i follow just because “the narrative treats him like all the female characters do so hes an honorary girlie”

#and by ''how the narrative treats him'' they mean badly ofc bc apparently everything is blamed on him repeatedly #w no one realizing that he was manipulated and the narrative being retconned just to say hes actually a screwup who was never good #and everything genuinely is his fault bc why else would he listen to an evil cat in starclan #like. damn that really is something theyd do to a female protagonist #also the only ppl ive seen hating on him do it for boring and stupid reasons so im inclined to like him out of spite #bc ''he has an ILLEGAL name in this universe. hes a TIGERDOVE kid. hes a FANFICTION made REAL'' ok well hes the most interesting one. so. #not like anything he actually does in the narrative it seems. plus the other two protags sound boring as hell #''oh im sad i couldnt get w the boy i like. now i love another guy but its forbidden. oh and my leaders possessed ig.'' #''SIGH i wish people didnt compare me to my cringe OUTSIDER dad. also i see ghosts and i hate this its cringe'' #''also my sister is a legacy name after an important character from the previous arc but who cares'' #and then shadowsight is like ''since i was an infant i had excruiciating seizures and visions. i threw myself into a river as a sacrifice #i am suicidal. i got manipulated by an evil man into possessing my great uncle. everyone outwardly wants me dead for it #everyone blames all of their problems on me and expects a lot from me. i got demoted for it. my only support is my close family #and even then they have to suffer the extreme guilt of not being able to help me with literally anything #also the antagonist wants my mom dead for my own existence. i have lost so much #i am literally blamed by god for everything thats happened to be despite being used by them since i was an infant and thats where my story e #ends'' #like fuck. yeah he is an honorary girlie to me. i barely know u man but like i support u. cmere be my pet cat #echoed voice

[swinging-stars-from-satellites]

"He and Monica could have something together, he just won't let her in."

The X-Files Season 9 (2002) // Gregory Orr, Concerning The Book Of The Body That Is The Beloved // Mary Oliver, Red Bird // Of Monsters and Men, Sleepwalker // Paramore, Hate To See Your Heart Break // boygenius, Me & My Dog // Mary Oliver, Wild Geese // Paramore, 26

#absolute clown hours #good gosh i hate stitching screenshots with quotes ajskdndlahfsk #it always makes the words all blurry RIP #also yes i am ignoring the mytharc what of it? they're cute #listen. LISTEN. #monica is a mary oliver girlie i cannot believe otherwise #you do not have to be good!!! #like... the only reason they met was because of what happened to his son. something about that gets to me #she did not have to befriend that sad grieving singleminded cop #she CHOSE him!! she was like YES this is my bestie now nobody hurt him ever again #and there's something SO special about that #also then way their relationship asks absolutely nothing. they love each other but they won't ask for love in return #like it's THERE but it's not needed. they just love to love each other. monica chose him to give her love to #as a friend OR as whatever else it doesn't matter. MSR was put together by circumstances and fate #and continued to choose each other from there #these two chose each other from the very beginning!! going insane!! #Lu rambles #web weaving #txf #the x files #john doggett #monica reyes #john/monica #gurt look!

[rederiswrites]

A widower friend of mine recently approached me about his almost-12 daughter. She's quite the little fashionista, loves to wear a little makeup when permitted, and has been quite eager to get her period for a while now. Of course, he says, he's willing to figure out whatever she needs--and I know he's not one to be squeamish about his masculinity or her body processes--but she wants a woman to go to. She has repeatedly mentioned me. Would I be willing to be there for Girly Questions?

And the answer is yes. Yes of course! I will do everything I can. But the irony is that, like him, I'll be looking up half of it anyway. Because, as my son said when I told him all this, "Wow, she really went and wanted the closest thing to a boy that isn't a boy" and if that doesn't sum it up!

#The less sad version for Mevi and anyone else that thought it was funny #my daughter (tearfully) had much the same reaction #like wow she asked the wrong family bruh #but we've already been learning girly things for our trans baby so honestly two birds with one stone

[lorax-god1315]

Funny little hobo man

#doctor who #second doctor #patrick troughton #appreaciation post #he’s just a scruffy clown #I really do think that two is my fav doctor #I mean jamie mccrimmon #one of my fav little scottish lads #all the different dynamics with companion groups/variations/ #zoe is just the smartest girlie I love her to bits #so sad that most of twos episodes are lost 😞

[shiroselia]

I think the most petty nitpicky thing I'm actually really annoyed about in this game is that had Laverna just Not had braids I would've bought it for the natural coat cause I beef so much with the paint coats but that one is Lovely but I Don't! Like! Braids!

#It's so fucking sad I need SSE to release more normal paints with similar coats #Less white on those coats PLEASE #This is one of the main reasons I am such an appaloosa girlie they ratio a Lot better on the colour to white aspect #The paints just #Do not do it for my preferences #It's one of like two horses that have made me actually sad that we can't change magics manes which is Fair and Reasonable #But Laverna REALLY makes me wish we could

[tootsielooo]

I just started fully crying bc I thought about the possibility of my stuffed bear I’ve had since I was a baby ever getting ripped up or ruined

On an unrelated note I think I’m getting my period soon

#Stuffed animal girlies unite #I love my stuffed bear his name is Beary I named him when I was like two #the beans in his body are all distributed weirdly and he’s lumpy and I love him #emotional support stuffed bear #I used to lose him all the time as a kid and I’d get so sad about it #for reference he’s the TY pluffies 2002 brown bear

[channelrat]

tagged by @heyitsphoenixx  💜💜💜

tagging with no pressure

@swiftermidnights @sockos @firefly464  @homesickhalfling @nadja-antipaxos @carriettaway @imindthegoats @piss-shark-official

#i strictly added the artists i listen to either more than 5 songs/all their songs #or i listen to religiously even if it is just one song #and i didnt add bo because i felt like thats .... thats obvious #everyone knows i listen to him #this one is for my girly pop and insane music #killed me not to add waterparks but i listen to two of their songs and not as religiously as like corpse or paramore #also killed me not to add lil nas i love him sm but i listen to dove more #this is very hard i need like 40 blocks #NO room for 3 L's and a W and im sad about it #i also had to take pb & tim off because i remembered i listen to bella and sasha TOO much for them not to be added lmao #tag games #also killing me not to add mckenna #mckenna has a solid 3 songs i think but i love her

[actual-changeling]

another day, more zelda totk brain rot i'm sorry guys. plus eurovision finals is TONIGHT so you will see that on my dash but i will try to tag it with #eurovision or #esc cause for some reason a shitload of people decided my tlou writing is good and follow me for that. this blog was nothing but a reblog factory once i swear.

ANYWAY silhouettes my fucking problem child. i think i solved the plot issues i had with it. i know what to write. it is being written in "chapter 13 for real now" so you can guess how that process went.

#alex yells at the void #alex scribbles tlou #i also have two tess and joel fics i wanna write/in the works #one about ellie's fedra trauma #one where i put joel into situations with his anxiety #ANOTHER fic about hands #the its quiet uptown one which girlies that one will take forever and it will be way too long but it is what it is #girlies (gender neutral) of course or id even misgender myself lol #plus a very painful idea about joel sleep and arms holding him the working title is sad little spoon joel #do i have college yes yes i do have i been going to lectures for the last two weeks no no i have no #in my defense my depression got my therapist so worried #she started sessions by trying to figure out if i was gonna kill myself or not #the answer is no miss therapist i will not #but boy i had her WORRIED that woman is losing sleep over me #best and worst patient at the same time i am winning at therapy