#my tarot project is gonna be a p*treon exclusive project I start digging into this year probably at least on the planning part

[katzirrart]

I apologize for the dead air here lately. I've been exclusively posting to P*treon about sketch pages. Which has been nice to talk at LENGTH about - and to use regular graphite pencil again?? Very weird, but nice.

I've really been struggling this past year with my art, and I even tried to revisit Ask Xigbar to PUSH through my burgeoning art block but... it just started to feel like a chore again. Especially when that's the blog I DO notice numbers most... 8+ hours of work... 100 notes... doesn't feel good on the ego. Even when I try to ignore it.

Social media is kinda exhausting for me, I miss communities and being active in fandom WITH people and having a good time, but being driven by engagement and interaction blows... I miss just... talking to strangers and having conversations, honestly.

I miss throwing art into the abyss and someone now and then commenting something to warm my heart, or sending me an ask and feeling something about it and ENGAGING WITH TALKING ABOUT AN AU OR SOMETHING... I love my AUs but I only share like 30% of them?? I also just miss... genuinely feeling like I cAN'T STOP DRAWING. Like I just have an ITCH to scratch!!

So I just... I've razed my style to the ground!! I'm revisiting fundamentals, I'm relearning anatomy, structure and getting some fluid back in my art. I'm applying learning, and I'm just trying to enjoy art again and reinventing my style some. I'm trying to get back to a point in my art I miss, where I think I was happiest, and most productive. Which will benefit my original stuff as well.

Might be a few months still for studying but... ya'know. At least shit will be interesting.

#kat talks #my tarot project is gonna be a p*treon exclusive project I start digging into this year probably at least on the planning part #but boy howdy uh... get ready for me to slam in here with marvel fanart this year #can't believe loki is making me remember how much I use to love nate and wade how insane #INSANE I TELL YOU #but also like idk I have a really pleasant grab bag of favorites to draw and series I enjoy that make me happy anymore #I wanna do fanart I want to make and stop caring what people want to see because that's... not making me as happy as it use to #but also like man I miss people engaging with my OCs LBR... I MISS THE ROT THIRST EVEN IF I HATE THAT SCOUNDREL....