#my mom wouldn’t have let me

[halfricanloveyou]

ok so i watched the new superman show. thought it was just okay romance wise, nothing very exceptional. the animation was weak in a few areas, i think they should have just gone all out and animated it like an anime, like in the myx episode. loved that battle sequence too!! the rest of the animations with the fight scenes were kind of clunky imo.

character wise i think they’re all pretty predictable and fall into the same boring stereotypes. tenacious and ambitious/spunky ‘tomboy,’ goofy comedic relief third wheel black friend, OP main character who’s main trait is being both responsible for all conflict and saving people from said conflict…yeah. it’s literally danny phantom but instead of being ‘sassy’ clark kent just has anxiety.

HOWEVER…taking into account the episode with the loving and kind gay gorilla and his robot-body-but-human-brain-scientist-husband, clark kent being quite possibly the most peggable fictional character to exist, casually depicting lesbian moms, and most importantly being very obviously and overtly anti US government means i objectively have to give it a 10/10 and say it’s the best tv show i’ve ever seen in my life.

also…it’s definitely a kids show (like probably ages 10+) and i can only assume it’s on adult swim because the people at cartoon network are fucking cowards. let cool stuff back on prime time air and stop shoving it all to after hours!!! sometimes midnight is too damn late!

#srsly as a kid i would have LOVED this show so much #but staying up late on saturday night when church starts in the morning??? #my mom wouldn’t have let me #what happened to airing the preteen/teen shows after 7:30-8pm?? #we don’t all have a DVR to record shit #moment of silence for my sheltered lil homies who like any form of action show at all #censorship is annoying. why is CN following disney SNP rules??? #it’s BULLSHIT #shout out to my homies that don’t care about whatever dumb bullshit studios think kids like and just wanna watch cool sword fights #or laser guns or ninjas or superheros or interesting plots that go beyond stand alone episodes #or realistic conflict that isn’t solved with ‘just be nice and do the right thing all the time and then life will be perfect’ #kids who like cartoons and fantasy and superpowers and magic #kids who like cool stuff more than funny stuff or stuff about everyday life or stuff that’s for their appropriate age group #the whole appeal of cartoons for kids like me who daydreamed a lot was that i could use them as an escape #i could daydream about myself in those situations and imagine i was in a world where things were different and a weirdo like me would fit in #i couldn’t do that with average disney channel shows or kids shows aimed at 6 year olds #as a preteen/teen i wanted to do anything and everything to not have to think about how hard things were #sorry i’m rambling i’m in one of my hyperfixation spirals again where i enter into obsessive and cyclical thought processes and get excited #and soapbox-y again…i have too many opinions and i get to excited to share them here #cause i’m not able to verbalize them or express them all completely while explaining them in real life #it’s the ADHD. i spent too much time online again and wasted my whole day without realizing it until it’s too late again #went right through lunch and breakfast too. i have got to stop doing this so much. #nobody even cares what i think i should spend my time doing something i enjoy #rather than spending it typing up pointless paragraphs that are as random and sporadic and hard to follow as my thought process #sorry ya’ll. i will be back again tomorrow to do it again 💕💕

[clannfearrunt]

The post insinuating people who grew up with siblings are better roommates or good at sharing or whatever compared to only children is rly funny ur experiences are not universal etc etc (Which is fine and why I’m not adding 2 the post) but me personally having grown up with two siblings directly contributed to me being intensely territorial with my space and belongings LMAO you guys shared?? Successfully?? Being forced to share objects didn’t lead to huge and stupid fights that were only resolved when The Father threatened violence??? The world is so wonderful. I want what you and your siblings have.

#Your sibling didn’t lock you out of his room prohibiting access to the only clothes drawer you had between the three of you?? #Con stop yapping #still bitter about the clothes dresser situation. I did not have my own clothes storage until 8th grade #for NO REASON #just!! father cheapskate wouldn’t let my mom buy me even a cheap dresser!! #when she finally just went and bought one for $20 it was a whole fucking THING #dear lord. god forbid we spend a fraction of the cost of your firearm collection on fucking furniture #anyways this has become a different thing

[kaidabakugou]

the new girl at one of my favorite bakeries called me pretty this morning and it literally melted all my stress away 🥺

#kai.rambles #i was feeling sad bc my grandma is in the hospital and when i went to visit her they wouldn’t let me pass bc my license is expired #which okay ik that’s my fault but i took my passport with me just in case and the guy straight up told me that it wasn’t a valid form of id #and im like yeah tf it is ITS A PASSPORT and he said no #and while i was waiting for my mom to come down to the lobby an old lady came in and he turned her away for the same thing #and dudeee okay you turn me away fine fuck off but an old ladyyy??? at that age they don’t pay attention to that just let her pass #and then he argued with another woman bc she brought a flower arrangement and it had water so he couldn’t allow it HELLOOO??!? #so i had to leave and went to go get breakfast for my mom at least bc she stayed the night and i was supposed to stay the day #and when i came back to give her the food she told me that the nurse that was with my grandma asked what happened bc she wasn’t expecting #my mom to return and when my mom told her she immediately got so angry bc that same guy #didn’t allow her and a couple other nurses to bring in a cake for one of the residents #who’s birthday is today and they had a full on argument this morning #so it was all in all awful and now my mom has been there for more than 20 hours until later tonight when my aunt goes over :( #anyway this turned into a whole rant im sorry but im so mad bc i know for a FACT that a passport is a valid form of id #and he was just being a fkn dick #but the girl called me pretty and it took some stress off and she really liked my blush #and i liked hers so we had a little makeup 101 exchange and it was so nice at least 🥺 #and i have a couple cute asks to answer that have made my day as well so i’ll get to those in a few 🥰

[ohitslen]

Something something I was thinking about this afternoon over on Twitter right here

#no real meaning behind anything I just thought it would be funny #inside my head there are things that are happening beyond our comprehension. mine included. this is one of them #wouldn’t it be so cute? not to Kni maybe but to me and Vash sure is! #I used to be at the church choir when I was a kid for like a year and then never came back to it #my mom was a choir girlie her whole adolescence so it just kinda stuck with me for a little #I am not a catholic since years ago so this is double the funny bc I can barely remember anything LMAOOO #ww WILL become a priest and he will be the worst priest ever committing sacrilege after sacrilege incredibly sinful #oh religious guilt! how great I used to have loads of that one when I was a kid. it wasn’t even endorsed by my family I just thought that #hell was a scary place even if they never told me I would be punished. lucky in that aspect but they didn’t count with the fact that #I had undiagnosed adhd and anxiety so that was a hell lot of fun so let’s project yeah! #trigun #vash the stampede #nicholas d wolfwood #Kni saverem #millions knives #trigun stampede #trigun fanart #nicholas trigun #vash #wolfwood #nai trigun #Kni Trigun #church choir! AU #funniest thought ever like what the fuck even is this OQNMSKW

[thecowboykatsuki-anon]

My little sister telling me she’s not giving me any of our mom’s ashes when I ask for her to mail me ONE picture of me and my mom really feels so unnecessary.

#like I don’t have anything of hers. no good memories no photos. #I don’t even want the ashes #but she and her dad denied me the chance to get closure with my mom and now they’re denying me her ashes?? #you’ve won #if your goal is to hurt me congrats you win everytime #they wouldn’t even let me have a photo months ago and she has the audacity to give me shit about ‘finally’ asking for something of moms? #go straight to fucking hell.

[iknowwhereyousleepatnight]

what if i dropped out of school and became the clown i was born to be

#u know half the time i’m like i was born for academics then half the time i’m like someone take me out back and put me down #bc the education system hurts me i am either loving it or seconds from crying or both perhaps i should leave it and test my luck #elsewhere #maybe i would just go and work at a bakery and bake bread at 4 in the morning maybe that would give me peace (it would not) #maybe i go to clown school and let my mind have a break #but i know i would regret it bc i’m the only child who is expected to succeed and that sounds bad but my mom’s kinda put all her #eggs in one basket and i’m the one that has to go to college and become something or else i’ll be just another disappointment that she #put more time into than i’m worth #but bad decisions run in the family anyway so she wouldn’t be surprised if i became a waste of potential lmao #or maybe i’ll stay in school and try to get medicated or smth i think maybe i would be able to last if they balanced by brain out #idk man i’m kinda having a little bit of a crisis again lmao

[seilon]

surprise fuckin HAUL bro 💕💎♾️

#I got BOTH MY FAVS for the random photocards and the poster that came with hard I am SO damn lucky #I love the taemin poster so much he looks so smug and so pretty and i wanna . bite him (affectionate) #I was actually pretty surprised these weren’t like ridiculously expensive. but in general I wasn’t expecting to get these today at ALL #my mom and I were at an intl market in town and apparently there’s a kpop store there and surprisingly she let me get some stuff #which sounds so lame considering I am almost 23 but. alas. #they have the most recent shinee light stick there too and good lord I want it so bad but. it costed as much as All Of That in the picture #combined. so. :( #one day………. #I wanted to get killer/gasoline but I couldn’t spend THAT much money unfortunately #I’m glad they had 13egin honestly I was a little worried they wouldn’t cause it’s so new and infinite’s not with a big label anymore and #aren’t the most popular or new group at least in the states #that’s my first physical infinite album <3 bless #again. so lucky I got sungjong’s photocard dude. my first and only infinite album and I got My Boy. mwah #god I wanna put all this shit up but I still don’t have my own apartment and don’t wanna commit to putting up posters in a place I don’t #wanna be in for very long if I can help it #one day. hopefully sooner than later. i will have an apartment. and I will have a shelf of all my shinee albums (and albums in general). #and all my posters up. and it will be beautiful. one day. (manifesting) #kibumblabs #shinee #infinite

[andromedabyweyesblood]

my special interests as someone in the spectrum? barbie and soap operas

#i used to spend so many hours of my life as a child #reading about barbie. looking at barbies. #and also reading soap operas synopsis because my mom wouldn’t let me watch them #and she was right for it but she didn’t have the right reasons

[rivertigo]

one day I need to write my dissertation about the punk to conservative pipeline and rebellion for rebellion’s sake NOT only because of my genuine passion for the punk subculture but due to a big case study in my own father. he was what he describes as original punk or goth, who just wore black jeans, white t-shirts, and leather jackets. He has original spiked leather bracelets from the late seventies and early eighties that he would wear. He’s told me the wild stories of his youth and his rebellion, but in the end he turned out to be another conservative baby boomer. like I need to do research on this I have a hypothesis but I need to know so much more!!!

#one of the consistent slays my dad does is telling my mom to let me dress punky and goth because he was kinda like that #i wouldn’t have half the freedom I do if not for him but at the same time… major flop

[citizen-zero]

After years of my mom obsessing over my hair and forcing me to do various treatments on it and threatening punishment if I didn’t comply. I’ve come to understand why Britney shaved her head that one time. I know that was something she did as part of a mental breakdown but fuck yeah good for her. I get it.

#and the stupid bitch still doesn’t get it or maybe she refuses to #like you can’t pretend you’re just worried and you don’t understand why I’m angry when you’ve spent years strong arming me into #putting castor oil in my hair and attempting to put mayonnaise in it and I think the only thing that stopped her was my dermatologist #bc he said it wouldn’t do anything at best and also don’t put fucking condiments in your hair #but she really wanted to and I don’t remember this but she might’ve hit me over my refusal #and she’d threaten to take my phone away or deny me something else if I didn’t let her do shit #and then recently she FaceTimed me while I was at DND and tried persuading me to see an endocrinologist #like saying oh she had a friend with the same problem and went to an endocrinologist and the birth control was the issue #(never mind the fact that my BC is the reason I don’t have painful cystic acne anymore and do have a regular period again) #and she was trying to push me into going #and I kept saying I wasn’t having this conversation w her now bc I was busy and she was just like ‘so when are we going to have it’ #and basically trying to push past my boundary of I’m fucking busy and this conversation doesn’t need to happen now #I just hung up on her and went on airplane mode but fuck even thinking about it makes me so angry like I want to punch her kinds of angry #and honestly if she hadn’t kept ignoring me and hadn’t kept trying to have this conversation after I said I was busy maybe I would’ve taken #it into consideration and looked into seeing one sometime #but honestly now I absolutely fucking refuse unless my doctor and I agree it’d be a good idea #fuck off mom fuck off and mind your own fucking business #personal #erika's blog and bar

[orphyd]

Why do parents wait til the last possible second to tell you ANYTHING-

#like I’m soooooooo mad #my mom literally texts me bright and early this morning so buy a couple more things for thanksgiving tomorrow #didn’t ask me if I had the money which i DONT #didn’t ask me if i worked which i DO #like i literally don’t get out until 9:30PM when everything will be closed #you had literally like 3 other days you could’ve let me know #i worked a double Monday so i wouldn’t have been able to swing it #and Tuesday i was off but out doing other shit like why #anyway rant over #nia.txt

[campirebites]

yea sure ok everything sucks but I just made myself a little lunch for tomorrow in my little bento box sooo… checkmate

#it doesn’t fit in my Pokémon lunchbox tho so that’s kind of my 13th reason #I’m joshing you #my sodie wouldn’t have also fit so I would’ve been exceeding lunchbox capabilities anyway #I included lil chocolates and some cookies because I am a good boy who deserves treats #brain worms have been so bad today I am rlly proud of myself for packing my lunch #Now let’s hope I remember it tombow #tomorrow #even if I don’t I have an hour lunch so I have time to come back and get it :) #brain still go bleh but I think I’m gonna put a deposit down on my next tattoo #I need something to look forward to and it’s a lil ‘congrats on ur new job’ @ myself #any my aunt sent me money for new work clothes but my mom ordered me new work shirts that’ll be here tomorrow sooo…… #thanks for covering the deposit u ableist bitch <3 #anyway I am ranbling it’s the brain worms #BUT I had an idea for a space au fic for two of my favorite existing ocs <3 #my little gay babies I love them #if u read this far I am giving a big hug #camsmusings

[gwyoi]

I feel so sick because of stress and no sleep. When my alarm goes off I will take pictures and post my old keurig, my side table, and a purse onto Facebook marketplace. and then when I get off work I’ll try and see if I have any other clothes that are valuable to sell. And I’ll charge and clear my switch and post that too. I could maybe even just have my bed on the floor and sell mt bed frame. The sad thing is even if this helps me I know something will happen later that will set me back even further. I can’t even afford to live anymore. I feel like I have a good job and I’m learning a lot from the people there but I’m so stressed out about basic needs that I can’t even work. I get sick and can’t recover fast enough because my body is under so much stress. I don’t sleep because I’m stressed. I can’t really take it anymore guys

#gwon #if I moved back with my mom she def wouldn’t let me keep Cricket #I would probably feel even more stress from her presence and feel like a failure. I don’t think I could do that #I can’t even afford to move somewhere cheaper. I also don’t think I would be able to find a cheaper place that is so close to work #I don’t even buy things for myself anymore and I don’t go out. I don’t do anything except rot in my room in stress #I’m so. I’m just over it all. if I got a second job I know I would probably kms. I’m so weak #I hate myself for not doing better #okay sorry done now. I should try and relax slightly before I have to do stuff and get ready for work

[the-magic-school-bus]

i made the fatal mistake of speaking to my sister when our mom was at work aka when im her target which means she does everything in she can to push my buttons, and i reacted, like an idiot

#i am not supposed to react #i’m supposed to leave #my stupid processing time just made me realize #she said that little brother A can have a bad day because little brother B has a bad day every other day #i was like #wait what did you say #he’s been doing so good #and i wouldn’t let her brush it off #AND NOW #she knows that’s one of my buttons #which means every time our mom works #if i’m around her #she’ll try to trigger me again #so she can act like the victim

[makkie-is-screaming]

so Friday night I’m leaving this concert, its like 12:30am n I’m with my mom, sister, n cousin. We stayed for a bit after waiting to see the band so when we left most of the crowd had left. My mom wanted to get a picture of me sis n cousin outside the venue bc it was a pretty building, n when she was taking it we noticed two creepy ass dudes. One was some old homeless dude n idc if it’s rude to say he was creeping me out, but that was a creepy smile n everyone else agreed w me. There was another dude with a guitar that looked like in his 30s n kinda ran off down the street in front of us, n as we passed him he said “hey ladies.” My cousin said “uh uh” at the same time my mom said “hell no” n we all kinda stared rushing down the street, n he started following. So we take off towards the parking garage n this bitch start getting faster n the WE GET STUCK at a crosswalk as this man is taking off towards us bitch as soon as the light turned I became a track star. We got to the stair well for the parking garage bc that was the only way in n my mom fucking took off up the shit, n I look back to see the guy at the end of the street so I ran in, my mom n cousin were both in front n my sister was behind me smacking my back telling me to hurry the whole time. N those stair, holy fuck, three flights and the whole second one was covered n piss so I’m just trying not to slip on piss. I hit the top n took off past everyone, then got to the car n started screaming for my on to unlock it. The concert itself was really fun, and I got to make fun of my cousin for rolling up to an emo concert it sweats and a Nike hoodie.

tldr: I got chased but some creep from a concert venue to a parking garage, got away safe

#Also there was a bar next to the venues building with a ton of dudes hanging outs wide of it #n they were full on leering at us as we rushed past when we were being chased #N like cmon dude we’re all very obviously high schoolers wtf #now I’m making a plastic shank so next time I go to a concert I have something that will get through a metal detector #my mom had one but wouldn’t let me make one until this happened n she’s like ykw go for it #it’s gonna have hello kitty stickers #it so funny bc I’m the pictures my mom took im side eyeing the dude #mmm think that’s it #screaming

[awek-s]

ohhhh desperately need to leave this house before i kill myself I fear it’s coming 🤣🤣

#had kind of a huge fight w my mom over like mental #illness and like I ended up letting out all the anger I feel at the fact that she didn’t take me to the hospital to get diagnosed when I was #15 despite me begging her to. so I had to wait til I went to university to get diagnosed. which is 90% of the reason I’m struggling to live #so much nowadays. and obviously she was like. uh I don’t remember that! and the more detail I told her the quieter and less defensive she #got. bc she knows I’m right. #this all started bc one of her friends’ older son just got diagnosed w schizophrenia and she was like if that was me I wouldn’t have stuck #by him so long I would’ve kicked him out long ago . and I snorted and I was like yeah I know you wouldn’t have just like you didn’t for me #nd I told her to just stop talking about shit she doesn’t know fucking anything about. bc obviously she doesn’t think her friend’s son is #actually sick. im talking SICK sick like meds won’t work and he keeps getting in serious trouble w the law. and my mom is an asshole she #thinks all sick ppl use it as an excuse bc she thinks only her life experiences are valid #im soo fucking sick of it #I’ve wasted my entire life trying to educate her about shit and it just doesn’t stick she just goes and babies herself and im miserable #for my entire existence #I can’t do it anymore like any of it I want to get out of here and live my stupid life #without somebody who reminds me every day that they think I’m a waste of existence lmao #mrow.org