#my entertainment was drawing for hours bc I could do that on printer paper my mom got from work with a pencil

[just-rogi]

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#my roomate and I were talking earlier and I mentioned how hard it was growing up broke #bc it was just my mom rasing me on a teacher’s salary while paying off all the debt my dad left her in and all the lawyers #and how it really messed up my relationship to money bc my mom was always working and I was always aware of how much everything costed #and how we never went on vacation once or ever bought expensive things #or got new toys #and how even tho life was really hard for a lot of reasons growing up having no money was just kind of a slap in the face #and my roomate said ‘yeah but really would money have made it better?’ #and like god wtf yes of COURSE it would have #like she was from this really rich white neighborhood growing up and we had similar childhoods #except her mom was lower middle class #and she told me about how when times were really tough her grandmother would give her $50 a week allowance to teach her about money #and I wanted to scream #bc I just finished telling her about how a few weeks ago my grandmother was on the brink of tears #and just kept telling me ‘I wish I could have done more i wish it was more I’d pay for every class at college if I could’ #when she gave me $300 for my college graduation/move in gift #and i KNOW she had been saving that up for the whole time I was in college #‘would all those things have really made you happy as a child’ idk but it would have been nice to have had the option #my entertainment was drawing for hours bc I could do that on printer paper my mom got from work with a pencil #and I’m happy now I’m good and I’m really genuinely in a much better place #but man the level of entitlement rich white middle class kids have is frustrating #bc even tho our childhoods were so similar in a lot of ways money really made a massive difference #i like my roommates and this isn’t me shitting on them #but also tumblr is the only place no one follows me on so I can be bitchy #like I really love my roommates and they are my good friends I just wanted to vent and be a bitch