#moved in a couple of days ago

[stargirl230]

First (official) day of college!

super nervous haha, wish me luck

(no reposts!)

#my art #artists on tumblr #digital art #original art #guys. holy shit i'm in college #moved in a couple of days ago #i already found a group of Queer Friends!!! #never really had that before!!! #it feels very coming-of-age movie #but also i haven't had time to properly cry yet... #and i miss my cat :( #oh also what they do not tell you about college is the walking #so. much. walking #my legs are going to fall off #hm what else #i read some class syllabi today and freaked out #it's weird bc my mood swings go from happy to anxious to randomly TIME TO TEAR UP #ough i'd give a kingdom for the power of teleportation to bring me home for a bit #and also to just teleport to my classes haha pls my feet #in the wise words of a friend: #stay silly stay silly stay silly

[clouvu]

Nothing in the world belongs to me But my love, mine, all mine

#genshin impact #arlecchino #peruere #clervie #ouhhhhhhhh im never gonna be able to emotionally recover from watching that animated short #ever since it came out a couple days ago just thinking of these two makes me feel like my heart is physically being ripped in half #i cant stop thinking about how Clervie was the only person in Arlecchino's life that she truly loved #like dont get me wrong Arlecchino loves her children in her own detached-fucked up way as much as any person with her amount of trauma can #but Clervie meant so much to her that even just her presence alone kept Arle's curse at bay #and it seems that no one other than Clervie herself has ever been able to break this unemotional/detached wall that Arle has put up #and maybe no one else ever will #DONT GET ME WRONG I still fw arle x other female harbingers like that shit is still peak #but oh my god the idea that arle never moved on after clervie's death and will never love anyone the way she loved her makes me want to SOB

[egberts]

posting without context but this took an embarrassingly long time and i got lazy with the bg because at the end of the day it’s all about the ocs baybee

#mostly rosie’s dress goes crazy for me #and the three wolf moon shirts #there are a couple things i would change now but eh moving on #actually i already moved on lmfao i finished this days ago #but i keep going back to look at it like 🤩 which is a nice feeling to have about ur own art #so im posting it even tho its random ocs nobody knows about #my art

[geocitie]

🦈🦐🦑🪼

#kanata shinkai #enstars #ensemble stars #shinkai kanata #fanart #my art #this took several days bc i havent been feelimg good ... i was sposed to move out a couple days ago but it got delayed! so i had time #to draw smt else! #im gonna start using a wheelchair soon so i wanted to make smt to make me feel better :3 #being totally transparent here in my og lineart i totally traced a wheelchair png =_= theyre too complicated.

[stoatsaturday]

behold the Aerialist, professional climber of very tall things, taker of zero fall damage, deliverer of impossible messages, and perhaps most importantly, beloved emotional support rat,

#theyve got the range #stoart #stocs #2023 #the aerialist #through misted glass #rain world #rain world oc #rainworld #slugcat #slugcat oc #iterator #iterator oc #all from a couple days ago in various stages of completion i just finished em all up today.. been meaning to post these guys for a while #the top image was mostly just figuring out how their gliding membrane looks when theyre not. Gliding jhsgDH #wrinkled beast. wet blanket #their entire deal is being very mobile when moving Upwards and when jumping through the air- they can climb fast and jump far #but they are far from graceful on the ground and not very strong..

[mildmayfoxe]

yknow it is crazy to think about how much i have been able to improve my quality of life by selling art as a supplementary form of income. like obviously it's a second job and it's taxing but it's also so rewarding to know how much people enjoy my work and how much good it is doing me to like, feel like i can buy snacks at the store. to be able to get takeout every once in a while. like obviously those are extremely minor changes or things most people take for granted but to me it's huge. having berries in the house when they're out of season and more expensive. buying things for CONVENIENCE??! it feels so crazy to me to have such a sense of luxury which i know says more about the bleak feeling of poverty that's followed me around my entire adult life than anything else but i feel so much gratitude that i am afforded these small luxuries at least in part because of people that like my art. not to mention how nice is is to make things consistently again when, prior to 2020, i hadn't made art regularly in almost a decade. anyway. it's cool!

#of course there are extenuating circumstances! i finished my student loans in 2020 with help from family #i moved to a cheaper place in 2020. i get paid more now than i did then; even though i'm only working four days a week #obviously i am not RICH; i cannot afford to live by myself. housing here is crazy. but i can buy MEAT at the STORE #not only do i have SNACKS in the house i also have MULTIPLE KINDS! do you know how crazy that is. #and now of course a lot of it is combatting my wicked sense of guilt for buying anything i dont 'need'. like snacks. #but obviously i still buy them i just make myself feel bad about it for a while first. lmao #i mean i haven't done my taxes for 2023 yet who knows maybe i'll be hit with some big fees and i'll take this all back #but idk you gotta be grateful. anyway i think i'm gonna order pizza later #chatpost #i used patreon money to buy a new desk chair a couple years ago. a NEW one!! not one from the street!

[ghosting-fox]

you all know that audio from bladerunner? "you look lonely i can fix that"?? my brain wouldn't let me rest until i haven't drawn that with Sun n Moon

but jokes aside, really self-indulgent comic bc both Security Breach and Ruin came out when i was at a low point mentally and helped me greatly just be able to move forward and get through each day (and i won't even be getting into how much these 2 fictional robot jesters have helped me refind my passion for drawing)

i really hope that more people can relate to this :))

#anyways i mean it when i say my brain wouldn't rest until i whipped my pencil out n started drawing #tbh i stumbled upon the audio waaay back like 5-6 months ago?? #but just now like literally just now i though #damn that REALLY fits Sun n Moon #i think it might be bc this semester was really stressful for me #and this last month has been hell #i was honestly drained physically and mentally #but i managed to go through each day and move forward #n just when my whole energy was running out n just when i had a couple of days left where i had to work more than my body could carry #right then Ruin came out and it was like;; really a breath of fresh air #my brain was suddenly thinking about the lore and theories and not anymore stressing abt projects and exams #while i still had to work Ruin gave me a push to be able to finish what i had to do #now i'm taking a small 2 week break where i'm gonna go easier with uni work and letting my body heal itself :)) #but anyways enough rambling n everything #i really hope more of y'all can relate to this comic :)) #now onto the tags #fnaf daycare attendant #fnaf superstar daycare #sundrop #moondrop #fnaf sun #fnaf moon #moondrop x y/n #sundrop x y/n #tw eye contact #doodles #traditional doodle #comic #Ghost doodles

[felizusnavidad]

thinking about alexander longing for something to be a part of hamilton & and nina you are gonna change the world someday rosario, but also about my past & my future & i feel like i can finally see... the light?

#no i don't have a plan #no i have no idea where i'm going #but i have... ideas? #last couple weeks have been horrible to me but i feel like i've also learned a lot about myself & who i am & who i've always been #it's crazy to think that i may actually find the answer #it's all still so unclear #i don't know where i'm going yet #but i am going #and just a few days ago i was like #i can't move the mountains i can't make the flowers bloom i can't take another night up in my room waiting on a miracle #but today i am very much like #i would move the mountains make new trees & flowers grow someone please just let me know where do i go i am waiting on a miracle #i am ready come on i'm ready #(and that someone is me) so like #full of hope #for some reason #and what's crazy about it is that i've been inspired by so many things & people #my friend who's older than me went to college this year #maybe it's not too late for me #my prison gang is always so supportive & i love them so much they have no idea #my sister who's always proud of me no matter what #all those people who believe in me even if they don't even know me (i am also talking about you daisy anon you actually gave me some ideas) #my other irl friends #and music and musicals and art and... lin #oh wow this is so chaotic #but like... everything that's around me makes me feel much stronger than i've ever been #and i know i can find the right path & change my life #i will find my thing & maybe it's even closer than i think #talking shit for the hell of it*

[tea-cat-arts]

There is something deeply wrong with Roland and I'm kinda obsessed

#vanitas no carte #the case study of vanitas #vanitas no carte roland #roland fortis #Ya I watched the first 7 episodes of this series like a year ago and then forgot about until a couple days ago. Move along #In my defense- thats all they had dubbed at the time #Anyways I watched the whole series #Maybe I'll read the manga. Maybe #I actually bought a couple volumes a year or so ago to use as art references #They're very pretty #I should probably reread pandora hearts too #Read it back in middle school and I remember liking it #But that's about all I remember from it lol

[kathrynmjaneway]

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#still wild to me that i am in a relationship #itll be 3 months next week and i am obsessed with him than ever #i never couldve imagined itd actually be like this but it is literally everything i ever wanted #hes sooooo kind #and sweet and i could gush about him all day long #i mentioned in front of two of his friends how im planning to buy a ps5 in the next couple months bc i only have Nintendo consoles #and i wanna play other games #and his two friends where like well why arent you getting a gaming pc????? #important note here: they all are gaming nerds and they are all like IT guys incl my boyfriend #and i explained that its just the easiest way and that im not really a pc gamer #(but important note here is that my bf has hi gaming pc set up on his tv and plays with a controller exclusively and i do vibe with that) #and then all 3 basically were like we will literally build you a gaming pc ourselves so you dont buy a ps5!!!! #that was 2 days ago. #yesterday my boyfriend showed me his research into possible gaming pc set ups for me that would be within a certain budget #while still being definitely more than good enough #and he explained some things to me and asked my opinions #and now im sat here like ok 🥺 #i think ill let my boyfriend build me a gaming pc #mind you i wasnt planing on getting a ps5 before fall the earliest bc im planning on moving soon and money and all that #but hes already planning and gathering ideas #while still understanding why i initially wanted a ps5 (less money and i have no idea about gaming pc set ups) and leaving it fully up to me #i am also now at exactly 100 hours into elden ring with him as my backseater #which means end game shit #i am currently switching between trying to win against Malenia Mogh lord of blood and radagon #its........ going #i maxed out my number of flasks and charges?? is that what its called #and i got my +10 staved and sword/catana #its still super fun but hoh boy #the rush of adrenaline when i finally beat godfrey and my boyfriend was so hapoy for me too it was honestly super fucking adorable #personal

[kiealer]

Happy Birthday, Best Girl!

i love her very much

#║ ✰〳art. #║ ✰〳ninazu. #[ i will do my very best to be here today #but i JUST moved a couple days ago and i had an important meeting today #but just know that i love ninazu very VERY much; she's my precious angel #and she deserves to have a fantastic day ] #║ ✰〳queue.

[multicolour-ink]

Out of all the villagers to replace Kidd why did it have to be the yeti ape???

#he moved in a couple days ago #LISTEN I apologise if he's anyone's favourite #but he's creepy to me #animal crossing #animal crossing villagers #animal crossing new horizons #new horizons #acnh #acnh villagers #hans

[lexicals]

I have finally finished The Brown Expanse and am onto the end patterned section. Josie is thrilled about this because maybe if I stop fucking around with this thing it'll stop taking up her spot on my lap (she doesn't know about the 3 further projects I have queued up)

#wastepaper basket #Accidental reveal of the sonic game I bought a couple of days ago. It's p good it's fun to kinda mindlessly run around in y’know #Feels nice to move around jn #knits

[sailor-aviator]

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#y'all my anxiety has me spiraling as of late because it just feels like my whole life is falling apart at this point #i got fired from my job a couple of months ago and i've been scrambling to try and find a new one #i work part time at a store i really love but it pays shit #and i've had all of these interviews and no one wants to hire me and i just feel unhireable at this point and it's hard not to despair #and on top of that i'm struggling with my self esteem again #i know i'm not ugly per se but i'm struggling with feeling confident in the way i look as a big girl #and all of my old insecurities are rearing their ugly heads and i want to cry just thinking about it #and i feel like such a failure right now even though i know that life has its ups and downs but my stupid brain just won't chill #and i don't really have any friends in the area because they all either moved away or didn't live here to begin with #and i'm tired of living at home because of my stupid student loans and not being able to afford to live on my own #i have one person i hang out with and we just met and i don't want to scare them off because they're a great friend and person #and i just feel like i'm never going to meet anybody who's going to love me the way i want to be loved because of my looks #also because it's me. and i feel like i'm so flawed as a person that no one will ever fall in love with me #and i've just been feeling really alone lately and i'm trying to do things to make me feel better but it's just so HARD right now #and i love writing because it gives me a chance to explore some of my feelings and it's something i genuinely love to do #and i'm sitting here waiting for the day things start to get better. and i know we all joke and i'm gonna sounds so dumb for saying this #but i feel like i was meant to be famous? or do something great idk and it's something everyone has always told me #and idk if my feelings of inadequacy are because of that or what but i'm scared that my life is going to mean nothing in the end #anyway this was a lot and you can pretend like you didn't read it. i just wanted to write some of my feelings down

[mearcatsreturns]

welp, I think an old (and I mean old) fic archive I used to read on has bitten the dust. I was thinking about a fic I used to read on there so I could download it to read another time, and I had to dig to find the site...only to get error messages. fortunately, it’s on ff.net, so I was able to find it, but I’d hoped for an easier time of downloading. there were also plenty of other fics there I probably should have downloaded. 

so here it is: friendly reminder to download your favorite fics whenever you think about it, because you never know when an archive or author will no longer be there

#pdfs and epubs have the most stability #I snooped around and someone else posted on reddit a couple days ago that they couldn't access the site either #so it does appear to be gone #I just feel so sad knowing some fic is probably lost forever #not everyone moved to ffn or ao3