#lol am i scary <3

[pixelatedraindrops]

This is a commission that I received from FTAngel on Twitter. And I am completely over the moon for it!! Its just so perfect that it makes me wanna SCREAM 💜💜💜💕💕💕👀👀👀👏👏👏

~Rambling below~

I don't commission other people to make art for me often (let alone fanart) but if I do, I always tend to try to find an artist with a style similar to the fandom of the request that I want done. So it feels all the more canon and/or real to me.

Full Time Angel is a Danganronpa fan artist who does just as nice RainCode work. I decided that for my birthday I had to get a commission from them. (well actually I asked for 2) I failed to get a commission slot the first round, but I somehow succeeded the second round. (which is why it’s a month late)

I was a little shy at first, but I decided to take the plunge to ask them for this. I needed a good pic of a tired/sick Yuma laying on Yakou's lap for my life to feel complete. You know I live for these two's dynamic, they’re literally my roman empire 💜

And I gotta say, investment well spent! This is such an amazing piece! It came out so wonderful, it may as well be official!! >w< Yakou and Yuma look like they're pulled straight from their sprite art! And the detail on the background is phenomenal! Love the blur effects on the both the plant and the background behind the sofa! I'm so happy with it!! I could say so much more praise about this lovely work, but I’ll stop here.

Bottom Line: I’m in so much love with this! 🥰 💕

Best Birthday art gift to myself ever! ✨👌

This was originally supposed to be an illustration for HIWTHI’s Ch7, but nah I decided to make it a different scenario. Maybe someday I’ll write it’s own little oneshot/drabble c:

Feel free to interpret this however you want. Be it as Yakou Fathero, or a sweet domestic moment between two submates.

And as for the second piece...

Don't worry. You'll see it real soon… 🤭

#whumpcode #not my art #rain code #mdarc #master detective archives: rain code #yuma kokohead #yakou furio #yakou fathero #art made for me #sick comfort #SO YEAH BEFORE ANY OF YA’LL SIDE EYE ME SEEING THIS ON TWITTER #YES I DID ASK FOR THIS COMMISSION OKAY #who else would lmfao -w- #its so obvious that its almost embarrassing x'D #its also scary how someone on twitter already recognizes it from HIWTHI #I guess im famous now? lol #either way yes I am so happy w this for real :3 #birthday money well spent hehe~ #danganronpa cg looking event #just picture one of the master detectives walking in to see this #its too cute I love these two and this whole team so MUCH?? #also yeah you’ll see the second one soon… #very very soon… :3c

[fairweathermyth]

MR. SUNSHINE + episode two [Dong-mae introduction]

#tvedit #mrsunshineedit #kdramaedit #perioddramaedit #mr. sunshine #goo dong-mae #gu dong-mae #yoo yeon-seok #made by carolyn #really appreciating this character intro on rewatch #so appropriate for THE number one edgelord on the show #to be like... i HAVE to make sure this child knows that i am cool and scary and important and dangerous #wait i'm worried she thinks i'm just muscle like those idiots inside... #hey little kid in case you didn't know i'm actually the scary guys' BOSS. are you impressed NOW??? #but like so chill about it obviously for sure for sure for sure #tbh i probably didn't catch the cringe first time around because i was distracted by how hot he is lol #if i knew his birthday i'd gift him a comically large World's Specialist Edgelord mug <3

[burinazar]

Oh, wait, wait, ok, I can tell tumblr my news now.

I was accepted into the JET Program and will be moving to Japan for one year starting in late summer to teach English. : )

I don't know how many other applicants have ever had either of my specific application 'angles'. I think they were both pretty weird, but also very, very me, and I'm pleasantly surprised that they seemed to have worked, going off both by the acceptance and the very positive and warm reactions I got during the interview I had. These were:

Science/scicomm/museum background + implying mutual interest in and love of like insects and sea life could be an avenue of intercultural connection and exchange

India and Japan have always struck me as weirdly similar in ways nobody seems to discuss, especially in both being simultaneously hurtling into modernity and deeply traditional/conservative in many ways and places

So. Is this a silly idea considering most people in this program are fresh college grads, and people my age are expected to maybe be getting more settled rather than hopping continents? Is this a scary idea, considering I'll have to uproot all my shit and go exist in a foreign country whose language I really don't know beyond miniscule smatterings? I mean, hmm, yes on both counts, but I'm very excited. On count one, I'd only get older in the future and demonstrably *don't* already have a settled life and career here to disrupt (lol), and on count two...guys, I'm so so tired of letting fear and inertia make my life decisions.

Time to pack up and store most of my shit and end my lease and. Yeah. Also I haven't actually been to India in five years and will probably try to visit my relatives there in the coming months since idk if i'd had an opportunity for a prolonged visit in the future during the one year (at least) in jp. I'll also be probably selling, trading, or giving away a lot more of my hobby shit (that was sort of an ongoing project already but since I'll be unable to use most of it for a year plus it's another reason to do so), so uh, if you've ever wished I would sell any of my dolls now might be time to commit BJD Hobby Taboo and ask me lol. And, obviously, I'll be studying more Japanese, because mine is incredibly へたくそ at the moment. So much to do. But I'm really excited. And thank you to all of y'all that have been encouraging to me about anything related to this matter <3

#i don't know where they'll put me but i asked for ibaraki prefecture #during my research i became really endeared by the idea of The Prefecture Everyone Thinks is Ugly and Boring lol #seems like a good combo of 'not too far from urban things + cost of living + genuinely there ARE nice natural and cultural things there' #they could put me anywhere though lol #already one of my fandom friends from there wants to meet up ;; im so flattered #im obviously not going there to do doll and fandom bullshit but that stuff will be a nice bonus in off time #i have very little idea on what to expect specifically re japanese attitudes to south asian people and am interested to find out #and maybe be a bunch of kids' first exposure to both americans and south asians and like immigrants as a concept : 3 #keeping my expectations tempered though. It Could Suck #but it'll suck in a novel way and truly i thrive on novelty even though often i take the easy and familiar path to try to protect myself #just. aaAAAAAAAaaaaaaaaaa scary but exciting im so excited

[goodmotorfinger]

#I have yet to seamlessly insert myself into the big scary world of motorsports tumblr so it's very nice to have y'all around lol #ty for tolerating my incoherent sleep deprived race day liveblogs <3 #non-motorsports mutuals (majority) you will see me blogging car related gibberish at ungodly hours. I am sorry about that

[keeps-ache]

mmgh

#just me hi #poll #i am giving this. 5 seconds hfsh #i have to make a choice!! oo scary #going back to colouring and shading. when i come back (when i remember i made this more like lol) i'll go with whatever happens to be highe #atm ! #so yea :3 be back soooon ooo

[mainfaggot]

hi guys my lower back hurts like a mf and the world almost ended 9 times today but it didn't and im okay and it's fine and having an anxiety disorder is stupid as fuck. lol. LMFAO even

#so basically. #bc my usual commute involves train -> bus -> ride home from bus stop #and my dad who usually gets me isnt able to this week #i had to rely on someone else to get me but their work doesn't end till 7 #so i left uni at 4 and was like damn what am i doing for 3 hours? #(not fucking studying) (too tired 4 that bc i already spent 4.5 hours studying) #so i went grocery shopping alone. lol. for fun. it was scary #i got lost on my way there because i had to take two different buses and walk in a different part of the city #it was a diff suburb i was confused #every time i was on the verge of panic crying i figured out how to proceed with the situation bc it worked itself out conveniently #i survived. #z.post

[orcelito]

My druid has "fuckboy" written all over her

#speculation nation #shes a druid but she does Not look it. nor does she act like it really. #druid stuff exists to beef myself up as a front liner (spores druid ftw) #and to act as an excuse like 'whaaaat why r u so suspicious of me im a druid 🥺🥺🥺 i just want what's best for nature 🥺🥺🥺' #meanwhile here i am hogging ALL the worms we manage to find (or. well. most of them.) #bc im going full ham into my powers lol theyre so useful #this is a game of pressing Every button and seeing what happens. yet still going along the lines of good? approximately? #it very much does feel like the kind of thing a druid drow would do. willing to consort with the darkness #but still ultimately striving for peace and order. #i am just perhaps a little bug-brained to accomplish this :3 #ive been playing a Lot of bg3. progressing well through act 2. everything is so very scary and i am just 1 druid 🥺 #(i say as if i havent killed literally every single enemy ive come across. im so fucking good at this game.) #the house of healing was by far my least favorite part (so far). that boss battle was TERRIBLE but i managed to get through it. #according to my friends they just talked their way out of it. not me tho. i saw that guy strapped to the table and i was just like #'GET FUCKED BRO' *casts moonbeam* *proceeds to get the shit stabbed outta me* #holy shit he did so much damage. and he was focused ONLY ON ME....... #took me and shadowheart both healing to keep up with the damage he was doing (while astarion and karlach did most of the attacking) #but i did it! hes gone! but holy shit poking around his stuff has been so. eugh. #im in the towers now. so scary. just barely started them tho. gonna look for the prisoners and then proceed from there. #that ketheric dude is fucking terrifying. so big scared about him. but All Men Die The Same 😈 #.....well maybe not exactly the same given his 'immortality' thing 😂 but i'll figure it out. #anyways yea check out taltana im going for a mixed feminine and masculine kinda vibes with her. and enjoying it very much. #bg3 spoilers/

[hecksupremechips]

Honestly though I think it’s really a bad sign when I look at Shin Tsukimi and literally feel like he’s a self insert 😩

#the klock keeps ticking #yttd #i wanna replay yttd so bad but i also like Gotta play other stuff with the time i have akskks #but yeah the brainrot this specific character has given me idk if I ever really talked about it but it was BAD #i like obsessively played the game in like 3 days and it was not a good idea lol but just like shin #i had to take like a week to recover from this guy cuz i couldnt stop thinking about him and how hes just like me fr #first off just the very inconsistent personality hes got going on that is very me he has these different personalities he wears to cope with #all the traumatic shit happening hes both so helpless its comical and so manipulative its terrifying #and idk its really interesting how like good and bad he is at being manipulative like hes very smart and can analyze weaknesses and lie so #good not even he knows the truth but hes also grasping at straws he doesnt think things through at all #like the second main game he just didnt prepare at all hes fumbling his way through everything its going so bad #he just wants to go home he wants to outdo the game makers but hes being used by them so bad he wants it to STOP #and its just the way that like. it hits so hard cuz you know hes really not a bad person not at all he doesnt want any of this hes just #being horribly manipulated and doing whatever he can to survive but its also really scary how #well hes able to lie and manipulate and claw his way through but hes also weaker than a grade schooler #and you never forget that either and as much as he cheated his way through he still failed it was all just a cheap trick in the end #and all of this hits very hard like his personality is eerily similar to mine and just the way he thinks and acts #cuz im the same like im weak and a dweeb who likes funny cats but im also emotionally detached and observant and selfish #but where it hits the hardest is his relationship with midori like oooof that one was too real just like #the first person who was ever his friend was horribly abusive and treated him like a child and didnt respect any boundaries #and he just got sick pleasure out of seeing shin be upset and he was like. a groomer #and shin was fucking relieved when he died but also kept his scarf and adopted his personality to survive #and still goes by sou after ch2 and the scene that gets me the most is when shin ai is asked about his relationship with midori #and you can just SEE how horrified shin is because his deepest shame his abuse is being shared to everyone without his consent #and hes reliving it all in that moment and literally seeing who he used to be experiencing the abuse #he just curls into himself and like covers his ears and pulls his hair thats literally what i do AAAAAA #im just so grateful for the direction they took this character kokichi ouma wishes he was shin tsukimi so bad #and yeah just like damn. its scary how similar i am to shin like damn i really am going through it huh oof #I LOVE HIM I LOVE HIM I WILL DEFEND HIM WITH MY LIFE HE DID ALL OF THAT STUFF YOUR HONOR BUT LISTENNNN #have you considered that hes cute and smart and weird and maybe just needs friends who arent assholes

[cyberslug0000]

#diary #me :3 #ummmm looking kind of scary here #I am not scary I actually almost cried in the club cuz I was alone and everyone was very Cool and Trendy lol #someone said I looked like borderlands lol #cyber fashion #cyberpunk #upload #fashion #rave #rave fashion

[cordiallyfuturedwight]

hi, just stopping by to say i hope you're doing well and that your week has been a good one. i miss seeing you around these parts, that's for sure :( anyway, i love you, take care and i'll talk to you on sunday 💗

thank you for checking in on me, steph <3 and for thinking of me so many times!! i promise i will get to all my tags i’m just savoring them slowly when i come on here!!! and for talking with me even when i’m a mess 😂 you take care too, hope the week has gone well so far for you, love you!!

#asks #steph <3 #hopefully next time we won’t have sound garble and i’ll be feeling better! sorry about that lol #also am working on something for you when i have down time to distract me from the scaries <3 #I’m slow but still working in the shadows hehe

[databent]

[pained wailing emoji]

#.pdf #rd #THE REST OF THIS IS JSUT ME WHINING. FEEL FREE TO IGNORE #i dont wanna go to work ‼️‼️‼️ i feel like i am nearing a breaking point i am sofucking burnt out #every time i go to work. my brain gets Scary at me. stresses me out. dont like it ☹️ #im supposedto be going in tonigjt but im dreading it sososo much #my work hour options have changed from “fully flexible” to “7am-9pm only” whcih yeah i know that doesnt sound that bad. but i have non-24 #(circadian rhythm disorder that makes me sleep progressively later every day circling fully around the clock over ~3 weeks or so) #and bcos of it often i have to force myself out of bed in what my body thinks may as well be the middle of the night just to get to work #and then i dont ever get enough time to recover from that to actually let my sleep fall back into its natural schedule wjich is the only #time i feel properly rested. so essentially im chronically sleep deprived which is making me chronically stressed and way less productive #i just reslly really want to fucking save up a little money and just Not work for a week or two. bjt. with my sleep bullshit i cant really #work enough to be able to put anything aside. at all #so. kind of an unrealistic desire i guess. lol #ive been feeling like this ever since like early january when i was told i ahve to stick to a more normal schedule. & its only getting worse #idont know i just wishthere was something i could do that was fully flexible on timing but also doesnt havw the kind of workload that would- #-stress me out like basically anything with longer-term projects so ykmow Most flexible schedule jobs. #i do have one thing in mind i could do on my own but its dumb and probably wouldnt make much money and has startup costs i cant afford rn..

[kitonmitons]

btw my friends my requests are open indefinitely ❤️ no promises I will get to all of them, but feel free to send me a dm or ask if you ever have a request !!

#sorry in advance for not having anon on but unfortunately i can never turn it on bc of some crazy ppl LOL #but pls feel free to send an ask I promise i am not scary :3

[keeps-ache]

hobbies can be pretty scary

#art #my art #artists on tumblr #digital art #oc #not a zip file #a scary #tw scopophobia #this is kinda spoopy but also i don't know what else to tag fhvsh #lmk if i gotta add tags 👍 fvsh #//anyway just posting this now because i Finally finished the colours + background + shading + effects + text and i'll never finish it if i #don't stop now lol #//Charlie does photography :> #they especially like documenting and learning about abandoned sites #though of course that's not the safest thing to do but they enjoy it :) #/they're currently in West Warren Laboratories which was known for some funny accidents #i'm having fun coming up with the things that happened there before the main characters meet though :3 #//oh stars how am i supposed to post this on artstreet fvhshf #//okey i'm going now !! by- [vanishes] #//edit: i just realized i left one of the layers off fvshvsbfhvsjfj (fixed it rn hhh)

[karinyosa]

being trans with ocd is so fucking exhausting dude

#slash sexuality questioning i suppose #slash uestioning in general i suppose #i’ve been half in half out of every label i’ve used for like a year and a half which is very un slay #anyway i told you guys my middle name slaps did i not. and well my indecisive ass is considering making it my first name #one day i will look back on all the gender stuff i did and be glad i did it and/or ill be like this man needed to get rawed #i’m also in like closet purgatory where i’m out as QUEER to p much everyone but what type of queer varies #which may??? be fucking up my mindset in regards to all of this??? having like 3 different normals in kind of an accidental way #thinking and talking about it is exhausting but i probably should lol lmao #the name slaps though. unrelated but i am happy about that #im taking a very long time to decide on a name bc there are a bunch ive cycled through like a BUNCH and i do want to try them all #part of me is like ill only ever start to have more of a handle on this if either i start transitioning and/or live alone at some point #it will stay like this if i keep doing This #karinyo.txt #and it might not be the ocd it might be a bunch of other things (scary) but it certainly doesnt help

[gamenu]

Literally spent 18 hours in call yesterday and 17 of them playing BG3--

Did about everything I could in Act 1 and FINALLY made it to Act 2.

If I disappear it's because I'm begging and dragging @sunsburnt to do fights she doesn't wanna do-

#༼ 🌟 ooc: afk and probably eating pizza rolls ༽ #I should no be awake rn but I am #Only 3 hours of sleep BABY. #Lol man I love having weekends off #The Underdark is scary man. What the fuck is going on here #At least I finally gave baby girl Karlach that hug she deserves

[volfoss]

i think genuinely the proper nouns are the worst part of this whole massive project. its either like. the official english translations are inaccurate between material (i will NEVER not be a bit upset about lelie june's translations lol) or having to be the one to decide how to translate a certain thing INTO english. like i thankfully thought ahead to write the katakana down for each name i was unsure of but now i well. am going to have to pencil in a whole day to go and check what the kana actually mean and then make the decision of how to translate it. like obviously i could just take the kana at face value but sometimes it gets wonky. its a bit of a headache lol

#twist rambles #♟️ #sorry i have been on the grind all DAY with volfoss and its been like. definitely a thing of ok starting 2 learn katakana is going to help #me to do before i finish the guide but its so scary for me bc it does add a bit of like. heres actual knowledge and i have to figure out ho #to incorportate that into the doc. its the same thing as trying to figure out how to localize certain things or learning oh heres x or y #cultural thing and i need to take an entire paragraph to explain this to ppl who prob dont care lol but i stay silly ok <3 #the amt of time i have to like. copy paste the translation and check like 5 sources to make sure its accurate. its gonna become a LOT easie #when i learn hiragana and start on the scary kanji journey. but rn its so so terrifying for me bc like. the pressure of getting a #translation correct esp when the official eng translations are WONKY w spelling. so like... its kind of a thing where keeping the kana ther #is good but i also am like. hoping it wont be too annoying or intrusive in the guide. anyways its just 5 million translation burdens most o #the time lol. but i stay silly (and have to like talk it out a million times lol)