#like idk I use to be like really cheerful and peppy and nice and maybe I still am

[deityofhearts]

this is so funny

#deity dialogue #uhhhh #my basic deal is that like #I think I’m getting better at it I don’t try and befriend people I don’t like unless I have to (irl for work) #but like idk I’m terrified of everyone including (especially) my own friends hating me #I already do feel unwanted in these relationships especially given how past friendships have gone #but like Im doin my best like I genuinely like all the people I talk to #if you’re someone i talk to regularly or whatever I do like you #doesn’t change that I’m afraid you don’t like me #idk #Sandy just said she’s proud of me I’m gonna cry #like idk I use to be like really cheerful and peppy and nice and maybe I still am #but I have a problem with being a people pleaser and wanting to be liked so bad that I do it at my own expense #and I still do that (mostly irl and at work again) #but it’s tiring and it’s killing me and it’s caused me to be in a lot of painful toxic relationships and to also be a toxic person #and so I’m trying not to do that anymore like #idk just look at the funny screenshot #discord