#like i talk a lot about them dw

[picture-me-in-the-trees]

happy wip wednesday everyone here’s a snippet of this a quick little roy ficlet i was working on!

“Keeley, who eventually realized like everyone else that Roy—plain, simple, clingy, needy, unbearable Roy—wasn’t worthy of that kind of love.

He had convinced himself he’d never find that kind of love again. That comfort, that safety, that closeness. A person who loved him not because he was Roy Fucking Kent, but just because he was Roy. He had convinced himself being just Roy would never really be enough for anyone. But then there was Jamie.”

#i’m not really sure how i feel about this one #not a lot of royjamie in this one but i swear there’s more in the actual fic #like i talk a lot about them dw #i know what i am #anyway idk #maybe not my best work but at least it’s something #roy kent #royjamie #maybe next week i’ll do the next little bit from this idk #it was kind of a long quote this week #wip #fic #writing

[ryanthedoctor11]

Imagine a support group being created for your exes, purely to help them move on from you

#doctor who #the doctor #dr who #dw #I'm talking about the ex-companion support group in POTD #also #imagine if you just showed up #and claimed to be one of your exes #like Mel attends the group #she visits 14 a lot #I can totally imagine her dragging the Doctor and Donna into it #saying it would be “good for him” #but he doesn't want them to know who he is because it would be so awkward #so he pretends he was his own companion #and pretends that 15 telling him to go get therapy was the break up #and all the other companions see through it really quickly because he keeps on remembering or adding onto the things they all talk about #and he doesn't travel with stupid people #so it's awkward anyway (especially for him and Yaz) #someone please draw this #I've been thinking about it for months

[jils-things]

im gonna sleep soon but aaauuhguug bespren acquired + angry norton . hi milo @ttimecode

#(well. every oc my friends make are my friends! but we talked a lot abt them today hehehe) #and i love. everything we came up witu so far #reynold is like probably a big brother figure to her but they're definitely friends wwwiiiwii #he reassures her in a lot of things she doubt on and maybe its by experience or knowing his way around things that makes him so reliable #hes like. a smart. quiet man until she teases about his husbands and he EXPLODES nyeehhdhfhehehe #anyways they bond over tea hehehehe she likes tea time with mr berceuse #(I hope i SPELT THAT RIGHT) #anyway. thank u for the talk milo i really enjoyed that talk i love them so muchhhhh #~ art #everyone point at milo i got distracted from drawing other works (NOT SCHOOL DW) and he made me draw the handsome piano man!!😤😤😤 HUWAHAA #ANYWAHS WAAAGHSHASSHDH HOPING TO TINKER ABT HER MORE💚💚💚💚💚💚 #irene constantine.oc #reynold.plat #<- fuck it. platonic tag. WEGH #milo tag

[ryssbelle]

My cousins made their own troll Ocs and I drew them in my style.

They were very excited about it

#my art #not my art #both #trolls #dreamworks trolls #they had a lot of fun making these #i actually really love the color palette for princess i think my cpusin did a very good job on that #claw is something else #he is a unicorn troll #neon green was an interesting choice but hey claw is an interesting guy #is it obvious idk how to draw country trolls lmao #ever since i told them i also liked trolls we have had our own little club #im their person who they can talk to about it #they will also just sit and ask me to draw tiny diamond and guy diamond over and over and over and over and over again #they really like tiny diamond #but hey i love those little guys so i draw the trolls they demand of me #they also asked me to draw poppy and branch so they could color them #i still have to finish my viva coloring page for them #the younger of the two who made princess is really good at color picking and color matching #she colored poppy without a ref and its p accurate to her colors #the older one who made claw used the ref for every color but he got pretty close when he tried to guess #the older one also misunderstood me when i said id been practicing art since i was 5 and thought i was this good since i was 5 #he was very depressed for about 15 minutes #it was really funny but dw i assured him that was not the case #but like for those 15 min he did not believe me #even his sister was like 'nono you didnt hear it right' but he was already in the emo zone #he was fine later tho and continued on making his troll #and also proud teacher moment but i had taught princesses creator some art techniques off handedly #not expecting her to remember any of it but then she did and apparent shes been using it ever since #im like omg i actually taught another human bsing something its insane

[good-beans]

(Milgram self-insert oc masterpost hehe)

Name: For the sake of posting online I’ll call her Rose!

Color: #E7355B [the pink in the art]

Age: I guess she’d be 20 given when Milgram started huh.

Status: Milgram Staff, Machine Technician

Symbols/imagery: ballet/musical theater, science experiments

Song genre: very similar to Mahiru's, something upbeat and extra pop-y

Tentatively she's number 011? She's not really prisoner but she's also not free to come and go, so I'm not actually sure if she'd get a number (Edit: I've decided she'll actually be 012. Staff is given the 01X range, and even though Es doesn't actively have a number they'd be staff member 011, making her 012.)

Story: Since the project is supposed to be realistic/present day, the mv machine would be brand new and unpredictable tech, so they’d want someone keeping up on maintenance and making sure the brain-invasive process won’t cause any harm to the prisoners. Rose was studying abroad in Japan working on some cool neuroscience tech (irl I know nothing about technology or brains but shh) and she stumbled upon some secret tech/plans from Milgram. Long story short, she was dragged into the experiment to make sure things ran smoothly.

Writer's Reasoning: She’s really fun for me to play around with, as she allows me to work with a character who has a tiny bit of pull over Es’ mindset in conversation but not the final decision (aka mirroring the voting system), and someone who is simultaneously trapped in the prison but has a reason to see all the canon content.* I really enjoy the character interactions and dynamics Milgram has set up so far, so it’s been super fun seeing how things change for better and worse when someone not quite aligned with either Milgram/the prisoners is thrown into the mix!

*As much as I love dramatic irony in fiction, it would drive me crazy if I knew every detail of of the vds/mvs but Rose didn't – and every single Milgram character is The Worst Communicator Ever so I couldn’t justify that she’d hear it secondhand from them...

Story roles:

She’s a bit conflicted -- she’s officially Milgram staff and knows she should remain neutral on the prisoners, since she won’t be allowed to interfere with the process/executions. At the same time, her job description is literally “make sure the machine doesn't hurt them and everyone's safe :)” and she's way too emotional to avoid getting hopelessly attached to everyone 😅

I really enjoy the theory that the machine extracts videos based off of priming, so one of Rose’s duties involves listening in on the interrogation and making sure there’s been enough material discussed/not too much time has passed overall (hence the ringing of the bell happening at different lengths for each vd -- That's her ringing it :3). She then watches the mvs along with Es to make sure there are no machine glitches, and know how to calibrate it better for next time.

(IEdit: I've since decided to add in official trial mvs, but before when I wasn't ready to tackle that:) She has to run some tests on the machine to make sure things are calibrated correctly, so she'd extract little things here and there. It gives me the opportunity to think up lyric snippets and recurring symbols for her without worrying about full encompassing music videos.

I'm not afraid to admit she can fall into Mary Sue territory every so often by being everyone's friend, because it's less about "aw everyone likes her" and more about "canon is too painful rn and I need a fix-it tool to take care of these guys and give them hugs and tell them someone forgives them and cares about them and unfortunately these characters wouldn't let anyone less than a friend do that." Rest assured she's definitely not perfect and will fuck everything up on occasion :3

Miscellaneous: Whenever I play around with normal au ideas she's still working on the machine (but in a public, more ethical setting), and she's Mahiru's roommate :) Her character isn't super focused on love, but if I had to pick a cover song it'd be Stickybug II. It's very much my vibe, the lyrics fit well enough (better than most songs, at least lol) and it's one of my favorites out of my limited knowledge of unchosen Deco songs! (Edit, I've actually given her non-deco cover songs hehe)

So yeah, I hope she's not too boring without a cool crime to decipher, but I wanted to share since I was really proud of her! It took a bit of tinkering to find a way to fit her into a perfect secret-third-thing role that runs very smoothly with all of canon, so I was very excited!

#waaahh posting before i chicken out #I've never posted about a self-insert so please be kind lmao 😅 #i dont expect a ton of hype for her but if people have questions im always down to talk about her hehe #this is my only art -- i rarely draw oc stuff but i was really happy with how this came out #i definitely dont think shed get a number or those side rune straps by canon standards but the art wouldnt look right without them #im mad that the lab coat and gloves make her look a bit like shidous design :/ i definitely wanted more scientist vibes than doctor #dw she wears her PPE when she works on the machine 😤 #yeah yeah theres some shipping aspects sue me -- but genuinely its mostly for fun character studying and fix-its #mkdr and neoneon also hold a special place in my heart but i didnt want to double up on covers #im so sad because she just. doesnt fit into LCSyS #the machine is fake in the au so shed have no opportunity to join the experiment #plus even if i made her generic staff shed just be on the receiving end of the lie with es... which is just canon until the very end adfsdf #WOO huge thank you to kyanako5972 and purgemarchlockdown for enabling me to be annoying once again >:3 #and thank you gunsli!! our chat was the first time i ever talked about her and it really gave me a lot of confidence :') #not maintagging but i will edit for organizational tags later #i also may put this on my writing blog at some point but we'll see #my art #rose posts #ocgram #milgram

[quietwingsinthesky]

oh, yeah, another thing i noticed that was odd about s5 in comparison to earlier seasons was how much they relied on like. not the history of the doctor, exactly, but the image of that history. whether from little easter eggs of the first doctor’s picture popping up everywhere to i think the two(?) times in the season we get a montage of past doctors. and i honestly can’t remember anything like that happening earlier (with the exception of the time crash short, which felt more substantial to me and was also like. 7 straight minutes of david tennant being allowed to fangirl.)

and i say ‘the image’ because hell knows the RTD era was pulling from doctor who past left, right, and center, but it rarely felt like a moment of ‘look at this old thing, you remember old thing? old thing was cool and so are we for continuing it.’ and more like ‘here’s a species/character/etc from classic who. and here’s how they’ve changed and fit into the new world we’ve built for the show.’

I guess, the difference here for me is that. i haven’t watched classic who. s5 shows me a slideshow of doctors and to me, those are the guys i once ranked by how sexy i think they are. and not much else. i don’t have an emotional connection to an image. but take, say, school reunion? an episode that was my favorite even back when i was a kid specifically because i adored sarah jane? i had no idea who she was then, i only just figured out a little bit ago which doctor she traveled with, and exclusively all i’ve watched of her is that episode in s2 and the sarah jane adventures. and yet, that episode, without the context there for me, managed to make sense to me. i’m sure it was probably even more impactful to fans of sarah jane from classic who, but it didn’t lose its impact without that knowledge.

so, that’s a shift. i don’t want to say it’s a negative one, exactly, because maybe people who have seen classic who like these references and i’m missing something. but, to me, it feels a little more shallow.

#sorry if i kept talking about sarah jane and school reunion we’d be here all day. her reintroduction to nuwho is phenomenal. #even without classic who. you get it. you get what the doctor did to her. you understand how much it hurt her. by giving her time with rose #we’re able to use what we know about rose to parallel her with sarah jane and infer that sarah jane was a lot like her once. it’s good! #and seeing pictures of the first doctor is like. very funny because he’s a silly little guy. but i don’t know that man. #but yeah. another example i’d put out there is Dalek. and yes everyone loves dalek we all know its good. but. without the context of classic #who. this was the choice of how to reintroduce the daleks to the audience. not as silly tin can killing machine. but as this. this wretched #and pitiable thing that dies to see the sunlight. this monster that is. in its last moments. capable of change. however small. #(a theme that i think links up well to evolution of the daleks in s3. i think its interesting how we’re invited to see the daleks first as #beings that have had a great and terrible injustice done to them. (in episode: the dalek being chained up and tortured. in a wider context: #how daleks are made at all.) before we’re introduced to them as a galaxy-wide threat intent on inflicting that same suffering on the rest of #the universe.) #MY POINT IS: nuwho and classic who mix well when the classic who elements are reintroduced in a way that makes sense both for people with #the back knowledge of classic who (and maybe they get even more out of it) while ALSO makign sense to people who’ve only seen nuwho. #anyway. this is a small thing its far from like. a show-ruining point. its literally fine lol. #doctor who #dw lb

[sillyfudgemonkeys]

Me, at my coworker: I finished both Kyoshi novels. Coworker: Uh oh. How you holding up? Me: I thinking about walking into traffic

#silly talks #silly story time #no this is a legit interaction #they're going to listen to the novels too fkdjsafj;dfa #Me: I have two Yangchen novels left and then maybe the author's two original novels (and roku later this year but by a diff author) #me: but if rangi's not in it then why the fuck should I still be alive??? TT0TT #(I'm currently going through yangchen's now dw i'm not walking anywhere that'd require effort ....that's a joke it's all a joke really dw) #please god please FC Yee I'm on my KNEES #gimme one more Kyoshi novel I BEG TT0TT #I'll take a prequel have kyoshi rangi and yun go on a lil adventure please #maybe it's after they first met! and they're getting to know each other (I just need more Rangi/yun interactions they dont talk a lot TT0TT #and have both rangi/yun vying for Kyoshi's affection at some point and kyoshi is just fucking BLIND about it lksdjflkj it'll be soo funny #I'll take a sequel too! i wanna see what a more established/stable Team Avatar (Kyoshi) is like! #maybe foreshadow more of her path to (near) immortality and chin's rise to power #maybe even get a jump start on the Kyoshi warriors (and maybe her and Rangi finding and adopting Kok? *w* maybe she's the first warrior?) #'silly you just want more rangi and rangshi content' I DO I'M SO FUCKING SOFT ABOUT THEM RN TT0TT #(I'll take a szeto and kuruk novel idc if kuruk's story was basically summarized i'd love to hear more uwu)

[itissadbutitsmy-artblog]

wait that idea is making me lose it pep comes over to hang out one day and he’s like guys. I need you to not die. and they’re like?? aha ofcourse bud no problem. and he’s like (700 years of life experience and has watched several friends die) (probably just lost simon or finn and is raw but won’t admit it any other way to his wizard friends) no I mean it guys. I’m going to figure out a way, to continually extend your lifespans. since I’m immortal now. no it’s ok my mom has been into immortality experimentation and the extension of life and regeneration since like forever.

like where were you when our friend died a few years back when we were kids and can you bring him back

(oh yeah lemme check with my other mom, who can do necromancy. no, I said my OTHER mom, the one who can do it without the use of potions that frequently backfire)

#not art #I feel like when I talk about this au I lose a lot of my ability to give background I’m just like you guys know what’s up #you ppl who are here for gumball. or even advtime. you know enough about the intricacies of the advtime wizard city plot #to follow this au along. I know it. #well anyways. #honestly this works in that pepperminteppi au or in just regular. he just wakes up one day like nyyahg you guys cannot die on me #(like spader did)(like other guys in my life outside the city have done) #awww pep is your Sadness kicking in? dw we have a lot of resources for that hang on #<- take me to wizard city get me the sadness and madness resources they probably have everywhere #Unless. aw fuck I’m gonna go feral. unless it’s #—Guys I got so excited about madness and sadness (unrelated to this post even!) that I think I maxed out my tags it was crazy #you shoulda been there. anyways. I just talk so much #I saved them elsewhere you’ll see my thoughts someday but not here today #adventure time #distant lands #peppermint #I guess #just to organize it

[rapha-reads]

Hey. Has anyone noticed that Maestro and Ruby are similarly colour-coded? Black and white stripes. To go with both being musically-oriented and canonically queer for Maestro and pretty sure queer but as yet to be confirmed for Ruby? That's interesting. The way Maestro says Ruby is wrong and keeps looking at her like they're trying to look into her soul... I hope we see Maestro again.

Also, related but not directly, there's been an emphasis on music since the first episode of Fifteenth. Whether intra-diegetically or extra, music has been important for the past 3 episodes, 4 if we start with The Giggle. Between all the musical numbers (I haven't recovered from the goblins yet and now they hit us with the twist?), the Doctor breaking the 4th wall, Maestro themself, Ruby being a musician... It's not new of course, we remember Twelfth and his guitar, or Simm!Master's drums, but it is being put frontstage here. Is it because Murray Gold is back in charge of the music? Is it RTD's season-long narrative arc? There's something going on in regard to music in this series 14...

I wrote an essay last year (in Spanish and I haven't translated it yet otherwise I'd be posting it) comparing Segun Akinola's score with Murray Gold's and how both have their strength and serve their narrative purpose. Basically, Murray Gold's first score for DW (2005-2017) are orchestral compositions, full of easily recognisable leitmotivs and big instrumental scores that make you vibrate with all the instruments, the song itself sometimes being much more known, recognisable and popular than the work it was composed for (see Duel of the Fates and the likes). Meanwhile, Segun Akinola (2018-2022) pertains to the genre of ambient music, much more interested in the tone and the sonorous atmosphere, something that's very popular today (how many playlists on YouTube or Spotify, you know the ones).

Anyway, I'm not going to sum up my entire essay here, but basically the role of music in a cinematic work has changed over the past 20 years, and Doctor Who followed that change, and now with Gold back in the music booth, there's another change appearing, one where one aspect of this change could very well be the importance of lyrical songs. I'd need to research it more closely to be sure, but that's what it looks like at first glance. How interesting!

#doctor who #rapha talks #murray gold #segun akinola #doctor who music #music score #doctor who score #music #i quite like the 4 essays i wrote for my contemporary cinema class last year i should really translate them so i can get them published #the music in dw one is the last one i wrote literally a year sgo (may 13th 2023) and i really like it #i never studied music (alas - i would have loved to) but as a music obsessed person who cannot stand silence i pay a lot of attention #to musical scores in movies and shows and how they work with or against or over the story #and doctor who being my most favourite story in the universe its music means a lot to me #anyway i'm rambling #if someone who knows more about music than i do wants to add/correct/approve something come talk! #rapha is being a whovian

[ssaalexblake]

chibnall era fans as a group are the wet paper towels of era fans and it’s not annoying, it’s Depressing. When was the last time anybody saw any rtd or moffat era fans say in Every positive post ‘it isn’t perfect’ despite how very Not perfect those eras were? What made everybody think you have to compromise your way into saying you like something? If somebody reads your post and they believe you saying you like the era is you saying you like Every single choice made, every story decision, every behind the scenes decision and word uttered from the cast and crew, and every second of screen time was utter perfection then They’re a moron and/or acting in bad faith and aren’t worth anybody’s time beyond a cursory block button hit. 

it upsets me on peoples behalf at this point. We’ve ended up the personification of the 10 crying in the pouring rain.gif. You don’t have to bargain with people who dislike it to express a single positive feeling about it, you don’t need to shove a disclaimer on every post, there is no need to be Guilty (or at least, no need to be any more guilty than people who like the Other eras should) and that people have been such dicks about the era that it’s gotten this far is truly absurd (it’s also Doubly sad because a great deal of these people who actively engage are just showing their own biases, being rude as shit, and offering no good faith analysis. They are Not worth conceding anything to. The polite ones worth conversing and debating with you will hear nothing from because they’re not, you know, rude). 

no, i don’t think it was perfect, but if anybody assumes i think it was because i say it’s my favourite era they’re engaging in bad faith performative outrage because they hate that somebody likes something they don’t, and that’s literally the end of it. 

There is a difference between critical analysis that ends in a negative place and just plain not liking an episode or a choice and voicing that dislike casually and like... a dog rolling on it’s belly in submission to people? I, and everybody else, have as much a right to like this era best as rtd and moffat lovers have to their own favourites and i’m not going to act all submissive about it when they don’t about their favourites. And I don’t expect fans of any other show runner to shove a disclaimer in every one of their positive posts, either, it’s absurd. And i’m not mad that those eras were their favourites, I like things about all the eras and have different critiques about them all as well.

This is absolutely a rant, but... It’s coming from a place of??? People shouldn’t have to do that. It’s not fair. This happened because people were utterly awful. It’s a rant in defence. With everybody else tearing into us with bad faith, unchecked and proud bigotry, and sometimes just plain entitled fan whining, the last thing we need is to tear ourselves down for them. 

#dw shit #like no some things i hate about it #it's just #i'm allowed to not talk about it because this is Fun time for me not talk about the bits i hate time #that's not fun #oft times the parts i never talk about are the bits i dlslike and you can work it out if you narrow it down #sometimes i Do say what i dislike and give reasons #but If i want to and feel like it #i don't require big fans of the other eras to consistently slam their own likes. I can just acknowledge them in good faith instead. #and assume they don't like Everything but overall like it a lot. #it's not that hard. #this one has been fighting to get out for a Long time #Everybody seems to do it. And i know people are at times just trying to head off assholes. But it's spread to worrying levels and now it's #just upsetting

[brightokyolights]

Why is being a living exisiting human being so very confusing 🙃

#my brain is genuinely the worst place on planet earth ahaha!! #anyways the story that is bringing this on is actually nice i suppose but im exhausted so. let me just get into it and perhaps the dilemna #will make itself more aparant. #basically i hate interacting with people. its exhausting. like genuinely just takes so much brain power and social battery from me. even for #simple things. anyways so im telling someone this in my usual jokey way “im being tortured and kept outside of my home where i could be #chilling with a book“ so the other person is like oh you cant stay inside forever and ever. but then goes on to say from interacting with me #theyd never have guessed that i have such a hard time with talking and hanging out with people. that i never make someone feel like im tired #them or dont wanna talk to them etc. and internally im screaming because like. that is something i stress out so much about because i strugg #le so much with my responses and tone etc etc. thats why its so exhausting for me because im just constantly focussed on what im Supposed to #be like. the other part of me was kind of pleased in a way because i feel so painfully awkward that it stresses me out that people can see #right through me and think that i hate them when its not that i just. hate human interaction because its so tiring. so hearing that was like #oh so no one can even tell and i am stressing. for nothing. dw though this info will not help my brain learn to stop stressing out though #lmao. anyways final point i suppose is that the person also says that even if i am 'awkward' i sort of use it to my advantage and it doesnt #come across in an unsavoury way. anyways idk what to do with all this info. because the way i feel on the inside is so. and i worry a lot #about people seeing that on the outside. but part of me sort of wants it too because i just feel like absolutely no one fucking knows me? #and while i guess that was maybe my goal i also hate it? i shall rb a quote after this. anyways. idk what im saying. i dont fucking know. im #just so tired. so fucking tired. #le text post

[8uny]

my lil bro started estrogen and our twin energy will soon be unstoppable. we'll actually literally be the identical gender nonconforming sibling pair that fiction wishes was real. my family just mixed them up for me today and its only going to get more confusing. tell people we are transgender energy and no one can tell our agab type of deal.

im planning on growing my hair out too now that i have such passing privilege so im saying its only going to get funnier. its going to get so funny. too many people were mistaking me for a cis man at my internship i have to keep them on their toesies.

#8uny rants #i got their thumbs up to keep saying bro dw #i think me coming out made it easier for them which is nice even though i dont think my parents quite get it as much as they got me #mostly cause they dont like want to talk about it with them beyond whats nessasary to get on hormones #theres a lot of nonbinary people at nickelodeon which makes me :) #being out as nonbinary in a workplace seems like itd be real fuckin hard compared to stealth binary trans #but theres he/shes and they/thems up in here!!! #some advanced pronoun shit!!! hell yeah!

[prxckedradiolove]

so normal about dinahboose 🙃😭

#i don’t even know if people ship it anymore all the stuff i see for it is pretty old 😭 #dont care 😎 #i know im evil #im such a multishipper tho.. cooking oil is so sweet at times… #i feel like if your gonna ship greaseball or c.b with dinah i think everyone has this lil yeah dw they get better tho #which is so me im like #AWWW GUYS THEY ARE SO CUTE #but i only ship them when c.b apologizes to rusty and everyone 😡 #then its okay 🥰 #so many thoughts about what c.b did tho.. #cuz i feel like him braking/crashing rusty and being on electra and greaseball’s side is kind of out of immatureity and naive(ness?) #just a lil bit #and dinah helps him realize good morality in some way #but what i love about dinahboose above any other c.b ship is that i feel like c.b could also improve dinah as well #like during theres me he’s so supportive and guenuine and i feel like he would totally give dianh advice #i’m still figuring out caboose’s character tho because he is.. confusing #a lil deranged guy 😭 #wow ok that was a lot of tag talking alright gn everyone #trainrot #dinahboose

[sleepless-in-starbucks]

[image id: the seinfeld ‘you’re crying from blank’ ‘the blank got to me’ meme, with the text “You’re crying from inscryption?”, “The ending got to me.”, and “All right.” end id/]

hey there card gamers,

#the cryptid speaks #the cryptid speaks in tongues #inscryption #EVERY TIME hrmrghmrghrmgrhgmr #im so not even kinda normal about inscryption and the end jus makes it Worse every time i swear #like in a /pos way dw this is the best brainrot #i have So many things i could say but my wrists hate me actually >:( #but with my limited wrist power i Will say i released inscryption can also be inevitability brainrot #both bc a) it was all recorded. the game u were 'playing' was always jus luke's recordings. #which means that everyone was dead from the very beginning. the scrybes. luke. everyone. they were dead before u had even met the stoat #and b) the inevitability of the scrybes. how; even outside of their recorded deaths; this was how it always had to go for them #they existed as they did only bc of the OLD_DATA that they lived through. they were doomed to constantly repeat the same cycle #of violence and overtaking and restarting over and over again until they were dead. what grimora did truly was their only chance for rest #not to even talk about magnificus's visions and doomed record of the OLD_DATA by itself #anyways yeah lots of thoughts So many thoughts unfortunately my wrists are weak and pathetic

[skhardwarevers1]

I think my main issue is I wanna be in love but I’m too scared of getting into a relationship that hurts me again

#Vent #ish. Kinda #Idk I’ve been thinking about it alot #I’ve been like….just completely void of any sort of feeling of “love” that I had with one person #And I know I love her. I do. I really do. But I don’t want to end up in the same situation with my last relationship #Or accidentally put them in that situation #So I’m kinda just stuck doubting my own feelinfs #But that’s okay cuz I probably should focus more on breaking my habits (aka focus on yourself bitch!! Don’t date anyone for the love of god #I keep forgetting I can post and like nobody fucking cares. Like I won’t get spammed with messages the second I’m active somewhere #It’s a lot to get used to I feel like it shouldn’t??? Maybe??? Idk maybe it’s the eight months I spent being used to it #Plus now I can actually have friends??? And interests that I can talk about??? Without anyone being petty and jealous ???? #Like my brain can’t fathom that. I’m getting used to going out with people more. It’s weird #Idk. I don’t talk out my issues enough so I kinda just wanted to get my feelings out. #I’m not like in a sad mood or anything. It’s just late and I’m thinking a lot. #So I’m good Dw just thinking abt myself like I’m not myself so I can figure out what’s wrong (with myself)

[arsenicflame]

i: am thinking about angela

my mutuals: are taking cover

#nah #dw i am actually not about to start angela posting but i have been musing on them a lot today #thinking about 'the scent of battle'/the blood in my eyes' again #about how its confirming of seras gender and a slam against hevens misandry #i see it as both i guess #also just. angelas morality. its so interesting to me #and of course im always thinking about the way theyve retconed her relationships w asgard & heven n how awful it is #idk i really wanna talk abt details of angela lore but i am actually awful with words n so dumb but like. my girls #and anyway.these things consume only me #theyre just. god #my girls #nyxtalks