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#like i feel so. completely unmyself and incapable of being. a self that isn’t just. wallowing
strawbebyjam
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8 months
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why find a balance when instead you can swing violently between two poles
#by which i mean. Not Doing Good Again
#GDJDHDDH
#i think the worst part at this point is trying so much stuff to help myself
#and to try to do better and be better
#and it’s either all failing or completely out of my reach and control
#like i really just need. to. like i just need. comfort HDJDHDHD which sounds so stupid
#but i just want to let it all out to someone and be held and understood
#i’ve crossed the point of wanting to fix things perfectly or dreaming up alternatives or anything
#like i’m not. delusional about stuff anymore
#i’m just sad and stuck and tired and sad
#or i’m completely completely blank
#and i have been trying so hard to find a healthy balance between them but nothing works BDNDHDDH
#like i’ve even done the unhealthy dumb stuff and the unnecessary retail therapy attempt
#like the stupid purchase thing delivered today and. lo n behold. i just felt gross looking at it GDJDHDHD
#it’s useful it’ll be good to have when i have to attend the wedding but like
#there wasn’t even a moment or spike of excitement it was just
#Oh
#It’s here
#Okay
#like i feel so. completely unmyself and incapable of being. a self that isn’t just. wallowing
#and i’ve been trying not to be like that to friends and stuff cause it’s just pathetic
#but at this point i just. am pathetic HDNDBDBD and either sobbing violently about it or completely monotone
#but on either side i can’t get shit done i can’t fogure out shit about what i can do kr want to or need to do
#i just feel like i’m. suspended in muck
#and it absolutely sucks GDNDDBDB
#fingers crossed that i stop zombying soon cause i hate it here but nothing i’m doing is getting me out HDJDHDH
#neg
#mano.mindtalk
#i wanna be positive and kind and gentle and warm and pretty and Good and i am none of those things right now and feeling like i never have
#been and like i can’t be and i hate it but hating the feeling makes me feel even more negative HDJDHDH there’s no winning
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